「對不起…」36Please respect copyright.PENANASG1i5r0b7g
在宣洩完憤怒後,春的表情變回了和平常一樣的冷淡,但語氣明顯慌張了起來,甚至還帶著一點哽咽的聲音36Please respect copyright.PENANAwrItIipXB7
「我…先回去了」36Please respect copyright.PENANAy8wedyUye3
春顫抖著留下這句後就從我身邊跑過,往自己家的方向跑去36Please respect copyright.PENANAxdEm42RMRP
「春!等等」 36Please respect copyright.PENANAwXNfKI7s8g
要抓住他的手…!雖然心裡這樣想著,但是…
—「說出來的話,你真的明白嗎??」
「呃…」36Please respect copyright.PENANA8olrYDBMgC
該伸出手的瞬間我卻猶豫了,本來準備伸出的右手懸在半空,只剩嘴巴在呼喊著無力的挽留,眼睜睜看著春越跑越遠36Please respect copyright.PENANA7lSl8vBwgd
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「虎?你回來啦,怎麼回到家一句話都不說」36Please respect copyright.PENANAuyDIbM1zPY
「啊…我回來了」36Please respect copyright.PENANADnJvDh87R5
被大量的訊息衝擊過後,我的大腦就像是當機了一樣,腦中只剩下春逐漸跑遠的背影,回過神時我已經回到了家,推開了自己家的大門36Please respect copyright.PENANA7565U6ajAP
「怎麼出去玩完聲音還有氣無力的,等等快點去洗澡啊」36Please respect copyright.PENANAsnjPU8dCpm
「好~」36Please respect copyright.PENANA4sXawJRQ6P
從廚房傳來了老媽的說話聲,但我並沒有怎麼理會,只是簡短回了一句就走回了自己的房間36Please respect copyright.PENANAKQa0vkivlv
「…………」36Please respect copyright.PENANAT2CRZ7FBGx
隨手把背包丟到一旁後,連衣服也還沒換我就整個人趴在了床上,消化著剛才的對話
—「我真的…很羨慕你啊…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAmOIXlMkpQo
—「俺真的…很羨慕你啊……」
那一瞬間,春的身影就像是和宗介重疊了一樣,熟悉的對白和語氣不斷刺激著那些我不想記起的回憶36Please respect copyright.PENANA58LN2uYkl1
「我…又搞砸了…」
—「你…聽到了…?」
雖然確實是偷聽了他們對話的我不對,但我明明也只是想要幫春而已啊…為什麼…
—「為什麼我要跟你說」36Please respect copyright.PENANAAzaNxs8EGK
—「說出來的話,你真的明白嗎??」
現在回想起來,當時看著語氣逐漸激動的春,我的腦中卻只有一片空白,安慰也好,反駁也好,我連一句像樣的話也想不到,就像在那個雨天的圖書館裡,面對宗介時一樣;唯獨不一樣的是——因為那一次被宗介決然地否定了,讓我這一次連開口都做不到36Please respect copyright.PENANAqQlJ9QdrUV
明明平常不用特別去思考也會有很多話題想說,但偏偏到了這些時候我的腦袋才會開始罷工,我的大腦到底是甚麼構造啊
—「你真的明白嗎???」
「呃啊……」36Please respect copyright.PENANAKqyD3aWMPI
或許,真的和春所說的一樣,我甚麼都不明白,當時面對宗介也是,現在面對春也是36Please respect copyright.PENANAztiOaLAg8N
「唉……」36Please respect copyright.PENANAALvcsAf7mw
想到這裡,我用力抓了抓自己的頭髮36Please respect copyright.PENANAzxP3bXhocH
「啊—!」36Please respect copyright.PENANAbIxYka7PmQ
這樣難過下去也沒用,總而言之,還是要先跟他道歉吧36Please respect copyright.PENANAp4sFTXMAyL
我猛然從床上撐了起來,拿出了放在背包裡的手機,點開了春的聊天室36Please respect copyright.PENANA3hKHWFgFEf
「呀…不過…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAVOlrEjk6Qa
春現在應該也是剛剛回到家,大概還在生氣吧,這時候傳訊息過去好像不太好…36Please respect copyright.PENANAAbcZujJJeg
「嗯……對了!」36Please respect copyright.PENANA9HQEjaiuc8
作為代替,我關掉了Line的界面,轉而打開了遊戲,然後點進了留言板的界面36Please respect copyright.PENANAuTvSAppZHn
「雖然不太懂你的困擾,但是抱歉!」 36Please respect copyright.PENANAM3LixkBbXD
「…打好了!」36Please respect copyright.PENANA5qm9nz5kY0
春幾乎每天都會上線,所以打在這裡他應該會看到吧,雖然不知道他會不會回我36Please respect copyright.PENANAY3K9SF2DoI
「虎~還沒去洗澡嗎,你爸爸快要回來了哦」36Please respect copyright.PENANATJgTL1SYDG
「好~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAZUmPmcPoh4
老媽的聲音從樓下傳來,這下不去不行了36Please respect copyright.PENANAV762f8G2Ny
「拜託了…要看到」36Please respect copyright.PENANA4Wz9o7oM6X
給手機插上充電線後,我隨手抓了放在椅子上的乾淨衣物走出了房間
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悠閒的春假午後,我躺在自己的床上看著手機裡的遊戲畫面36Please respect copyright.PENANAdg6uexBc1H
好友名單上,春的網名旁邊依然顯示著灰白色的「Offline」字樣36Please respect copyright.PENANA4z7Rp7LRFz
「最後上線時間…四天前」36Please respect copyright.PENANAXAhb4D6xdR
「…還是沒上線啊」36Please respect copyright.PENANAhkEJYTLFN7
春平常明明頂多也就一天兩天不上線而已…36Please respect copyright.PENANADBEYu6ZNcF
「就算我可能不理解也好,但是我真的是想幫你而已…相信我!」36Please respect copyright.PENANAZtV3Si9pbJ
因為躺著的關係,打字的動作笨拙了不少,好不容易輸入好文字後,我點下了文本框旁邊的儲存鍵36Please respect copyright.PENANAOFgl5VdOqt
「啊唉——」36Please respect copyright.PENANALbUJVoNYju
我仰面朝向天花板嘆了一口長氣36Please respect copyright.PENANAy3I62vhIN6
「果然還是直接去找他吧…但是——」36Please respect copyright.PENANAGp4Mle8EEl
我把自己的右手伸向天花板
—「你根本…甚麼都不懂」
腦中自然地浮現起了當時被宗介粗暴地甩開手的情景,不對…與其說是甩,那已經是拍打的程度了吧,我還依稀記得當時手上的炙熱感36Please respect copyright.PENANANfxCAlq3bg
「嗯呣…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAdl85tMcEbj
不想再讓那樣的事情發生了,絕對36Please respect copyright.PENANAF60G4UADz2
所以至少…要搞清楚春生氣的原因36Please respect copyright.PENANAocaRg7uydQ
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「不過…說是這麼說,實際要怎麼辦啊…」36Please respect copyright.PENANA9H3XZhrvZ0
平常除了我和繪里以外,好像就沒見過春跟誰說過話,這樣就算想從別人口中知道些甚麼也不知道該從何入手……36Please respect copyright.PENANAnTeu5tBq4F
「我想想……」36Please respect copyright.PENANA89pYuYs9VB
小田川老師……應該會知道春現在在想甚麼吧,可是我又沒有老師的聯繫方式,春假就算回去學校老師也不一定在…36Please respect copyright.PENANAV4paeUqHNm
剩下和春有交集的人還有…
—「你—太單純了,小老虎」
…遊助36Please respect copyright.PENANAjdhUUcTIdd
那傢伙…總是擺著一副高高在上的樣子,唯獨那隻唯我獨尊的狼,絕對不會去找他的36Please respect copyright.PENANAGfcyzmD5Ce
而且不知道是不是我的錯覺,他對著我的時候好像都特別毒舌,好像跟我過不去一樣36Please respect copyright.PENANAU8vUTWbmI3
「算了算了,總之還是先找繪里吧」
—「你根本…甚麼都不懂」
我不懂的事情,說不定繪里會…36Please respect copyright.PENANAZhbCEwYbEG
我把手機的畫面切到了聊天軟件,然後點進了繪里的聊天室36Please respect copyright.PENANAOdMoISysbH
「繪里繪里,有空嗎?|・ω・`)」36Please respect copyright.PENANA8CfMHiwDkB
訊息發送沒多久後,旁邊就出現了已讀的文字36Please respect copyright.PENANAJPRAvX1OCf
「有哦,怎麼了」36Please respect copyright.PENANAzihikonC2S
「想問問你,春最近有找你嗎」36Please respect copyright.PENANA6JX7kO4G6H
