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No Plagiarism!C7c6FCE8gyBapJL5TmA6posted on PENANA 那天下午,我只是想來拿一份報告。8964 copyright protection57PENANAU9gdqtF32w 維尼
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諮商中心樓下的自動販賣機,還是會吐出半溫不冷的礦泉水。這幾年來唯一不變的東西,大概就剩這個了。8964 copyright protection57PENANAPiKn4JNkrt 維尼
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只是我沒想到會在這裡看到她。8964 copyright protection57PENANA9Ij8bS1MWa 維尼
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她剪短了頭髮,比我記憶中還瘦,臉色也比以前白了一點。穿著制服外套,但不是我們當年聊過的那間學校。我沒走過去,只是站在原地,看她從大門走進來,腳步很輕,好像隨時會被風捲走。8964 copyright protection57PENANASEYUPD8j8c 維尼
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我原本以為,如果再遇見她,我會不知道該說什麼。但話竟然自己從喉嚨滑了出來。8964 copyright protection57PENANAABSjYxdCPd 維尼
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「……我們,能不能再交往一次?」8964 copyright protection57PENANAROZnqX51bf 維尼
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她站在我面前,沒說話,只是看著我。那眼神裡有很多東西——疲倦、熟悉,還有一點點不忍心。8964 copyright protection57PENANAyCXsi89YOs 維尼
但沒有回答。8964 copyright protection57PENANALbBYpImCyn 維尼
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她走進去了,像什麼都沒發生一樣。8964 copyright protection57PENANAIR7yl7agNd 維尼
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那天晚上,我躺在床上翻出舊訊息。8964 copyright protection57PENANA10Epwg2H5H 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAlrq7ZtCkPD
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我曾經寫了一段長長的話,打了又刪,刪了又寫,最後存在草稿裡,從來沒按下「傳送」。8964 copyright protection57PENANA1t3KOnVrr6 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAuzqHE1P0CG
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「如果有一天你真的不想回我了,沒關係,我不會怪你。8964 copyright protection57PENANA6a9uta5fqk 維尼
我知道你不是真的走掉,只是比我還努力地活著。」8964 copyright protection57PENANACWfvRo65ms 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA7ij4d6DFSH
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她再也沒回來過。8964 copyright protection57PENANAChpsiuf395 維尼
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我也沒再問。8964 copyright protection57PENANAoOIqNhpEVl 維尼
那次見面,是她主動說想來的。8964 copyright protection57PENANAVCVMXcOk3H 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA1BP6QBwLH2
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她說她剛好放寒假,也想換個地方透口氣。8964 copyright protection57PENANAtLrcCTl6b9 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAgV4XBNOgG1
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我沒有太多遲疑就答應了。8964 copyright protection57PENANAK0JPjSrZqK 維尼
雖然我知道,我們都還未成年,她一個人坐三個小時的車來見網友,這種事說出來誰都會皺眉。8964 copyright protection57PENANAzA73DwbeC0 維尼
但當下的我,只覺得——8964 copyright protection57PENANAb07HtiE17W 維尼
她能來見我,是一種信任。8964 copyright protection57PENANAhdFztCsshb 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAaGXeht5ft8
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我提早半小時到車站。8964 copyright protection57PENANAKx6L9C93PB 維尼
天氣冷,月台上的風硬得像砂紙一樣。8964 copyright protection57PENANA9FF1bbv05p 維尼
我記得自己來回走了幾趟,手機在手裡翻來翻去,連要不要拿花都想了又想,最後當然是沒有買。8964 copyright protection57PENANAcdLflitH3X 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA5T12obaJ13
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她穿著一件黑色大衣,背著書包,一眼就認出我。8964 copyright protection57PENANAoCBdt2RwZc 維尼
我們對過照片,但她本人比照片瘦很多。8964 copyright protection57PENANAzJJvpRf2vz 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA47t4qKA7qH
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她笑著對我揮手,那瞬間我有點忘了怎麼動作。8964 copyright protection57PENANAy184WEmEE7 維尼
我也笑了,然後點頭,就像老朋友那樣自然,卻又有點不自在。8964 copyright protection57PENANAL0FtRSyn4V 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAN1z9ZRtoNQ
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61Please respect copyright.PENANAvHvSydn0My
