they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,65Please respect copyright.PENANAGdt3UJq2Qm
all in the same breath with no hesitation.65Please respect copyright.PENANAPfxOE0R8Op
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later65Please respect copyright.PENANACii4RC3S32
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.65Please respect copyright.PENANAOduWgD3EpT
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,65Please respect copyright.PENANAabIjQKiaDh
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s65Please respect copyright.PENANAhTzrfSXQAr
but in the end they still withhold dinner,65Please respect copyright.PENANAYhbQM3xhYq
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.65Please respect copyright.PENANAqNuGwdUwwi
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals65Please respect copyright.PENANAsSpYfkxIU2
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.65Please respect copyright.PENANAtBq8viEhe4
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch65Please respect copyright.PENANADL8a6g02vk
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.65Please respect copyright.PENANAwrAfCsAeFV
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,65Please respect copyright.PENANAIdGWfaOBMH
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.65Please respect copyright.PENANAOJphnZebqf
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief65Please respect copyright.PENANAd4O9pfhqIn
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.65Please respect copyright.PENANA3i1qXUSWFC
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",65Please respect copyright.PENANAgd15rRcsuh
said it was all mental and to just stop65Please respect copyright.PENANAMss8lvQc0k
but it was habits formed out of pent up65Please respect copyright.PENANAZSayOFQuef
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.65Please respect copyright.PENANAXeRbtNQmDi
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they said it was all in my mind,65Please respect copyright.PENANAb2F5DkQx7V
the anxiety, the stress.65Please respect copyright.PENANAvmx48OUB17
that i had a happy, loving family65Please respect copyright.PENANAqwuRWrFCjZ
and i was perfectly fine.65Please respect copyright.PENANAALTP9ouK5Z
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i'm not.65Please respect copyright.PENANAtJRKFRVFg8
i'm drowning in my own blood65Please respect copyright.PENANAJ8aERVIgiq
and choking on my tongue65Please respect copyright.PENANAOU7tO2Zuo1
when i try to say so.65Please respect copyright.PENANA1Q4FP7Wsvu
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...65Please respect copyright.PENANALUmzUQpLZb
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(it's all in my mind.65Please respect copyright.PENANAzOExSIihg8
every last drop of anxiety,65Please respect copyright.PENANArWVVNTEIeC
i have a happy, loving family.65Please respect copyright.PENANAN4IDRlLpyp
i'm perfectly fine.)65Please respect copyright.PENANA3a4gblPINO