「春嗎?沒有欸」36Please respect copyright.PENANAKSDUuckDTM
沒有嗎…36Please respect copyright.PENANA0DYWriBRMQ
「怎麼了」36Please respect copyright.PENANAPK8w2iqHDj
「沒有啦,問問而已,真的完全沒有嗎」36Please respect copyright.PENANAuGZPmqlyi4
「對啊」36Please respect copyright.PENANABVuhPu57OH
也對……春平常也很少說話36Please respect copyright.PENANAk3A90IKebK
「說起來他最近連群組的訊息也沒讀,遊戲也沒上線,是不是發生了甚麼」36Please respect copyright.PENANAHdSmUaFlNc
看來繪里也有察覺到奇怪36Please respect copyright.PENANAGzYokiNMZy
「這個…算是吵架了吧?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAU5FJcqsY5r
「吵架?你和春?真的假的啊?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAuD6fNm7Wg1
不用這麼多問號吧36Please respect copyright.PENANAbcHHMz1rMM
「大概…吧」36Please respect copyright.PENANAq6OXP3l9wo
「那是怎樣啊」36Please respect copyright.PENANA9JvaEryFSo
「總之,好像不小心惹怒了他的樣子 (´;ω;`)」36Please respect copyright.PENANAXZV4bL93eF
「啊~原來你那留言板是這麼回事啊,那你怎麼不直接去找他道歉」36Please respect copyright.PENANAoJyHyhvFq3
「但是…我現在連他在生氣甚麼也不知道啊ヾ(;゚;Д;゚;)ノ゙」36Please respect copyright.PENANAYsuHOnXPFE
「連當事人也不知道那你問我更不知道啊…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAABLeF3IPvo
這麼說也有道理啦…36Please respect copyright.PENANAJRgjXs0JWY
「想說你可能會有點頭緒嘛…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAxV5p3s1Hx9
「那我也得先知道發生了甚麼啊」36Please respect copyright.PENANAOZoJ32x0ZE
「這個……」36Please respect copyright.PENANAIQjL8kmlZO
把春的事情說出來……真的好嗎36Please respect copyright.PENANAZOBpCUVwM9
「怎麼了?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAjHbaJccSx5
「這個…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAFiUhUlG5v9
考慮到背後的事情都是我從小田川老師和春的對話裡偷聽而來,實在不太好意思隨口把偷聽到的事情說出去36Please respect copyright.PENANAooRPCK0QwI
「不能說?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAnxqmRa8e5e
「嗯」36Please respect copyright.PENANADTxRRV3In8
「我知道了,那我之後直接去找他吧」36Please respect copyright.PENANA7UpWXnyX8K
「欸?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAxSKaMrzCYw
事情好像往預料之外的情況發展了36Please respect copyright.PENANAgEEJbXP3AE
「欸甚麼欸啊,你不方便說的話那我當然只能親自上門去找另一個當事人囉,放心吧我自有分寸~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAgoyAwyRUbD
總覺得…我是不是不小心促成了甚麼事件36Please respect copyright.PENANAjPDip64pAd
「那…就拜託了」36Please respect copyright.PENANAjYDN1ydbMl
「交給我吧~」36Please respect copyright.PENANA84eirqYBT2
然後是一張比著「OK」手勢的橘貓的貼圖36Please respect copyright.PENANAhEYtSCg9FH
不過我說甚麼拜託啊…明明是我自己的問題卻拋給了別人處理36Please respect copyright.PENANAZjyzyCLLAq
「…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAFCdjX7xW89
我點開了春的聊天室,裡面卻乾淨得讓人詫異36Please respect copyright.PENANAm1DIJ6xSdM
「說起來,認識這麼久我也沒試過和春在這裡單獨聊天啊…」36Please respect copyright.PENANADFXCWaKTcP
因為平常都是在群組裡聊天,在遊戲裡也會有繪里或者Omni在場36Please respect copyright.PENANAEmFFEFC8dE
和春單獨相處的時間…好像真的沒多少啊36Please respect copyright.PENANAKffenwbrEq
「春?那個…還在生氣嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAncW6xAl0n9
「那個…雖然還是不太懂但真的對不起」36Please respect copyright.PENANAwJKG7NeZeC
「(。ŏ_ŏ)」36Please respect copyright.PENANAjADIMmzX8U
試探性地發了幾個訊息過去36Please respect copyright.PENANAKq9Fnhrb99
「嗯…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAUpHWEVc9ux
可是,訊息旁邊,那本該顯示著「已讀」的位置現在卻空空如也36Please respect copyright.PENANAApAqcus39K
「明明平常都是秒讀的說…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAK26btEx1RG
雖然春的回覆通常都是最低限度的字數就是了,「嗯、對啊、OK……」之類的36Please respect copyright.PENANA2lk8iVnEct
「除了繪里以外…春身邊的人還有誰呢…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAxZhhZhLfKQ
我把身體舒展開,在床上躺平伸了個超級大懶腰36Please respect copyright.PENANAjWJb3eVVHr
「叮——」36Please respect copyright.PENANABx47i1Wxbe
思考之際,尖銳的通知音響徹了整個房間36Please respect copyright.PENANAOuD3qtn446
「回了嗎?!」36Please respect copyright.PENANA9Q5GhLR4Pg
當我興奮地拿起剛伸懶腰被我放在一旁的手機時,上面看到的卻不是春的名字,而是初中一個還算認識的同班同學的名字,雖然也只是一起玩過一兩場遊戲的程度而已36Please respect copyright.PENANA7Lxbl0xCEl
「怎麼突然發訊息過來…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAFaM1bhiwqu
說起來不知不覺間離初中畢業已經過了一年了啊36Please respect copyright.PENANAkkzhLglx3F
「嗨~是赤木嗎?還記得我嗎,我們大後天打算搞個同學會,打算下午一起去KTV,你要不要來?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAwONdFCAYaI
同學會…嗎?好像很有趣的樣子,如果說到初中的同班同學的話…36Please respect copyright.PENANAFXiEHCCbvh
「宗介和春會去嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAbFao2UtjLD
「你說白川啊,我是有問過他了不過他還沒回我訊息,不過春…春是誰來著…?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAAW1kkATUWL
「欸…?」36Please respect copyright.PENANADhtnlTSvJZ
「啊啊,你說那個…藍色毛髮的狼嗎,很冷漠那個?好像是叫宇…宇治甚麼來著,你不說我都沒想起他」36Please respect copyright.PENANAUN0ddfIvsR
「…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAAqCtZyzKYg
總覺得,有種莫名的不爽36Please respect copyright.PENANAqmxhuAYlx3
「話說回來我連他的聯繫方式都沒有,不過就算問了我想他應該也不會來的吧,那傢伙以前超陰沉的欸」36Please respect copyright.PENANAKgh1Eqq2vJ
……36Please respect copyright.PENANA77Wc7SUBga
「所以你會來嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAVNHUGX4BPe
「抱歉,我想我還是不去了」36Please respect copyright.PENANAMQApvR54M2
「欸~~~~我還以為你一定會來的欸」36Please respect copyright.PENANAorDNS5Jp8g
「抱歉啊~下次吧」36Please respect copyright.PENANAZzRF7JIAEb
