they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,224Please respect copyright.PENANAy28uPZWj13
all in the same breath with no hesitation.224Please respect copyright.PENANAY9Gjsso18f
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later224Please respect copyright.PENANA0zLh3LEnk8
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.224Please respect copyright.PENANAOzoXza2tJo
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,224Please respect copyright.PENANAX1ikbLZokD
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s224Please respect copyright.PENANAxEJz5tF2gq
but in the end they still withhold dinner,224Please respect copyright.PENANAdjfKVDzynU
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.224Please respect copyright.PENANAH7RWJZdAyX
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals224Please respect copyright.PENANA5T2Ay0Xw1B
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.224Please respect copyright.PENANAnoqv9XNBFZ
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch224Please respect copyright.PENANATlggC5Cc4T
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.224Please respect copyright.PENANA8rNwGMzCJw
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,224Please respect copyright.PENANArJVxY0kZtt
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.224Please respect copyright.PENANAPuuzdxg5zl
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief224Please respect copyright.PENANAqP7iUrjQhq
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.224Please respect copyright.PENANA5YhFGSF3BJ
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",224Please respect copyright.PENANACBnXMgg7ir
said it was all mental and to just stop224Please respect copyright.PENANATC9ztOpgNK
but it was habits formed out of pent up224Please respect copyright.PENANA4M80joPbUE
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.224Please respect copyright.PENANA4qe6wkE5Uo
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they said it was all in my mind,224Please respect copyright.PENANAsV2CpHUk6U
the anxiety, the stress.224Please respect copyright.PENANA37K6xkBV5s
that i had a happy, loving family224Please respect copyright.PENANA36swxJgPxF
and i was perfectly fine.224Please respect copyright.PENANA2xZY5UV3AH
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i'm not.224Please respect copyright.PENANAvpG8a9CIqb
i'm drowning in my own blood224Please respect copyright.PENANAWhPg7yko0j
and choking on my tongue224Please respect copyright.PENANACrsGgKhW9K
when i try to say so.224Please respect copyright.PENANAmTsyaxEhce
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...224Please respect copyright.PENANAhBaR4cEcZt
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(it's all in my mind.224Please respect copyright.PENANAQSfKrKVbgv
every last drop of anxiety,224Please respect copyright.PENANArvGBiDcWcM
i have a happy, loving family.224Please respect copyright.PENANAHr1xp2pplE
i'm perfectly fine.)224Please respect copyright.PENANAbDbArYhmAP