they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,91Please respect copyright.PENANAY2cmOCferW
all in the same breath with no hesitation.91Please respect copyright.PENANAWGCdfPEK3k
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later91Please respect copyright.PENANAByRedwWU0J
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.91Please respect copyright.PENANAwm7hyt72Hm
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,91Please respect copyright.PENANA1VXVxGngCg
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s91Please respect copyright.PENANADNHZLE0hRg
but in the end they still withhold dinner,91Please respect copyright.PENANA9OBbW3JbYP
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.91Please respect copyright.PENANAbROIft11hW
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals91Please respect copyright.PENANAAOM3DbsCGo
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.91Please respect copyright.PENANAf3YZ8p8kiE
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch91Please respect copyright.PENANAgZKawfwK90
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.91Please respect copyright.PENANAsn3irfh4lL
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,91Please respect copyright.PENANA1ve42Y8jfu
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.91Please respect copyright.PENANAKYv5fPJ9LE
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief91Please respect copyright.PENANAnsy9QJrJ91
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.91Please respect copyright.PENANAJcbCQQiTIK
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",91Please respect copyright.PENANAKz0KLSUpev
said it was all mental and to just stop91Please respect copyright.PENANAc63YMvSSz4
but it was habits formed out of pent up91Please respect copyright.PENANATpJwsbZ0Tu
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.91Please respect copyright.PENANA5K68ynU3xP
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they said it was all in my mind,91Please respect copyright.PENANAOT9VHdOJac
the anxiety, the stress.91Please respect copyright.PENANA4fe48l2Jej
that i had a happy, loving family91Please respect copyright.PENANAi98BMEqH2r
and i was perfectly fine.91Please respect copyright.PENANAgTVzujOHSN
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i'm not.91Please respect copyright.PENANAxm0eHnKE7v
i'm drowning in my own blood91Please respect copyright.PENANAqLWJCfHBgU
and choking on my tongue91Please respect copyright.PENANAW3o5CKmTeT
when i try to say so.91Please respect copyright.PENANAp4YF2v176X
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...91Please respect copyright.PENANAPcOH6VuQDF
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(it's all in my mind.91Please respect copyright.PENANAb2fSuW7Fjc
every last drop of anxiety,91Please respect copyright.PENANAYGx0DB52s2
i have a happy, loving family.91Please respect copyright.PENANAyOFDAiV0GW
i'm perfectly fine.)91Please respect copyright.PENANAwYpyMZmWoQ