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和喜歡Kelvin的女生進行了一場不愉快的對話後，我便到了學校門口會合Kelvin：「行得。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMD9mGTBfZz
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「咁耐嘅？」他問。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpV4E7zDqk
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wt9FrY3Zv
「嗯。」想要放鬆心情的我說：「不如今日去掃街，肚餓想食啲嘢。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxvxtIEzHJ
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLpY1XeRzG
「好阿。」Kelvin和我並肩而行。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fptVw1P83
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoFlUbdryG
這不是我第一次和Kelvin單獨放學，可是我的心情竟然緊張起來。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuB3IvgR5S
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自從被同學懷疑我和Kelvin、古榮的關係後，我的心便不再單純。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzn7ZzoDtFX
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我開始思考，難道我對他們抱有愛情的感覺而沒有察覺？到底怎樣才算是愛情的喜歡？152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7Oj8Vkutk
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBnt0xhNPS
我仔細打量Kelvin的側臉。他有一顆性感喉核、單眼皮、微卷頭髮、手臂有因為勤力做運動而得來的小肌肉、永遠不願穿得整齊的校服。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmtgOmBUhb
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我第一次有這種想法——每天見面的Kelvin外型其實不錯，能夠和他去掃街真幸運。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MAaU43Iuk
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oFfWV6ZJd
人的想法很微妙，明明沒有事情發生過，我跟Kelvin本來就會相約一起放學和掃街，只因為幾句說話便能扭轉一個人的想法。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnJI36XQLI
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想法塑造習慣，習慣就是生活。一個人的想法非常重要，光用腦袋便能改變自己對世界的觀感。難怪校長時常訓話，學生必需留意自己說話的用詞。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QUPtvYnFp
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爸爸吸毒後會有這種感覺嗎？生活過於苦悶無新意，對身邊本來平平無奇的東西，從無到有，誕生了快感。就像吃完精神鴉片，內心一陣飄飄然。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJU12wM350s
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAIufYDHIQ
「喂。」Kelvin打斷我的發情，還伸手摸摸我的額頭：「你係咪唔舒服？塊面咁紅嘅？」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29zgdgoErk
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqY4fw1YH5J
「咳咳⋯」我因為吞了一半的口水，嚇得狂咳。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡka7aKvXl7E
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRD97JyL7T
Kelvin拍拍我的背：「洗唔洗早啲返屋企休息？」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSqSFH1fOp
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBW5kfZfsb
「唔洗。我吞口水唔小心瀆親姐。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZwdJ1p0J9
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5KLpVczun
「咁蠢嘅人都有，你陣間食燒賣小心啲。」說話一啖砂糖一啖屎是Kelvin的特色。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdW4hSVNkF
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpH1CBGrFQ6
我站在Kelvin旁，一邊吃撈麵，一邊等待著我的芋圓鮮奶茶。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPz8JFvLry
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYlqnFH23s
腦中是各式各樣的幻想。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TsUISs0Ar
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2R645KZMTq
如果我跟Kelvin談戀愛，會一直感受到這種飄飄然嗎？152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4f8WLOnKwk
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如果會，戀愛似乎不錯。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pfsX2NnPF
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafNYW345ZD
「琴日睇新聞好爆阿，韓流巨星宣佈退出樂壇。」Kelvin說。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2HV0r1g21
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjBR0UDMDQ
「係咩？我無留意。」我通常聽本地音樂，對外國音樂不熟悉。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjdEZo7foe
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMd0IsLYK9U
「原來佢做龜公，開間酒吧做毒竇，仲有堆明星朋友喺Group share落藥迷姦嘅片段，好痴線。」Kelvin說。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFF5HGxfavY
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03TZ2tRDxZ
「咁癲？佢好似都幾紅。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEICtqrM2ws
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDHPHafW1o
「真係無樣睇。好彩你唔迷呢啲韓星。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡge3DcshX88
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFiDF2oTl3g
「點解咁講？」我問。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipaYj0SkZ6
