You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHl9hyiLJjc
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2vf8CcfwQ
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QccCyKA5z
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYA8RnSyKI
"I just want to go home," I say.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCN6j0Qywf
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBpRyEv7yK
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2ykBZqwbh
Father sighs.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4waC81uu3
I say "I don't want to stay here!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgT1sYNYPb
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiY9LFHzfUv
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGE4dcCV9iO
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfNAI4VDN4
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHQdx8cLuB
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJnyLnoXN2
"Pet, come down from the tree."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLy2NUaBHo
I stay silent.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0cVEafhlS
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvQk2J4kC6
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwd2hhCJkPt
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJQiGM45To
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuilt4Y8ay
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemceSlbFNx
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAcOYryeAW
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aeoLLZUeh
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeL0Z8pEo2
I say, "Please don't hurt me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmACEX8Yqyt
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmp20Qy2FA
I say, "Please don't!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvb2ebCMK6y
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCk6g4D4fFC
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyCOPCEB1k
"You'll find out soon enough, child."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRle3SfLcK6
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTDfjQy9AM
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyt5AMZsLT
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXkYc3gn0v
"Are you ready, child?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZkhkAuott
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMcIX0RznU
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlRywHRk47
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I say, "Okay.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOWXIc1dsA
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFYrArRR6x
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAJSMSboNV
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kuDTwfMf7
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAp2c3yDBu0
Father says "Good. Stay there."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfVOKt9eui
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGuwYSZffK
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDA8jaavGKJ
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wtG5sQoY2
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktxkM7dCCA
"Please!" I whisper.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZsx9Dy2XI
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJYn2YE7lf
I scream loudly.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNXbnXXsUw
My scream echoes throughout the room.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXBUPGfeM1
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyY0A5b09r
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ef4WE1mxc
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84KQbRHZL9
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTilDuO8sZS
I say "P-please s-stop.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHr0Zy0jeF
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUUEwzaoDj
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOJDzOncQa
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3peuXM0Du1
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGNbNnJhFC
"Look at her," another says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpybzo3HqE
I say "Please leave me alone."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMRERjVGFv
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKCYmKCfUP
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxhtgylL5d
"We'll see. Let's see."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDr7kZZ6ytS
I say "No no no.." They laugh.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rkvpoLrEN
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUr3a85AaQu
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUUZdakfMA
They untie me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjx6JBBO8wr
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPH26XUEAG
"Ah... you're up," Father says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuP6MHG0YVG
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRK0yah1vRu
"Where were you?" he asks,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0qxSGhCbX
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUykBagYiJP
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfPmzK56TB
Father smiles.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwzocfaD5O
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9xeFA8WvF
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YKYONpRn5
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1LD5JJRY1
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWvkBWplRf
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3dkmSdPZ2
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELeqMLYEzN
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uMqhR7lfd
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73HGRuIyCm
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpA2JMBUdH
I say, "Please let me go!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHHKwniTiS
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXouO06zzxV
"You will," Father says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BEWJJonpa
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60GrCdjjco
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgJU6iYnVn
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfjdhdx5zP
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ91gzR7mcI
"Stop crying," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJkiveKYYX
"I can't!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVG8TJqI85a
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBoQB7StSa
"Stop it!" I cry.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHeIttWu4I
"I said stop it!" he yells,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaq3AJagkPs
"I can't," I say.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjcqpuZawI
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7LR4Vr4uN
"NO!" Father screams.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIN9N1qg4q
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIi1MBBaMni
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhp9qnKro5
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77dCBHkstN
"I would. I really would."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgeYRtoa84
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEVKxaEYwh
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvStX0eX0c
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iNHhlzOPx
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNGGWxN6Ls
I say, "No I'm not!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DZfrBSyRc
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLs8tajpO7
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUaCUeJVY9
I say "No I won't!!!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmX2U0Rvyx
"You will!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAoOzx3Xa9
"I said NO!!!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulJGZiJMDK
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DcufVtHUS
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJxCocakna
"I know you will," Father says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEdCyiR2e9
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE74Jg5JFZj
He says "One."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFtmhTGW7e
I say, "I'll do anything.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpd43btJBNL
"Two."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5eqTg0r1K
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CJfMrbySF
"Three."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPJypaGOWC
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqra5xwlXsL
"No, don't do it," Father says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSbAmiF0Y0
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeb4Y6tyvo
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGavdW5Zdy
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSa4Vdx6Ss
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9MVeEVqYe
I say "Yes."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuAmOzYwlj
