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突然這樣問好像有點唐突，但是我就只問一句：接下來，我還可以去哪兒？807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGwCB7OPr3
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「嗡隆……」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfNE7hAMEt
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月台的列車早已經消失在路軌的盡頭，那只是風聲在軌道間捲起的悲鳴，如哭泣，如哀號。白晝時是夢想王國入口的迪士尼站變得冷清，只剩下漸漸遠去的列車泛起的勁風餘浪清散在晚風間。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb99aQ83Owq
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錯過尾班車了…呢。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJRoYmQk74
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左顧右盼，空蕩蕩的月台就只有我一人。樂園早已關門，這只因樂園而存在的車站馬上變成了前不著村，後不著店的孤島。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcr308y6LL
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接下來，我還可以去哪兒？807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUG3kHikq2
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgQSlR8w8a
真是的，解僱信有必要在下班後才給我們嗎？賠一個月代通知金就能為所欲為嗎？要我們即時收拾東西也不考慮一下迪士尼線的尾班車時間嗎？807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9x8OfrYDyh
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心情壞透了。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlZWkzobgS
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2spQA9GqAd
無可奈何地坐到月台上的長椅後，我看著路軌另一側的廣告燈箱發著呆。我沒有思索回家的辦法，這樣坐著也沒甚麼意思，我對那些減肥藥完全沒興趣，只是……807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QIrQ4jTKQ
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……抱歉，我也不知道。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQ9Ze4hkbx
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqA5cOpPOh
開甚麼玩笑了，城堡要維修至少兩三年，所以接下來也沒煙火表演，於是把整隊煙火工程團隊解雇掉？外判職員就這樣可有可無嗎？還有為甚麼有人能留任到最後一次煙火後調去其他項目，我就能滾蛋？807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFxKl667yk
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「唉。」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVSiM1JiHm
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HNcIPGMBj
抬頭看著月台的玻璃幕門，倒影中的我也看回來。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkmSMmD0zz
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溫年柏，廿四歲，失業，失戀，失敗。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBXYiW07hd
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6KfKJMY2K
倒影中不堪入目的我實在有夠礙眼，所以我下意識地閉上雙目迴避，腦海中浮現的卻是一幀又一幀的回憶。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdzOAd5H6x
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLdiwMfcWd
「十優狀元確診胃癌 仍然不放棄醫生夢」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIugDfsFB4d
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJF7BHejY4
「跳級畢業 狀元完夢 抗癌之路不忘救人初心」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BKNqMDTog
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOJAJlYok0
「狀元醫生遺愛人間 心臟贈少年」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKhNYYU8i5
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFNxR7ANf8
來，猜猜看那顆心臟被捐到誰身上？807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBiE2mkTm12
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aeCqUez2m
我指尖滑過自己胸膛，即使隔著衣服也能感覺到那道又大又醜的疤痕在，如在悼念著那個從未見過面的救命恩人。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡju5RRQA1C5
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIWGq3ziEO
先不說現在尾班車已經開走，我跳下去也不會有列車撞過來。這條命是借來的，我沒有糟蹋的權利。如果不是，我早就……807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZzRnXJ5Pz
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活成這個樣子，真抱歉。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHPr18K8lS
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本來不應該是這樣子的，真抱歉。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJMQzVeSy4
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「先生。」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9J5UAp0cK
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6QyufCQow
一個地鐵職員出現在我旁邊，打斷了我的茫然。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsibfW1RdI
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiTGLHNvHt
「唔好意思，我地夠鐘閂站。」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8Y82nv7tg
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRCfNl1lgL
「閂…站？」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyiLneG79O
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pfPLZRDda
「嗯，閂站。」職員的眼神相當堅決，完全是在趕我離開。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7Oq1i8g5W
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ45i0Cgjrf
要不是這條命是借來的話……807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsL3Hrb2mnQ
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HVD0VDNaN
「你知唔知仲有乜車呢個時間出市區？」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZvrnJochf
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClqWgS59yp
「呢個鐘數……你試吓叫的士或者Uber？」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mwnFo9Gec