拒絕了…以前的話碰上這種感覺很好玩的活動我應該會很爽快地答應才對,不過現在真的沒有那個心情36Please respect copyright.PENANAgLqTS91zFh
「春…果然還是沒讀啊」36Please respect copyright.PENANA3jMEHEB8xA
切換回春的聊天室後,心裡所期待的「已讀」兩個字依舊沒有出現36Please respect copyright.PENANAXplk9LMHfp
「說起來…當時宗介也是」36Please respect copyright.PENANA1XvAHAAWsZ
那天宗介離開圖書館後,雖然沒有把我封鎖,但不管我傳多少訊息過去也是完全沒有反應,連已讀也沒有36Please respect copyright.PENANAjRyEoG79fs
「那時候的事情再發生一次甚麼的…才不要啊呃呃呃—」36Please respect copyright.PENANAq7EBDVBzCO
又要變回一個人甚麼的…
—「欸欸,不過真沒想到我們會上到同一所高中欸,真的好巧哦」
現在回想起來,雖然開學那天是我主動向春搭話的,但其實也只是抱著僥倖的心態而已36Please respect copyright.PENANAynnJwreh2n
因為不想自己一個人的關係,而春又剛好是全班唯一一個認識的人,因為春的藍色毛髮很顯眼的關係,我跑到教室門口的時候立刻就留意到了36Please respect copyright.PENANAPnbZSetRD3
不過沒想到春還真的會答應跟我們一起吃飯,明明初中的時候他對甚麼人都是一副漠不關心的樣子,本來我還以為會被無視的說36Please respect copyright.PENANA9ENBxNytMZ
「啊呃……」36Please respect copyright.PENANANdK4SSLoZu
我翻了個身,呆呆地看著手機螢幕變暗,然後熄滅,黑色的螢幕倒映出自己那張苦惱頹喪的臉36Please respect copyright.PENANAMpibEcoOnA
「原來我還有這樣的表情啊…」36Please respect copyright.PENANA9T2V9vksmy
還是第一次留意到36Please respect copyright.PENANAm7mmupqQtw
不過認識到現在也是,雖然有很多東西比不上春,但不知道為什麼跟他相處的時候就會有種很舒服、很開心的感覺,所以真的……36Please respect copyright.PENANApDPwBAdF2D
不想再變回一個人了
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「真是的,雖然在放春假但你至少也去看看書吧,整天閒閒沒事躺在家裡」36Please respect copyright.PENANANZjYNAzLU6
我躺在客廳的地板上滑著手機,老媽的聲音從他的房間裡傳來,他今天好像要和朋友去有點遠的百貨公司逛街,所以現在正在化妝的樣子36Please respect copyright.PENANAQidZ83A7eK
「你之前的期末考不也是低空飛過而已嗎」36Please respect copyright.PENANAeiOMoXwEMR
「嗯…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAdzbuturnMt
真是的…每次我一放假在家就會這樣嘮嘮叨叨的,明明我自己這邊的事情都已經夠煩了的說36Please respect copyright.PENANAt3Aljjtjnt
「虎~~你有聽到嗎」36Please respect copyright.PENANAMnYuVYKl1u
說著他走了過來36Please respect copyright.PENANAAXApEPjssP
「有聽到~」36Please respect copyright.PENANA1tid3mvOoW
雖然我一直把視線放在眼前的手機上,但耳朵還是打開的好不好36Please respect copyright.PENANARvKKqGRf9p
「總覺得你最近都怪怪的,沒發生甚麼事吧」36Please respect copyright.PENANA2TJf298Pbr
「沒有啦…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAnOaCLrU1wp
沒有…才怪,離那天都已經過了一周了,春那邊還是毫無音訊,遊戲上線也好、已讀也好,甚麼都沒有36Please respect copyright.PENANAMnj6vBJR4Q
「真的~?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAEv9r7Txcyv
「…………」36Please respect copyright.PENANAwblxGWN4Zb
「你還真是不擅長說謊,每次遇到甚麼事情你的表情和語氣就會變成這樣,就差沒直接把『我有事』這三個字寫在臉上了」36Please respect copyright.PENANA6EhWAERJOZ
「甚麼啊……」36Please respect copyright.PENANAJ30V7Fs7M7
我有這麼好懂嗎…36Please respect copyright.PENANAQMspdK8Mt3
「對對對,就是這種語氣,你自己看看,尾巴都垂下去了,軟~啪啪的」36Please respect copyright.PENANAX1IGkovQvN
「嗚…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAWSMqNGrneL
老媽伸手抓了抓我垂在地上的尾巴,但馬上就被我甩開了36Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6LEZQWWUC
「啊啊~我家兒子甚麼時候才能成熟一點呢」36Please respect copyright.PENANArFs09JkR6Y
「你自己不也是很喜歡娃娃甚麼的嗎…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAbtTjx0wTqt
我小聲吐嘈著36Please respect copyright.PENANASTnUgSk665
「你說甚麼?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAWSTGcIcFbu
「沒甚麼~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAhkBwxkBqbk
「我說你啊,是不是太久沒出門悶壞了啊,平常每隔一兩天就要出一次門,現在都多久了,最近朋友沒找你出門嗎」36Please respect copyright.PENANAQZE0jpJNnm
「嗯…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAqZBhY32iUn
「那你姐呢?他也沒找你嗎」36Please respect copyright.PENANA00QvCouMXj
「他說這個月很忙,沒空~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAcrqMHZ9IhT
「那你要跟我去嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAo6timkCZ73
「才不要,跟著你們到處逛街會累死的」36Please respect copyright.PENANAZRLlabkYn0
「真是的…那我出去囉,你自己看要不要找個地方逛逛吧,你出去記得鎖門」36Please respect copyright.PENANAU8au59ELnz
「好~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAiBcmj5W2zf
厚重的關門聲從玄關傳來36Please respect copyright.PENANAIC2RNi3J0b
.36Please respect copyright.PENANAbFuXowha4W
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「嗯呣…好安靜」36Please respect copyright.PENANAWNqEKSh5lg
老媽出門以後,房間瞬間就安靜了下來36Please respect copyright.PENANACscp8N79j4
因為家裡只剩下我一人的關係,所以除了我手機正開著的遊戲的BGM以外,甚麼聲音也沒有,硬要說的話就只剩窗外偶爾傳來的鳥叫聲,有點煩人36Please respect copyright.PENANAzWk59WLQ9S
「春…還是沒上線呢」36Please respect copyright.PENANAni2sZPpeQ5
灰白色的「Offline」字樣這一周都不曾改變過,唯獨改變的就是下方顯示著的最後上線時間36Please respect copyright.PENANAbDvKgEwD8f
「唉…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAKILE3J6Aga
我面無表情地關掉了遊戲,放下手機盤坐了起來36Please respect copyright.PENANAJJR1d9wV39
「好無聊…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAbDYwTd4Bck
我看向了窗外的天空,是一片晴朗的湛藍色36Please respect copyright.PENANAQkazwA0xhq
「太久沒出門嗎…可是已經很久沒有試過一個人出門了…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAjHNbb8XY4q
說是這麼說,但身體還是老實地站了起來,帶上平常出門的物品,走向了玄關
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「好久沒來這裡了…」36Please respect copyright.PENANA0r5xKboEAC
這裡是離我家五、六個車站以外的城鎮,因為老姐在這邊租房子住的緣故,我偶爾會過來這邊找他36Please respect copyright.PENANAEstAVa6paW
「說起來,天氣還真好啊~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAIvdkeqzgso
由於這一站是開放式的高架車站,因此一走出車門在月台就能看到車站外晴朗的天空,因為昨天剛下完雨的關係,天空中一點灰暗都沒有,呈現著一片春天難得一見的蔚藍色36Please respect copyright.PENANAF65BS2m2Mb
