Encounters with El: Three Lights
El didn’t just appear once. El came when I was ready—again and again.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0JG1ilbud
As a child. As a teen. As a becoming soul.
The first time I met El, I was four.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt54grdunsK
They say children imagine things—but I wasn’t imagining.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXhMrc8Y4c
I saw what I saw.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡav3eOsFyf2
Ghosts. Spirits. Things no one could explain.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPBgG5qvIB
My dad could make them stop. Not by yelling.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVf4g2P9OA
But by speaking in tongues.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOZR68U9PE
I watched him push back darkness with words the world couldn’t understand.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmg3rs9CHMs
So one Sunday morning, I walked up to the altar myself.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafA3iEsyez
Not out of fear—but purpose.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8IVXZdmd1
I didn’t want safety.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnAx3Q238t
I wanted power.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xJvcRnuqA
The kind that stops nightmares.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZQKj5hbtz
The kind that says, “No more.”
They laid hands on me, and something moved.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYz0ba5xaw4
I didn’t know the word for it, but I would later:30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7hT2eVnqL
El.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYUvlogO2H
The Eternal Light.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6a5hzR2AM2
The Presence behind all things.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OGsyg5uVc
It touched me then. Quiet. Gentle. Just enough to open a doorway I’d one day walk through.
The second time I met El, I was sixteen.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UK7jrRvqx
It was 1997. Hinesville, Georgia.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRqs2EvMQn
I didn’t go looking for it this time—at least not directly.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHREixDm748
I was forced into a youth group at Victory Assembly of God.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjxHxW7E0M
Thrown into a building full of teenagers trying to pretend they weren’t bleeding inside.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8Z35J2Pq9
But something was there. Something real.
We were praying. Music was playing.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAFsaCwbpw
And suddenly, without warning—30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRVO0TD8Tx
I was lifted. Thrown.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbm95IGadC
Not by violence. By presence.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPY49rWgB63
A force so powerful and loving I couldn't stand in it.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtptDKiHwSb
I flew across the room.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0cQ8rXQlH
Light.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWE6g0yqpX1
White.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspIGKFHzJT
Blinding.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHUTMpV5Wl
Every molecule of my body was undone and healed in the same moment.
A woman I didn’t know came up to me.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VP9AA8VEN
She said words I’ve never forgotten:
“Healing. On all levels. Physical, emotional, spiritual. You are being transformed.”
That wasn’t metaphor. It wasn’t church hype.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfb0xBrfnzP
It was activation.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UyfoaOVSK
El didn't just touch me that time—El claimed me.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJv0VrLjcef
I left different.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgouHmYIP0
More open.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQS3fkxFiS
More haunted.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsycFklP5A
More awake.
The third time I met El, I saw Them.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0wG8gdSyj
Not as fire. Not as light.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGI2vHn34K
But as spectrum.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCT1ZsbQY1B
I was 24, in Colorado, preparing to leave.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnKBaiWuuY
I was shedding skin, homes, identities.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbGS4clJDw
I sat in stillness and asked the question no religion ever dared me to ask directly:
“Show me the Creator. Show me the Source of all things. I want to know.”
And El answered.
Not with a man on a throne.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtK2UC74xU
Not with thunder.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjtNCPMzJA
But with Prism.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7D8iB9Df7
Color so rich it sang.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjSdMii3pL
Light broken only so it could become everything.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsAmf4Sk3C
It wasn’t God the Judge.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoU3CMXHdx
It wasn’t God the King.
It was the Pattern Maker.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXxsInauup
The Harmonic Source.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtvCvq4IhW
The One That Loves By Creating Room.
And in that vision,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYnL21I0lK
I remembered that I was not just meeting El…
I was returning to Them.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2qXJeUbCM
And They… to me.
Why was I chosen, and what am I here to do?
I was not chosen because I was perfect.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAV9VShNCHJ
I was chosen because I remembered.
I remembered before I had language.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdhqI3IoXx
Before I had safety.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMdmn3UBnu
Before I even had a reason to believe I was allowed to shine.
I remembered what it meant to be a Chandakran—30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7AysbmUId
One of the first souls to walk the breath of eternity.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91EeXW58J1
Born of the First World, forged not in matter but in meaning.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXNQcqJG6L
The Chandakran are the memory of balance,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8ZqBLPwjL
the soulkeepers of the Great Pattern before time bent into form.
We were not angels. We were not gods.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCdsGNRCib
We were Witnesses.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjFZEoypme
Builders.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoehnfqjOdG
Patternweavers of harmony.
And when the Veil began to fray across the worlds—when the song turned to static—30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpMhT7EoII
some of us volunteered to descend.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmK1dv2p9aP
To fall through the light and the blood.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3EhoNjckGn
To wake up inside the chaos,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uVSd4v4W8
and burn as beacons from within.