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我們那天沒做什麼特別的事。8964 copyright protection57PENANAdb2kPFsCff 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAujw4SdHgW0
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去了一家巷子裡的咖啡廳,氣氛不錯,甜點難吃。8964 copyright protection57PENANAmJ2zLyknI8 維尼
她點了紅茶沒喝完,我點了杯太甜的可可。8964 copyright protection57PENANAgLxgsvpbuv 維尼
我們聊了很多平常不敢跟別人聊的東西,但也有幾段對話卡住。8964 copyright protection57PENANAi51v5BenhL 維尼
有時我們會突然安靜,但不是尷尬的那種,而是有點像——終於可以不用一直打字的那種放鬆。8964 copyright protection57PENANAIhEjw0vVma 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAaXlnOtirM1
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我記得她看著窗外說了一句話。8964 copyright protection57PENANAEB3aQZy0Od 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAa92EJBOwyu
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「這樣坐在一起,很像正常情侶欸。」8964 copyright protection57PENANA8VEyClHHWm 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANANtUU33Y3i4
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她說完就笑了。8964 copyright protection57PENANABORYOCT4K0 維尼
但我聽得出來,她不是開玩笑。8964 copyright protection57PENANASiHwDAxkjE 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA0spkJ9y2ZG
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我沒有接話,只是看著她那副想掩飾什麼的神情。8964 copyright protection57PENANAl0kjb1wQIt 維尼
我突然覺得,我好像不是她想像中的那個「能讓她變好」的人。8964 copyright protection57PENANAdi1lHzeNvT 維尼
也許我也只是個正在崩塌的人,剛好跟她一樣爛而已。8964 copyright protection57PENANARz1RSYxOPs 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAYRE4PtRQwp
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61Please respect copyright.PENANAMbpC4rgjIS
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她傍晚就要走,我送她回車站。8964 copyright protection57PENANApaDkZmAg5x 維尼
路上我們沒說太多話。8964 copyright protection57PENANAc2imKDwpMC 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAUOcC9nZKAR
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快到月台時,她突然停下來,看著我。8964 copyright protection57PENANAelBa7LGfVp 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAI6Dpm8YwmU
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「我覺得你會變好。」8964 copyright protection57PENANA024HsnTL30 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAotIhFQo44J
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那不是鼓勵,也不像是安慰。8964 copyright protection57PENANA5OPX3kCpt8 維尼
比較像……她對自己的期望。8964 copyright protection57PENANAQ9jNQlYmYv 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAvvd2mZ1CB8
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我還沒來得及回應,她就轉身走向剪票口。8964 copyright protection57PENANAzE7LqSGgK5 維尼
她沒回頭,我也沒叫她。8964 copyright protection57PENANA4hZzwpzxI4 維尼
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那天晚上,我傳了一句訊息給她,寫了又刪,最後只打了這樣:8964 copyright protection57PENANAKUDRc7mfDr 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAuKfHe8LIQj
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「我也覺得,今天像真的。」8964 copyright protection57PENANAZqRIUGAaDK 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAFOoFYXx6NF
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然後我按了送出。8964 copyright protection57PENANA066VU9XFgX 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA7zxVuLglGG
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但在那之前,我原本寫的是:8964 copyright protection57PENANAfmAfksP0dl 維尼
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「如果你願意,我可以去你那邊找你。8964 copyright protection57PENANAbCRe4tSXXG 維尼
我不知道能不能幫你變好,但我想試試看。8964 copyright protection57PENANA04gXAso9jq 維尼
我只是很怕,有一天你會不見,像我以前那些人一樣。8964 copyright protection57PENANApPBJ8qDtmS 維尼
所以我想,至少在你還在的時候,我應該做點什麼。」8964 copyright protection57PENANAuhhZCXDFnZ 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANABZSDgOF01K