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpcY5k4GMi
「鐘意埋啲衣冠禽獸就傷心囉。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvdzeAthPO
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「我問你一條問題阿。如果你識人吸毒，仲會唔會同佢做朋友？」Kelvin的話題讓想起我的爸爸。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZukwEYHky
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjqN2Clpjt
「唔會，我唔會接受。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifzqSkizGm
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesybvVsM9p
「如果係你朋友嘅屋企人吸毒呢？」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wDyUABA2I
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Q7gr4GcUu
「咁就難講。」Kelvin說：「佢出入屋企品流複雜。我會盡最大努力幫佢，等佢唔好誤入歧途。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCVBylcl07
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我從來沒有嘗試幫助爸爸，鼓勵他離開黑社會：「屋企人吸毒，唔係朋友本人吸毒，唔代表會誤入歧途嘅。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiVX7LjZdg
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想來爸爸也是身不由己賺錢還債，以他的能力除了保安、洗碗也沒有工作適合他，沒有站在他的立場勸喻也是種偽善。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdg5tSBjnNG
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdc42gvPfCf
「係好容易呀！如果你老竇喺房食冰隊草，你喺廳都會聞到啦，毒品喺你眼前，又會心郁郁想試。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0mIheSN9I
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEo5d3n5Am
「你唔係好鐘意幫人㗎咩？」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0OlDnKXbL
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfO1IbJxa4p
「阿婆行動不便，點可以相提並論！吸毒對我嚟講無咩討論空間！你話我歧視都係咁講，同賭錢一樣，無人拎住支槍迫佢，累己累人。幫過對方拒絕就算，連朋友都唔會做。留返俾專業嘅機構幫手。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoDoya9ikW
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7AxEWt6V4
Kelvin的說話打破了我和他戀愛的幻想。跟正義的Kelvin坦白父親有吸毒習慣絕對是一件自掘墳墓的事。他會討厭我的家庭，管東管西，而需要倚賴父親生存的我在成年前也無法解決家庭背景的問題。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTX5lFuxuz
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8i7kEvVkkb
他無意的批評讓我內心不舒服。我是受害者，也很討厭自己的家庭阿！可是家庭的影響一直都在，它就像一道封印在身上除不掉的詛咒。無論是自己、抑或他人，同樣避之則吉。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3riez2iyHG
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59XoPjQGdE
我寧願沒有開口詢問，沉醉在五分鐘前的粉紅色泡泡裡。我忘記了我和Kelvin是對難以找到共識卻常常一起的朋友。現在的我失去了幻想，變得更自卑了。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMeyghQbZo
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwl59pvnBzQ
我和Kelvin的關係並不穩固，他會隨時離棄我。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGil8RowPvS
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbe1BDeabP
婚姻的承諾都能推翻，更何況是乳臭未乾的戀愛。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEe4yqOxi3a
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdwFXe1U8q
「點解人係群體動物？點解人要互相來往？」我喃喃自語：「係自私，係計算？兩個人，一定係有利益先會走埋一齊。世界上根本冇無私嘅愛。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0Ic46DXQZ
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeCCvb02Oj
「咁功利，一齊開心唔得咩？」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwAFPwSfnD
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kL1TExtfh
「開心都係一種利益。可能對方人緣好，帶自己去認識朋友；可能係對方博學多才，學業上幫到自己；可能係自己孤單，想有人陪伴自己。總之就係因為利益開始，互相需要，到咗某一日，唔再幫到大家，就自然分開。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfNjZAO4Nk
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我為未發生的事情擔憂。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsnPuQFs41
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWeDHLbXVg
面對關係看得見的分岔，倒數著珍愛的關係終會消逝，無力感擴散。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGbJr7CJyd
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZ3k0yYeBQ
「你今日做咩事咁多愁善感？」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmD7XDIGRTy
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「無呀。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxNz51Sj5p
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「我知啦，思春期！中二病！」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSneVEoPhC
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「唔知呀！你話係就係啦。」152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiQ0dVs2BT
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人生就是各種徒勞無功的零碎。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tYcEFPGCb
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難過。152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYOfdkCtVQ
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