我其實是打算開口的。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKp1ZlJMZMJ
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昨天那句話講完，我就後悔了。雖然嘴上還撐著一副理直氣壯的樣子，心裡其實已經在想要怎麼和好。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvCsASPB3y
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只是她什麼都沒說，就進房、關門，連頭都沒回。那聲「喀」一響，我腦袋空了一下。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQdrJMxxHg
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我站在原地，有想過要不要敲門。她那時候是真的生氣，不是鬧情緒，也不是裝可憐——就是完全不想再聽我講半句話。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDV2fin2Jf
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我擔心現在開口，只會讓她更火。以前也發生過幾次這種狀況，兩邊情緒上來的時候，誰講話都只會讓事情變得更難看。讓彼此冷靜一下，通常是最好的。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvfgGd2iQ6
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所以我想，明天早上再找機會說吧。不是那種正式道歉的說法，而是……一句像「妳今天要直播嗎？」這樣的話。她聽得懂。如果她不再那麼生氣，應該會回我一句。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNtNdGeiyO
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而且昨晚家裡什麼都沒剩，連她最愛的那種奶油草莓泡芙也吃完了。光道歉好像不太夠，得帶點誠意才行。所以我吃完飯沒多久，就出門去便利商店買了一盒，想說隔天早上給她個小驚喜。這樣講話會比較好開口。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJYAOEOlap
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她的氣……應該會消一點吧。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXkFo4nF1B
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ObPN5TDlF
至少我那時候是這麼想的。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3R94nls8j
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxInwLMGUo
但隔天早上，我醒來時，家裡靜得有點不太對勁。她沒叫我，也沒準備早餐。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPV1UPnbXB3
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5MRvXmYvv
我看了一眼餐桌是空的，鞋櫃少了一雙鞋。她應該早就出門去上學了吧。她在氣的時候也是這樣，不會叫人起床，也不會多說一句話。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPeoEHcKIL
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jjnzsBjgt
我只是覺得，給她一點空間，會比現在煩她來得好。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLUTgHftsJ
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJo1z4vBAr
所以我沒想太多，等她回來，我就會把話講清楚。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVa6inmoyz9
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxKh7t4syA
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我比平常晚一點回到家，大概五點三十左右。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡds5TIrMc9V
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqsGU1Ga37
鞋櫃的樣子和早上一樣。她應該還沒回來。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWaQbXMwzQF
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGYSESIRgO
我換完衣服，走進廚房，開始煮晚餐。就算吵架，她通常也會照常吃，頂多吃得安靜一點，吃完就直接進自己的房間了。我邊煮邊想，該在哪個時間點開那個口。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yJXoMY6ae
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我打算把那個奶油草莓泡芙放在最顯眼的位置——讓她看到，卻不用立刻回應。如果她還願意理我，我就能順著那個空檔，好好道歉。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3LKLp1blI
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飯煮好了，我擺好兩副碗筷，把那個裝著泡芙的小盤子放在她的位置上。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6rmPNh7n4
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOmWeCnbl2
我坐下來，沒動筷。只是一直聽著玄關那邊，有沒有動靜。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuffoUiFw9V
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTdUP6qzG6
她要是看到那顆泡芙，應該就會明白。我會等她開口的那一刻。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDgYiV3oOX
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsdPJmuJ3w
……她應該快回來了吧。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozRLZF9E3E
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她平常這時間早就回來了，晚餐、洗澡、剪片，節奏一向很穩。但今天，什麼聲音都沒有。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKP1UxZcoCB
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQ6ETx8xpu
我低頭看了一眼手機——快七點了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgYzPtFT8d
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7YD8LTojW
我開始覺得，有些不對勁。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjFF5iheYT
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjeuB90QTa
我拿起手機，傳了訊息過去：8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vx3aCgcWJ
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltB8xgtdiJ
「妳什麼時候回來？」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQP4BuWNMt
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N7QBFX12l
訊息送達了，但她沒讀。我又打了一通電話。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKT5PhRquQ
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyG13tdGfJ
響了幾聲，沒人接。我再撥了一次，還是沒人接。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QmODCVWKc
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCGTKXKoWI
以前就算吵得再兇，晚餐時間她也會出現，至少會說句話。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVzDmesiKV
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……還是有可能，她根本沒出門？8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWm4LynP3w
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9KML2odVJ
雖然鞋子不見，手機也不接，但也許……她只是躲在房間，不想見我？8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EyNb4gsc0
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytYz10FWjr
我站起來，走到她房門前，敲了兩下。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2A5Yd4B97
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「安淇？」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGO4Fng0hsn
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沒聲音。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9U11NbPLNM
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrijZZxj3ls
我又敲了一次，這次力道比剛剛重一點。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAkXs8RgQA
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFyyXTn9ay
「我買了妳喜歡吃的奶油草莓泡芙，晚餐也煮好了。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3pODq1cRB
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還是沒回應。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHU35W3eBQF
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我轉了門把。沒鎖。推開後，房間一片昏暗。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJVOexxSal
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我伸手開了燈。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzOJlklCTG
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窗簾拉上，床鋪整理得一絲不亂。筆電放在桌上，螢幕是黑的，插頭沒插。她直播用的耳機還插在側邊，線連動都沒動。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18OILwqPW7
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我走過去看了眼收納櫃，門開著一半。那格她平常放直播器材的小袋子，空了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7ZWz7sYQM
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7wdY5cnY4
往裡頭一掃——三腳架、外接麥克風、行動電源……全都不見了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWsN98JSkD
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2XiB2XPcY
我頓了一下，心裡升起一股說不上來的不對勁。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLoK9LqVv4g
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBczqNiCYC
她不是那種會隨便把這些東西全帶出門的人。平常在家直播根本用不到這些，只有外出直播時才會一次全帶。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyPLtDdvef
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeemYer694F
也就是說——她出門前，早就打算好要帶這些了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKB5yQJqhwS
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnV3sFu4PXD
她是早上上學時帶走的？不可能……那麼明顯的器材，學校那邊，一定會被看到。還是說……她昨晚就偷偷溜出門了？8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvQQ76YKMT
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等等，她——昨晚有回家嗎？8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbxcIStQOn
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzDbcjpHec
我腦中一瞬間像是空了一塊。胃突然像縮起來那樣，冷得發空。幾秒後才發現自己手在抖。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBbNmds5ZP
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXEvk4LMEV
我退了半步，掏出手機，又撥了一次。還是沒接。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43UxAabH1e
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7X3r1e3Ze
一時整個人像是斷了線，愣在原地。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLl6CDgUAYr
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSlpKBiwOk
她不是那種會臨時計畫外出的人，也從不會什麼都不講就出門。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKYb2TKnIU
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ejIto7uVD
如果真的要外出直播，她一定會說。就算是氣我，平常也會留一張紙條。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL41xbPaZsd
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她不是這樣的人。她從來不是，會讓人找不到的那種。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Uy6cqyV9q
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那她現在去哪了？8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLIS1D8DCs
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我腦中突然閃過一個畫面。那段短片裡，那棟廢棄的工廠。
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