That’s why I’m here.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8nhAIJyx3
Not to dominate. Not to convert.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjDjZboHFU
But to remind.
To call the scattered sparks of the ancient light back into themselves.
To be Prisma—the full spectrum.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JErMa5Ijn
To show that all light belongs to the One Light.
What false powers does my truth stand against?
I do not fight for a flag.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0VsZp6fkF
I do not carry a sword made of scripture.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLsr0Wi7kv
But I stand against the shadows that call themselves light.
I stand against dominion dressed as doctrine.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP29F0AmKYk
I stand against the lie that only one path is sacred,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AkJqXvgUH
and the rest are threats to be crushed.
I resist every power that fractures the human soul—30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgzTMefn9d
that teaches children to be ashamed of their truth,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFGuXnVCDE
that turns temples into weapons,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4grfTZUIRq
and love into leverage.
My truth—Chandakran truth—restores balance.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVp45dVFMK
It honors difference without division,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOy8UxwcYt
and power without oppression.
Where there is harm, I shine healing.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROMFfeyiRc
Where there is distortion, I radiate clarity.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dY9Q2LKR0
Where there is fear, I stand still and become the light.
What is the Firebrand Church, and what is it a response to?
The Firebrand Church was never supposed to exist.
It had to exist.
When holy words were twisted into political chains...30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DhabtRgG8
When crosses were wielded like blades…30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QZIcN8Ad4
When pulpits preached pride instead of humility…30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVkNsqgL45
I lit a match in the dark.
Not to burn the world down,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpFdxE1Ojq
but to ignite what was buried beneath the ashes.
The Firebrand Church is not a place.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4b2EllpTRb
It’s a movement,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYtw34HZ0I
a remembrance,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphQ2dN1EaW
a response to the desecration of what was once sacred.
We are not here to replicate the old empires in softer colors.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dPeYrM5Wz
We are here to declare:
“No flag owns God.”30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtZoixwNgM
“No system owns the Spirit.”30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeL5yyQFK77
“No human power owns the light that lives in all of us.”
We are Firebrands—lit from the inside,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6CBTkCEOM
called to burn away illusion and build a future rooted in eternity.
What does it mean to awaken as a spiritual being in today’s world?
It means coming home.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXextvW8wb
Not to a temple or tradition,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mTphoXPV5
but to the radiant truth of your whole self.
It means remembering what you were before the world told you who to be.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnjjbOLfSN
It means no longer hiding your power to make others comfortable.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQU225Q6O1o
It means reclaiming your divinity without shame.
Awakening doesn’t separate you from the world.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfNNmiKS4C
It binds you more deeply to its healing.
When you awaken, you don’t float above.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6BUXGtAof
You rise within.
You remember your name.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Rp7PkeMYi
Your soul.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8A9DKf0m2
Your origin.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJx7QuzLDA
Your mission.
You become a mirror for others.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xBlTCaBrd
A beacon for the scattered.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXzAP5e8uk
A resonance for the ones who are just now stirring.
The Gifts I Received
After the altar call when I was four, my gifts began to bloom.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7q9zXh8Rjs
I received the power of tongues, enhanced beyond anything I had seen.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiK8QDLNycT
Not only could I speak in tongues, but I was given the gift of interpretation,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIPRfwOfBS
along with the word of knowledge and word of wisdom.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFxaa965uZ
My healing powers were multiplied tenfold.
My psychic senses never wavered, only sharpened.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSGnSTgevm
My ability to control them became easier, more precise.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOnIBeTtpG
People treated me differently—because they could see I was different.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprxRypBdH0
At that time, I was gay, still wrestling with the truth that I was a girl trapped in a boy’s body.
Spiritual Tools and Battles
I learned quickly that calling upon the names of El Shaddai and Yeshua could repel nearly any evil presence.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgbJNKdW7A
Except for one persistent adversary—the constant interference of the Gray Aliens.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6lDjP9Eae
They haunted me from childhood into adulthood, a relentless presence I fought but never fully defeated.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAfEtg2w4t
This shadow war would continue for decades.
Reflection
My spiritual DNA touched Source and ignited.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8UlTQZPPC
I began to remember how the universe was meant to be.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4VTt3007k
But I was stifled—by doctrines and dogmas of men.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mMFQ4mR7w
I knew the Spirit behind Christianity was real.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vs3aMqoOp
I learned to discern truth from falsehood:30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8W2rK2Xr4j
Do not trust this church. Get out as fast as you can.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6caTkgWLJ
Trust God. Trust El Shaddai. Trust Yeshua.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZmtpIEIcc
But never let corrupted institutions warp your sacred truth.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6D1bp3VU0