「跟春的毛色好像…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAADqIUwVHcw
如果這樣跟他說的話應該會被回說「甚麼啊…」之類的吧36Please respect copyright.PENANAXG8UYnnYZW
「喲~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAWqTG2iQv5I
當我站在欄杆前凝視著天空時,一把輕浮的聲音突然從左邊傳來,吸引了我的注意36Please respect copyright.PENANA1FIskdRJu7
「怎麼看著這麼美麗的藍天還愁眉苦臉的」36Please respect copyright.PENANAjgzpgQkN5i
剛剛下車的人群逐漸離開後,月台上僅剩下我和寥寥幾人,一個熟悉又討厭的身影伴隨著令人不安的聲音逐漸向我走來36Please respect copyright.PENANAREDZLLbOeT
「是不是這明澈的天藍色讓你想起了某個在意的人啊~?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAT8b6bdfGk5
在陰影處裡的灰白色身影停下了腳步,緩緩摘下了耳機,然後一手插著口袋,擺著他的招牌惡笑出現在了我的面前36Please respect copyright.PENANAgyot70ECJa
「為什麼你會在這裡啊」36Please respect copyright.PENANADKwGoG5LXq
雖然很想無視他直接走掉,但他所站的位置正好擋住了出口電梯的方向,要離開的話必須得經過他身旁36Please respect copyright.PENANAUMqYr5wXA0
「哎呀,原來你沒注意到嗎,遊助剛一~直和你在同一輛車上哦,甚至還是在同一站上車的呢~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAK7MGokkF9a
真的假的啊36Please respect copyright.PENANAwFfAkx8urN
「你是跟蹤狂嗎」36Please respect copyright.PENANAA6eAcY6e8y
「只是巧合哦~誰叫遊助剛好有要事要去你們那邊呢」36Please respect copyright.PENANAJRsdvpqCrg
「那你跟著我來這裡做甚麼」36Please respect copyright.PENANAffZ4Nv2x8j
「因為遊助就住在這附近哦~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAYa9dHTDmPI
「是…是嗎」36Please respect copyright.PENANAiLqKOqN1JV
這傢伙…真的好煩!36Please respect copyright.PENANAGoYItpkiju
雖然這傢伙除了嘴貧以外也不會做甚麼奇怪的事情,但就是莫名的讓人煩躁36Please respect copyright.PENANAcg6t55TPAA
「那就請你快點回家吧,我先走了」36Please respect copyright.PENANAPSP2evn5Z9
因為不想再奉陪下去,說完這句我就往他身後的電梯走去36Please respect copyright.PENANAiYZGnXbBsH
「春」36Please respect copyright.PENANA6PnF8WkTAL
!36Please respect copyright.PENANAOqtr0RAGSy
「噗嗤…」36Please respect copyright.PENANA6rKKhAIHv5
糟糕,聽到春的名字就不自覺停下了腳步36Please respect copyright.PENANApgwYUc9dMd
「……」36Please respect copyright.PENANAy6mDbVxzbS
他為什麼要突然喊春的名字36Please respect copyright.PENANAs4eiIs9n4w
「喂~你們——是吵架了吧?」36Please respect copyright.PENANA5j8qQcOsVz
為…為什麼?我跟春的事情他不可能會知道才對啊36Please respect copyright.PENANAsJK7ATY07R
「………才沒有」36Please respect copyright.PENANA43hzLEvIMc
「嗯哼~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAQMm5qwdHws
「怎樣啦」36Please respect copyright.PENANAS43wXDs9hu
「沒甚麼,只是很好奇而已」36Please respect copyright.PENANArkgWPlGUSh
「就算真的有甚麼事也與你無關吧!」36Please respect copyright.PENANA2Zp3DOAdwy
語氣不小心加重了,不過無所謂36Please respect copyright.PENANAlccbiDCuiz
「說是這麼說,但你是那種沒人告訴你該怎麼做的話就不知道該幹嘛的人吧?」36Please respect copyright.PENANA38D0stGlRP
「…………」36Please respect copyright.PENANAzp7M6F3Hvw
「就像是沒有自理能力的小鬼一樣,出門一定要賴在父母身邊,一離開了自己熟悉的道路馬上就會迷失方向」36Please respect copyright.PENANA4TEIucEele
「咕……」36Please respect copyright.PENANAcgzSUnEvbP
好不爽…36Please respect copyright.PENANAi1MFKF9shi
本來看到遊助就已經覺得很煩躁了,然後因為被這傢伙戳到痛處的關係變得更加不爽36Please respect copyright.PENANAPq7NjzOrjw
我明明也已經很努力去想辦法了…可是…36Please respect copyright.PENANA2uyStn1KZg
「遊助可是很樂意為迷路的小孩引路哦~?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAkfJ02MXouF
「蛤……?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAwzpV7gaQGD
遊助把右手攤在半空中,就像是在吸引我走過去一樣,後方輕快搖動的尾巴似乎正表達著他的愉悅36Please respect copyright.PENANAXN6qmHUKBD
剛剛還在附近的路人都已經離開,只剩我們兩人的月台變得異常安靜,耳邊只剩下車站外鴿子的叫聲,樹葉被風吹動的聲音,還有飛機劃過天空的聲音36Please respect copyright.PENANApVQQ0Qir3P
遊助那令人不適的眼神和笑容此刻在陰影和寂靜之下顯得更加陰暗詭異36Please respect copyright.PENANAVs6cBg5dvX
「怎麼啦~?」36Please respect copyright.PENANA89cxCZ1QWr
微風吹動了我們彼此的毛髮,卻沒把詭譎的氣氛吹走36Please respect copyright.PENANACJZcoMphr1
「——小老虎~」36Please respect copyright.PENANA62X2XkuNYz
「……………」36Please respect copyright.PENANAZMPgebePEC
又來了…這挑釁一般的語氣,又是像這樣擺出一副甚麼都知道的樣子,這傢伙到底是想怎樣啊!36Please respect copyright.PENANAQKyWD06R00
「怎麼?生氣可不能解決問題哦~這點道理小學生都聽說過吧」36Please respect copyright.PENANAy2aEELbTMW
這傢伙明明都已經察覺到了別人在不爽,卻還在淡然地笑著36Please respect copyright.PENANAHZSOwNBi0u
「還真是倔強啊~嘛,就告訴你一件好事吧~」36Please respect copyright.PENANA4yf7QR6TIa
「…甚麼?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAS0CemjvuEk
「附近的書店,之前有開放預購某個國外作者的新小說,今天下午好像就會開始發貨的樣子」36Please respect copyright.PENANAqeoeeclVEg
「…蛤?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAFWIXfDedDf
甚麼意思36Please respect copyright.PENANA33646wUA82
「所以你想見的人現在應該也會出現在附近吧,雖然能不能遇到就看緣份了」36Please respect copyright.PENANAuKQowFirPr
這是指…36Please respect copyright.PENANAbTL6OvPyLK
「…謝謝」36Please respect copyright.PENANAiMihBp7uuU
強忍著心裡對這隻狼的不爽道完謝後,我無視了似乎正在暗笑著的遊助,頭也不回的跑向電梯,離開了車站
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從車站出來時,因為對附近的街道不是很熟悉,只依稀記得這邊是通往商店街的出口,於是就往這邊走了36Please respect copyright.PENANA9RArj1piot
我走在陌生的道路上,抬頭望去蔚藍的天空和白雲依然清晰可見,春風把剛剛因緊張而冒出的汗水吹得一乾二淨36Please respect copyright.PENANAv0wn4r2dbA
但此刻比起舒適的天氣,更重要的是留意周遭的人36Please respect copyright.PENANABffsi5jhvy
「老師…會在附近嗎」36Please respect copyright.PENANAvReRqXmXvD
說到外國作者的小說…又是我們都認識,而且是我會想見到的人,那就只能是小田川老師了吧36Please respect copyright.PENANAtrvfW6pOeB
雖然也不知道為什麼但總之就是有這樣的感覺,或者說,就算老師哪天拿著一本外國的甚麼文學名著出現在我眼前也不會覺得違和36Please respect copyright.PENANAFn1lQOOUif
