I’m tired.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vaD2sNBpb
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCjjNFY54t
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6lB6SYXLY
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpc93VQDNi
to pick them up and set them back down.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZEGvprCUD
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyI3KbcrKLT
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgL0iloNsAE
like a normal person, thank you.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgvkiDvLfV
I try.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUrcIhfBCC
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7TL9SrXeF
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlzZzIEOGb
just barely making it from one place to another723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZajsCg2VAT
without damage.
I’m tired.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPSBEPkGNi
Just this Wednesday I was driving home723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJyNao9GUz
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFE2R0hIOM
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SPsNjLfSN
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfumngnTmaB
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4atin4tuAb
for those I’m not sure how to help723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYe2ME3bMM
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaqjSKLdcu
And while I was driving down the highway723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRG4q008Go
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDS49YUruWk
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVw0FTghfC
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79fn9Lxhf0
collide with the wall, break through and destroy723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHEjWVSL9s
the other side.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoqmRXPAaI
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39axMbU9uD
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DsBXxdYBt
harm anyone else in the process. But I723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhysk9aBVjU
didn’t do either, even though I723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRVbuDN9xB
got so scared for a minute723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBsamRIKM8
that I would.
I’m tired.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAknged5o3
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9iQ8nn84D
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj93VZt1bWR
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLC4mMayqT
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFvY1Dg5Gx
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBm3dOr6khW
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmR7M3k7n6
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPI34cCcBs
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTagTsf1F7
draw blood, but it was the first time723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGV45D2oOd
I had allowed myself to723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0Rd3uZumL
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOd2NoUNizT
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XXaq2AF5e
actually reach out and go through with it723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucc3aKz4nt
I think because I’m afraid of not existing723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrK8JdJvOt0
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWtDPoROmj
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTklElQ1IiN
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJ1xqN0ouu
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAL08IQXnpm
and give up. I have thought about dying every day723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9xeXLMZDh
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qjxPJd7Xu
go through with it.
I’m tired.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1htSJqPpG
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb328YL0hWh
for people to care about me when they should723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWeudMmpgC
care about me on their own. I often think that723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLHxFz9UZP
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk65kZVvxCV
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GzzEoaLIz
She often hurts me more than she improves my life723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0N6vlTvX4z
but I’m too afraid to say anything because723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mNEFf1iby
I need her. I need her to exist723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4CLEFJbhv
in my existence, and I need her to723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiduXKuyedV
be by my side.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTT0WRtmaI
But I’m tired.
I’m tired723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzhfeHQTdE
of being tired723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoxPj5Vasd
in this tiring life.