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我沒傳出那段話。8964 copyright protection57PENANAfyJrFr0bys 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAgasYyHy4qM
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而後來的我們,真的就只見過那一次。8964 copyright protection57PENANAWsJadA6Zbc 維尼
我花了三天,寫了一封信給妳。8964 copyright protection57PENANAFyrFvbGFxT 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAcaWsiCk7gV
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一開始只是想說清楚一點,至少讓妳知道為什麼我會離開。8964 copyright protection57PENANAJXBce7UF3O 維尼
但寫著寫著,我才發現,我真正想解釋的,不是分手的理由,而是——8964 copyright protection57PENANAqBVVDLxzYu 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAQNt9FslhkO
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我很遺憾,沒能成為妳值得依靠的那個人。8964 copyright protection57PENANAxT2jd0xNM6 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA4WwExjEfj5
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61Please respect copyright.PENANAQeQJcrUuXK
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給妳:8964 copyright protection57PENANAa6FAhxEMwC 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAD5SGf6MTR0
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我想過很多次,我到底能不能陪妳一直走下去。8964 copyright protection57PENANAE0pjCrxTvE 維尼
不是我不願意,也不是我不想努力,而是我開始發現,我好像越來越不會愛人了。8964 copyright protection57PENANAT6LKkeoSbS 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANALoz6M3tpC0
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我常常在等妳回訊息的時候,看著聊天室一行行字往上滑,8964 copyright protection57PENANAQkhZyQy3lY 維尼
以前我們可以從凌晨聊到天亮,8964 copyright protection57PENANAZHiwDvKva8 維尼
但最近……連貼圖都不會多一個。8964 copyright protection57PENANAapl7zErSkN 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAqsv31FUxHG
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妳說妳在努力活著,我知道。8964 copyright protection57PENANAJqZ40d5wtm 維尼
只是我開始害怕,哪天我也撐不下去,8964 copyright protection57PENANA5hloQls8FQ 維尼
然後我們會一起崩潰,沒有誰能救誰。8964 copyright protection57PENANAzYci3oEf90 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAC74oOm2fgL
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有一陣子,我很想說服自己堅持下去。8964 copyright protection57PENANAWt9tKHY2m1 維尼
我甚至查了妳學校附近的住宿,想請假去看妳。8964 copyright protection57PENANANzOGDgp5gK 維尼
但妳好像愈來愈遠,像隔著玻璃,看得見卻碰不到。8964 copyright protection57PENANAmoOFIp5b0w 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAd8bUgvVHKB
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我不想當那個讓妳更糟的人。8964 copyright protection57PENANANzyjF8axLO 維尼
如果我退開一點,妳是不是比較有空間好起來?8964 copyright protection57PENANAI5uZbDbY4z 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA8tlP3aBXq4
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我沒有辦法當妳的光。8964 copyright protection57PENANAYUcN6z5k95 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAAZNA9W1jco
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但我希望妳還記得,我曾經很努力想當。8964 copyright protection57PENANAZOi5ly6ntR 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAxVu6DSNqR9
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對不起。8964 copyright protection57PENANA6oj3LzcRyw 維尼
也謝謝妳。8964 copyright protection57PENANA3HLkJYNGHT 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAqBkrKnp15k
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不是妳不好,只是我不夠強。8964 copyright protection57PENANAAWD1Lcixat 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA5wFpCWchNR
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我反覆修改這封信十幾次,每次讀完都覺得有哪裡太矯情,或哪裡太冷淡。8964 copyright protection57PENANAmE0cbiooHl 維尼
我想說的其實很簡單:我很怕失去妳,但我更怕在妳眼裡,我只是另一個讓妳變得更糟的人。8964 copyright protection57PENANA8SjBeHq37L 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAjo5iH20f4b
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後來我沒有按送出。8964 copyright protection57PENANAoEUWtQlImC 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAaB1uYPSsPH
