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My wish is simple: a chance, just one chance.
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I've done things, some good, but many that were undeniably wrong. 40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVoGT5NSoS
I'm not here to justify my past sins. They weren’t. There’s no excuse, no redemption hidden in the way I once moved through the world.
What I did to people wasn’t strength or survival. It was selfishness.
I lived for approval, measuring my worth by how others saw me. I bent myself into their expectations, desperate to be accepted, to be loved. To feel anything but the pain I carried in silence.
And in that desperate pursuit, I hurt people. Too many.
I broke their trust. I disrupted their peace. I turned their days into nightmares. While telling myself it was normal, that it was just the way things were.
But it wasn’t okay. It never was.
I didn’t know how to stop.
By the time I opened my eyes to the damage I’d done, the wreckage was already piled too high. The apologies felt empty, like whispers shouted into a storm that had already passed and left nothing standing.
I tried. I truly did.
I asked for chances, begged for time to fix it—to make things right. But some wounds go too deep. Some bridges don’t just burn—they crumble into ash.
And no matter how much I wanted to rebuild, I had to face the truth: not everything broken can be mended.
Regret is a heavy thing. It doesn’t shout—it lingers, quiet and constant, a dull ache that sits behind your ribs and reminds you of what you lost. What you ruined.
All I can do now is carry it. And maybe, just maybe, keep choosing differently, even if the past never lets go.
Two years ago, someone walked into my life and offered me something I had longed for, a second chance. A chance to make things right. To rebuild what I had broken. To heal the people I once hurt, and maybe, to finally heal myself.
But perhaps… God hasn’t given me permission to claim that chance. Not yet.
Because even now, two years later, that promise remains out of reach, like a door I’ve knocked on a thousand times but never opened.
Who can I blame?
For years, I was the storm in other people’s lives. I dragged them down, drowned them in my selfishness, and left them to gasp for breath. Maybe this is what they felt back then: helpless, anxious, angry, and suffocated.
Maybe this is what it means to carry the weight of what you’ve done.
And maybe… I haven’t finished paying for it yet.
Still, I hope. I hope that this Monday will be the day it finally changes. That the chance I’ve been waiting for will arrive, quietly but clearly.
And when it does, I’ll hold it close. I’ll do what’s right.
And maybe—just maybe—I’ll finally be able to breathe. To live. To be happy again.
My wish may be heavy—too heavy for some to understand.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3M7GRpGXol
But in truth, it’s just one thing.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MNbxLwniy
Just one chance.
One chance to make it right.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGH0tHiWR0t
Not to erase the past—I know I can’t.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFQifDzMLw
But to face it.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGAY42CMUv
To make peace with it.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AAZoEVjzP
To show that I’ve changed, that I can be better, even if it’s late.
Just one chance.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY74pvxOBGY
Not to be perfect.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBRJ7Q26nO
But to be human and forgiven.
