they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,331Please respect copyright.PENANA7qR4juMQbj
all in the same breath with no hesitation.331Please respect copyright.PENANA8IDaD7ifqt
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later331Please respect copyright.PENANA4qJ6ApHiVi
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.331Please respect copyright.PENANAQRYLW821oN
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,331Please respect copyright.PENANAgDmWNWwY19
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s331Please respect copyright.PENANAI3QrTL9ROS
but in the end they still withhold dinner,331Please respect copyright.PENANAMQzBmYlB04
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.331Please respect copyright.PENANA2YH9FHaR6N
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals331Please respect copyright.PENANAoL5p9fDp0F
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.331Please respect copyright.PENANATCbcDUtPe1
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch331Please respect copyright.PENANAuPs6l8Gpiw
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.331Please respect copyright.PENANAmvgIXz4FsR
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,331Please respect copyright.PENANAsekGe70MfA
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.331Please respect copyright.PENANAo3lfCF4G13
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief331Please respect copyright.PENANA8SIB4nvGRO
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.331Please respect copyright.PENANAeLd4Lef48o
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",331Please respect copyright.PENANAseMdfJbmKK
said it was all mental and to just stop331Please respect copyright.PENANANDQx3WaFui
but it was habits formed out of pent up331Please respect copyright.PENANAiOoBS9esSz
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.331Please respect copyright.PENANA9b0vNPxXJh
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they said it was all in my mind,331Please respect copyright.PENANAAc2hIziB99
the anxiety, the stress.331Please respect copyright.PENANA8y4ekBMxQq
that i had a happy, loving family331Please respect copyright.PENANAMDxxF1YVFz
and i was perfectly fine.331Please respect copyright.PENANAEm6j6JZONZ
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i'm not.331Please respect copyright.PENANATlMx0AP9qy
i'm drowning in my own blood331Please respect copyright.PENANAMXP45SAu20
and choking on my tongue331Please respect copyright.PENANALVrVmj57Cw
when i try to say so.331Please respect copyright.PENANAwNPSxOxLyr
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...331Please respect copyright.PENANAksInYncPZj
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(it's all in my mind.331Please respect copyright.PENANApvOpxdcavc
every last drop of anxiety,331Please respect copyright.PENANAh7FIwNQ9mg
i have a happy, loving family.331Please respect copyright.PENANAwqasc9jO1f
i'm perfectly fine.)331Please respect copyright.PENANAEcezMOZIHI