This is a set of two poems :3 105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JkvlUtrjV
(First on love, second on heartbreak.)
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her tears taste like honeydew with a105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQjolszBhw
hint of extraterrestrial redshifting.105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡve9l6TWm7u
she walks with the grace of moonlight105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTEfahgPxb
and has eyes like protostars.105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Qh43pgkIe
she’s not quite up to societal standards,105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVYTsqOKm6
and she lives in the future, not the past.105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDh0SjHxBdE
i still chase after her anyways,105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWb6A6wjILn
tail wagging, tongue lolling like the dog i am.105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwcnB6sVsy
CW: SH, body dysmorphia/body image105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROAffOcNaO
who taught you to hate?
“who taught you to hate your hair?”105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtPfCW94Ra
she did, with her idle remarks105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOj0IdpeLbb
about how it would look better curled.105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNGrlA4vRY
(i curled it into long ringlets.)105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrGCiV2j4V
then she said it would be better short105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1SgXMDL5P
(i chopped it all off with a swiss army knife.)105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIH5TmTEADB
it’s been bleached, stained, and cut105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfo1cTjQk95
in all manners of ways.105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rl6U27IT2
(still it was never enough.)
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“who taught you to hate your freckles?”105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVD7DHqpcwb
she did, tracing constellations on my cheeks105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0tkTv1RbJ
with a permanent red sharpie until it looked like105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26777RbbvW
i had wept thousands of scarlet tears.105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqDmiLJHEF
(i spent all night scrubbing it to no avail.105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkasA8wikpW
she offered no help, only a faint smile at my struggles.)
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“who taught you to hate your skin?”105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQ7dERZKXK
she did, with her languid tongue and105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjojFy3E1sY
knife-sharp jabs. too pale, not tan enough,105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pzf3EmGDj
she said, running fingers down my arm,105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDh2P7GEa3b
like a vampire, coming to suck blood.105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwCuu2PGGW
(i dug my nails into what made up my outsides105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrKMmrkXZC
and tried to pry it off my very bones.)105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1LY9fRiyL
i’m was left with only scars.
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“who taught you to hate your bones?”105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFS4hOmEWbF
she did in late nights spent curled together105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPVLneuuVr
in the back of my pick up truck, poking105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnsu32fIFe
and prodding at my body, saying that105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DjS0ztIgH
i must be pretty big-boned to weigh so heavy.105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYAUz6dF24
(i dug my fingernails into my thigh, peeling back flesh105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHzHc1fIEM
until i could claw away at the bone hidden beneath.)105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTseL0J0aC
the hospital tutted and bandaged me up,105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVXFVwTWWv
and stuck me into a small box with a self-proclaimed105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQFX3b8FN6
therapist whose only job was to make me feel worse.
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“who taught you to hate yourself?”105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrYc5Fdlfx
she did with her loaded gun questions105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jKWHFVPrg
and sketchy answers. late night calls105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcVNg2yvsc
of ‘i love you’s’ and tired apologies105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkwq05aBK7
when it was never truly my fault.105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQMvsKe21w
she taught me to hate myself.105Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUCPWh7OMI
(what is love if not another form of hate?)
