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Luke's P.O.V
It's August 1, 2011 I'm sitting in front of my computer thinking, thinking about how I feel about a people I feel like I shouldn't feel that way. But the song I'm about to sing it just reminds me about how much I care about him, I sit there with my white shirt and red plaid button shirt not knowing if I should sing this or not.
Thought
It's not like anyone is going to know it to someone right
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I click my mouse
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I click my mouse again
I got up and walked to me bedroom with me guitar in my hand, I got to me room and lean my guitar on my wall then landing face first on my bed. I hate these feeling he's my friend I should me feeling this, I don't want to feel this he probably wouldn't like me back anyways come on it's Calum.
2 weeks later
I never thought about that day again till now, for some reason Calum has been offly touchy with me. Which is bringing feeling that I have been hiding from myself, I'm getting really pissed to because I don't want to feel those feeling again.
"Dude stop touching me" I said
He looked a little stunned
The guys looked at me like why'd you do that, I got up and left to find out that Calum followed me, I turned around to yell at him when his lips were on mine I pulled away.
"What are you doing" I asked
"I'm sorry" Calum said and went to turn around and leave
I grabbed his arm
"No what was that" I asked
"I like you ok" Calum said trying to get out of my grip
"You like me" I asked
"Yes... now let go of me and forget it I'm sor..." Calum said as I interrupted kissing on the lips
It was from kiss to taking off shirts then pants; we had sex that day right there and then. But what happened next I didn't see coming, and this is what I feared. When we were done and got up he told me not to talk about it and how it was a miss take he would have never really slept with me he was just horny, he left and I sat there crying till Ashton walked in seeing me naked holding my plaid shirt crying into it.
"What did he do, please tell me he didn't rape you" Ashton asked
"No...he..." I sobbed
Ashton walked over to me and put his sweater over me
"He...told me... it was...a... mistake" I sobbed
"Like fucking prick" Ashton said rubbing me shoulder and arm through the sweat shirt
"I... why" I sobbed
"God damn it that prick" Ashton said standing up and started walking toward the door
"What... are you... doing" I asked
"I going to bight the shit out of him" Ashton said
"no...no...please stay here, I just want... to forget about...it" I sobbed trying to put my boxers on but it was hard because I was in pain and Ashton saw it, walked over and held me and pulled my boxers up
I sat back down just in my boxers with Ashton holding me I couldn't stop crying till Ashton started singing and drumming his hand on my arm.
(The Fray: Look After You {half of it})
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And I'll look after you
He kept me so calm, I felt comfortable around him.
2 months later
It's been hard but I think it's harder for Ashton his looks could kill, which makes me laugh out loud because you should see Calum's face when he does it. I remember the first time Ashton did it I thought Calum pissed him self, right now were in a hotel doing a cover for youtube. It was over when out of no way I felt like I was going to barf; I got up as quickly as I could and took off my guitar then ran to the bathroom. I got there a throw everything I didn't know I had in my stomach, I here foot steps I turned to see Ashton.
"You ok" Ashton asked I just shock my head
"What's wrong other then you puking" Ashton asked a tear fell down my face
Thought
I was fine to minute ago what is going on
I'm puking but that's not what bothered me
My stomach it hurts so badly
Thought ended
"Luke what hurts" Ashton started to panic I just placed my hand on my stomach
"your stomach" Ashton asked I nodded I was done throwing up but when I tried to get up I failed badly, I was almost standing too till my stomach hurt and I lost all control of my legs everything was getting dizzy. Thank god Ashton was there but when he caught me I heard him say something.
"You're bleeding" Ashton whispered
"Luke! No Luke guys!" Ashton yelled as everything went black
I woke up to someone talking I opened my eyes to see Ashton and my mom talking to a doctor, Ashton looked over at me his face was pale and he ran over to me.
"Luke" Ashton said
"Ashton" I said with a laugh
"Hay this is not funny, you scared the shit out of me" Ashton said
"what happened anyways" I asked as I watched Ashton's face pale, I didn't even think some ones face could get that pale it was like he was white
"What" I asked he put up his finger and walked over to the doctor talked for a minute and came back with the doctor
"How do you feel Luke" the doc asked
"I'm sore but other then that I'm fine but no one is telling me what happened" I said
"Ok Luke this well be a shock" the doc said I nodded
"Well Luke your pregnant" the Doc said Ashton was next to the bed
"What" I asked
"Your body was trying to get raid of the fetus, that why you were bleeding" the doc said
"Did it" I asked not hoping it did it a baby that should never happen to a live
"No we put you on some meds but if you want to get raid of it that is an optician" the doc said
"No that's not happening" I said loudly the doc nodded
"I'll let you calm down when you have any questions tell a nurse" doc said I nodded
I was so in my thought I forgot Ashton was in the room till he said something
"Luke are you ok" Ashton asked
"You know... do they know" I asked
"Yes" Ashton said I started to sob he claimed in the bed next to me but this time I leaned into his in braise and he wrapped his arms around me
"I'm here for you Luke through everything I'm not going anywhere" Ashton said as I'm sobbing and shacking in he's arms
5 weeks later
The doc told me I was 2 months pregnant and gave me a sonogram then meds, that I have to take 3 times a day thank god for Ashton he reminds me to take them because I'd forget too. I know exactly who the father is well how could I not he took my V soo Calum is the father, I told Ashton and I thought he was going to kill Calum but I asked him not to. Michael and Calum won't even come near me which now I wish I had let Ashton bit the crap out of Calum, Ashton doesn't act any different then his normal self he doesn't even look at me any different. I have been having morning sickness but mom helps with that giving me thing to help and the do.
