我其實是打算開口的。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETlqFF36mp
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昨天那句話講完，我就後悔了。雖然嘴上還撐著一副理直氣壯的樣子，心裡其實已經在想要怎麼和好。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1bdSRABAXA
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只是她什麼都沒說，就進房、關門，連頭都沒回。那聲「喀」一響，我腦袋空了一下。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfqUSbh8P6
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我站在原地，有想過要不要敲門。她那時候是真的生氣，不是鬧情緒，也不是裝可憐——就是完全不想再聽我講半句話。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpOP5LDEOt
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我擔心現在開口，只會讓她更火。以前也發生過幾次這種狀況，兩邊情緒上來的時候，誰講話都只會讓事情變得更難看。讓彼此冷靜一下，通常是最好的。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDya60zoME
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所以我想，明天早上再找機會說吧。不是那種正式道歉的說法，而是……一句像「妳今天要直播嗎？」這樣的話。她聽得懂。如果她不再那麼生氣，應該會回我一句。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kNVqnYjq6
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而且昨晚家裡什麼都沒剩，連她最愛的那種奶油草莓泡芙也吃完了。光道歉好像不太夠，得帶點誠意才行。所以我吃完飯沒多久，就出門去便利商店買了一盒，想說隔天早上給她個小驚喜。這樣講話會比較好開口。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1s0MKFBID
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她的氣……應該會消一點吧。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXccqqowCa
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至少我那時候是這麼想的。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KvoiHSJPC
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但隔天早上，我醒來時，家裡靜得有點不太對勁。她沒叫我，也沒準備早餐。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5oO3C0YnK
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我看了一眼餐桌是空的，鞋櫃少了一雙鞋。她應該早就出門去上學了吧。她在氣的時候也是這樣，不會叫人起床，也不會多說一句話。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAqZGhGU90
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我只是覺得，給她一點空間，會比現在煩她來得好。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3D26pKjbf
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所以我沒想太多，等她回來，我就會把話講清楚。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKWtWrQ08u
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我比平常晚一點回到家，大概五點三十左右。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDF4c4Qb3az
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鞋櫃的樣子和早上一樣。她應該還沒回來。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZzavv3qAX
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我換完衣服，走進廚房，開始煮晚餐。就算吵架，她通常也會照常吃，頂多吃得安靜一點，吃完就直接進自己的房間了。我邊煮邊想，該在哪個時間點開那個口。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSwjYkgJjR
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我打算把那個奶油草莓泡芙放在最顯眼的位置——讓她看到，卻不用立刻回應。如果她還願意理我，我就能順著那個空檔，好好道歉。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUir8L7Qc3
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飯煮好了，我擺好兩副碗筷，把那個裝著泡芙的小盤子放在她的位置上。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDB1RziBlj
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTeldHWVKy
我坐下來，沒動筷。只是一直聽著玄關那邊，有沒有動靜。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHbTdL5YHY
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她要是看到那顆泡芙，應該就會明白。我會等她開口的那一刻。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGkZFBNRzG
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……她應該快回來了吧。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kMh3rp1HR
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她平常這時間早就回來了，晚餐、洗澡、剪片，節奏一向很穩。但今天，什麼聲音都沒有。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzCuRrFUvi
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我低頭看了一眼手機——快七點了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwQ3UxUeX1
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我開始覺得，有些不對勁。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOW8ccshqbD
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我拿起手機，傳了訊息過去：9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiLwW5jgDm
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「妳什麼時候回來？」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrvO0kPB9K
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訊息送達了，但她沒讀。我又打了一通電話。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkvnCPMO9F
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響了幾聲，沒人接。我再撥了一次，還是沒人接。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnzsgBfGKQ
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以前就算吵得再兇，晚餐時間她也會出現，至少會說句話。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IwKyWQunD
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……還是有可能，她根本沒出門？9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65XVRPkQEa
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雖然鞋子不見，手機也不接，但也許……她只是躲在房間，不想見我？9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCr90dOvUI
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIDtYbFSv6
我站起來，走到她房門前，敲了兩下。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNDHqIjO4E
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「安淇？」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHE6pjwL79p
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沒聲音。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpyQ7Wcm1t
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我又敲了一次，這次力道比剛剛重一點。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Krir6Vr15
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「我買了妳喜歡吃的奶油草莓泡芙，晚餐也煮好了。」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihI7N1X2fG
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還是沒回應。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhguOtvyroB
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我轉了門把。沒鎖。推開後，房間一片昏暗。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3EroxGYAR
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我伸手開了燈。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfX8Ya2Tb3D
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窗簾拉上，床鋪整理得一絲不亂。筆電放在桌上，螢幕是黑的，插頭沒插。她直播用的耳機還插在側邊，線連動都沒動。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZ8vJfOTkp
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFC4mzt8Wde
我走過去看了眼收納櫃，門開著一半。那格她平常放直播器材的小袋子，空了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rANhbRjM3
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntwQe4QNna
往裡頭一掃——三腳架、外接麥克風、行動電源……全都不見了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmPjotzCZZ
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我頓了一下，心裡升起一股說不上來的不對勁。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGwgTWcgnO
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她不是那種會隨便把這些東西全帶出門的人。平常在家直播根本用不到這些，只有外出直播時才會一次全帶。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRF46gZVjD
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也就是說——她出門前，早就打算好要帶這些了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEyJVgeyrW
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygqBJBpCeA
她是早上上學時帶走的？不可能……那麼明顯的器材，學校那邊，一定會被看到。還是說……她昨晚就偷偷溜出門了？9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTppzsvtkHI
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等等，她——昨晚有回家嗎？9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6SQXuxXfs
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我腦中一瞬間像是空了一塊。胃突然像縮起來那樣，冷得發空。幾秒後才發現自己手在抖。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtC8DKqgHy2
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我退了半步，掏出手機，又撥了一次。還是沒接。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6joJWHLOrb
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一時整個人像是斷了線，愣在原地。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICRiFLACZu
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她不是那種會臨時計畫外出的人，也從不會什麼都不講就出門。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5etwvWNbE
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如果真的要外出直播，她一定會說。就算是氣我，平常也會留一張紙條。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4WOJQZ5px
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她不是這樣的人。她從來不是，會讓人找不到的那種。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUUkK64Pr8
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那她現在去哪了？9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91RTgjkY0B
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我腦中突然閃過一個畫面。那段短片裡，那棟廢棄的工廠。
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