they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,275Please respect copyright.PENANAdECZOd7ee2
all in the same breath with no hesitation.275Please respect copyright.PENANApD5vpUN59e
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later275Please respect copyright.PENANAC6Z1TKYKtP
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.275Please respect copyright.PENANAzuKFsPKcpY
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,275Please respect copyright.PENANAzUBlj5MVDL
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s275Please respect copyright.PENANASlEyFfKXWU
but in the end they still withhold dinner,275Please respect copyright.PENANAuKLWVgBoma
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.275Please respect copyright.PENANANYBGUkepR8
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals275Please respect copyright.PENANAYNhcujy6XN
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.275Please respect copyright.PENANAKP6DUl2sbQ
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch275Please respect copyright.PENANAvpfbfueR6T
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.275Please respect copyright.PENANA48JhCPanWY
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,275Please respect copyright.PENANAHu14WCCZUl
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.275Please respect copyright.PENANAtHHW8QDPoV
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief275Please respect copyright.PENANA4T8gtG0ibA
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.275Please respect copyright.PENANADWPlWQBZUy
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",275Please respect copyright.PENANASDsJmkDwVw
said it was all mental and to just stop275Please respect copyright.PENANAXAIzTy1VSm
but it was habits formed out of pent up275Please respect copyright.PENANAfhxUQZ1uPr
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.275Please respect copyright.PENANAM2gFMIJM60
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they said it was all in my mind,275Please respect copyright.PENANA2rnLvPs7n0
the anxiety, the stress.275Please respect copyright.PENANAooqUEWhDNg
that i had a happy, loving family275Please respect copyright.PENANAyxmMN5waHl
and i was perfectly fine.275Please respect copyright.PENANAddwdOWbgNw
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i'm not.275Please respect copyright.PENANAomqJuRVs8f
i'm drowning in my own blood275Please respect copyright.PENANAuHacFaonKM
and choking on my tongue275Please respect copyright.PENANAidqzDhb7Lk
when i try to say so.275Please respect copyright.PENANAiNdIatN8S5
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...275Please respect copyright.PENANA4rjGGeW9zH
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(it's all in my mind.275Please respect copyright.PENANAhhLVCR7K1x
every last drop of anxiety,275Please respect copyright.PENANAa60GpbIASF
i have a happy, loving family.275Please respect copyright.PENANAHJMm9yVTaz
i'm perfectly fine.)275Please respect copyright.PENANA7QBS9frppz