雖然心裡對那隻怪狼還是充滿著厭惡感,但如果他說的是真的話,那確實幫了我很大的忙36Please respect copyright.PENANAHq26G6TLvF
「不過話說回來…我也不知道書店在哪啊…剛是不是應該問完遊助再走啊…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAKI30KmVK2q
不對不對,再怎樣也不應該想到要問那傢伙36Please respect copyright.PENANASSfjex7ljA
我繼續張望著四周,著重留意有沒有像是書店的店舖,還有那些和我差不多高,或者穿著西裝的人36Please respect copyright.PENANAiJ2iOgN2vs
「赤木?」36Please respect copyright.PENANA36krbZmJUW
在我東張西望時,一把雄渾的聲音從我的後方傳來36Please respect copyright.PENANAU5kvc1Hwqr
「…小田川…老師?」36Please respect copyright.PENANARo6Y3PI532
老師的穿著和平常差不多,是天藍色的長袖襯衫和深藍色的長褲,果然是一年四季都穿得這麼整齊正式36Please respect copyright.PENANATknTOhytK8
「真巧啊」36Please respect copyright.PENANAL0wx8BFHCP
「老師…怎麼會在這裡?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAW3TBSfHjh8
「我剛剛去書店買點東西,你呢?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAjsoq2UdShV
說著老師舉起了印著書店Logo的紙袋,裡面裝著一本厚度是我永遠不會想拿起來看的書36Please respect copyright.PENANAyp7HE7RH0k
「不會吧…」36Please respect copyright.PENANA7mTMAGlsdh
真的被遊助說中了…36Please respect copyright.PENANAk1yfykZghK
「怎麼了?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAiEvqtqwzuj
「啊啊沒甚麼,只是散步啦,很久沒出門了,嘿嘿」36Please respect copyright.PENANAl9ASoI3qM3
「這樣啊」36Please respect copyright.PENANA1QWgLBsJZ8
小田川老師的話…一定能理解春現在的想法36Please respect copyright.PENANAw7ObdbFBtw
「那個!老師現在有空嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAvIDeAcjio0
「嗯?」36Please respect copyright.PENANA5TNHsq7rit
「有些事情…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0zVH7qjuF
老師愣了一下,看了看自己的手錶,好像在思考著甚麼36Please respect copyright.PENANAklWfwsVZ1Q
「這樣啊…我明白了,不過我晚點要回學校開會,所以只能聊一陣子」36Please respect copyright.PENANAtkqMfSRUPS
「好!」36Please respect copyright.PENANAXQectfL2Ui
「在街上聊不太方便,我們換個地方吧」
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老師帶著我走進了下午人山人海的商店街,然後中途轉進了一條人比較少的小街道,餐廳門口那略帶西方風格的門牌和寫著「今日推薦菜式」的木製立牌就在眼前36Please respect copyright.PENANAHX8aBnwSog
「Charles Cafe…?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAHEnG5HMqaZ
「赤木是第一次來嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAm7VPmWgar7
「啊——嗯」36Please respect copyright.PENANAgqoPiqT5L2
「我很喜歡這家店,雖然平常會像家庭餐廳那樣出售各種料理,但其實主要還是做喫茶店的業務」36Please respect copyright.PENANAnLAP31PN3r
確實是第一次來,因為平常跟老姐出門通常都是去百貨公司的餐廳或者美食廣場吃飯,從沒來過這附近36Please respect copyright.PENANA7BRQdV4bgG
「歡迎光臨~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAZihI6vYfQ0
推開門後,兔子店員的招呼聲伴隨著門口的鈴鐺聲一起傳來36Please respect copyright.PENANAml47Au7EzS
「赤木要點甚麼嗎」36Please respect copyright.PENANAbNoixUkMBr
因為下午餐廳裡沒甚麼人的關係,我們找了個靠近窗邊,比較寬敞的四人座,老師把紙袋放在座位裡邊後服務員送來了菜單36Please respect copyright.PENANAaB6KCcRBRx
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「我想要這個,水果芭菲」36Please respect copyright.PENANASQo7UcHC0j
「那請給我熱卡布奇諾還有檸檬派」36Please respect copyright.PENANAYdvj75aNPc
總覺得…跟點了成熟搭配的小田川老師對比,毫不猶豫點了冰淇淋的自己就像是個小孩子一樣…36Please respect copyright.PENANAHg6FsP28Y0
「好了,赤木你說有些事情,是發生了甚麼嗎」36Please respect copyright.PENANAIyLy7TRw5Y
「那個…其實…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAlnuBClMlJj
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在等待餐點的過程中,我把賞花那天的事情,包括偷聽了老師和春對話的事情,後來和春吵架的事情,還有現在的情況,一五一十告訴了小田川老師36Please respect copyright.PENANADOLRjYrFAR
「那天…偷聽了你們的對話,對不起」36Please respect copyright.PENANAIRr7mDReCz
「嗯…雖然確實很讓人意外,但是我不在意哦」36Please respect copyright.PENANAKYQdEDfpWp
老師說完後喝了一口剛剛送上來,還冒著白色熱氣的咖啡36Please respect copyright.PENANA8ub0MeaF4F
「太好了…」36Please respect copyright.PENANA50yPMORvOV
鬆一口氣後,我也跟著吃了一口眼前的芭菲,冰冷的感覺和甜味在嘴裡化開36Please respect copyright.PENANAMj0qDiBxEX
「老師…知道現在春在想甚麼嗎?總覺得…我已經完全搞不懂了,明明我只是想幫他而已,反而被他罵了回來,而且春那時的樣子也和平常完全不一樣」
—「你真的明白嗎???」
「…總覺得…有種可怕的感覺」36Please respect copyright.PENANAq1cNZgw1tk
「而且現在就算傳訊息給他也沒有反應,我果然被討厭了吧…?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAOAQyDVhEym
我用手抓起芭菲上的一顆草莓放進嘴裡,酸澀的果汁在嘴裡爆發,讓我不自覺皺起了眉頭36Please respect copyright.PENANAg0re2sIahP
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「赤木」36Please respect copyright.PENANA9GBTmobnwH
「嗯?是」36Please respect copyright.PENANAHjkswT8v25
老師聽完我說的話後笑了一笑,思索了一下後平靜地喊了我的名字36Please respect copyright.PENANAXypipN8Z75
「放心吧,宇治野不會因此而討厭你的,這一點我可以保證」36Please respect copyright.PENANASrkJ1ZZVPs
「欸?為什麼?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAcvUp7pZxPB
老師的話讓我稍微安心了下來36Please respect copyright.PENANAHR3WDSybD4
「因為,要我去討厭一個主動對自己好的人是做不到的,再說了…我不覺得宇治野會是那種因為幾句話就討厭別人的人」36Please respect copyright.PENANAhHqm7ydWc0
「……可是」36Please respect copyright.PENANA1M5y5J2bqn
但心裡還是覺得很不踏實36Please respect copyright.PENANA7LQyPh4ku6
「嗯……首先,像我剛說的,要討厭一個人本來就沒那麼容易,其次,只要不是虛偽的關心,那我想他會理解你的話,還有你那樣說的原因的,至少以我對他的了解,我不認為他是會憑一兩句話就下定論的人」36Please respect copyright.PENANAsruRu0ow9D
「…嗯」36Please respect copyright.PENANAmnHpCgBUPG
確實春平常做事的感覺也是偏向理性比較多就是了,或者說…這還是第一次看到他生氣的樣子36Please respect copyright.PENANAeFd5g9uiZN
「只是確實用錯方式了」36Please respect copyright.PENANAkj0i6DQJ4Y
「方式?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAHmC5MWXpIv
「沒錯,關心的方式」36Please respect copyright.PENANAlEjNHK4wSk
方式甚麼的…我當時也沒想太多,只是納悶春為什麼要這樣忍耐,為什麼要瞞著我們,是不想告訴我們,還是不信任我們?明明說出來也沒關係的說,可以一起解決…甚麼的36Please respect copyright.PENANAjCcjJHA8eV
