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浮倚又翻過一頁劇本,書頁的邊緣都翻到捲起來了,然而沒有用,他看不懂、也看不下去。38Please respect copyright.PENANAMx0C9tUNPv
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他在電風扇吵人的運轉聲裡往後仰,雙手按著磁磚舖就的地板,被燈管照亮的天花板有一條長而蜿蜒的裂縫。38Please respect copyright.PENANAmpLXR9UQKV
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他本來就不是會回頭反思的人,和梧殷一起住之後,他從來沒有想過要回去,所以現在他也只是在想,自己飾演的佟謐禮到底哪裡出了問題,於是就這樣追溯到自身的家庭背景而已。38Please respect copyright.PENANA0UMj3UeGNc
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浮倚不曉得佟謐禮全心依賴、暗戀霍恩的心情,況且他分明已經無數次都強迫戲外的霍恩和自己黏在一起,他也不覺得霍恩有因此心動,導演還說他演技感太重?38Please respect copyright.PENANAFtTDTxOLs1
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可是他當然是演的。38Please respect copyright.PENANA2RE4iJuB9J
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Crush 4 Lie是樂團,他和梧殷打從一開始,就只是想全心玩音樂而已,演戲不過是手段,是提高人氣、讓他們的歌能被更多人聽見、有了粉絲基礎以及資金,才能毫無後顧之憂地繼續創作用的。38Please respect copyright.PENANAsBBpbKxxjn
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難道是自己太習慣算計了嗎?38Please respect copyright.PENANAOFwsBCoBy9
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他不知道愚蠢而盲目地只信任愛情,會是什麼表情。38Please respect copyright.PENANAheOgZ5WBEj
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浮倚從小到大知道的每個談論愛情的大人,全都沒有好下場,反而是維持合作關係、各取所需的表面夫妻,家庭和美,孩子的教養也好。38Please respect copyright.PENANApktzZrTgIk
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他不記得那句話是說什麼,愛情不過是「多巴胺」、還是「腦內啡」、或者「賀爾蒙」造成的錯覺。38Please respect copyright.PENANAGfMKSsA65h
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總之說到底就是性慾的遮羞布吧。38Please respect copyright.PENANAmykaQMo0kl
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對一個人多次產生強烈的性慾,因為以前沒遇過這種事,於是就定義為愛情,明明是身體過於飢渴而已,硬要把它歸在獨立的名詞之下,硬是要偏執論述它的獨特性。38Please respect copyright.PENANAG90HXUzeHo
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浮倚無法理解。38Please respect copyright.PENANAjmJsx4gQav
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交往、婚姻,不過是瞭解合作對象、並連繫彼此用的而已,因為一個人太無趣寂寞,因為需要有婚生子繼承,所以走入婚姻。浮倚一直都認為是這樣。38Please respect copyright.PENANAjkE5j136OE
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霍恩可能跟他抱持不同觀點,因此才無法接受自己的親近吧。不然配合自己,就可以達成合作利益,這麼輕鬆的事情,浮倚想不通為什麼霍恩這麼排斥,梧殷好像也──38Please respect copyright.PENANAJMKnkCu9Yp
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浮倚不擅長思考和人的想法有關的事情,他向來都只憑直覺和利弊做事,個人想法對他來說確實極度費解,面對不以利益為取向的人,浮倚實在不知道怎麼應付。38Please respect copyright.PENANAzId45qOrCu
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梧殷跟霍恩,都很難理解。38Please respect copyright.PENANAHn82ybhsSU
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而且他們倆個既然這麼相似,應該也很清楚要怎麼不讓彼此反感,達成良好合作關係才對,到底為什麼連明面上關係都那麼差,浮倚怎麼也想不通。38Please respect copyright.PENANApA346U98vM
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梧殷可能是太理想化。38Please respect copyright.PENANAFzRD3KjtMr
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但霍恩呢?38Please respect copyright.PENANAb9hWJACYvX
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從初次見面開始,霍恩就只會拒絕自己。38Please respect copyright.PENANA0TGDBAE1UH
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──我根本沒得罪他啊,到底是在嫌棄什麼?我長得也算好看吧?還是他恐同?恐同幹嘛接耽美劇啊?38Please respect copyright.PENANAcpSf7CQffc
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浮倚放空了好一下,決定先放棄劇本跟霍恩的問題,放任自己滑一下手機,一一回覆這段期間的訊息後,浮倚忍不住,又滑回去,點開已經回過的其中一個聊天室,發送新的訊息。38Please respect copyright.PENANAkb1ihcdlwn
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在等待期間,梧殷回來了,浮倚原本想纏著梧殷抱怨霍恩對他多過分,不過看見梧殷提著一袋子酒,他嘆了口氣後,按著桌面打算站起來問:「需要我先離開或迴避嗎?」38Please respect copyright.PENANALo69wLCjmU
