they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,223Please respect copyright.PENANAtqCgX7Xr94
all in the same breath with no hesitation.223Please respect copyright.PENANAj2ptWrMNl0
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later223Please respect copyright.PENANArWEUoZv5nT
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.223Please respect copyright.PENANAgavX1zJqpa
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,223Please respect copyright.PENANAxt1atPtB0u
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s223Please respect copyright.PENANA0wfI0A8UhO
but in the end they still withhold dinner,223Please respect copyright.PENANAKI6wwTvk1a
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.223Please respect copyright.PENANAzQOn4LLpiY
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals223Please respect copyright.PENANAOltCmPr0l7
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.223Please respect copyright.PENANAnfHNpB1a4t
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch223Please respect copyright.PENANAkpemXcQOJ3
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.223Please respect copyright.PENANAkFwQ5hD9cm
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,223Please respect copyright.PENANA9o6nHK66PS
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.223Please respect copyright.PENANASF3unkmFAZ
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief223Please respect copyright.PENANABNcr4KKMP5
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.223Please respect copyright.PENANA6i7RvvoMSq
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",223Please respect copyright.PENANAY2N3yDfQq9
said it was all mental and to just stop223Please respect copyright.PENANA6Zu4Dnim9g
but it was habits formed out of pent up223Please respect copyright.PENANAMP8FTw9uDe
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.223Please respect copyright.PENANAooVnknID4S
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they said it was all in my mind,223Please respect copyright.PENANAmU51xfc1a2
the anxiety, the stress.223Please respect copyright.PENANAHVis6XTmzW
that i had a happy, loving family223Please respect copyright.PENANAaj8zBL5xYo
and i was perfectly fine.223Please respect copyright.PENANAqY9w0XoH0L
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i'm not.223Please respect copyright.PENANAij50s6nJxh
i'm drowning in my own blood223Please respect copyright.PENANApaEmSS1Kg3
and choking on my tongue223Please respect copyright.PENANA9K6JbA4XCF
when i try to say so.223Please respect copyright.PENANAnG81JjvfBx
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...223Please respect copyright.PENANAUzilpDGt6N
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(it's all in my mind.223Please respect copyright.PENANAlmmTKRyUPQ
every last drop of anxiety,223Please respect copyright.PENANALBFbYMiR6s
i have a happy, loving family.223Please respect copyright.PENANAXWlNUaUsQx
i'm perfectly fine.)223Please respect copyright.PENANAKzjdJqpIDw