「確實,真誠和熱心很重要,但是,他們不是強迫別人揭開內心的道具」36Please respect copyright.PENANAqmvdQDQoVV
「欸?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAodDKBgjAfx
強迫…36Please respect copyright.PENANA3ojfsjBEhL
因為聽到了意料之外的嚴重詞語,讓我有點錯愕36Please respect copyright.PENANAnbA76iF6DW
「不強迫別人說出自己不願意說的內心話,用真誠去打動對方,給予耐心,直到對方願意主動開口」36Please respect copyright.PENANAy150oEJkb2
「我……」36Please respect copyright.PENANAoBdpSbIeuI
「畢竟,有些感覺當事人是不容易察覺到的,但對於聆聽者而言卻會格外地刺耳,這就是語言的力量」36Please respect copyright.PENANA3LtJYfgi4e
也就是說……我當時…做得太過火了嗎?36Please respect copyright.PENANAvg6hOy01sQ
不知道是不是顧慮到我感受的關係,小田川老師似乎刻意挑選著詞語,讓我能夠理解他的話36Please respect copyright.PENANAH2IeG1SNUU
「赤木」36Please respect copyright.PENANAuWU8WhOFum
察覺到我的走神後,老師喊了我一聲36Please respect copyright.PENANAKREouhLbBX
「嗯?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAQg1q46XiBB
「你有沒有親自找過他?」36Please respect copyright.PENANArHUJEUD4EV
「這個……我當然是很想去找他啊,只是…」
—「你根本…甚麼都不懂」
「我現在去找他,應該只會有反效果吧?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAEGJIgcK4cs
春和宗介當時難過的表情再次浮現在了腦海裡,不斷削減著我的決心36Please respect copyright.PENANAs4K89PkTPh
「而且…我還是不理解,為什麼春當時的表情,像是在生氣,但又像是難過到想哭的樣子,他現在在想甚麼,我到底該做甚麼,我真的……完全搞不懂啊!」36Please respect copyright.PENANAkIKHSLh2R7
明明從小以來和那麼多人打過交道,建立過關係,但到了自己要去處理人際關係的時候卻還是甚麼都不懂36Please respect copyright.PENANAHDk9NJs0OT
現在想想,或許是因為這一切都來得太過自然了,一直都是順從著自己的內心去跟別人相處,反而讓我更加不懂該怎麼去處理這些關係,也沒人教過我該怎麼做,結果就是一次次地踢到鐵板
—「就像是沒有自理能力的小鬼一樣,出門一定要賴在父母身邊,一離開了自己熟悉的道路馬上就會迷失方向」
「我…害怕自己會再搞砸」36Please respect copyright.PENANA5i6EnfxV82
啊啊啊好不爽!偏偏是因為被遊助那傢伙說完的關係,結果現在反而更能認清自己的缺點了36Please respect copyright.PENANA04DR9Uadju
意識到這點的我狠狠抓了一把自己的頭髮36Please respect copyright.PENANAaviNucLJBJ
「害怕…是嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAFo1tnY4W8a
「呃…嗯」36Please respect copyright.PENANAXKp6sj7chI
「放輕鬆點,我懂的,因為害怕而不知所措,無法前行的感覺」36Please respect copyright.PENANA79lAHlDHth
老師放下了手裡的咖啡杯,陶瓷杯和咖啡盤碰撞的瞬間發出了清脆響亮的聲音,讓我稍微冷靜了下來36Please respect copyright.PENANAJhl0NmDDBW
「每當這個時候我就會告訴自己——如果繼續害怕下去的話就甚麼都做不到了」36Please respect copyright.PENANAMIbCffALe5
「我當然也知道…只是我現在到底要怎麼辦啊~~~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAsT2AZ1e8iF
「等待」36Please respect copyright.PENANARDIJ0tekU9
「…蛤?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAMYIu80lgdp
等…等待?36Please respect copyright.PENANAPDKt5LDGnb
「清楚這一點的人,不只你和我吧,我想宇治野現在大概也在猶豫」36Please respect copyright.PENANAiLDzLjPK1W
「跟春有甚麼關係?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAzJtpi7iqQX
「那個時候,他對你發怒了,對吧?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAJjTN6UFpIk
「啊…嗯」36Please respect copyright.PENANAz2eiVQT7jJ
「但是,我想那並不是他的本意」36Please respect copyright.PENANAWEstwsXgW3
「欸…?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAtyajKcNwoX
老師又喝了一口咖啡36Please respect copyright.PENANAFBcXdDPz2Z
「是說…春其實也不想發怒…的意思嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAp6Ruo2RVoh
「嗯,所以,我想他現在應該也在後悔,後悔著自己當時的衝動,想道歉卻不知道怎麼開口,害怕自己的衝動會被對方討厭…之類的」36Please respect copyright.PENANAcGklsMKw7v
老師苦笑了幾聲後繼續說著36Please respect copyright.PENANAc7hHwWFkkp
「我稍微能理解這樣的自責感」36Please respect copyright.PENANAGOqgWB6dB9
春…36Please respect copyright.PENANA1YR0B5S0Qy
「所以只要等待就可以了,等到他自己準備好,來找你的時候」36Please respect copyright.PENANAm0YOLZT4hp
「可是這不就等於是在叫我甚麼都不要做嗎…」36Please respect copyright.PENANA1YHrCOqbcF
「有時候,過度的關心反而會帶給別人壓力的」36Please respect copyright.PENANARdXLwc23ct
「欸…?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAHuNpZvrBu6
「尤其對於內心比較敏感的人而言,過度,或者說…不恰當的關心反而會讓他們更加為難」36Please respect copyright.PENANAc5CTobKqhj
過度…不恰當…36Please respect copyright.PENANASM1uelxj89
「我…還是搞不懂…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAsRYQAfzJbh
明明只是想幫他而已36Please respect copyright.PENANA2J8yGlu5Bv
「…宇治野那時候有說甚麼嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAz9ftuAYEvb
「他說……我甚麼都不懂,還有很羨慕我,甚麼都敢說……之類的」36Please respect copyright.PENANAyl27UvU686
我回憶著當時春說過的話,連帶著他當時苦澀的表情一併出現在腦海裡36Please respect copyright.PENANAtX4Vpe1LrK
「噗…確實啊,赤木這種有話直說的個性是會讓內向的人羨慕的」36Please respect copyright.PENANAhWDcrHlFkK
「欸…?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAnrED9YkK3o
這是誇獎還是在貶我36Please respect copyright.PENANA9xSma7fPjV
「不過,他已經把答案告訴你了不是嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAUHCMSelQMg
老師把最後一口檸檬派放進了嘴裡,然後喝了一口咖啡36Please respect copyright.PENANAVbRsPOt0ds
「答案?」36Please respect copyright.PENANA7cTZdHeIjc
「沒錯,為什麼會生氣的答案,還有,你可以做甚麼的答案」36Please respect copyright.PENANAKvk9hgASZo
「…………」36Please respect copyright.PENANAZRGeo5Gt4i
老師放下已經變空的杯子後,看了看自己的手表36Please respect copyright.PENANApcITX94A0k
「雖然很抱歉,但我差不多該走了,總而言之,但放輕鬆一點吧,他會來找你的」36Please respect copyright.PENANAIfFLgVaxba
「啊…嗯」36Please respect copyright.PENANAwjUM5LV9fs
「到時候要好好道歉和好啊」36Please respect copyright.PENANAqeUy6MevaP
老師拿起裝著書的紙袋還有桌上的單據向著收銀台走去,付完錢後推開了深褐色的玻璃木門離開了餐廳36Please respect copyright.PENANAY4B9c5daTO
「會來找我的…嗎」36Please respect copyright.PENANAmMyozSaiPM
說起來…老師走得這麼快,都忘了錢的事情了,他不會把我那份也付了吧?
