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和喜歡Kelvin的女生進行了一場不愉快的對話後，我便到了學校門口會合Kelvin：「行得。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFeSuOiUXQ
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「咁耐嘅？」他問。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXJUw022ee
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「嗯。」想要放鬆心情的我說：「不如今日去掃街，肚餓想食啲嘢。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ24lB18wq7
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「好阿。」Kelvin和我並肩而行。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyhkXrI651
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXq5P081lI
這不是我第一次和Kelvin單獨放學，可是我的心情竟然緊張起來。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIvfQvkSh2
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自從被同學懷疑我和Kelvin、古榮的關係後，我的心便不再單純。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgBuvaO6NB
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我開始思考，難道我對他們抱有愛情的感覺而沒有察覺？到底怎樣才算是愛情的喜歡？247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXILxqCAs0y
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdEBkloXpF
我仔細打量Kelvin的側臉。他有一顆性感喉核、單眼皮、微卷頭髮、手臂有因為勤力做運動而得來的小肌肉、永遠不願穿得整齊的校服。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqyslPtoSa
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我第一次有這種想法——每天見面的Kelvin外型其實不錯，能夠和他去掃街真幸運。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw40P8rVam8
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人的想法很微妙，明明沒有事情發生過，我跟Kelvin本來就會相約一起放學和掃街，只因為幾句說話便能扭轉一個人的想法。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7TsLVKp0g
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想法塑造習慣，習慣就是生活。一個人的想法非常重要，光用腦袋便能改變自己對世界的觀感。難怪校長時常訓話，學生必需留意自己說話的用詞。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDhgi8STq5
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爸爸吸毒後會有這種感覺嗎？生活過於苦悶無新意，對身邊本來平平無奇的東西，從無到有，誕生了快感。就像吃完精神鴉片，內心一陣飄飄然。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rShOzGDQI
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡru1zQDvcN6
「喂。」Kelvin打斷我的發情，還伸手摸摸我的額頭：「你係咪唔舒服？塊面咁紅嘅？」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUovVXcpcc2
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「咳咳⋯」我因為吞了一半的口水，嚇得狂咳。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaKARKP02K
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvauTLUuFvl
Kelvin拍拍我的背：「洗唔洗早啲返屋企休息？」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggImF0grDW
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16M5bJ78Mn
「唔洗。我吞口水唔小心瀆親姐。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiKF2weQ9q
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJC5g4MbJQ6
「咁蠢嘅人都有，你陣間食燒賣小心啲。」說話一啖砂糖一啖屎是Kelvin的特色。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPEDN2Q8xY
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFZqUrkKoQ
我站在Kelvin旁，一邊吃撈麵，一邊等待著我的芋圓鮮奶茶。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd18JMNLF6u
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC649LxSp9v
腦中是各式各樣的幻想。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLb44Ybo8mn
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pjDmgnrWm
如果我跟Kelvin談戀愛，會一直感受到這種飄飄然嗎？247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDlV2eRLGo
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如果會，戀愛似乎不錯。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKQL2F3AND
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「琴日睇新聞好爆阿，韓流巨星宣佈退出樂壇。」Kelvin說。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28I7DwNBjX
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKKns2RQIe
「係咩？我無留意。」我通常聽本地音樂，對外國音樂不熟悉。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFCKphN9i2
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「原來佢做龜公，開間酒吧做毒竇，仲有堆明星朋友喺Group share落藥迷姦嘅片段，好痴線。」Kelvin說。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdN188duMw
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「咁癲？佢好似都幾紅。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMH8OdbW8jL
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡut617UjfwL
「真係無樣睇。好彩你唔迷呢啲韓星。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANOHsugNvX
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY36PiRMuc6
「點解咁講？」我問。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24fX5XMmDj
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「鐘意埋啲衣冠禽獸就傷心囉。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xtS1vOkjR
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFgDKOG7HF
「我問你一條問題阿。如果你識人吸毒，仲會唔會同佢做朋友？」Kelvin的話題讓想起我的爸爸。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpf3l7wkO7
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「唔會，我唔會接受。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhi61Yh3wYS
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「如果係你朋友嘅屋企人吸毒呢？」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0HLGpVPEC
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAbXpS5lBX
「咁就難講。」Kelvin說：「佢出入屋企品流複雜。我會盡最大努力幫佢，等佢唔好誤入歧途。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6ktkP3F72
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我從來沒有嘗試幫助爸爸，鼓勵他離開黑社會：「屋企人吸毒，唔係朋友本人吸毒，唔代表會誤入歧途嘅。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIC19bjOpin
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想來爸爸也是身不由己賺錢還債，以他的能力除了保安、洗碗也沒有工作適合他，沒有站在他的立場勸喻也是種偽善。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UV1MZEBWY
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioUoZ01e1X
「係好容易呀！如果你老竇喺房食冰隊草，你喺廳都會聞到啦，毒品喺你眼前，又會心郁郁想試。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgid9n16BJc
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNUg8ilTpo
「你唔係好鐘意幫人㗎咩？」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThJmwBWDIa
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngqCbTH7ni
「阿婆行動不便，點可以相提並論！吸毒對我嚟講無咩討論空間！你話我歧視都係咁講，同賭錢一樣，無人拎住支槍迫佢，累己累人。幫過對方拒絕就算，連朋友都唔會做。留返俾專業嘅機構幫手。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqI20h7BYc
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxNb2ibm9V
Kelvin的說話打破了我和他戀愛的幻想。跟正義的Kelvin坦白父親有吸毒習慣絕對是一件自掘墳墓的事。他會討厭我的家庭，管東管西，而需要倚賴父親生存的我在成年前也無法解決家庭背景的問題。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9IK04OXU7
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他無意的批評讓我內心不舒服。我是受害者，也很討厭自己的家庭阿！可是家庭的影響一直都在，它就像一道封印在身上除不掉的詛咒。無論是自己、抑或他人，同樣避之則吉。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarwN5RGVXY
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbIxWDPMl1
我寧願沒有開口詢問，沉醉在五分鐘前的粉紅色泡泡裡。我忘記了我和Kelvin是對難以找到共識卻常常一起的朋友。現在的我失去了幻想，變得更自卑了。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6E72dw2zb
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我和Kelvin的關係並不穩固，他會隨時離棄我。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFr1xVFoW7Q
247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fbrGcVGvy
婚姻的承諾都能推翻，更何況是乳臭未乾的戀愛。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SFUefVCV4
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「點解人係群體動物？點解人要互相來往？」我喃喃自語：「係自私，係計算？兩個人，一定係有利益先會走埋一齊。世界上根本冇無私嘅愛。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvEWGkPv0c
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「咁功利，一齊開心唔得咩？」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DV9bbiAxw
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「開心都係一種利益。可能對方人緣好，帶自己去認識朋友；可能係對方博學多才，學業上幫到自己；可能係自己孤單，想有人陪伴自己。總之就係因為利益開始，互相需要，到咗某一日，唔再幫到大家，就自然分開。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJAhW0OCLI
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我為未發生的事情擔憂。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tYxKAToIn
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面對關係看得見的分岔，倒數著珍愛的關係終會消逝，無力感擴散。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnkHvzoo5q
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「你今日做咩事咁多愁善感？」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjFscTXAtE
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「無呀。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAG2KlhXHUn
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「我知啦，思春期！中二病！」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOM86LKDXhK
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「唔知呀！你話係就係啦。」247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZhxW7NR40
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人生就是各種徒勞無功的零碎。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQXzi3LOBs
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難過。247Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqCaUp0cmo
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