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梧殷疲倦地回:「你又沒地方去,是要迴避什麼?」38Please respect copyright.PENANAOCZ4rztmJM
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浮倚眼珠子轉呀轉,遲疑地說:「大不了,大不了我去找霍恩?」38Please respect copyright.PENANAivUtcL7WdR
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梧殷全身僵硬的樣子過於醒目,浮倚很難決定要不要裝沒察覺,他只能坐回去,漫不經心地嘀咕:「導演要我跟霍恩更親密一點,最好同居一陣子。啊,好煩喔。我每次看到他都主動貼過去了,明明是霍恩的問題,為什麼我一定要跟他同居啊?我又不是純gay。」38Please respect copyright.PENANAJtdr9qXvnM
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「你沒有交往過的對象嗎?」38Please respect copyright.PENANACxrxULuTfE
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「交往……」浮倚在只有梧殷在場時,總是很容易露出符合實際年齡的表情,緊皺著眉眼思考的模樣,和媒體知道的形象大相逕庭。38Please respect copyright.PENANAMLhqw2nYPn
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沒等到浮倚想出結論,梧殷隨口說:「是沒有確認關係的曖昧對象太多,才沒辦法回答這個問題嗎?」並將大部分啤酒罐冰進冰箱,只留下兩瓶放在和式矮桌上。38Please respect copyright.PENANAxZhRPhVn3Z
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浮倚抬頭看著梧殷在他對面坐下後問:「梧殷有吧?那是什麼感覺,交往又會做些什麼上床以外的事?」38Please respect copyright.PENANApzZOxS1dHy
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要不是梧殷還沒有真的按開拉環,恐怕浮倚不會只是被啤酒罐砸到的程度,還要附帶全身被濕淋淋的啤酒糾纏,洗三次澡都洗不掉味道的程度。38Please respect copyright.PENANAvw4O2V49iE
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浮倚一邊抱怨一邊撿起罐子放回桌上,梧殷已經打開另一瓶開始喝了。38Please respect copyright.PENANAgfgUPwBlTt
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「梧殷,你真的很奇怪。」38Please respect copyright.PENANAm0e2AHq8hC
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梧殷嚥下口中的酒,語音不清地回:「我從來沒有正常過。」38Please respect copyright.PENANA5FD19EekLc
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「可是,佟謐禮,應該很正常吧。要是能用佟謐禮的口吻來唱歌,情緒是不是能更飽滿?佟謐禮的話,他說想霍恩的時候,都會想著霍恩的什麼事情?佟謐禮為什麼會喜歡上同性別的霍恩?霍恩到底有什麼優點是讓佟謐禮願意飛蛾撲火的?」浮倚半瞇著眼、搖頭作結:「這些我都不知道。」38Please respect copyright.PENANAvfm99hLtjN
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梧殷抹掉唇外的泡沫,不太認真地建議:「你沒看過原著嗎?就算沒看過,愛情小說、歌詞、歌曲、電影、漫畫──隨便什麼都好,總看過吧?」38Please respect copyright.PENANAtDXEpkSN6C
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「其他的我沒看過,但原著我讀很多次了。」38Please respect copyright.PENANAphE41mhjor
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「原著寫得很清楚了不是嗎?」38Please respect copyright.PENANAL0LnrX8yFR
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浮倚無力地軟著腰趴在桌上,不滿地回:「哪裡清楚?佟謐禮明明不知道霍恩的真實身分,霍恩也是中後期才開始對他溫柔的,他到底為什麼喜歡那個面癱啊?」38Please respect copyright.PENANAT8HwXMUZWg
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梧殷差點沒忍住噴笑,畢竟他很快就把戲裡的霍恩跟演員連繫在一起。38Please respect copyright.PENANAPSwwxAQZnT
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浮倚懶洋洋地問:「梧殷,要怎麼樣才能什麼都不考慮地談一場戀愛啊?我怕這齣戲永遠無法結束拍攝。」38Please respect copyright.PENANA6qKTng6fLt
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梧殷敷衍地輕哼兩聲後說:「要是有能讓你什麼條件背景都不考慮,即便知道這對你有害,還是想靠近他的對象的話──」38Please respect copyright.PENANAmaPi9YE0Zs
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「要是有的話?」38Please respect copyright.PENANABZUWEqESEH
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「要不就順從衝動,認認真真去愛;要不就直接和對方絕交吧。」38Please respect copyright.PENANAvQWPyMk5DY
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「啊?絕交?」38Please respect copyright.PENANAqJqh2bLd38
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梧殷輕輕閉著眼說:「遇到那樣的對象,最慘的結果就是你沒從這兩個極端裡選擇任何一種,不只會傷重不治、還會後悔萬分。」38Please respect copyright.PENANAcnt7NGaBAs
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