「真的沒什麼，到你的學校要搭公車？」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq01cdmsQhE
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低下頭，現在的這種心情不該屬於朋友之間，楚襄冉很快的轉移了話題，然後才想起，他其實從來也不知道，官玄默的學校在哪裡。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJ7o3hJddL
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不，他甚至連官玄默念什麼學校，讀什麼科系都不清楚。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUN7p4SjoAk
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「對不起。」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pVadvV1f0
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歉疚的說出口，他第一次發現，從兩個人見面以來，他從來也沒問過對方，關於對方的事情。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRb3SgKiEAE
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還有對方離開後的生活，他什麼都不知道。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0N2rWztDSW
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「對不起……」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboGFMSDCmP
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第二句歉語，已經低如呢喃。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbGVEulij3
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「襄冉？為什麼要道歉？」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8n7GJeDQc
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雖然聲音很輕，官玄默還是聽見了。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9A5VEDsUj
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可是他猜不出楚襄冉道歉的原因。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42FiLEXnCw
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楚襄冉輕輕搖頭，頭頂上的髮旋因為搖晃而變得更明顯了點，而隨後抬起的臉，揚著笑容。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA64nKyAzDM
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「沒事，要搭的公車是哪一班？站名叫什麼？」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0a89uLnJs6
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他轉身過去像是在研究公車的班次時間，並且不停地詢問如何坐車到官玄默的學校，絲毫不給對方追問的機會。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNl7o3Allff
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雖然牽住了楚襄冉的手沒有放開，官玄默一瞬間卻感到心驚，和強烈的不安。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2k0rOM2Bw
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感覺就像是他其實一點也握不住這隻手，無論牽得再怎麼緊，抓得再怎麼牢，終究還是會隨風飄散在空中，最後什麼也不會剩下。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVjPFWwG5u
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而後，楚襄冉終於知道為什麼十一點半的約，官玄默要提早那麼多時間出發了。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMGB5SmN9E
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光車程和等車的時間就花去兩個多小時，楚襄冉站在一旁，看著官玄默和早已經等在學校門口的友人交談，心裡頭五味雜陳。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigtx7V3Qe5
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每次、每次都要花那麼多時間，走那麼多路，才只為了短短不到幾個小時的交談？40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcKMg6FCRE
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搭第一班公車的時候，他還覺得懷念，這幾年來每次出門，他不是讓有車的法恩載，就是坐法恩朋友的車，幾乎沒有自己搭公車的機會。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAlaxRasys
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一下子，他有點想起高中時，和另外兩個人一起出門，一起等校車，然後在車上說笑的時光。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGeBu2QTtb
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甚至一直到半個多小時後下了車，他們轉過街角又走了一小段路，接著停在新的公車站牌下等車的時候，他還只是驚訝。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6huwVWb1g
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原來不是只要一班車就會抵達目的地。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vwEBgTS60
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可是等到又一個小時的車程過去，終於從晃得快昏的公車中離開，官玄默卻帶著他走下車站旁的捷運入口時，楚襄冉就真的愣住了。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNlE2dEiWw
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在人多又熱鬧的捷運地下街裡，他完全沒有心情去看一邊的店家擺了些什麼商品，只是讓官玄默抓住自己的手，然後跟著對方左拐右彎的穿梭在人群之中，買票，進入閘門，捷運雖然說快，但是搭得距離一長，也要花上二、三十分鐘。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5asXOIZTJ
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他沒有念過大學，不知道大學上下課的時間，可是官玄默每次到「Find」的時候，都已經晚上七、八點了，他一直以為是大學的下課時間比較晚，卻沒有想過，原來官玄默的時間，都花在了車程上。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rX7MYdh4b
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楚襄冉想起自己剛剛看過公車的班次，在他們等車的時候。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKw008Agl8D
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最晚的一班也不過到十二點，官玄默卻每次都留到十點左右才離開。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzCPxW4s85
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從「Find」走到公車站就要十幾分鐘，他要回學校還得在下車後走一段路，然後再轉一班公車才能搭上捷運……40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nvFdJHT3y
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「襄冉。」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaY65TijBAX
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像是和同學的交談暫時告一段落，官玄默回頭叫著那個一直沒有靠近過他們，只是遠遠看著的人。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GgFgkJQIA
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楚襄冉沒有回應。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2WPHYVQrv
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他想，他終於明白了為什麼官玄默始終沒有愛上他。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfG1Z4SqHs2
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他以為他自己喜歡官玄默，愛著官玄默，所以盡自己所能的替對方著想，做自己以為對方希望的事。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvoaWHEzfJ
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但其實，或許他愛的人，從來就是自己。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUehKwN2LN
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就連當年自以為對愛戀之人的守護，或許都不過是種自我滿足而已。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZg519uBec
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因為愛自己，所以不想受傷，所以眷戀那份擁抱，所以想要依靠那份溫暖。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkjmrdA1Zj
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他是這樣自私的人，於是最後，才會什麼都得不到。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWh47V8sUU
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「襄冉？」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNU23iw60dt
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官玄默又喊了一聲，聲音裡隱隱帶上了憂心。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3EwBEsYf1Z
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這次楚襄冉總算有了反應，勾起微笑慢慢的朝著他們走過來。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qYDd2n9hQ
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「他就是你找了很久的那個很重要的朋友？」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeX0uhatDJq
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手上拿著官玄默答應幫他整理好的社團資料，駱少凡忽然有種莫名的想法。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJ0ClpbDHp
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「你該不會是因為他，所以才答應我幫忙整理活動資料的吧？」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yEvBokKlG
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之前把那堆雜亂不堪的文件和檔案塞在一個大背包裡讓官玄默帶走的時候，官玄默曾經告訴他，這段時間他不會回宿舍，會住在別的地方，所以如果要找他，只能打他的手機聯絡。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiUvUHyCcf
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他那時候沒多想也沒多問，只想著終於有人肯幫他整理資料真是太好了，原本他只是問問，根本沒敢期待官玄默會幫忙收他社團的爛攤子。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgEArNC1yQ
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沒想到官玄默竟然只思考了下就一口答應，現在說起來，怎麼想怎麼怪。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRV88iv9HP0
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「你們真的只是朋友嗎？」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDea0QiU8X
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「不是朋友會是什麼？」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYR8X29Hea
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只愣了很短的時間，官玄默低喊著反駁，直到把話說完了，才查覺到自己無論是情緒或是口氣都太激動了點。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1b81P91NB
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幾乎是下意識的往楚襄冉的方向看，剛才還離他們有一點距離的人，現在已經站在了他們旁邊。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ApPoRUqka
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「襄……」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHHPT6nunm
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「你好，我是楚襄冉。」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZLIrocwM1
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笑著的臉，帶著笑意，像是很高興能認識新朋友的聲音，楚襄冉截斷了官玄默叫著他名字的聲音，主動朝駱少凡打招呼。