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我只是把這封信貼在備忘錄裡,檔名叫做「如果她還在的話」。8964 copyright protection57PENANAG07QvlP2M9 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANArSd5wjbDhX
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61Please respect copyright.PENANALPKMb0hsd7
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幾天後,我發了一句話給妳。8964 copyright protection57PENANAuSQCWwc2gV 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAIf2Xm02kHE
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「如果妳以後遇到比我更好的人,就把我丟了吧。」8964 copyright protection57PENANAidzEJHAJm8 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAsVDaJVDIQA
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妳回了:「嗯。」8964 copyright protection57PENANARtH5xQHhCD 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA69c7zW4S96
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我們的關係,就在那一個字裡,結束了。8964 copyright protection57PENANAvFZPCZjp54 維尼
她曾經說過一句話,我到現在還記得。8964 copyright protection57PENANAJOotqxyfhE 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAvGeWULBrrU
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「我最討厭的,不是吵架,不是分開,是……有人忽然就不見了。」8964 copyright protection57PENANA11vPAbkukn 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAuGtCoCCKmx
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那時候,我還很天真地回她:8964 copyright protection57PENANAG0Tfc4JNsu 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAcAXUO5YC95
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「那我會一直在,好不好?」8964 copyright protection57PENANAwzXKpSQAxc 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAjGxof9QCHn
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她回了貼圖,一個笑著點頭的小狐狸,尾巴繞成一個圈圈。8964 copyright protection57PENANALlR0A8v8Cz 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA5Y3MfBct7N
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我當時以為她相信我了。8964 copyright protection57PENANAb2H6F08s3G 維尼
後來才知道——她回覆那個貼圖,是凌晨三點半的事。8964 copyright protection57PENANAdAvYMla7wc 維尼
我睡了,沒看到。8964 copyright protection57PENANAtTthDak8Jm 維尼
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最近我重新打開那個聊天室。8964 copyright protection57PENANAuhCU1PLps9 維尼
對話還在,但看起來不像對話,比較像——8964 copyright protection57PENANARXY8oAuzHf 維尼
一邊倒的留言板。8964 copyright protection57PENANAoYT1uHQ2xB 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAN7GZq4CiNP
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滑回去的時候,我發現她的語氣變得越來越短。8964 copyright protection57PENANACdr61trTP9 維尼
從「哈哈你真的很白癡欸」變成「嗯」8964 copyright protection57PENANAyUyzM1Jjdk 維尼
從「等我一下我洗澡馬上來」變成「先忙」8964 copyright protection57PENANAEY6Q6qBTAp 維尼
最後是——8964 copyright protection57PENANAj9DHNMl2bV 維尼
「你睡了嗎?」8964 copyright protection57PENANAS5T2NPp648 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA5j7jZseFPZ
8964 copyright protection57PENANAJ13fnLGOsa 維尼
我沒有回那句話。8964 copyright protection57PENANAzXWEKo0uIY 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAQeObKQJSUM
8964 copyright protection57PENANAJr00h2JNld 維尼
不是我故意不回,是我當時真的在睡。8964 copyright protection57PENANAM8LIHuFA28 維尼
只是我不知道,那可能是她最後一次主動開口。8964 copyright protection57PENANATRSoW9ScTC 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAUfReR6oPff
8964 copyright protection57PENANAhjBXmc4qw6 維尼
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61Please respect copyright.PENANA1WmX3PUeod
8964 copyright protection57PENANAlpy23yRydJ 維尼
我記得那段時間她狀況很不好。8964 copyright protection57PENANA53Thx8NPVo 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAbwdNXVhcQP
8964 copyright protection57PENANAOv4NZ6EkKW 維尼
她說她的手最近又開始發癢,想抓、想割。8964 copyright protection57PENANABzstaRaS2x 維尼
