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A new world
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Bad things happen to good people but good things also happens to good people
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Crystal Valerie Beck
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I was being escorted by three bulky man and one other guy that told me to use the mask immediately I saw him but he wasn't using one, he looked extremely familiar
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I was told a young man was going to pick me up at the airport, I didn't know I was going to be escorted like a VIP
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Something was thrown from the crowd of girls outside and the guards quickly came to stand infront of me, to say I was surprised was an understatement, I know I made a lot of enemies online, I didn't know my enemies knows how I look and are going to be here to welcome me
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There was a crowd of girls and possibly boys too who held out signs, I am flabbergasted
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I know fame and hatred came in a package especially for korean media, I just didn't expect it to come this early, I am not yet famous
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according to the company they said it wouldn't be announced until I am saftly in korea, I made it to korea but I'm not safe yet
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Another thing came flying in and it hit me right on the chest, guess what it was people an egg, a freaking egg
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Do they know how much I went through to put this outfit together just to impress my oppas
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Within seconds everything became extremely rowdy, the bodyguards were trying their best but they are just three against probably fifty to eighty girls, I never knew I was gonna make this much of a grand entrance when nobody is supposed to know I am even in korea
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I felt a hand grab me in the midst of all the chaos, the person had a dark hair and he had a black mask on, I concluded it was a he because of how tall and slender he is
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Yes I am able to analyze that when I can hardly walk properly, I am being dragged,
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The person only left my hand when we got to a black car in the parking lot
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am I being kidnapped, I just followed without trying to know why I was being dragged "who are you?" I asked the stranger breathlessly, we had just run a marathon and he looks so unaffected
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he drops his face mask and I know him, he is one of the member's brother, he was ha min woo's brother, the handsome tall glass of water
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The popular non celebrity, he is extremely popular because of his looks and height
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He was about to talk but I stopped him "don't worry I know who you are" I made sure to tone the excitement down, I don't want to be seen like a psycho "good I know you too" I've always known his english was okay, but I didn't expect it to be this good
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"Get in the car" the way he said it was so freaking sexy, snap out of it Val
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"I'm sorry we wouldn't be able to introduce or greet ourselves properly, we have to get out of here before the fans know you're gone"
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the silence wasn't relaxing at all, I can feel the adrenaline running through my vein, I just wanted someone I could tell how excited I am
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I keep hoping the people at the airport are okay but I'm too much of a social chicken to interact with him "dont worry the people at the airport would be okay" he said looking at me "you looked worried, but excited" how can he know all that by just looking at me
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"I'm han min ho" I smiled genuinely happy to finally meet him, even when everything was confirmed, I was still extremely paranoid, maybe all that happened was a big scheme to kidnap me
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As if someone would go through all this to kidnap you
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Why is my subconscious so degrading
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"I'm crystal" my voice sounds squeaky, what the hell, I don't want him thinking I'm some sort of pick me girl, I don't want him to find me wierd
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I cleared my throat and repeated my name, this only made him chuckle, I thought he was a quiet and reserved person, that was what the media made him look like, why is he making jest of me now, technically he wasn't but let me think whatever I want
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We had a great talk, and I must say he is not what I pictured him to be like, he is a conversation starter and he knows exactly what to say to keep the conversation going, when we finally stopped chatting, it wasn't awkward like I thought it would be, it was just a comfortable silence
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"wow" i said in awe as I saw Rina unni approach me, Yoon Rina is the boys make up artist and social media manager, she looks more flawless than she looks on videos
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every fans has always been jealous of her because he gets to be close to the boy and she sees them whenever she wants, heck I am super jealous of her
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"Hi, I'm Yoon ri na" she said in her thick Asian accent, I love it "I'm crystal" she waved her hand to someone at my back "오, 난 당신을 너무 잘 알아요 {oh, I know you so well}" she was distracted by whoever she was waving but she continued the conversation nonetheless
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"you know me?" I ask before stopping my self, I have to make them think I don't understand them so I would know if they talk bad about me
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She nods, I guess she would know since she came to welcome me and she is their social media manager "the boys talks about you" I am confused, they've only known about me for a little while and they talk about me?
