I’m tired.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHQsf2BvxS
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8FloxuJbj
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ExKxVsKNB
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZ88hZFch9
to pick them up and set them back down.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08nxh4zxyM
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0eTzq8lta
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVMI7xQUk5
like a normal person, thank you.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMEkEv1nTY
I try.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxf94aGIwdf
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hKskW3FeK
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVEliUiSsd
just barely making it from one place to another669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhQAnBZThs
without damage.
I’m tired.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJ64YTYQE8
Just this Wednesday I was driving home669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFwRHoqkYn
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5o2gR3ZY1
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0H85pUpxT
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02G8zk6Hiv
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5qdohCwUz
for those I’m not sure how to help669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsPgNbgqTd
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizR3tMNOai
And while I was driving down the highway669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWtogMuIxj
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMbVjuYMoo
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqRS8cN9ip
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifEp1J0NiG
collide with the wall, break through and destroy669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3Y0cyn48A
the other side.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMAvRp4bHX
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKlnIMKoI8
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqVY3neNkx
harm anyone else in the process. But I669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNZbHCwF6s
didn’t do either, even though I669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWaTlXwYUa
got so scared for a minute669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1nvOsI0K8
that I would.
I’m tired.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80FdJkYNeF
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYV8Wz0f9NZ
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAovNIk8y8
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyxWqPtkWO
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnM9gqwGVe
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2nYfXAy2l
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk59x83dzMA
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRafU7bI30
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7TkAyuAi9
draw blood, but it was the first time669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKGIw47B24
I had allowed myself to669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnC9ZLN7JAh
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaohz4zYAXa
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDptnM61Nt
actually reach out and go through with it669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡik7jWCYzCy
I think because I’m afraid of not existing669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHK12ot1BN
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7vpyDdMLX
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgsotg9ubH
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOQhWQpEmp
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcf8z3Q5eNa
and give up. I have thought about dying every day669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbtqOYLIsJ
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rIScDdfuk
go through with it.
I’m tired.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixCDeXc4ZV
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHsYnjWJVN
for people to care about me when they should669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xr39P3ICU
care about me on their own. I often think that669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusDttiwxzC
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEu5zp7fJO
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyfaiLVn6W
She often hurts me more than she improves my life669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡux0roR815O
but I’m too afraid to say anything because669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6kgvJRtUi
I need her. I need her to exist669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXGUi4OgCQ
in my existence, and I need her to669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5gKl0lqG4
be by my side.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9foywXely
But I’m tired.
I’m tired669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRs9ZnbgL5d
of being tired669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWIsRpSDJM
in this tiring life.
