oh kay...hi to everyone who read until here
ik i said im going to update everyday with the project 21 thing but since i didnt update i bet u can tell that that didn't go well
idk wat i have been doing but wat i do know is that i need to lock the tf TF IN
all i have been doing for the past few weeks is eat and watch movies .and guess wat also went down last week? my fricking finals.....which i flunked bc i lack any kind of control on myself whatsoever. all i did was read some notes and show up for the exam
Anyway finals are over and next year is grade twelve.on march 2nd i am going to be a 12h grader ...and i need to start grinding for my entrance exam in may next year.
Thats the update on my life situation . Boring i know but i had to vent about it.
Do you ever wonder how people are born so naturally talented and good looking. I have this friend . She ,for lack of a better word , other worldly. She is the best singer at our school , tops all exams , naturally beautiful, a great dancer, actor, artist and good at everything else you could think of. Cooking? yep. Drawing? heck ye. writing? hell yes. Athlete? a star in that field for real
She is one of my best friends...and yet i could not find it in myself to be jealous of her though she was everything that i was not , never could be and always wanted to be. I like to think the reason i did not feel jealous is because of what a great person i am ....but the fact is that she just has her way with people. The countless number of guys that have tried to pursue her .ye u would not believe the effect this girl has on people. She could influence anyone in to doing what she wants. It was just in her nature to get what she wants.
She was all that and nobody seemed envious of her . As one of her closest friends i could tell that she was one of the most caring an selfless person I have ever met
So that's the thing . people with the full package do exist. But one day we were talking ......she was upset she did not do well for a chemistry test and our teacher was a bit disappointed and we were talking about it because she was upset and she told me she felt like a piece of junk occupying space on earth ..............and the way i was flabbergasted with that . Her, the epitome of perfect , at her peak performance at everything .........felt like THAT? ........i thought that feeling was reserved for useless talent less individuals like me.
Which brings me to the conclusion i draw from this .......u could be talented , beautiful, wanted and loved by all.......but still end up feeling that way because u live for others. I believe the reason she felt that way was because she considered pleasing and living up to the expectations of others the sole purpose in her life.
What if u could just turn it all off you know? live for yourself . not give a single shit about what others have to say to u. be so obsessed with your goal , build steel so resistant that their comments just hit your surface and reflect back to hit them in their own face?
PS: Im reinstating project 21 as of tomorrow...........hopefully this works this time
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