I don’t have a specific phobia or a fear of one particular thing, but I do carry a lot of small, persistent fears. One of the biggest is the fear of making choices—especially honest ones. I’ve made some really poor decisions in the past, and it often feels like all the choices I make are doomed to fail. That thought has taken root in my mind and made it hard to trust myself.
Even with personal matters, I find myself constantly seeking others’ opinions, afraid to decide on my own. It’s not that I don’t know what I want—it’s that I fear wanting the wrong thing again. I’ve been working through it slowly and have made some progress, but I know I’m not completely there yet. Learning to trust myself again is a process, and I’m still in it.
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