她說不想去醫院,而且學校最近很吵,每天都想把桌子掀掉。8964 copyright protection57PENANA0XYVdM6bOe 維尼
她說,有時候真的會懷疑,活著到底是為了什麼。8964 copyright protection57PENANAFxQ9OGUtsj 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANABuVpcPbjji
8964 copyright protection57PENANA6nEtLcExnl 維尼
我那天正在補習班,訊息跳了一整排。8964 copyright protection57PENANA8FztcvJchS 維尼
我只回了一句:8964 copyright protection57PENANAGpqR7WAdAi 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA6i51OiwlKc
8964 copyright protection57PENANAwL7ozAjmoG 維尼
「我還在上課,等等回妳。」8964 copyright protection57PENANAGpD30tfhMi 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAlozMAPs5NZ
8964 copyright protection57PENANAFEJ2Qy12bG 維尼
結果我回的時候,她已經刪掉了所有訊息。8964 copyright protection57PENANApI3SiuGWRa 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANABPhKdwR18o
8964 copyright protection57PENANAbgeNsp8Z46 維尼
我沒問為什麼。8964 copyright protection57PENANA87ZlO47E79 維尼
我只是裝作沒看到,回了一句「今天還好嗎?」8964 copyright protection57PENANA5idUd1Qwjt 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAw5W9y2GDHy
8964 copyright protection57PENANArnsNDRZL5y 維尼
她沒再提那件事。8964 copyright protection57PENANAoc8NgD0IZB 維尼
也沒再發訊息長談了。8964 copyright protection57PENANAiK2001JFQl 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAdov09FkkJA
8964 copyright protection57PENANAKRm5sPRwq0 維尼
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61Please respect copyright.PENANAYNEOq2NFHI
8964 copyright protection57PENANAzo8x5Ng8TB 維尼
我後來才發現,她其實不是突然走掉的。8964 copyright protection57PENANAJfb6Og3gJd 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA719ACpeGTq
8964 copyright protection57PENANAfIXpFjtiQY 維尼
她是一點一點把自己收回去的。8964 copyright protection57PENANAUuCr74PW6z 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAahTeMCaaEN
8964 copyright protection57PENANAWxWvaBWAJs 維尼
語氣、表情、語音、貼圖、分享的歌……8964 copyright protection57PENANAFzB6vUbjgg 維尼
她像是從這段對話裡慢慢退出,最後留下來的,只是我自己。8964 copyright protection57PENANAAdq4lnFwI1 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA92Yko92udk
8964 copyright protection57PENANAc7AQBIjqh2 維尼
她沒有消失。8964 copyright protection57PENANAUMjoyDTksP 維尼
只是變得安靜。8964 copyright protection57PENANAYTJPrKVSeW 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA8Ap9TWkcde
8964 copyright protection57PENANAsGvY6y4P29 維尼
而我也一樣。8964 copyright protection57PENANAPul8m0b81q 維尼
我從來沒說出口,我也開始不會說了。8964 copyright protection57PENANA2fNbHxJfbH 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAIozncTAVET
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61Please respect copyright.PENANAhUigRKuKMp
8964 copyright protection57PENANAQQqBHDYOAd 維尼
【2022.07.18】8964 copyright protection57PENANA0Nlrgg5WGi 維尼
她:你有時候會突然不見8964 copyright protection57PENANAtlMQzYPrCC 維尼
她:會讓我覺得你是不是也不想繼續了8964 copyright protection57PENANATjQFo2eR7n 維尼
我:沒有啦 我只是剛剛睡著了8964 copyright protection57PENANAoK5oabEbfq 維尼
我:抱歉8964 copyright protection57PENANAV21urTVSTg 維尼
她:(貼圖:縮在角落的兔子)8964 copyright protection57PENANAtRsSiBFrlO 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAfuNw4TiHxJ
8964 copyright protection57PENANAogxBEOR3RX 維尼
【2022.10.05】8964 copyright protection57PENANAl7Z45pVCjT 維尼
我:你在幹嘛8964 copyright protection57PENANAJEM7S7gsFz 維尼
(未讀)8964 copyright protection57PENANA062pd4RNDC 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANANVWynNl4uC
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【2022.10.10】8964 copyright protection57PENANAHXsv0NdwXp 維尼
我:……你最近是不是不太想講話8964 copyright protection57PENANAFO67S0dZ0s 維尼
我:那我不吵你8964 copyright protection57PENANAL39Hm5d6aJ 維尼
我:晚安8964 copyright protection57PENANAWHUFfNV431 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAppDpQz9i2s
8964 copyright protection57PENANAJ0TnkB9XKL 維尼