1 month and 5 weeks
I'm 4 months now I have good size belly shaped like a teardrop under all my cloths. Nothing I can hind it still but nothing has change with Michael and Calum, but now that I'm emotional I cry myself to sleep some time. Then my mom opened up her mouth and asked Ashton why I would be crying, that day Ashton bit Calum and told him that he was the father and that if he don't believe me you took his V card you ass well that's what Michael told me now that he's talking to me. Ashton is in the kitchen with freezer bean on he's knuckles, that night Michael and Ashton sleep over.
I was changing into my night cloths
"Can I" Ashton tried to asking something
"What Ashton I don't under stand just to word silly" I said
"I think he's asking if he can touch your stomach, it's kind of you" Michael said and then covering his mouth, I just smiled and blushed at the same time.
I looked down at my belly and smiled, I have a baby in me.
"Yes" I said
"Yes... what, that we can touch it or yes your belly is cute" Michael asked blushing at the end
Ashton was starring at my belly sitting on my bed
"To both, Ashton" I asked he snapped up
"You can touch it both of you can if you want to" I said
"I can" Ashton asked like a little boy he didn't move from his spot to I walked toward him and grabbed his hand placing it on my belly.
I wish you could have seen him stars light up in his eyes, Michael jumped onto the bed next to Ashton and motioned his hand to go on but stopped, looked up at me I nodded and he placed his hand on my belly too. I'm not going to lie but it felt good to have someone other them me caring about my baby, after that I finished getting dressed and got into bed next to Ashton... Michael was on the floor.
"Luke" Ashton whispered
"Ya" I whispered
"Could I tell you something" Ashton asked as he rolled over to face me
"Ya go for it" I said
"What if I told you I'm in love with you" Ashton said
Everything stopped
Thoughts
What if I told you I'm in love with you?
Ashton just told me he loves me
What's going on?
End of thought
"Never mind" Ashton said starting to roll back over till I grabbed him
"Why" I asked
"To me honest I don't know why I just love you everything about you, I've had a crush on you since you guys added me to 5sos" Ashton said
"Why didn't you tell me" I said
"Well one I didn't know you were gay" Ashton
"But what about" I said not finishing the question
"What about the baby" Ashton said placing a hand on my belly
"Ya I'm pregnant you don't want to date me carry someone else baby" I said
"That doesn't matter to me I love you and this baby" Ashton said
I started crying someone loves me and how did I not know it
"Oh don't cry" Ashton said pulling me into a hug
"Someone lo... loves me" I said
"Yes I love you Luke I love you and that baby" Ashton said
"Thank you" I said
"For what" Ashton asked pulling me away from him
"For loving us... for loving him" I placed a hand on my stomach
"It's a boy" Ashton said with a big smile
"Ya I found out this morning" I said not crying any more
"Will you be my boyfriend" Ashton asked out of no where
I thought for a minute and could think of a reason to say no
"Yes" I said
"God finally, you to are dumb asses I could see it months ago" Michael said as he sat up
We both laughed
6 months later
Ashton and I are doing good really good, Ashton had a heart attack the first time the baby kick now he loves it when the baby kick and he's always touching. Calum is out of the picture like out Michael has texted and called him but he got nothing so it's just us we still sing and the he loves it, me playing the guitar he stops kicking so I play all the time when he starts kicking or Ashton sings. When we do youtube covers I just sit there covering my belly with my guitar no one notice yet and I hope they don't, sleeping is getting hard but mom well let Ashton sleep over most of the night, oh and Ashton mom and dad know I'm pregnant at first they that it was Ashton's but I explain it wasn't and Ashton replied with they are my in a different way I think I died of love that day. I keep falling deeper and deeper in love with him how did I not notice him in love with me why did I wait for this. But I'm scare because what if he leaves me; I don't think I could handle that.
I'm sitting on the couch with Ashton.
