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「我沒事。」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyZ1yYGlW1
「⋯⋯我超好的。」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OcYZUph7W
約莫三坪的黑暗中，兩根細長的手指伴隨一段低沉而無力的女聲，在僅有的光源上緩慢移動著。
—說出來你可能不信
幾筆墨黑躍然而出。
—我最近做什麼都超順的欸！89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmlYrsciB2
—每天起床都很莫名很有精神89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFE4WnyV5Hr
—買東西都剛好會遇到不太需要排隊的時段89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmQdlCWvb5
—喔對也不會有沒貨的問題
咑咑咑
—所以不要跟我說什麼是因為賣完了才沒人89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBNmdLcSVB
—還有很多89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiDLblcdhZ
—像是要趕時間的時候大部分不會遇到紅燈89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3nGmbfgp0
—通勤的時候不太塞車89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22WFf3UVrq
—打字的時候不太需要選字審字89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GWkYmSygC
—還有很多其他89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTcPbXmm07
—反正就是
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—不只事情都確實按著計畫走89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rj8H8HowF
—還有很多意外的小確幸89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1k2pXJeKeq
—房東太太也很好相處89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmvqktTclr
—你知道89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurzyr6qzVR
—這種便利的小幸運真的是89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2pe8ykefQ
—可遇不可求89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqd27eHTic3
—所以我最近心情真的89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51IGF3hABz
—超好！
咑
「哈哈⋯噗哈哈哈哈⋯⋯⋯咳咳咳⋯」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcL8UOjOyzo
幾滴嫣紅的狂笑自嘴角流出，敲擊聲再次響起。
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—然後公司裡啊89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMoEeSSZts
—大家人都89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23vpeCFvEr
—該怎麼說89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVy08rmKkB
—看起來有點難親近的同事實際上是那種外冷內熱的類型89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2JXtyxfnw
—開始變熟了之後89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQzWw5Og3J
—發現不只很好說話
咑咑咑
—樂於助人89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOUEvIIzLZ
—對大家都很貼心
「⋯很貼心，熱心助人⋯⋯」一坨沾染著幾許赭紅的衛生紙被丟出床外。
—而且主管人也很好89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwybUYjZ6OE
—架子不高，很有責任感89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZRfDYiDh3
—不會一直讓人覺得很壓迫89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UalGwdqTC
—也不會亂塞一堆無理的工作然後當甩手掌櫃89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOWtNMv50f
—而且⋯⋯
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⋯⋯陸陸續續又打了兩分鐘後，敲擊聲再次唐突地停了下來。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwtYX8RWGS
她看著螢幕，陷入沉默。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnvk1YD1ej
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褪下包裹著的厚重棉被，揮開旁邊成堆的衛生紙，她托起身子，走近梳妝台。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLcoA2NQ2r
稍顯陳舊的白花藤椅在她的拉扯下發出一聲尖銳叫喊，但她不予理會，徑直坐下。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqTmLA2kc4
「哼哼哼～」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ICBtI315K
一段不知名的旋律輕巧地推開發紫的薄唇，墜落在無光的空虛之中。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxD6sLtKPBh
她拍上化妝水，開始上妝。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5iNa58OPUM
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「哼哼哼～咳咳⋯⋯」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vRxhxrS0J
一邊扯開喉嚨，盡可能模仿著她那淒美的樂聲，我看著她一步一步完成商業用妝容，開始梳理自己深褐色的長髮。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfDOU8klgd
琥珀色的扁梳不發一語，輕柔而無聲地帶走了一絲又一絲，渲上幾點鏽斑的棕髮。剩餘的髮絲被撥到右肩上，襯出頸部那圈靛色的瘀青。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLC1h4NOcIj
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這不是我第一次看她上妝了。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXchsR1r5D4
但不管幾次，總覺得有哪裡不太滿意。
是配色不太好嗎？89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNEaJKhEH1
眼影太深了嗎？89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZmIul5ZZp
唇色太濃了嗎？89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbMATrhGFq
底妝太飽和了嗎？89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡez2LeOxJ3X
還是真的只是感覺問題？不過我們最近都還是跟以前一樣心情都不錯欸？89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyizaQJ2DT
⋯⋯總之，我不太清楚。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoysqi52pe7
或者說，我一直都沒搞清楚。
我們對視了許久，她看起來似乎也覺得哪裡不太滿意。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHy8Cwazjv
⋯⋯看來是「我們」都沒搞清楚。
「咳咳⋯換身衣服好了⋯⋯」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhZ41pgRnd
幾聲嘶啞傳出，她轉過身去，扶著略微搖晃的白花藤椅，撐起身子緩步邁進。賣力地推開沿途的障礙物，小心避開路上的垃圾、藥丸、藥片，玻璃，塑膠碎片⋯⋯然後抵達衣櫃前，再使勁拉開櫃門。
咚89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLc7CHM0dWB
砰89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriOjJRqNjh
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⋯⋯吱咿——
仔細淘選出幾件發皺的連身裙裝，她轉回來，比對著問我。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5xVDudvfS
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「這件怎麼樣？」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGge5aagCp
我搖搖頭。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw85xljku1d
那是她前幾年穿去聯誼的藍白相間的高腰洋裝，現在已經不適合她了。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvreSDhiaS
我看見她也搖了搖頭，轉過去提起另一件。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZM80WKyh5n
