司洛利不曉得這段日子自己是怎麼過的。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dWssMPY5J
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所剩無幾的時間內，即使告誡自己必須專注於當下，不要去思索關於未來的事，可腦子就是不受控制，無法抑制地思考要是視為生命意義的對象不在了，自己該何去何從？896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8sjHAYV2X
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他很想微笑以對，可是時日越近他就越笑不出來，直到阿爾法真的跟人訂下婚約後，他更覺得嘴角像是僵住了、再也無法保持上揚的弧度。沒有哭，可是也無法笑，就這樣木然地度過每一天。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0fulF6GqB
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而阿爾法就算與人許下婚約，也從未沒看過那人和新娘同進同出。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZMCbW9TTZ
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即使知道自己離死不遠，那位王子依舊維持一貫的嘻皮笑臉，讓人懷疑他真的明白事情的嚴重性嗎？896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LdyUJdCQF
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要永遠分開了。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DUjEcjFo5
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再也見不到了。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlsmABy5SI
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為什麼……殿下還能笑得出來？896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJl7cwvN2q
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「啊？」被問到這個問題的阿爾法想也沒想地迅速回應：「如果等到我死掉，最後你只記得我哀怨的表情，那不是很糟糕嗎？」896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanVR6stUKS
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只是因為這種原因……要是為了他的話，根本不必……司洛利默然，隨後阿爾法又喚了他一聲：896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBVZiAngaS
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「司洛利，」896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB36BmbJE2p
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金瞳凝著紅眸，等待後者未完的話語，夢寐以求的言詞、實際聽見卻只是難受大過喜悅。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmw1x7EKu8
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「我愛你喔。」896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXc1xSlHYIz
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好比要彌補這二十年來的遺憾，這些日子以來、一次又一次的拋出那三個字。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwOE0Wq3WB
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明明很難過吧？896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qTfkc49kf
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明明很痛苦吧？896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mDSFBamh3
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為什麼您不哭呢？896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtcEwuUp8m
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──要是您哭泣的話，在下也能盡情流淚了啊。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyfWYunSsS
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最後的最後，甚至連參加主子的喪禮時，藍髮青年都沒有掉一滴淚。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFC48f8PDh
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看起來就像睡著一樣，司洛利如此忖道。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHx3YBjEQ0R
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只是睡了而已……於是他這麼說服自己，拒絕去想有關於阿爾法的任何事，在宮內閒來無事就去幫忙其他僕役，生活過得和從前沒有兩樣。反正、殿下翹家的時候也都不會在宮內，他不過是又逃了，不是嗎？896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFdCXaYC8y
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幾次的自殺未遂後，藍髮青年只得維持表面的平穩，行屍走肉般地、一天度過一天，直至數個月過去，仍在位的王后艾拉坦召見他。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkqOC1fbNX
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對於這名女子，司洛利既不嫌惡也不反感，他不是不明事理的人，懂得對方非要留下繼承人的理由、甚至想著這人說不定也有不下於他的無奈與苦澀。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMHxkapo10
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而王后一見到藍髮青年，第一句就是使他有些錯愕的提問：「阿爾法命令你不准死，對吧？」896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4iOYTyfsK
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「……是的。」聽見久違的名，司洛利怔了下，但很快又回過神來。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ704m2CwHd8
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「不過，你並不想從命吧？」896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡim2jtZFhYy
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「沒錯，陛下願意幫助在下？」896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40NTPRnWdt
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司洛利問，但艾拉坦先是輕輕搖頭、隨後又點頭，令人摸不著頭緒，接著王后嘆息似地說道：「幫我把那孩子撫養長大。」896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJx29VTXnXb
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聞言，司洛利則是呆了呆、沒有做出任何回應，艾拉坦才繼續解釋：「我的孫女，我必須確保我不在了以後，有人能夠扶持我的孫女安然繼位。你把她帶大，我會實現你的願望。」896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxjFU6aw2K
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下人依舊沉默，王后右手指著牆面的方向，說道：「剛出生而已，現在一個人在隔壁房間，你去看吧。那孩子就交給你了。」896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHaW4pRuWl
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司洛利點頭，遵照上位者的指示前行。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJVfAy7f6h
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「那孩子就交給你了」──當初阿爾法帶他回宮時，王后也這麼說過。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXjutvMe1w
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離開王后召喚他的房間，進到公主所在的地方，看見擺在中央的嬰兒床時猶豫了下要不要接近，最後還是湊了過去。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpoVGe70Ni
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而在初生的嬰兒進入視線範圍後，一股酸澀感自喉嚨深處湧上，他遲來的眼淚這才落了下來。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTI13Ct7O5F
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這是阿爾法唯一留下的東西。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfhY9Gq6Nv
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那人就是為此而死。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDwFvsohGr
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「……殿下……」896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSVEJTZmRb
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他唯一的、也最愛的主人。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiunnNmCbYV
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真的、真的已經不在了。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oYN7NgfNP
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此時此刻才強烈地意識到這個事實，淚水一滑落就似潰堤一般、停也停不下來，司洛利不記得自己到底哭了多久，只感覺像是要宣洩這些日子以來無處發洩的鬱悶一般，將剩餘的力氣都用在這件事上頭。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8TUWzY7Hd
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十二月二十五日，前王子的生日，司洛利一如往年般地在這天進到王室專屬的墓園。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbtbrTWZ4s
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待藍髮青年離開那幢墨黑建築後，朝陽早已升起，高掛於比擬他髮絲的湛藍蒼穹，藍天白雲、一點兒也看不出先前正下著大雨。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3cFEpYby6
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司洛利抬頭仰望，刺眼的陽光扎得他雙眼微瞇，很快又低下頭來，快步前行，而即便是強光也溫暖不了他的身心。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHJUgc4JkH
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明明過了這麼久，還是無法解脫。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ543ffrevxr
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他的人生有太多太多、全都被阿爾法．羅坦赫拉勒這個人佔據，那人的一切之於自己，早已是靈魂的一部份，無法切割亦無法分離，而司洛利所剩的人生則被龐大的思念蠶食，反反覆覆地、沉浸於過去，用那種方式來延續生命。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfCto4Zk4R
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司洛利這輩子再也沒有辦法愛上別人，亦沒有移情別戀的打算。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAfzpayFpZ
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只是等待著、自己的生命結束的一天。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4P7erqRIh
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他不信有天堂或地獄，可現在的他想要相信，要是有死後世界的話，那麼、他是不是還有再見到心上人的機會呢？896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQJf2derA0
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──想要再見一面，哪怕是地獄，一面也足矣。896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeUDDmGT8A
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後面還有番外喔！896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NqNT8aIiv
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