"Ashton" I asked
"Hmm" Ashton still looking at the TV
"Are you going to leave me after he's born" I asked his head snapped at me looking me right in the eyes
"Why would I do that" Ashton asked
"Because it gets hard after a baby is born... up all night, feedings, changing's, I could go on with the list" I said
"Well I'll be up all night with you, I'll feed him with you, I'll change him with you, I'll been there for you helping with everything and I'll never leave. I'm in love with you, I feel like I'm a part of that little man even though he's not mine. I well treat him as my own because your apart of my life" Ashton said as I started crying I rolled over because I didn't want him to see me cry. He wrapped his arms around me putting his hands on my stomach and rubbing back and forth under my belly button.
"You're a part of my life, I'm not going any where" Ashton whispered in my ear and kiss the back of my head
That's when we got the closest
1 month later
We were at home alone, which by the way we last month started you know doing it pregnancy really... how do I say this horny I guess. you're probably think how do we do it well it pretty easy he puts my legs on his shoulders, well that's get to the point I'm taking a show because we just did it again 2nd time sorry to much info.
I got out of the shower got dressed and walked out to the kitchen to find Ashton cooking, I walked over to the couch doing you know what takes a lot out of me so I'm really sleepy. I sat on the couch Ashton stopped cooking and walked over to me.
"babe you sleepy" Ashton said I nodded he claimed on to the couch and turn putting one leg behind me and the other still on the floor sliding a little down the couch so he was comfortable
"lay down babe" he said putting a small pillow on his crouch area I laid down half on his chest he put both hand on my belly.
"Babe your stomach is hard" Ashton said I nodded because I was falling a sleep
But I was awoken to a sharp pain hit me right where my love trail is at first I blow it off it a it happened again but this time it hurt and I felt my hips were being push apart, I groaned in pain Ashton helped me up pushing himself up and looked at me. When he got off the couch then down to his pants legs they were wet, I know what it was my water broke my water broke. Ashton came over to me and helped me up walking me to my room god it hurt like hell to ya you would think the contractions would hurt but what hurt was my hips I almost fell a few time thank god for Ashton. He redressed me he didn't say any this which was pissing me off.
"Ashton" I screamed grabbing his shoulders and skewing
"Ya babe" Ashton
"Talk to me, I need you to talk to me" I whined
"What about babe" Ashton asked getting up from putting my pants and boxers on
"Anything" I gridded my teeth after saying it
"Ok have you thought about names" Ashton asked
"Yes" I said
"What is it" Ashton asked I shook my head
"Ok Mmm are you excided" Ashton asked I nodded and shook my head
"What do you think he'll look like" Ashton asked
"I didn't think about that" I said
"Well let's hear it, tell me what you think he'll look like now" Ashton asked
"Calum's hair, my eye's hopeful, my nose, Calum's lips, my dimples and hopeful my wavy hair" I said when I heard the car door open and close; I looked up to see we were already at the hospital.
Ashton opened my door helping me out
"How did you do that" I asked
"Do what" Ashton asked
"Well one I didn't even know we were in the car and two how did we get here so fast" I asked
"I was doing 20 over the speed limit and I was talking to you which apparently helps, how you feel" Ashton
"Well my hips feel the they're splitting in half and the contractions that's another story" I said as we walked into the hospital
After the birth which I did natural he's health just a little small
I lay there with my little boy in my hands when Ashton walked in looking extremely shy
"Come here" I said he walked over with his arm wrapped around his stomach
"You don't need to worry Ashton, relax" I said he nodded
"What did you name him" Ashton asked
I smiled
"Ash Carson Hemmings, Ash is because of you" I said he smiled
"Really you named him after me" Ashton asked I nodded he smiled ear to ear and kissed my for forehead
"Can I hold him" Ashton asked
I handed him to Ashton he walked over to a chair and sat down I watch him watch Ash
"Hay little man I love you" Ashton said to Ash
When looked towards the door to see Calum
"Can I come in" Calum asked I nodded my head he walked in and looked at Ashton holding Ash
"What did you name him" Calum asked
"Ash Carson Hemmings" I said
"That's a nice name is it because Ashton" Calum said looking at Ash in Ashton arms
"Can I hold him" Calum asked
"Yes he's your baby too" I said
Calum held Ash for half and hour then told me he was beautiful and left
Tomorrow
I woke up to Ashton giggling
"What's so funny" I Asked him
"Ash making bubbles all ready" Ashton said
"Oh cute" I said
"Where do you think we'll be in 3 years" I asked expecting him to think about it
"Married with 2 more kids living together with a dog" Ashton said with a smile
"Oh" I said a little stunned
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"Really" I asked
"Yes I love you" Ashton said getting up walking over to me and kissing me on the forehead
A year later
lets just say I didn't least to long I got pregnant again 5 months after I had Ash, where at our wedding right now 7 months pregnant and hoping to god I don't go it labor at my wedding. A month later I had a little girl name Ashley, ya I know what you think why do you keep naming after Ashton well it's because I love him.820Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XrVLVYUhd
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