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjkZsWdytE
他其實很有禮貌，還硬生生擠出一個笑容。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdaI82vW30
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSpVgyAfxu
「咁……啊。」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ccqbLL6eb
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「再唔係你可以去迪士尼酒店瞓一晚，我哋聽朝頭班車係朝早六點二十分……」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aZxGvtm16
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOA0rPfLdnJ
「唔使，我喺邊度出返去？」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCj9XJ6BILw
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「我帶你行。」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXiLWlduOg
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCv8zsuqiO
領著我的職員步伐有點急促，當然是因為我礙著他下班。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzummEbDYsa
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURRfp7Fhy7
「係迪士尼返工啊？咁夜仲喺度嘅？」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMA3O2VMNCi
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOa5aYflQKS
「呃……算係。」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8I5jlPgJc
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不再是了。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTG1jP2leE
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bCipfQe3J
意識到我沒興趣聊天的他也沒趣地閉上嘴，領著我穿過職員通道後我們來到了迪士尼站的外頭。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFOkWAPGaW
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9KYuN34Q7
「好聲行啦，拜拜！」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMFAIaMQQB
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEK7b7A0YX
夜裡的森林被風吹動如在搖晃，樹濤聲如在咆哮，昏暗的燈光瞬間就被夜幕一口吞下，環顧附近就只有我孤身一人站在彎彎曲曲的磚路中央。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rJJzCTbOU
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPTnZqEFFx
抱歉，能載我出市區嗎？我始終沒有如此向那職員請求，即使我知道這時間在這兒下班的他一定有駕車。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9q6gpGWjxw
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tiz9u59rO
接下來，我還可以去哪兒？807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QSvU4TYgF
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4orICDM0hx
我不坐的士或Uber的原因不複雜，這樣夜深人靜根本沒有車能攔，再者現在我已失業，能省就省。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xvUbi2jiD
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPAWvBlQmn
按常理說，其他人在情況下早就叫自己的朋友或家人來接自己，但是我不能。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUpH9KRmsc
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8fCcZNzel
因為我沒有。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AXHkLsa5F
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhuDsWeDEp
我的心臟毛病遺傳自雙親，為了照顧換心手術後的我二人都積勞成疾而離世，只有一個姐姐與我相依為命。至於朋友……自從與她分手後我才發現不知不覺間我已是孤身一人。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWE7gpHF6x
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活該。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXQKOjv6DL
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKb5ldKYQ61
我活該。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bywQgcG0z
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWY6NeRIPva
正當我打算輸入「姐你能不能來接我時」，我在屏幕上幾毫米的指頭卻停了下來。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Wq2tapghd
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不想。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJyv7hSJez
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLh3Xg9zkSh
我……我不想找她。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29RS7qB7Kc
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHo4NwST5V
不想告訴她我被解僱，不想告訴她我錯過了尾班車，不想告訴她我這弟弟如此窩囊。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ939ZZtforC
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWM8GYEEcU
即使她會開著那台帥氣的車來接我，即使我知道她會告訴我沒事，即使她會帶我去吃宵夜安慰。她對我越是呵護，我卻越不想站在如此優秀的她面前。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7xX9Ukscg
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1lYaaEkjt
我不想。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQz0yu4H8mB
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfAsZad6Kr
回過神來的時侯我已經走到空空如也的交通交匯處，沒有巴士，沒有的士，只有飛蟲圍著天花的螢光燈在飛舞。證實的確沒有交通工具離開的我終於把目光，投向了馬路——旁的行人道。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzcu9uwtxT
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGcB5lHu9H
不就有了嗎？807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaDuq4L8Ks
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkonScOQLE
掏出手機確認過，從迪士尼步行至東涌港鐵站需時大約四小時，絕非沒法步行的距離和時間。而且……807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wSer3W9wK
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjFr4e5PeG
既然明天開始我就是失業大軍一員，那麼我也不用急著回家對吧。先不說實在沒有面目回去對著父母的靈位和姐姐，我其實大可以步行出去。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzqoXvXERC
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而且，我連地圖都不用。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzPmIUI5pI5
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2wDsVUqTd
容我自誇，我溫年柏唯一擅長的就是「方向感」，只要我看過一次的地圖就能瞬間記住，身處當中範圍時更能套用到真實世界之中。就算沒有地圖，我也能一邊走一邊記下空間方向，自己從哪個方向而來，正在往甚麼方向前進。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaET8L3IE5
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2NVZlWY47
光是現在閉上眼，我已經知道如何走到市區了，因為我腦中浮現的地圖清晰無比。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxzeUq5KS2
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHz0gqlsEp
出發吧。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdxzpAaPIHR
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSrtRi6dxx
下定了決心後，四周的晚風也變得舒暢了些許，我拐過角落走到公路旁的行人路，默默地向著遠方雲層下的燈火走去。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyokSm0uNyv
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXK7nTsAyjI
漆黑的深夜，漆黑的密林，燈火通明的公路如某頭巨獸體內的血管般默默地湧動著。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFhnsV7oMz
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYAR1uNHcC
從這兒向山下挑望，萬家燈火把雲頂映亮，光污染這時候在我眼中如把天空染上色彩的極光，萬賴具寂的天地之間如同只剩我一人。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtQmhvfiZY
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioNLhMome1
步復步，步復步，前進速度緩慢得可笑，但我卻毫不在意。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjAJ8UnysI
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTqPsP4GX7
「溫年柏。」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbjbglMAqt
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3yt2dnifw
拐過路牌的瞬間，我突然聽到背後有人叫自己的名字。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ie7H8zTpL
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYjOGIrG6p
俗語有云：天黑莫回頭，這種時間怎麼會有人在背後叫我的名字？當我意識到這點時，我早已經反射動作地回首。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5pgPaxOzz
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3e4W8Unhp
沒有人。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ568oqo5ykV
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3xpxaLgKH
空空如也的馬路，行人道，街燈，樹影，完全沒看到任何能叫我名字的存在。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3js9sFQuaT
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsomBYaf6Hu
是幻聽嗎？我搔搔有點長的髮尾，壓下不安的心情，然後繼續往前走去。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFySnXs6OQ
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobDkc8FpIJ
方向是對的，路是對的，但是我卻馬上注意到一點：山下的燈，熄滅了。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfO0l9Uquf
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgPUdRiTMM
要知道山下的燈是東涌市區的燈火，瞬間消失的可能並非沒有，但除非整個東涌停電，或整個東涌消失，不然從這高度這方向，我是不可能看不見東涌市中心的燈光。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOlCMkfGYS
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0VGQuEZGP
這到底是……807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFm1XlVnH6w
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTeeXA3RNQ
我連忙抬頭看看馬路的路牌，卻沒有絲毫異樣，耳邊寂靜得有點耳鳴，但我還走在正確的路上，朝向正確的方向。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoApFk9GK50
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlH43mWhRZE
是…霧之類嗎……？807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQT5etADFz
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHbrAqvyOH
強行說服自己後，我繼續信步向前走去。分辨方向其實沒有想像中複雜，路是兩點一線的構造，只要走在正確的路上，面朝正確的方向，便總能確定自己沒有走錯。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GAYYB8oR5
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUAj0Xxwnk
但以防萬一，我還是掏出了手機查看地圖。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOF9ivVREB
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很好，GPS顯示方向與座標都正確，如我所料大約再走一小時左右我便會到達欣澳，沿著海邊再走三小時就會到達東涌，剛好坐第一班車回家。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WICQ5k4jG
807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7g9Maiaour
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但望向遠方漆黑的夜，理應存在於那兒看東涌卻是消失得無影無蹤，實在使我心中感到不安。但我深知只要走到欣澳，就是沿著海邊的大直路了。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8l4e7l1CYj
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繼續走著走著，我發現事情不對勁。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbLtMKl2FT
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首先，我身旁的道路從不知甚麼時候開始，一架車都沒有駛過，即使是深夜，也絕不應該過了這樣久還是完全沒車子出現。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xD8Z184gV
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而且，欣澳亦消失了。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9bqjmVP2I
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道路還在，路牌還在，但是山下理應存在於那兒的欣澳站現在只是漆黑一片。雖然我知道已經過了尾班車，港鐵站就會關站直到頭班車開車前的時間，但是……但是總不可能這樣一遍漆黑吧！那兒現在就只有一片密林，根本沒任何建築物存在！807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSz1CsOVjt
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意識到不對勁的我掏出手機打算查看地圖，下一幕震撼了我的腦袋。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GUBDqD85m
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