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—「不過,他已經把答案告訴你了不是嗎?」
「答案…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAhjPvsHshsg
老師走後,寬敞的四人座裡只剩下我一個人,我一邊咀嚼著老師的話,一邊吃著已經半融化的冰淇淋,這副情景如果是在繁忙時段的話應該會被人側目吧,不過現在還只是下午三點多而已,所以沒關係36Please respect copyright.PENANAWV5kGvBpYS
「提醒過你的吧,你的單純總有一天會害了你」36Please respect copyright.PENANAGLeqXv4UHz
「甚麼…?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAf97xq5lA14
當我邊思考邊用湯匙挖著玻璃杯裡的冰淇淋時,一把不久前才聽過的輕浮聲音從右前方傳來,吸引了我的注意36Please respect copyright.PENANAersEU0FLqR
「樣子還真是淒慘啊」36Please respect copyright.PENANAMrqFJHW1SW
「遊助?!」36Please respect copyright.PENANArh0hip7Akq
為什麼又遇到這傢伙了?在這裡?36Please respect copyright.PENANAbUmp3p6DDB
「為什麼你會在這裡啊?!」36Please respect copyright.PENANAKQVELRBT9k
「哎呀?遊助沒跟你說過嗎,遊助一~直都在這裡打工哦~」36Please respect copyright.PENANADYJjwNRQQv
「真的假的…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAjKjiXvS35S
「真的喲~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAE3ZPvEp6G0
…………36Please respect copyright.PENANATc7wF9vvCj
「那你倒是去工作啊…怎麼有空來搭話」36Please respect copyright.PENANA4X6oUOmi1W
「遊助今天的上班時間還沒到哦~只是因為另一邊的要事已經不需要遊助了,所以才提早過來的,再說現在可是非繁忙時段,超級閒的哦」36Please respect copyright.PENANA3vmDFMI6Ve
仔細一看遊助身上也沒有穿制服36Please respect copyright.PENANA7fXS484wIj
「你是甚麼時候來的」36Please respect copyright.PENANA2Zge4KVp3E
「嗯~大概三十分鐘前吧,遊助一直坐在後面的座位哦~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAKpT5mcsPVk
那不是來得比我們還早嗎?!這傢伙絕對是故意的吧?36Please respect copyright.PENANAZggPIC4IqS
「你一直在偷聽我們的對話嗎…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAiFJrqi0fGK
「可以這麼說吧~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAKq3UpS7viW
「你這傢伙也太惡趣味了…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAFGjXt9RtQ0
「謝謝誇獎~」36Please respect copyright.PENANANdcCwWhdRA
這傢伙還是一如既往的讓人煩躁36Please respect copyright.PENANA7uXQcjJbuR
「真誠不是道具,而是一種態度嗎…哎呀~還真是學到了一課呢~」36Please respect copyright.PENANA30WIn7q2RW
遊助總結著剛剛小田川老師說的話,不過他的語氣卻給人一種諷刺感36Please respect copyright.PENANAXeT4Q5PByy
「你好像很不認同的樣子」36Please respect copyright.PENANApwAHrGks6p
「怎麼會呢~?遊助可是百分百認同老師的話哦~只不過遊助用不到而已」36Please respect copyright.PENANAx7oMypfPzM
「你甚麼意思啊」36Please respect copyright.PENANAcBGWXV8onT
「因為遊助不需要真誠也能理解別人的真心,就是這麼簡單」36Please respect copyright.PENANA0ORFPT4dEf
遊助攤開雙手,聳了聳肩36Please respect copyright.PENANAAbfb6ADKNQ
「甚麼啊…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAzc6g4EQNmj
又在說些奇怪的話了36Please respect copyright.PENANAhB0a3NAkeL
「說起來~你好像還是很迷茫呢」36Please respect copyright.PENANAI1cOjSCcds
…………36Please respect copyright.PENANAhOOFMznQae
「——對於那兩個『答案』」36Please respect copyright.PENANA5XmfvB8lT9
「…你想說甚麼」36Please respect copyright.PENANAVlEUBJ9XIM
「教你一件事吧」36Please respect copyright.PENANAvjBoZ7EhDW
「甚麼…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAxhcUdJ5fIf
「就算是朋友也好,也不是每件事都需要全盤托出的」36Please respect copyright.PENANAdLtRd04DaU
遊助的眼中閃過一道寒光,緊緊地盯著我36Please respect copyright.PENANAxuT7N4v2NZ
「…………」36Please respect copyright.PENANAjEvHOC01Ce
「尤其是——對於一個完全不理解的人」
—「你根本…甚麼都不懂」
我坐著在座位上,遊助站在我面前36Please respect copyright.PENANAYWpDj74lZk
我看著遊助的笑容,因為仰視的關係,他一貫的惡笑在我眼裡彷彿比平常還多了幾分譏笑,讓人不寒而慄36Please respect copyright.PENANADArQGtDxLy
「…………」36Please respect copyright.PENANA8sPZnB0JdR
「………」36Please respect copyright.PENANA9d8MXiaSNg
「……」36Please respect copyright.PENANAMP7kM48xF3
「…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAwVyCIWtgio
又是死一般的寂靜,我無法回答遊助的話,我也不確定到底是不理解他的話,還是不想去理解36Please respect copyright.PENANANg9KH17LPJ
我發呆似的低頭挖著杯裡的冰淇淋,鐵湯匙和玻璃容器的磨擦發出了令人不悅的聲音36Please respect copyright.PENANAoo6uzJyQQy
「叮——」36Please respect copyright.PENANACUfzdjD50i
這次遊助沒有說話,而是由我手機的通知聲打破沉默,響徹了周圍36Please respect copyright.PENANAr4KkGsFppO
我呆滯地拿起手機,檢查著是由誰傳來的訊息,但在看到姓名的瞬間,我的精神就湧現了出來36Please respect copyright.PENANAoxRlUuOLhf
「是春!!」36Please respect copyright.PENANAw1VHCfJx3a
「哧…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAWkwAAobM7C
因為通知欄只顯示了訊息的前半部分,我迫切地點進了Line,想看看完整的訊息36Please respect copyright.PENANAujPhvq339m
「可以出來見個面嗎,可以的話,4點在之前去的市鎮公園的門口見」 36Please respect copyright.PENANAVhMyG4cFBr
4點?36Please respect copyright.PENANAUzRJUbnpzU
我看向手機的時間,發現已經是3點39分了36Please respect copyright.PENANAABTugoyugt
「要快點了!」36Please respect copyright.PENANAhIZp068p1T
我快速收拾著東西,一口氣把剩下的冰淇淋灌進嘴裡後,打算離開座位跑去車站,但剛踏出腳步的一瞬間就被遊助的聲音截住36Please respect copyright.PENANA3AG9bnTOyJ
「Last Hint」36Please respect copyright.PENANAkIC94o9RVf
我轉向背後,看向身後的遊助36Please respect copyright.PENANAvsaxRU39Jv
「最後的…提示?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAL6hD8Xozqk
「自以為是的關心可比純粹的惡意可怕多了,不要把人心看扁了,那孩子內心藏著的可遠比你想的要多,小—老—虎—」36Please respect copyright.PENANAHvAlYRPk9w
遊助用手指擺出了手槍的姿勢,戳了戳自己的太陽穴,就像是用槍口對準自己的腦袋一樣36Please respect copyright.PENANAewfdYyXSjM
「嗯…」36Please respect copyright.PENANA2RxjATT7g3
聽完後,我轉身跑向出口,推開木門,沿著來的道路快步返回,衝向車站月台,登上了電車36Please respect copyright.PENANAESwV6f1bc9
我看著車窗外不斷向後推移的景色,著急著能不能在4點前趕到市鎮公園36Please respect copyright.PENANAMvqrL9f1vJ
「答案…」36Please respect copyright.PENANA9M2vFoIOL6
而此時老師和遊助的話還一直縈繞在我的腦海裡
—「赤木這種有話直說的個性是會讓內向的人羨慕的」36Please respect copyright.PENANAktyXDdwhdw
—「就算是朋友也好,也不是每件事都需要全盤托出的」
車門的玻璃映照著我的臉龐,看上去至少有比早上的時候精神一點了36Please respect copyright.PENANAUqjvxYeSZ0
「下一站是……」36Please respect copyright.PENANA82Mc6O9E5I
廣播的電子音宣讀出下一站的站名,也是我要下車的車站,我握緊了離開餐廳後就沒再發出動靜的手機,等待著車門開啟
