Watch this space, my brother said, did he know something I didn't, has Alex said something to him, who the hell am I trying to kid, guy's don't talk to me, let alone like me.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN48449u7D0
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No Reagan, get the idea out of your stupid head, he's just being nice because mates with your brother, but that doesn't mean for once second you can't drool over him or imagine him...... Oh Jesus Christ! Shut the f%&k up already. 903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqpjzEWrej
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I look over to see the diary on the bed, why the hell did he think I needed one, was this the only way I can display my true feelings, without giving the others satisfaction of seeing me cry.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwpmEX58ws
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Hold on a god damn minute, not only is he hot and sexy with suckable lips, but the boy was a shiting genius! Ah, what the hell, I open it up and start on the first page, here goes.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQqc8xO3iP
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Welcome to the world of Reagan, Charles, where nothing goes right, where every guy I fancy runs away like they're being chased by a herd of elephants.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVeZeteChT
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How the hell am I going to get any guy to see me, not some 14 stone midget who has a big round belly and big ta tas.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3Ea3mVbCK
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I'm not even an adult yet and they already give me back ache.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYQ0eBwUnv
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I have naturally auburn curly hair, not so much curl, but corkscrew curly, with big brown eyes, I'm not the ugliest person, but I'm not the prettiest either.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYSu5JEr9o
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Ok, so here I am writing in this stupid thing, I know people have them, but I never thought I would need one, I just carry my hurt on my shoulders.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1l8rkSNAX
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I'm what they call an open book, I wear my heart on my sleeve, I shy away and I don't show my emotions, I won't let them see it.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHshJ37fzyi
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I think that's why I run away with my gob sometimes, people would think I'm no different to the bullies because I create names for them in my head! Or I'll answer back, or if they upset me too much I'll be planning their own funeral! But the difference with me and them is, I would and could, never hurt them, It's not in my nature.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEH428WgpuI
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I keep it all in my head.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsquVrvNrK
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When I was thirteen after a solid week of abuse and torture from home and school, I thought it was time to end my life.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptwonhM2I2
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I felt I didn't belong anywhere, so when everyone went to bed one night, I crept down and got one of my mums razors, and well, they said for my age, I certainly knew what I was doing and if only my brother hadn't come down cause he was sneaking out, I would have bloody succeeded.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKoAMzoRmn
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I remember him sobbing holding me so close, telling me to hang on, I didn't want to hang on, I didn't want to feel pain and rejection anymore, I wanted to feel peace.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiXvde3V2t
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Two years later, my brother is always there for me, yeah nothings changed, but after seeing how much it affected him I swore I would plod on for his sake and f%&k everyone else who tried to drag me down again, now I'm glad I did. 903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTYuZ43lOk
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I'll never be twig thin, I'll never be popular, but what I could be is real, if real means I use a lot of profanity and create my own little dream world to cope with it, then so be it.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXF9c2QRBTH
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Shit I'ts almost 1:am, here I am writing in this pissing book about the ins and outs of who I am, but deep down I still feel like I still don't know who Reagan Charles really is.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbtAuTOZ8X
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I close the book and place it on my night stand I snuggle into my panda and fall fast asleep hoping for some solid sweet dreams. 903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpONo3LHcMv
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I was back in the meadow laid across a blanket, I was smiling, laughing, I looked happy, a hand moved a misplaced strand of hair away from my face, but I couldn't see who it was.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUp9XUY2uo
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Oh for god sake I don't want to see myself, move out the way, let me see who you're with, I see myself smiling again and I blew whoever it was a kiss then I giggled sipping on a water bottle, aw what the hell your drinking water for, you never drink water! I see a hand on my leg and my cheeks go red and I'm finally looking at the person who's making me all hot and flustered. Omfg wake up! Wake up you stupid mare, it was Cal! Oooo shit.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTddDIvFCQ1
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"Reagan! Reagan! Wake up turd burger, your fans await you, come on!" 903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZplwlWPuI
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I open my eyes giggling "Yes, yes, I'm awake and the only fan I got is you," he smiled at me "I'll be your number one fan forever, but I'm thinking after yesterday you got a few more, now get dressed!" I threw panda at him he quickly ducked, moving quickly out my door laughing.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNL7u2hWZA
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After a soak in vanilla bath oil, I sprayed myself heavily in vanilla, musk and decide to leave my hair down, I put a small amount of makeup on I was ready to indulge in another day of piss take.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ja2oxTepa
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"Morning sweetheart," I see dad sitting at the table, "Morning daddy," he grabbed me as I walked past and pulled me onto his lap, he shocked me we wasn’t a huggy type of family there wasn't a lot of that between my parents either but I knew my dad loved me.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPcNlwjkIt
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He tried to show me affection often which is more than I can say to my mum, she was stone cold that's for sure.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡguViVqQuCY
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"I'm sorry about last night Huni, your mum can sometimes be a little cold, but she does love you! I rolled my eyes, "It's ok dad, I'm use to it," he smiled, "I know but It's not right, anyway I've told your mum that your going to Cal's barbecue tonight with or without her permission," and he winked.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uh0ngN1Ji
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"Thanks dad," I grabbed a bottle of juice and a banana and followed my brother out to his car, "So, you and Alex, do you like him Reagan?" I looked at him in shock "Would it matter if I do? besides he's way out my league, so you got nothing to worry about," he laughed.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcS3DaEcJ69
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"Your not out of anyone's league, don't ever let me hear you say that again, he seems quite smitten by you," there goes the beet cheeks again.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8fxT3Ahc4
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"Shut the front door! Your joking with me, you got to be kidding." He shakes his head "No I'm not, but don't let him know I told you," I nod in response.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYv15EjaWp
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I sit in silence the rest of the way, I felt excited, so excited I could probably piss myself, I giggle inwardly, but then my excitement turns into utter confusion when we pulled into the school car park. 903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rTlzciBRB
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I kiss my brother goodbye and ran, well stompede all the way to the girls toilets, into my favourite cubicle.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHRgMUBjcB
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I say my favourite the reason being is, I've kind of drawn all over one wall in different designs, you can tell I spend alot of time in here, but now I needed my tranquility more than anything. 903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSqPC0Qyrm
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Help! My brother seems to think Alex also likes me, what do I do? Do I confront him? Do I leave him to tell me? Hold up what the hell am I doing, the diary ain't going to come alive and say "Hmmm I'm not sure Reagan! Oh jeez! Maybe I need some nutty pills, ok Reagan this is upto you not a diary, ok lets break it down.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWxVQrphmS
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Alex ❤❤❤903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uk4ASOoeh
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6ft 3(I'd have to stand on Orange boxes just to lips him)903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzt79sGtxH
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Brown tousled hair (sexy bed hair)903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ua7RmNw3w
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Hazel eyes (come to bed, Right now! Eyes)903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWL3aUUZ7s
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12 pack (I exaggerate you not! But you get me)903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVszqOPcbjq
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Nice bum(you could crack a nut in them cheeks)903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaDktIiJwW
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Omfg! Let me have him right here right now on this bog.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2yetyHBpd
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I laugh out loud, oh shit shhh, I'm meant to be in lesson. 903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdhIP93PWO
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Ok now for me this should be fun903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjjinBfwtI
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Reagan Charles903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUfOEuv4U9
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5ft4(short ass) 903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHzf8Ny7VW
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44dd(they go south when I lay down)903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGheawPNNlr
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Round belly (which wobbles when I laugh like a bowl full of jelly)903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKxEqVUdiI
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Wide hips( well what more can I say)903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisfeipW4G7
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Fat ass(God don't get me started on that!)903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6KAv4f5rO
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Positives about me hmmmm903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtrK0JOSgb
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Nice eyes903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11SIbb7FBv
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Hmmmm not many then, shit this is what it all boils down too, I got f%&c all going for me and he's got everything going for him, I actually felt worse than what I did before I came in here, I started hyper ventilating, who the hell was I trying to kid he's right he's had quite a few girlfriends.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iPUcDJZEM
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I can remember a few, Tara Jackson, eve porter, Lisa carter, these girls are what I call barbie dolls, perfect in every way not a hair out of place washboard tummies the perfect handfulls everywhere, with me he would need both hands to grab one boob that's no lie, oooo er misses. 903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jq840HFAd
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I ain't saying that it ain't a nice thought, but hey this was some serious shit and hell yeah I was jealous.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQp6jcLR83Q
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Right, that's it, I slam the diary shut and shove it in my bag, f%&k you I can't be doing with writing in you anymore your making me feel more depressed, tears roll down my cheek.903Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBXPULXLPq
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The bell goes and I walk out of the toilet heading for maths, let's just try get through this one lesson then I can be alone again and maybe come up with some plan as to what the hell am I going to do at lunchtime.