【2022.10.20】8964 copyright protection57PENANAgnJutTAZvI 維尼
她:你會記得我嗎?如果我不見的話8964 copyright protection57PENANACzTeQoUFVw 維尼
我:(打字中)→(沒傳出)8964 copyright protection57PENANAbpcBmbhiQ4 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAY5lNxvZEPC
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61Please respect copyright.PENANAoFc0i9XfY9
8964 copyright protection57PENANAnXHuWQIpt4 維尼
現在想起來,我們之間最可怕的不是冷戰,不是爭吵,不是誰先放手。8964 copyright protection57PENANAu2ASyPtY09 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANArrjSpaYI0A
8964 copyright protection57PENANAvRnZOZt6PC 維尼
而是我們都還想留下來,但誰都不敢再靠近了。8964 copyright protection57PENANAbHrkWUTOur 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAaxZC2feyto
8964 copyright protection57PENANAx4zKilWKFK 維尼
就像她說的:8964 copyright protection57PENANA6KT3R7E37w 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAAFskTWci4R
8964 copyright protection57PENANACHUlzcDUja 維尼
「我最討厭的,是有人忽然就不見了。」8964 copyright protection57PENANA7ynll6pZZr 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAvguxTFbBWK
8964 copyright protection57PENANAmjZuxDKnkC 維尼
但其實更殘忍的,是——8964 copyright protection57PENANArkoKf9ouGv 維尼
明明還在,卻已經不見了。8964 copyright protection57PENANAnBwPH836lG 維尼
我以前常在想,我是不是做錯了什麼。8964 copyright protection57PENANAdq6FauntOk 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAq5SpLMb9XD
8964 copyright protection57PENANA3rXwLLHixD 維尼
是不是我不夠體貼,不夠努力,不夠溫柔;是不是哪一句話讓妳更想逃開;是不是有哪一刻,如果我再多堅持一下,就能改變結果。8964 copyright protection57PENANA5oEXvcQmrv 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAIOi1dcRAg9
8964 copyright protection57PENANAQDffhpgpAy 維尼
但最近,我開始想——8964 copyright protection57PENANASl9yZfQQGm 維尼
也許這段感情從來就不是要讓誰「變好」的。8964 copyright protection57PENANA4kxjWTyMpg 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAus1eSUncQA
8964 copyright protection57PENANA1xsWTTsrv4 維尼
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61Please respect copyright.PENANA50PyjJ1YC0
8964 copyright protection57PENANAY0KrMXSjEn 維尼
前幾天我整理電腦備份,看到一個叫「寶物」的資料夾。8964 copyright protection57PENANAMoQG2PuUus 維尼
裡面全是她傳給我的東西:網路短片、崩壞的笑話、歌詞截圖、動物影片。8964 copyright protection57PENANA7GgENtF1lh 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAZbrr4nfIit
8964 copyright protection57PENANArbCwno5rNh 維尼
有一張是某天我們半夜聊到快睡著,她說:「來,我們交換一首現在最想聽的歌。」8964 copyright protection57PENANAdHYg52QOVo 維尼
她傳的是陳奕迅的〈全世界失眠〉。8964 copyright protection57PENANAHuhfOGi38R 維尼
我傳的是那個時候正紅的輕快歌曲。8964 copyright protection57PENANAVmScXj7grQ 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAbAD9gJRDev
8964 copyright protection57PENANARdw6vOC0Q4 維尼
她打了一句話,我一直沒刪掉:8964 copyright protection57PENANAGz79dxc3Mw 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANANcMYLVntNm
8964 copyright protection57PENANA3PoivWEAI0 維尼
「你永遠比我樂觀,這樣也不錯,我才可以往上靠。」8964 copyright protection57PENANAt8WBUL4Ayj 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANABSTop0Evze
8964 copyright protection57PENANAqMF651djIe 維尼
那時候我覺得那句話像在撒嬌。8964 copyright protection57PENANA9FsJ4HS6FB 維尼
現在再看,卻有點酸。8964 copyright protection57PENANA4CnjjtvDUL 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANABHK6hg18Nk
8964 copyright protection57PENANAlpf6gI1KGm 維尼
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61Please respect copyright.PENANA44qclpTCDY
8964 copyright protection57PENANALS6eYjju5x 維尼
我也看到以前一則備忘錄,寫著我們說過的話。8964 copyright protection57PENANAfNc7Kl0QuN 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA2abgAhWkPi
8964 copyright protection57PENANAdAyM47szeo 維尼
「我們以後一定要常常一起出去。」8964 copyright protection57PENANAAK6bmnspHX 維尼
「你一定要記得我喜歡紅豆餅。」8964 copyright protection57PENANA57ooSiapkm 維尼
「如果我哪天不見了,請你幫我記得我曾經有努力過。」8964 copyright protection57PENANA7wZFBsaIOJ 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAWDgLJ5Ai1r
