they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,273Please respect copyright.PENANAdR5E9jamPH
all in the same breath with no hesitation.273Please respect copyright.PENANAWVc9QRCcaD
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later273Please respect copyright.PENANAdVWMMrufJx
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.273Please respect copyright.PENANASkjyCwQb0Y
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,273Please respect copyright.PENANAK0jjvg71cr
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s273Please respect copyright.PENANA10AuqEuako
but in the end they still withhold dinner,273Please respect copyright.PENANAuFGuJf110c
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.273Please respect copyright.PENANAFA95AO3sQS
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals273Please respect copyright.PENANAqm7cFJs9Mk
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.273Please respect copyright.PENANArmPGMkmIGq
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch273Please respect copyright.PENANA0nBEg5jTgx
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.273Please respect copyright.PENANAYOkL7GFBLg
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,273Please respect copyright.PENANA8ZDBJ7mY6e
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.273Please respect copyright.PENANAyo6uYFNrRz
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief273Please respect copyright.PENANAmAtiBB7gBE
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.273Please respect copyright.PENANA2Oh09zT6FF
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",273Please respect copyright.PENANAuVsVibFV7O
said it was all mental and to just stop273Please respect copyright.PENANA2NXNNATTyy
but it was habits formed out of pent up273Please respect copyright.PENANAr5e2CuBi09
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.273Please respect copyright.PENANAyv3BE1zZfN
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they said it was all in my mind,273Please respect copyright.PENANANqfKr5aIDs
the anxiety, the stress.273Please respect copyright.PENANA66aaMvSwfF
that i had a happy, loving family273Please respect copyright.PENANA9FM5cCZP80
and i was perfectly fine.273Please respect copyright.PENANAJxpnVE5tbN
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i'm not.273Please respect copyright.PENANA5SMrMd12cu
i'm drowning in my own blood273Please respect copyright.PENANAlnQIZ7dqQH
and choking on my tongue273Please respect copyright.PENANAJ8mDcjNB5w
when i try to say so.273Please respect copyright.PENANA5yztzA7wuk
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...273Please respect copyright.PENANAmF0kIokSac
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(it's all in my mind.273Please respect copyright.PENANAWpSHoiJaT5
every last drop of anxiety,273Please respect copyright.PENANAIaZDs6VRRj
i have a happy, loving family.273Please respect copyright.PENANAOinZbjE00q
i'm perfectly fine.)273Please respect copyright.PENANA4LoY09woDc