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24clqE7Ttf
"Yes," I say.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8IbB32cFl
"Good girl," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRM9fKADLNR
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1F3OwbM5P
"I won't," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUN4XtcAFhq
I stay tied up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAcXlhGaEQ
"Now," he says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSzJM7njzI
"Kneel."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡel0B6kPvPC
"Please," I say.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZTHNRjv0v
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpJk9MYsvP
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7ERLcko26
I just know it.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOmNEeINV5
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlSY5dZnwu
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8TTQuGUxE
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hahIIh6m9
I'm all alone in the room.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdgIkJRHkw
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I hear the door open. I look up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkRMxnYpre
"Hello," a man says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlL1XO8AUy
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjNhbaAvrP
"Hands behind your back," he says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PYxKupNsh
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu33YI3M6oR
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKR7s4iX1Pz
"Stay there," he says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vfx4dhm6y
I stay on my knees.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSToUlHBJeA
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2tOFGiJ1q
I say "No no no."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZ5XgR9KYo
"Do it," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBMpHuN713
I say no. He pushes harder.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERVKXxSb5x
"Do it!" he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqv78DgvZ4
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkywfEQ2Kl
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYgm0YTNUr
"Stay there," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIu84BvEarz
I stay on my knees.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyF2dhNwHaY
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmBaYSnknF
"Stop moving."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JW9dau5xD
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MtnNrtxBk
He pulls it out of my throat.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmz8pDcScpf
"What's wrong?" he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYWZVpAtVp
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxe0CU2lFcl
"What?" he says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4v55p7POA
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85zb1sTRXS
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xIboN7YZ6
"Is this too big for you?" he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpiCcacRKx
I nod.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAwgQLriI8
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oNkQHYLkz
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSXA1oWRfM
He shoves it back in.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThiwy4yqcB
I decide that vomiting once is enough.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡen8VrYr279
He shoves it in deeper.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHAJOUdX5r
I struggle and fight.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHocmrrOF20
"Stop fighting me," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrQsqMza6c
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡel61yy2YSY
"Get dressed," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyV6796nN4
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WoRRi2lWA
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwjkIPW46h
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYvFVtRfLu
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60w77o4PDc
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WNiazwviI
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL54mfAA0uK
I say, "Where's dad?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHKxfuSdIL
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4Y7ntEbfW
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzO1x3HI3j
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOu2rNJWY6
My father says, "Where have you been?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0Ga1M5opA
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJONip9mmSl
"Did they hurt you?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2q1pFv4jFw
"Yeah," I say.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINQVmaM8XI
"I'm sorry."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WI8ShUD1G
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqh2aPvRvVm
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDlMH8bpsN
"Is Allie in here?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLcu1cReYK
My dad says, "Yes, why?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XcF5ZXYiG
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFpHeZk6Qn
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcOoDunDTt
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN197lNLC0p
"No." I respond,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZGpceam83
"Can we come in?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMu2IjwdI6
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDfGNrgoai
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPpaEt8WiV
I say, "I don't know."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDq8XkKhBq
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5rImNIeTl
"No." I say,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEM3wAR9466
"Are you sure?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVkY2VKCON
"Yes."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5M9wGLWvLG
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuigSvnxw50
"Did he give you any food or water?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9O4F81pV1y
"No." I respond.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcg7t9qwMWb
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLp2ocSaHpG
"No."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeow5pBxlze
"What did he do to you?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BArxe00d1
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡembG39NvYE
"Did you fight him?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMxFub76D3
"I tried."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93bR8zvRns
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdE2U1YA1z
"I think I blacked out."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngueXoNmEq
"I see."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCcMJIkBlN
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuWTIAH4jZ
"And how long were you with him?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AjEVsZqyO
"I think about ten hours."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpdPe07dHE
"And you only just managed to escape?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnin6FK6FXv
"Yeah."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5w5s3UKyks
"Do you know where you were?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LOxEGiAVB
I say "No."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfgop3Hhk7
"What is the last thing you remember?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6H1iiIKAd
"I remember walking down the road."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡba3hDZWln6
"And then?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7x6mQObc8u
"I don't remember."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmwl7vN0TT
"Do you know how you got away?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsG3mp44KTL
I say, "I just ran,"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJmimsR7dt
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFU7W0ThMIK
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡketynr6njp
I say, "So that's how it all happened."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FFm1fakdf
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7dKFsZITN
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡna5y9iCwTY
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4a9M13aiEz
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQjU4ZLR8K
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAFmQ0tkYl
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdQRxxnWPB
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHYb30axU0
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDx4iBoI7Ur
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xDrdvJdu1
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLoZ1ycTGzP
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzvP5cByNe