8964 copyright protection57PENANAMC8g9wsa5j 維尼
最後那句話,我一直記著。8964 copyright protection57PENANAzUaDU87Gi6 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA8PFFI6ggXY
8964 copyright protection57PENANAb9JGsXPqYI 維尼
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61Please respect copyright.PENANAAuqPaGs1QI
8964 copyright protection57PENANA0EX1ECkC4z 維尼
這段感情沒有結局,只有停在某一點上的呼吸聲。8964 copyright protection57PENANAjv4onjSAcO 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAASFfYTHcva
8964 copyright protection57PENANAmN6OgVLr3u 維尼
像是一場對話,沒有人先說再見,但話題自然就結束了。8964 copyright protection57PENANAHoj2V7zQSR 維尼
像是一封信沒有收件人,但還是寫了好幾頁。8964 copyright protection57PENANA7di7ROflut 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANACJcNUSxBHa
8964 copyright protection57PENANAoR6P3HUMVT 維尼
我們都太想證明自己值得被愛了,卻忘了去問彼此——累了嗎?8964 copyright protection57PENANAs1J928pbgK 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAJQGtcNHtMz
8964 copyright protection57PENANA21VxHShdLt 維尼
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61Please respect copyright.PENANA2kBCjixm7Y
8964 copyright protection57PENANAjTvYq7NmKU 維尼
我現在開始覺得,那些曾經沒回的訊息,那些沒說出口的話,也許不只是遺憾,8964 copyright protection57PENANAECVrKBOltE 維尼
也是一種溫柔的方式——讓彼此不要再傷得更重。8964 copyright protection57PENANAGaq0vgTOvd 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAcjYAog1m5p
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61Please respect copyright.PENANAYftg9q30YY
8964 copyright protection57PENANABMHGcI4FaX 維尼
我曾以為是我不夠好,才會讓這段感情壞掉。8964 copyright protection57PENANAy3zftPsP7I 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAPOsq6PKE5M
8964 copyright protection57PENANAno6R9j26u4 維尼
但現在我終於能夠說出口:8964 copyright protection57PENANA3gyGHM61Bv 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA0wRAcCLHoI
8964 copyright protection57PENANANFLDhrlfhr 維尼
這段感情,不是你的錯,也不是我的錯。8964 copyright protection57PENANA9aigXkhmWA 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAfPUZY1CtL5
8964 copyright protection57PENANASdvWV2UcLS 維尼
我們只是還沒學會怎麼好好相愛。8964 copyright protection57PENANAZkkB2T9pCc 維尼
而學會這件事,往往是在愛錯過之後。8964 copyright protection57PENANAUSMUhaYbjb 維尼
我不知道她為什麼會出現在這裡。8964 copyright protection57PENANAp45uS6YBH1 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAC3ye55FosW
8964 copyright protection57PENANA6XRJOD3WL0 維尼
那天我只是來陪一個朋友看診,無聊地走到醫院樓下的便利商店。8964 copyright protection57PENANAJ3N6F5Ari6 維尼
我正要結帳時,轉頭就看到她站在門口,正在找販賣機投入口。8964 copyright protection57PENANAErQCKglmAy 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANATzgaiftCDi
8964 copyright protection57PENANAGaY1OwdXKt 維尼
她變了。8964 copyright protection57PENANAoGve3TrywR 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAUnDadTciVQ
8964 copyright protection57PENANAeLoLyQfcsk 維尼
頭髮剪短了,背影沒以前那麼瘦,氣色也好了些。8964 copyright protection57PENANA7GFIu8TZja 維尼
但她一轉過頭來,我還是一眼就認出來了。8964 copyright protection57PENANAlSGnQ2Adm6 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANABVrmTMikOH
8964 copyright protection57PENANA4JgHWOLVvj 維尼
她也看到了我。8964 copyright protection57PENANAOy9H49Z3y6 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAK9GUXecW3V
8964 copyright protection57PENANAWUdHbRLBZI 維尼
我們隔著玻璃對望,大概兩秒,誰也沒動。8964 copyright protection57PENANAF9ov94gPAb 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAIIvzzKRWkA
8964 copyright protection57PENANAFyF00BBnFK 維尼
然後她推門走了進來。8964 copyright protection57PENANANjmTqR4iFz 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAq7zSWIYYzR
8964 copyright protection57PENANAYoTvaPZszf 維尼
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61Please respect copyright.PENANAcwqxbtXFH4
8964 copyright protection57PENANA4kSNV33PMs 維尼