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What if they hate me? What if their agency is forcing them to do this? What if I annoy them
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Yes I am paranoid, I know but I can't help it, I want to stop my self from questioning every little thing but it just happens
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I want to ask her what she meant but min ho hyung beat me to it "리나 스톱 {Ri na stop}" he warned and she just shrugged "we all know you" were the short words she said before dashing into the mansion "she is always excited to meet new people" they seem close and they don't even act as if they know each other on camera
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We walked side my side into the house and I must say, this is magnificent I've watched the house tour several times since they moved in here but it is extremely different seeing it in person
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Min ho went a different way and I followed ri na "I'll show you to the room you'll be staying" her accent was still so cute and funny, I've met Asian people in america but they were all fluent in english
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the room is on the second floor so as all other rooms and mine was the first room by the right, there were totals of seven other rooms "this is originally moon's room" moon is the maknae, the youngest person in the group
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I felt immediately uncomfortable, was I inconveniencing him, does he consent to me sleeping in his room, I had so many questions
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But I have been informed I won't be meeting any other person apart from ri na unni and min ho oppa for three weeks, which is after they've aired everything about the show, and the fans know what is going on
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So if I do meet them and they start filming, it would be a genuine reaction and not a fake one, three weeks is a long time for me considering I thought I was going to meet them today and I had put much effort into my dressing and composure
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I want to see them so badly
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"Settle in, I'll cook something" she didn't wait for my answer before she left, she's a full ball of energy, that one
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wait, if I am staying here where would they be staying for the next three weeks
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I can't help but think I am a very big inconvenience, I've read about how idols are forced to do things, I just hope they are not forced to fake being nice to me
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"Alex와 Moon은 매우 흥분할 것입니다 {Alex and moon will be so thrilled}" min ho hyung nods "그들은 끝없이 그녀에 대해 이야기했습니다 {they've been talking about her endlessly}" min ho hyung replied her moving a little bit closer "왜인지 알겠다 직접보면 너무예뻐 {I see why, she's so pretty in person}" min ho hyung chuckles "그녀의 사진은 그녀를 정의하지 않습니다 {her pictures doesn't do her justice}"
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"She said you're really pretty" I could piece together what Ri na unni is saying in Hangul because I've watched a lot of movie and I know min ho wasn't translating it all, she mentioned Alex and then moon and she says something about picture, I normally piece it together quickly but she talks so fast
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And maybe it is just me, Min ho and Ri na seems to be in a relationship or maybe I just read too much into people's body language or maybe they are just good friends
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From my diagnoses as a body language expert, since I'm so paranoid that I read body language instead on focusing on what people are saying, it seems like they are lovers who are trying so hard to hide that fact but are failing miserably
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"Thank you" I said in english not leaving any clue I can understand any of the things they were both saying
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Even at home, I always said thank you and hello in Hangul
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But I want nothing more than to understand whatever they are saying fully, you know people tend to talk behind you if they think you don't understand their language
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I knew all korean swear word because sadly it wasn't that much, Rina paused and took a short glance at me because I was already pretty much staring at her we made eye contact
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she continued her conversation and I swear she said 'she as pretty as her pictures, she's even more pretty in person' I've heard that line in several K drama that I am sure I know exactly what it meant
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She has not being talking bad about me, she has being praising me
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The room I am in is large, knowing who the room belongs to is curbing my urge to go through everything because I don't want to be intrusive
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I sit on the bed still glancing around the room, this room is polar opposite what I thought his room would look like, this does not fit his personality at all, like I've always said in all the fans group I am or I've been
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We can never really know our idols, even if we watch them and practically monitor their lives some people even stalk them but you can never know what they are like if you don't get close to them
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I brought out my laptop, grinning when I am able to successfully connect the WiFi, it had no passwords
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I went through my socail media comments that seem to have gotten more popular since the speculations of what I won has been going around
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I had just 2368 comments yesterday and right now it is sadly up to 5890 and growing, this would have been okay if they were nice comment
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Scrolling through Instagram quickly bored me out until I saw the notification that kim ga heul is going live
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I clickon it immediately, I seem to always enjoy the pleasure of being the first person "my autumn" I typed and he smiled, that smile that practically melt me, that boxy smile, he waved at the screen and said hi, sadly I didn't enjoy my victory of being the first to comment for two seconds, he has the record of having the highest people watching him on lives for a korean entertainer and he has the highest following too if that wasn't a dedicated fan base i don't know what is
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He was answering questions so gently, I wasn't paying attention to comments but I saw him frown slightly before he laughed again, the comment has gone, I am too late
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time to divert my attention from what he is saying and pay more attention to the comment,
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"오빠 사랑해요 {Oppa I love you}, but you could do better than that tramp"
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I think the commenter is talking about the recent dating scandal that the two people involved and there companies hasn't been saying anything about
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"Careful, the tramp that recognizes other tramps, stay in your boundary, you are a fan so stay in your fucking lane"
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Comments went on and on and most comment he was getting was for or about the stupid dating scandal
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"That bitch is not worth you oppa"
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his or her user name was @gaheulhoe, yes we are all fangirls but you have to have a life outside of being a fan
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"And you are worth him?, grow the fuck up"
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the comments were rushing that I could hardly get one point across without ten or even more comments covering mine
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"Tell us if you are dating her, we'll support"
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he or she might mean well but I still think it is none of our bussiness we are just fans after all
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"I suppose he could tell you the last time he visited the restroom while you're at it, and the last time he had an intimate moment with a girl since we are investigating their lives now, and since they are inclined to tell us about their personal life"
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I made sure to @ the person because a lot of comments has already covered theirs while I was busy typing the longest message I could
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"I don't even know why people like you, leave our athenna alone"
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Are fans just usually stupid and delusional, are they usually this problematic, it is as if half of the population of fans are litrally deranged like what the heck, they don't even have any respect for their soul called idols
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"our Athena? i can't stop laughing, she doesn't know you exist, she knows he exist, bitch who won?"
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A lot of comments and I couldn't even reply them all but I am sure today has been an impressive record
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"Oppa, you can't get with her she is like the kpop hoe"
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What would happen if she saw this, how would she feel, I've always been interested in being a little known but the hatred that came with it was just too fucking much
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He ended much earlier than he normally would, he is one of the idols that really loves communicating with his fans, the shortest live he has ever done is two hours but he ended abrubtly just one hour in
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Thank for reading
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Xoxo
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