they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,331Please respect copyright.PENANAxxyH49Ktyy
all in the same breath with no hesitation.331Please respect copyright.PENANAeX4a1YcnOS
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later331Please respect copyright.PENANAkbhq7qnIRK
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.331Please respect copyright.PENANAxzDq3oU23L
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,331Please respect copyright.PENANAJqfvX8PoX9
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s331Please respect copyright.PENANAmGDryppH90
but in the end they still withhold dinner,331Please respect copyright.PENANAhN34HE0Kuj
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.331Please respect copyright.PENANARH31gq4kON
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals331Please respect copyright.PENANA790yAo3udo
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.331Please respect copyright.PENANAmxF8ZUyGHD
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch331Please respect copyright.PENANAX8KYQd4ujz
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.331Please respect copyright.PENANAFoPbBlazH6
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,331Please respect copyright.PENANAftAPR5fjdw
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.331Please respect copyright.PENANAFnoSZRD4SZ
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief331Please respect copyright.PENANA8OgbGzibwS
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.331Please respect copyright.PENANAC8TmMYwiWS
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",331Please respect copyright.PENANANuXIB7l5nc
said it was all mental and to just stop331Please respect copyright.PENANAZWFMgfuK7s
but it was habits formed out of pent up331Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3YAfWZtCG
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.331Please respect copyright.PENANAD6u3dsB83j
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they said it was all in my mind,331Please respect copyright.PENANAi2Ip6ad7zH
the anxiety, the stress.331Please respect copyright.PENANA94pAWbYcYK
that i had a happy, loving family331Please respect copyright.PENANAa7SHfjX8xJ
and i was perfectly fine.331Please respect copyright.PENANAQhfmrfT3BK
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i'm not.331Please respect copyright.PENANATTLCFyR1nS
i'm drowning in my own blood331Please respect copyright.PENANAdWlIAg5LMx
and choking on my tongue331Please respect copyright.PENANAs1A3FpPY30
when i try to say so.331Please respect copyright.PENANAaVmFqxIxvI
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...331Please respect copyright.PENANALt94dvJCdA
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(it's all in my mind.331Please respect copyright.PENANAoAxVLWZDpE
every last drop of anxiety,331Please respect copyright.PENANAURJ5E6MEsh
i have a happy, loving family.331Please respect copyright.PENANAQEsL8ePoK0
i'm perfectly fine.)331Please respect copyright.PENANAoaJ9oR09l9