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1WUI087wH
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOD5JahC2Y9
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7vW9YqnMR
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUbBWXuzwb
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEW82ILh9T
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3YjH7XIVZ
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tCF6AUZG4
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8YRNLI8bh
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWpJsBc9rJ
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ulqvSqnSa
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddugeQyiRT
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH50TWqhTNB
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLw5MSSkfWc
"Get up." he says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpqRC2shTm
"Why am I here?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOtF7op5eU
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNjf15IKJd
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3BVVynGzA
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCufw5rWzBM
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6bhkfazEo
I sit down.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM48XNZMtUK
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCIIcFT9D2
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rf2JXJwS6
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22JjEpZdqn
I say, "No."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTwEQxRs8G
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHooeCHr9cs
I respond, "Yes."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSICSbVh3aB
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwLzl0Py2U
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29upF5MicK
"Yes."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEphgsSXVSp
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDy91Ix6U9
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobLXE3sgxA
I say, "Hi."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnG1QpOnsQ
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvJMCjtaXP
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRUz84u9ag
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GUBBs0aOw
"Right away," says the woman.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqVvVQCqm8
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQ92Y8VgPd
I say, "Okay."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtC3k54EjC
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKXLXSXsYU
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsHq8WFB1i
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXK6TrtpkLW
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJN9bG3sac
"He kidnapped me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaM23F5ESz
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8TOuXR2hY
I say, "He tried to stab me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyY3KHdfBO
"Who was he?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAagtiajOQq
"I don't know."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWbslWX540
"Where did you get the knife?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyYUV8LiHX
"He had it in his pocket."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9w1Ion5eCY
"Did he threaten you in any way?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWHg3loPNC
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgmqzZyyBR
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2PXL6MYni
"No."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79ijZXCVcR
"You sure? Think hard."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJ8UHTDjPc
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7s9XdvyfF
I say, "He killed my father."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQTiLrm65Z
"What?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmKDZEYv4A
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZW88AzL1MC
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNrs2u9Snu
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcddZRvnY9
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEDQeEgqGj
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1Inbj2a2z
I say, "Okay.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuO2IX56HuS
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnH8pGFYEqY
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfOc1rMEOI
I follow him.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qmpecSaXP
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlgEqa3rZh
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHVLfxqUHJ
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArvaiSR6ds
"Alright. Take a seat."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEzGDWymcP
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNocJIAjm2l
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKW092UMPp
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIxPzZ3z3C
"Yes.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4EavHxvp9
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxlXrbLBd2
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJaO27OHee
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTbK9o6bSQ
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyV1gRFctZO
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64HnMAjiI5
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9RMDpdVZn
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIB63eNrsj5
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvhAfFBsAe
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixAsKBO7Ml
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrxzr2PApH
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSKAC84DwE
"What is it?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxAT3zA63V
Doctor Kessel says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nJvZKZxla
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2V8pAIqbk
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEROAJyS39R
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXz2C5xjn4h
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXHEXQfBe1
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ltqV6UCj2
The nurse shakes her head, and says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgQtUbAoeK
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahawMPVvRY
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvyHsVwjTF
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcj0SBlRwzi
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVp3ZBgNfa3
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcS2JdtDm5
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNSLGshtGK
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkOCwKxuZr
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rDyDdy7Eg
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcno1AGLaZ
I say "Where am I?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZs7ZFfEuHS
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcd0lAqnOiL
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡue4rVkQRGU
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAwItTYIcX
I say, "I want to see my mom..."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1a6qLUInG
The nurse interrupts me and says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYGF3fKncY
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡct5X3vZB4k
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOy4Xr0kBE
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApdPB5rCgM
"M-mom.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOy5CcrQMU
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7m5nMFfuQ7
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGCjQ96F2v
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPw9uQOcNgS
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKK0aIAzQh
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlzly03TIs
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4Pi5UirmF
"Yes.." I say quietly.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9i0Wui3IO
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiiKYrl694
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLAJAiflNk
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfceyuvO5Dq
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHbJuajlNN
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOB3dWf92l2
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAePLaZKpt
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuJu6TeI1Z
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6wmLfv5Zy
I say, "Okay.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Vrx4146Jq
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcghrUg4gM
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEr959WUWk
I wipe the tears off my face.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLPLkNMboq
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡguUir5UEEi
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr719aH80GQ
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2y782uYXzO