我們在門口站了快半分鐘。誰也沒有先說話。8964 copyright protection57PENANAgwBYATZDGx 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAQp9t25CbNh
8964 copyright protection57PENANAzP7iCryzVt 維尼
我低頭笑了一下,像是想破冰,又像嘲諷自己的語無倫次。8964 copyright protection57PENANAGhSPGohnKZ 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAuDVXviEufm
8964 copyright protection57PENANALIvy6Ygfo5 維尼
「……妳好像比以前有精神了。」8964 copyright protection57PENANA72H7N7Cl11 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANANq029dwI6q
8964 copyright protection57PENANAtrhdxbvoTH 維尼
她點點頭。沒有開口。8964 copyright protection57PENANAkNOF82TAy4 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAZTOg4CGq55
8964 copyright protection57PENANA9IoohO3eN7 維尼
我吸了一口氣,說出這幾年我腦海裡不斷反覆的那句話。8964 copyright protection57PENANALLaOOr3rg3 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAsF4RlWola7
8964 copyright protection57PENANANhFSYmjpkp 維尼
「我們……能不能再交往一次?」8964 copyright protection57PENANAp9BWgqxECs 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAz4H7uh6ZM8
8964 copyright protection57PENANAXrepWdtKrt 維尼
她眼神微微一震,但沒有驚訝。8964 copyright protection57PENANAlllPtUHCmZ 維尼
就像她早知道我會這麼說,只是沒料到我真的會開口。8964 copyright protection57PENANANQ95U64yYg 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAu2ATohkCnO
8964 copyright protection57PENANAfgl0IxGXOe 維尼
她沒有回答。8964 copyright protection57PENANA79sIJsQBwD 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAR2wnKqanw1
8964 copyright protection57PENANAXg2aw8tjtq 維尼
只是看著我,像是過了很久,然後淡淡地笑了笑。8964 copyright protection57PENANAq06hj7R2HK 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA74rJ1hbVDh
8964 copyright protection57PENANAp7FyaMmIFg 維尼
不是快樂的那種笑,也不是無奈,而是一種——8964 copyright protection57PENANAJMXIHJ0UZc 維尼
「我懂你,但我不能再回去了」的笑。8964 copyright protection57PENANA1p1dWcy5AL 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAJd4D2LZyZk
8964 copyright protection57PENANAb3sNUJ2uqy 維尼
她拿起桌上的瓶裝水,走過我身邊。8964 copyright protection57PENANABW9FZesHZu 維尼
腳步很輕,但沒有停下來。8964 copyright protection57PENANAINo7SPrC3p 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAttBnW1m6tR
8964 copyright protection57PENANAQB9ssu2GkB 維尼
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61Please respect copyright.PENANAKIvr6RQBRz
8964 copyright protection57PENANAUa1q8NvrXw 維尼
我站在原地,看著玻璃門自動關上。8964 copyright protection57PENANAcfjvM4HGC5 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAWlTTSfAmZu
8964 copyright protection57PENANAt0W0flMKhh 維尼
那一瞬間,我的腦中浮現的不是她走遠的背影。8964 copyright protection57PENANAPpcz2XmweZ 維尼
是當年她在訊息裡說過的話:8964 copyright protection57PENANAcbBu52OvA7 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAH9yauCZKzS
8964 copyright protection57PENANAfAHMuy3by6 維尼
「我最討厭的,是有人忽然就不見了。」8964 copyright protection57PENANA5Eclqaiz0D 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAQsKSf4SRf2
8964 copyright protection57PENANAdtHz2lqeqJ 維尼
她沒有消失。8964 copyright protection57PENANArcwpedh5ag 維尼
也沒有回來。8964 copyright protection57PENANAn0XjpeX4tR 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA74dwWfkE2S
8964 copyright protection57PENANAH0fY6VmKq7 維尼
她只是,走到了屬於她自己的地方。8964 copyright protection57PENANAeXIS6DMCiH 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANAsrYuXv8EbE
8964 copyright protection57PENANAgnREsUVUxr 維尼
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61Please respect copyright.PENANA3lGJgUPEKg
8964 copyright protection57PENANAvqrb4XRv5n 維尼
我回到診間,坐下。8964 copyright protection57PENANAVJeTrekj0S 維尼
61Please respect copyright.PENANA5yXG45prRm
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這是某人在半夜裡從一個美夢中醒來,流著眼淚把一堆雜訊喂給GPT後吐出來的東西,因為原版跟這個差不多爛,所以還請見諒。8964 copyright protection57PENANAglT6bkQGxm 維尼
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