There’s something I’ve carried for years.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoQkfPW5E5
Something I never had the courage to say — not even when I sat beside you every single day, not even when your voice was the only comfort I knew.
We were best friends.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1j8fyt0b9f
You let me in, shared your secrets, laughed with me, cried with me, made memories that stretched across years.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCcut624dx
And I held them all like tiny treasures.
But somewhere along the way…52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOuWqtwtJx
I fell in love with you.
Not in a loud, dramatic way.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmL2ONnrW8
Not in a way that ever asked for anything back.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQD51Mk234
I just… loved you.
In the quietest, deepest corners of my soul.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvEqBHQzGp
In the spaces between your words.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxT5L64v1OQ
In the silence after your voice.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8udqDFoVD
In the warmth of every “pagal” you called me.
I listened when you spoke about her — the girl you liked.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzoKHmFSPX
I helped you find the words, plan the replies, understand your feelings.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJJzduQ6P0
And with each sentence I gave to help you be closer to her…52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VLdw17kd2
I lost a little piece of myself.
Because I wasn’t just your friend.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWtMbEIYHJ
I was the one who stayed up late, not to talk — but to overthink every conversation we had.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxjDJOXpKq
I was the one who replayed your voice in my mind when everything felt heavy.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPxRjkBaFI
I was the one who watched you choose others — and still smiled, like it didn’t hurt.
But Zuni, it did.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnmotUsSTM
It hurt more than you’ll ever know.
The world saw you as the strong one. The admired one.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1SNJeC6cX
But I saw something softer — something only I got to know.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOx7bYawdd
Your laughter that came after anger.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbg2Au5w92
The way you forgot things but remembered how to make people feel loved.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTm3U8fqi4n
The way you chose me, again and again, when others wanted your time — and I thought, just maybe, that meant something.
I remember the night I sent you that video…52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalEx2Dsjqp
That baby crying, and the words:52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujjohBQxvh
“No one ever says they miss me…”
And you replied —52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJF0mAHzTQ
“Pagal… you are always missed. Always remembered.”
Zuni…52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9iHUZ8EQQ
You didn’t know, but I broke that night.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcfQXZC1k3
Because that was the closest I ever came to hearing what I had waited years to hear.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95KsgMrn6e
And it still wasn’t what I needed.
The truth is, you never knew what I carried inside.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6u2qOXRBdI
How every word I said was soaked in feelings I buried.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRppRPSAKp3
How every smile I gave hid the pain of being almost everything to you…52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzNlWEwEiQ
But never the one thing I wanted to be.
We still talk.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEaVIjJKtG
Every day.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qoUKgjMLD
Like everything is fine.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFJomR2yih
Like there’s no storm behind the screen.
But every message I send is a love letter written in disguise.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIG6CftaeOo
Every reply is me pretending that “friend” was ever enough.
And you’ll never know.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGh6IIsVpY
Because I will never tell you.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTau5GaUHIp
Not because I’m afraid —52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjgienDkAh
But because I love you too much to ruin the only place I exist in your life.
Maybe Allah never wrote your heart for me.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWj6enroHZB
Maybe I was just meant to love you from the edge of your world… and pray for you from a distance.
So I do.
I pray that you are always happy.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQ6WTXnYUC
That your heart is always full.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgghaYxVGX
That the person you choose gives you every joy I once dreamed of giving you.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotTTw7g09F
And I pray — selfishly, quietly — that if you ever wonder if someone truly loved you without asking for anything…52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERVvk8jDKf
You’ll think of me.
Not as the friend who stayed.52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8ulvpWJOI
But as the heart that broke —52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYrhgeYUHq
And still kept loving.
Always,52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAI3WP3hTw2
your friend...................52Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QOHfHKlXl
—The girl who never told you. But always meant it.