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtMM94ixAs
I say, "Tell me!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHp3WSUw6h
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ymvq781zu
My heart drops.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMWn81yqkq
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJVUmERvJA
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In the morning, I get my visitors.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6tmP17Fpp
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ319XXRuDbf
I say, "Wait!" She stops.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYySOy13oL7
"What is it?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4BXFouIE3
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaoS1KossV
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyH00vcf5on
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAy5iqCgu3
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhnowrHmru
I cry myself to sleep.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiOCQfp1Yt
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnnlRgwqDn
"How are you doing, honey?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbw5Wb7Stew
I say, "Horrible.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnU0vrqabia
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzpZ9mdmdj
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sMmZkMPz5
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNFAOZyNyj
"It's not your fault, honey."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWR6IbiJ3Ya
I start crying again.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LhFrmdTxz
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZfdAGxl4m
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMzDqRoqi0
Maybe I'm dead after all.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4nPVOpxw9
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6h7hMFwIX
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlhkMKS5j3
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCdRoxZ24B
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCvc05BfAf
I say, "I still want to win this."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8b8XtZ7Rt0
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcWut4VeTN
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWcaHIxdQY
"Really?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjph96b7kB9
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHoeW6Dbix
I start crying, and I can't stop.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVr8dmp1D1J
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6YOeC2okQ
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyImVSe0A70
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHGmAKaur4
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Z2LfrlRT0
"I wanted to see the flowers."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4BNCCMlFF
"Why are you out of your room?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyoeCS2n9G
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwFbO6DV1z
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNItN4cLio
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9wAnkibQQ
"Thank you for being you."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtxgwlM9q6
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uYebLIis7
I make a decision.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YFwU8PyPe
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uU6XITc0S
"What's your name?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGiesgIw2q
"Allisa," I say, smiling.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡki1zQgozs0
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5591xxTxK
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IMhysBwdJ
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISXB30dTCG
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhs0G41miZ
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2vf8CcfwQ
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QccCyKA5z
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYA8RnSyKI
"I just want to go home," I say.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCN6j0Qywf
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBpRyEv7yK
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2ykBZqwbh
Father sighs.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4waC81uu3
I say "I don't want to stay here!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgT1sYNYPb
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiY9LFHzfUv
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGE4dcCV9iO
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfNAI4VDN4
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHQdx8cLuB
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJnyLnoXN2
"Pet, come down from the tree."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLy2NUaBHo
I stay silent.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0cVEafhlS
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvQk2J4kC6
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwd2hhCJkPt
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJQiGM45To
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuilt4Y8ay
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemceSlbFNx
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAcOYryeAW
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aeoLLZUeh
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeL0Z8pEo2
I say, "Please don't hurt me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmACEX8Yqyt
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmp20Qy2FA
I say, "Please don't!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvb2ebCMK6y
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCk6g4D4fFC
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyCOPCEB1k
"You'll find out soon enough, child."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRle3SfLcK6
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTDfjQy9AM
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyt5AMZsLT
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268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK51NLqGjm2I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXkYc3gn0v
"Are you ready, child?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZkhkAuott
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMcIX0RznU
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlRywHRk47
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I say, "Okay.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOWXIc1dsA
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFYrArRR6x
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAJSMSboNV
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kuDTwfMf7
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAp2c3yDBu0
Father says "Good. Stay there."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfVOKt9eui
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGuwYSZffK
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDA8jaavGKJ
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wtG5sQoY2
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktxkM7dCCA
"Please!" I whisper.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZsx9Dy2XI
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJYn2YE7lf
I scream loudly.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNXbnXXsUw
My scream echoes throughout the room.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXBUPGfeM1
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyY0A5b09r
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ef4WE1mxc
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84KQbRHZL9
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTilDuO8sZS
I say "P-please s-stop.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHr0Zy0jeF
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUUEwzaoDj
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOJDzOncQa
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3peuXM0Du1
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGNbNnJhFC
"Look at her," another says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpybzo3HqE
I say "Please leave me alone."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMRERjVGFv
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKCYmKCfUP
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxhtgylL5d
"We'll see. Let's see."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDr7kZZ6ytS
I say "No no no.." They laugh.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rkvpoLrEN
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUr3a85AaQu
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUUZdakfMA
They untie me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjx6JBBO8wr
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPH26XUEAG
"Ah... you're up," Father says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuP6MHG0YVG
268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiEsO86MO6
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268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdDnTenh0H"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRK0yah1vRu
