There’s something I’ve carried for years.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6I8VemyUIL
Something I never had the courage to say — not even when I sat beside you every single day, not even when your voice was the only comfort I knew.
We were best friends.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN95Dnc8iAb
You let me in, shared your secrets, laughed with me, cried with me, made memories that stretched across years.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPr5p9ipuS
And I held them all like tiny treasures.
But somewhere along the way…41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0QIPwstiB
I fell in love with you.
Not in a loud, dramatic way.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0nR2wBVTL
Not in a way that ever asked for anything back.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvK88Y5axrD
I just… loved you.
In the quietest, deepest corners of my soul.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQQcKCdOLI
In the spaces between your words.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbXdk3g7SJ
In the silence after your voice.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhGqKLQk0V
In the warmth of every “pagal” you called me.
I listened when you spoke about her — the girl you liked.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41yVhPXfjz
I helped you find the words, plan the replies, understand your feelings.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGp4LYOJ4J
And with each sentence I gave to help you be closer to her…41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdHPm7moAi
I lost a little piece of myself.
Because I wasn’t just your friend.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwX0joaI8ur
I was the one who stayed up late, not to talk — but to overthink every conversation we had.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmn1atLTRD
I was the one who replayed your voice in my mind when everything felt heavy.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJNHSx1sok
I was the one who watched you choose others — and still smiled, like it didn’t hurt.
But Zuni, it did.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYKMqt7P7I
It hurt more than you’ll ever know.
The world saw you as the strong one. The admired one.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskkWhRwe97
But I saw something softer — something only I got to know.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw11DiypSSJ
Your laughter that came after anger.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EdXTQ0aqD
The way you forgot things but remembered how to make people feel loved.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUcuM43bCd
The way you chose me, again and again, when others wanted your time — and I thought, just maybe, that meant something.
I remember the night I sent you that video…41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRr3SJyESj
That baby crying, and the words:41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMv5FPMi5f
“No one ever says they miss me…”
And you replied —41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsUHZLRPzv
“Pagal… you are always missed. Always remembered.”
Zuni…41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CFzGgVTnC
You didn’t know, but I broke that night.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkh7ebFfH6
Because that was the closest I ever came to hearing what I had waited years to hear.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdL2bjdw5Ur
And it still wasn’t what I needed.
The truth is, you never knew what I carried inside.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeyyFPY0Ti
How every word I said was soaked in feelings I buried.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEHixP02xl
How every smile I gave hid the pain of being almost everything to you…41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiSbJgPCYz
But never the one thing I wanted to be.
We still talk.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnP6LXwcyT
Every day.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sfC6yvbPj
Like everything is fine.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqND8Yu5SSb
Like there’s no storm behind the screen.
But every message I send is a love letter written in disguise.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUDVMgBNni
Every reply is me pretending that “friend” was ever enough.
And you’ll never know.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qh7B9ievI
Because I will never tell you.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqM7NH3RP6V
Not because I’m afraid —41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlfUB18DrU
But because I love you too much to ruin the only place I exist in your life.
Maybe Allah never wrote your heart for me.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54vAJJvV6g
Maybe I was just meant to love you from the edge of your world… and pray for you from a distance.
So I do.
I pray that you are always happy.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIe22I1djGs
That your heart is always full.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrkY7epIBU
That the person you choose gives you every joy I once dreamed of giving you.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiETCPk8IRB
And I pray — selfishly, quietly — that if you ever wonder if someone truly loved you without asking for anything…41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXc5IJ1UXPP
You’ll think of me.
Not as the friend who stayed.41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyQaISP2Eb
But as the heart that broke —41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUTeZxXDid
And still kept loving.
Always,41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18BvJmVutz
your friend...................41Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYcRNi0ZBw
—The girl who never told you. But always meant it.