「咳咳⋯這件⋯咳⋯呢？」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgfJtoPGKv
我搖搖頭。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzhTQBoXLe
拜託，現在是夏天欸，沒什麼特殊需求的話穿著深色長裙難免不妥吧？妳不熱，我光看著也很熱。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlVnQtYJ9p
嘛，不過我們不怎麼出門就是了。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK83Y17eK2s
她似乎愣了一下，但隨即也搖了搖頭，又轉過去提起另一件來。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZwY8B0rde
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就這樣一來一往，我們最終相中了一件白底黑點，V領的綁帶洋裝。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDy0XXIgYS0
雖說依舊是有點差強人意，但能從那堆東西裡翻出這麼一件來已經是不可多求的奇蹟了。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqADpSf1iB
正所謂「可遇不可求」嘛。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGsd0OkA17
「噗呵⋯」我們相視而笑。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcogmKrlRt
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換完衣服，她再次拉開藤椅，坐了下來，邊整理梳妝台，邊哼起那段不知名的旋律。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UgYyvptyW
我也有樣學樣，幫著整理那些瓶瓶罐罐，同時慢慢唱了起來。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeVe44TbCo
經過剛剛的琢磨，這次已經沒那麼痛了。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NYP9oD0vE
雖然偶爾還是會咳個幾下，但沒差，擦擦就好。
「哼哼哼～」
Alprazolam、Estazolam、Triazolam、Chlordiazepoxide、Lorazepam⋯⋯89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFvU9nVsj6
在無數不認識的單字中，我看見她特別挑了幾瓶出來，打開後如品茶般輕嗅了幾下，又蓋了回去。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoItz0F7J5J
也不知道是為什麼，她從去年開始⋯也許是前年？便開始四處購買這樣的藥品。
我知道那些是什麼，而她也知道。
⋯⋯看著她一罐接著一罐，讓蓋回去的藥瓶自然落下。我突然一股怒氣湧上，憤然將梳妝台上所有瓶瓶罐罐一把推開，瞬息之間，整個空間迴響起清澈的共鳴。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nEeAJXTSq
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喔對，這是我近幾年聽過最悅耳的聲音。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRzbgb095n
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哐啷！89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2dSi47O47
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我在鐵紅色的梳妝台上揀選著，89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKndncBPcmM
不，不是你。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTJ1aB0RRw
不是你⋯89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNyr3ce6PV
不是你⋯⋯89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedNEhD7OH6
我說了不是你！！！！！！！！！！！89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZN8OXBCN4
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砰！！！
我奮力將藤椅往窗邊一甩。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpz22HrCuo
可惜不知是手勁太小還是方向不對，它只是撞上了衣櫃，落在垃圾堆間。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjT9fu1KijZ
我回過頭。
喔⋯對⋯⋯89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLouhRvYhRk
你很不錯。
拿起地上的一把美工刀，我輕輕推出刀片，架在她的腕部。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBqQE8CwP7
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呼吸89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFU5XupwDW6
越來越急促89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1k0JZJoeIR
就是89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqIzGU1Wqf
現在！89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXIHypRnGi
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「叮鈴—叮鈴—叮鈴—」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXurGL9xrN
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⋯鬧鐘響了。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Cix355RVG
她走向床頭，按下了鬧鐘。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMCfI0UV0A
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我們四目相交。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhYCWWkxFf
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「該吃藥了。」我說。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk69NrgtHEH
「該吃藥了。」她回答道。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0l5agruFg
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我撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一顆橢圓的藥丸。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfV6KOkTfpt
她撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一片雪白的藥片。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG12hWj7WL8
我們交互著彼此的工作，服下藥物。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgNOLVjAmR
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按時用藥是很重要的，我想。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSbvrzY242
她應該也這麼覺得。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVn4FL7yY5N
⋯⋯不，她必須這麼覺得。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXg7AAl5jJS
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我走到窗邊搬回藤椅，在梳妝台前輕輕放下，坐在那裡，輕哼著不知名的旋律。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKl1GVaYgKZ
她兩手提起嘴角，看向我。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrB67oGAGVQ
再次，我們對視，然後輕笑了一聲。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7bAY4OwLK
「不用難過。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PsbGB5DWQ
不用生氣。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhEd8fXCDN
不用委屈。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7ByTLlM6a
不用憤慨。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMswI8N0eU
今天又是美好的一天。」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCICWAMeLQ7
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⋯⋯對吧？89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6MeTT9ZjS
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