—「不強迫別人說出自己不願意說的內心話,用真誠去打動對方,給予耐心,直到對方願意主動開口」
我確實還不了解春在想甚麼,需要甚麼;但至少,要告訴他我的想法36Please respect copyright.PENANAUEMoCFt4ln
等到哪天,春想要說出真心話的時候……
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離開車站後,我竭力跑向市鎮公園的方向,離公園入口的拱門還剩一點距離的時候,我檢查了手機的時間36Please respect copyright.PENANAhkchh9L8Px
「4點3分……」36Please respect copyright.PENANA4dWKhlikQM
雖然大口喘著氣,喉嚨也很乾涸,但身體上的疲累還是掩蓋不過心裡湧出的興奮,因為我已經看到了春那天藍色的身影,他靠在了公園的大拱門上,表情冷淡地看著自己的手機,就像是一如既往的樣子36Please respect copyright.PENANAqnPPzMYnAB
「春!!」36Please respect copyright.PENANANCsHRbxOVD
我喊了他的名字,他的身體前傾了一下,然後向我露出了個為難的笑容,像是被嚇到的樣子36Please respect copyright.PENANAMvJldLTRcR
「…………」36Please respect copyright.PENANAClCJDPjlFo
我跑到他的身邊,因為跑著跑著突然停下來的緣故,呼吸和腳步都還很混亂,我彎腰用手撐著膝蓋,在原地不斷大口呼吸著空氣36Please respect copyright.PENANAds1OBpnyIk
「沒…沒事吧你…不用這麼急吧」36Please respect copyright.PENANA9H5vPmGa3c
是春的聲音,雖然發生這麼多事情也只不過是短短一周時間,但再聽到這把熟悉的聲音時心裡還是有種舒暢的感覺36Please respect copyright.PENANA0Q1to9Ezhs
「春…那個……」36Please respect copyright.PENANA3BIXbnPfTm
呼吸稍微順暢一點後,我用手臂擦了擦額頭的汗,挺直身體看向了春36Please respect copyright.PENANAkP2UtpFPm3
「真的…抱歉!」36Please respect copyright.PENANAGOkq0tZm1s
「對不起…之前…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAxSOm47jD7T
異口同聲36Please respect copyright.PENANAowO81cAD2l
「春?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAA9bQnhh4W4
「欸…?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAbLmYJgRO9q
他似乎也很驚訝的樣子36Please respect copyright.PENANAj34QuUQhvR
「啊……呃…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAdjuFfQ6yxP
有點尷尬36Please respect copyright.PENANAdLZQmbIA1E
「春,那個…其實…」36Please respect copyright.PENANA59mbSWuleG
剛剛在電車上的時候明明有想過該怎麼道歉,但此刻我的腦中卻一片空白,我在搞甚麼啊36Please respect copyright.PENANA7ZIH3jtvbj
「甚…甚麼?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAgzAWqaYSP2
春看著我,嚴格來說,是側著頭,斜眼看著我的身體,似乎是想讓我先說完的樣子36Please respect copyright.PENANA7ESQIjx1IJ
「咳…之前的事…是我做得過分了,不…不該…強迫你說不想說的事情的……還有偷聽的事情也是…」36Please respect copyright.PENANA9dkaU95tw0
有生以來第一次跟朋友說話說得這麼艱難和語無倫次36Please respect copyright.PENANAPTfZEUUlCc
我喘著粗氣,用運動後變得遲鈍的大腦組織著語言,努力把所有想表達的內容都涵蓋進去36Please respect copyright.PENANAFGGPBjbtEH
「不…不是,你沒有做錯!只是…我那時太衝動了…說了很過分的話……對不起」36Please respect copyright.PENANAnnKbva88Ay
春看向了一旁,右手用力抓著自己後腦勺的頭髮,似乎很尷尬很不習慣的樣子36Please respect copyright.PENANAmRh8xOBxOF
「不過…確實是因為我才…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAAUtRrtgfL5
「沒有…只是我……」36Please respect copyright.PENANAUDrunQ9wsG
「可是……」36Please respect copyright.PENANAlZBuDxj1Ic
「是我……」36Please respect copyright.PENANAZXLKOO1mbt
「…………」36Please respect copyright.PENANA46rvRGEbdi
「…………」36Please respect copyright.PENANArsktmdlXnO
安靜36Please respect copyright.PENANAWwe9kcWz0U
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「噗…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAOmeldoDuSi
不知為何,明明是認真的時候,但我的嘴巴卻不爭氣地為這個奇妙的情況笑了出來36Please respect copyright.PENANA9SxQ6wryMF
「呃………」36Please respect copyright.PENANA6caSK4XEv8
春看到後露出了奇妙的表情,嘆了一口氣後把右手放了下來,似乎是放鬆了的樣子36Please respect copyright.PENANAFszhbEul6i
「總而言之…還是抱歉…那天的事,還有這周不讀不回的事」36Please respect copyright.PENANAv1lnupDX4I
「不用在意啦,真的,而且再怎麼說都是我有錯在先」36Please respect copyright.PENANAmbm2ia4zTl
我向他笑著甩了甩手36Please respect copyright.PENANAJ4GfzPX13A
「虎徹…」36Please respect copyright.PENANA9HDBPrvIbN
「對了,還有一件事」36Please respect copyright.PENANAILnInhLh88
「甚麼?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAJWoIcWUxwC
我深呼吸了一下
—「你真的明白嗎???」 36Please respect copyright.PENANAJvAipnUanG
—「不強迫別人說出自己不願意說的內心話,用真誠去打動對方,給予耐心,直到對方願意主動開口」
要告訴他,我的真誠36Please respect copyright.PENANAL3MBWOO5Q6
「我…確實不明白春的心事,也不知道能怎麼幫你,不過……」36Please respect copyright.PENANAwzRkm7zc3V
「…………」36Please respect copyright.PENANAytYyhyMG2I
「如果哪天春想找人說出來,想找人幫忙,或者想怎麼樣也好,我都不會介意的,或者說,我一定會來找你的,所以………」36Please respect copyright.PENANAm2TMztAkPz
「所以……?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAlfSsPtibAP
「嗯……啊……呃………不知道啦!總之就是這個意思」36Please respect copyright.PENANAh6Kd4O0P0T
感覺到我的大腦已經過熱了36Please respect copyright.PENANAdcURcpce42
「噗……」36Please respect copyright.PENANA8qQmN2vJz0
春笑了36Please respect copyright.PENANAIWDmHpX107
「嗯」36Please respect copyright.PENANAejdqnu43L1
然後是像平常一樣的,簡短的回應36Please respect copyright.PENANAOOxisRTKhi
「…謝謝」36Please respect copyright.PENANA4k446JK7DO
聽到春的回應後,我緊繃的肩膀終於鬆了下來,然後…36Please respect copyright.PENANALAUCwJfOvd
「欸春」36Please respect copyright.PENANANupq0Vq5kE
「甚麼?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAWHSeQI4Mlf
我甚麼話也沒說,走到春的身後36Please respect copyright.PENANAHFBtBr0868
「喂…喂!虎徹」36Please respect copyright.PENANAttlzfB37N0
然後像往常一樣,從後環抱了一下春的身體,彎下腰把臉蹭了過去,感覺到還是一如既往的觸感我就放開了36Please respect copyright.PENANA8DDiuwqhzT
「你在幹嘛啊…」36Please respect copyright.PENANAXi9ymXEojw
「嘿嘿,只是覺得很久沒這樣做了」36Please respect copyright.PENANA7GW0rHIXCf
「真是的…不要再做這種事了」36Please respect copyright.PENANA5FgOCdg8ZH
連反應都一模一樣36Please respect copyright.PENANAYmgWP3sdbH
「可是很舒服不是嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANA1PiM2w8cWp
「舒服是甚麼鬼啊…!算了……」36Please respect copyright.PENANABSMt3ipoxr
「嘿嘿」36Please respect copyright.PENANA7QXoGeRQmD
「噗…笨蛋」36Please respect copyright.PENANAtZABiyG14W
迎著黃昏的到來,公園裡粉白色的櫻花被染上了一抹橘紅36Please respect copyright.PENANAVTpnHpxoCP
而我們兩人就這樣看著彼此的臉頰,發出了舒坦的傻笑36Please respect copyright.PENANA9liXviauSQ
「太好了」——我在心裡這麼想著