they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,330Please respect copyright.PENANA5y3UOy7kxB
all in the same breath with no hesitation.330Please respect copyright.PENANADBb1u2kdQ4
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later330Please respect copyright.PENANAKXFCyW1hQQ
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.330Please respect copyright.PENANAt3h4ippccz
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,330Please respect copyright.PENANAlVhRdReDQz
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s330Please respect copyright.PENANA8Ve6nL2Ul2
but in the end they still withhold dinner,330Please respect copyright.PENANA3iGAwVQZ65
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.330Please respect copyright.PENANAGTd5ek0stz
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals330Please respect copyright.PENANANzCuYzI4kR
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.330Please respect copyright.PENANALJjcKyGyDd
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch330Please respect copyright.PENANAz8PsdVCoOF
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.330Please respect copyright.PENANAuAMCL8c9Vt
330Please respect copyright.PENANAMByCjPUy7I
bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,330Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZhSJMPEFv
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.330Please respect copyright.PENANA3bTVddeDar
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief330Please respect copyright.PENANAAlXEKHbUbA
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.330Please respect copyright.PENANAEeDnJ2F8CM
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",330Please respect copyright.PENANAntxKjqHxos
said it was all mental and to just stop330Please respect copyright.PENANA31zbpNwDW5
but it was habits formed out of pent up330Please respect copyright.PENANA7WnpVZ6Zlm
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.330Please respect copyright.PENANAf68cO9q6C1
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they said it was all in my mind,330Please respect copyright.PENANAhKDoxtiqkh
the anxiety, the stress.330Please respect copyright.PENANA75Tj9vK5aV
that i had a happy, loving family330Please respect copyright.PENANAk1FCiCYB5d
and i was perfectly fine.330Please respect copyright.PENANAs8XD52eyTN
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i'm not.330Please respect copyright.PENANATSJXL9xyt5
i'm drowning in my own blood330Please respect copyright.PENANAa7Tx2bD7Ck
and choking on my tongue330Please respect copyright.PENANA6JXOdYvqBo
when i try to say so.330Please respect copyright.PENANAqavkvVVkEa
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...330Please respect copyright.PENANAXWWC8W6MGc
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(it's all in my mind.330Please respect copyright.PENANAx8jbBXjjI4
every last drop of anxiety,330Please respect copyright.PENANAS6N5sBSYM3
i have a happy, loving family.330Please respect copyright.PENANA8NlE4HjAkT
i'm perfectly fine.)330Please respect copyright.PENANAneam2z11x9