As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtAGokDxRY
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lx4KwbVbc
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzuC6MHANy
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aaPSdL6if
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OlZU8MjvP
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jFm2V6a7F
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWMN4jk6y8
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMFiT1egki
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZerKhU5Vz
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntNew5lLWB
Knives984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOJycBqKuK
Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpku7GyElG
'Uselessness'984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwd0yGjUwSM
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSwCxz1GU0
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aUanGXKEX
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwUNU0Yqj0
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkLGrZq9xj
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaUSVBAUrE
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlF53LEqzT
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOsbaQtW1v
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TSZeFbHrK
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0yRGpl9Cl
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZna6vNLUJ
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdxQKpIf4fc
And with that, I ran. 984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zdNLUWKfG
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VNtAm32aF
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrGQxfSIGO
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjGkeT4OYa
See you next time!984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ELgWGgmeG
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