"Where were you?" he asks,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0qxSGhCbX
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUykBagYiJP
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfPmzK56TB
Father smiles.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwzocfaD5O
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9xeFA8WvF
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YKYONpRn5
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1LD5JJRY1
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWvkBWplRf
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3dkmSdPZ2
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELeqMLYEzN
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uMqhR7lfd
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73HGRuIyCm
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpA2JMBUdH
I say, "Please let me go!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHHKwniTiS
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXouO06zzxV
"You will," Father says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BEWJJonpa
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60GrCdjjco
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgJU6iYnVn
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfjdhdx5zP
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ91gzR7mcI
"Stop crying," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJkiveKYYX
"I can't!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVG8TJqI85a
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBoQB7StSa
"Stop it!" I cry.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHeIttWu4I
"I said stop it!" he yells,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaq3AJagkPs
"I can't," I say.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjcqpuZawI
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7LR4Vr4uN
"NO!" Father screams.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIN9N1qg4q
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIi1MBBaMni
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhp9qnKro5
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77dCBHkstN
"I would. I really would."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgeYRtoa84
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEVKxaEYwh
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvStX0eX0c
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iNHhlzOPx
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNGGWxN6Ls
I say, "No I'm not!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DZfrBSyRc
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLs8tajpO7
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUaCUeJVY9
I say "No I won't!!!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmX2U0Rvyx
"You will!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAoOzx3Xa9
"I said NO!!!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulJGZiJMDK
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DcufVtHUS
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJxCocakna
"I know you will," Father says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEdCyiR2e9
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE74Jg5JFZj
He says "One."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFtmhTGW7e
I say, "I'll do anything.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpd43btJBNL
"Two."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5eqTg0r1K
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CJfMrbySF
"Three."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPJypaGOWC
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqra5xwlXsL
"No, don't do it," Father says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSbAmiF0Y0
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeb4Y6tyvo
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGavdW5Zdy
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSa4Vdx6Ss
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9MVeEVqYe
I say "Yes."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuAmOzYwlj
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24clqE7Ttf
"Yes," I say.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8IbB32cFl
"Good girl," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRM9fKADLNR
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1F3OwbM5P
"I won't," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUN4XtcAFhq
I stay tied up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAcXlhGaEQ
"Now," he says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSzJM7njzI
"Kneel."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡel0B6kPvPC
"Please," I say.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZTHNRjv0v
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpJk9MYsvP
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7ERLcko26
I just know it.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOmNEeINV5
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlSY5dZnwu
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8TTQuGUxE
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hahIIh6m9
I'm all alone in the room.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdgIkJRHkw
268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LPPgPOsVA
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268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLiqSnJx7aI hear the door open. I look up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkRMxnYpre
"Hello," a man says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlL1XO8AUy
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjNhbaAvrP
"Hands behind your back," he says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PYxKupNsh
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu33YI3M6oR
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKR7s4iX1Pz
"Stay there," he says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vfx4dhm6y
I stay on my knees.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSToUlHBJeA
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2tOFGiJ1q
I say "No no no."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZ5XgR9KYo
"Do it," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBMpHuN713
I say no. He pushes harder.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERVKXxSb5x
"Do it!" he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqv78DgvZ4
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkywfEQ2Kl
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYgm0YTNUr
"Stay there," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIu84BvEarz
I stay on my knees.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyF2dhNwHaY
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmBaYSnknF
"Stop moving."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JW9dau5xD
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MtnNrtxBk
He pulls it out of my throat.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmz8pDcScpf
"What's wrong?" he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYWZVpAtVp
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxe0CU2lFcl
"What?" he says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4v55p7POA
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85zb1sTRXS
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xIboN7YZ6
"Is this too big for you?" he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpiCcacRKx
I nod.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAwgQLriI8
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oNkQHYLkz
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSXA1oWRfM
He shoves it back in.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThiwy4yqcB
I decide that vomiting once is enough.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡen8VrYr279
He shoves it in deeper.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHAJOUdX5r
I struggle and fight.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHocmrrOF20
"Stop fighting me," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrQsqMza6c
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡel61yy2YSY
"Get dressed," he says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyV6796nN4
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WoRRi2lWA
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwjkIPW46h
268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cF4vJJInJ
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268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcrthdl9YK268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nwDolIygc
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYvFVtRfLu
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60w77o4PDc
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WNiazwviI
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL54mfAA0uK
I say, "Where's dad?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHKxfuSdIL
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4Y7ntEbfW
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzO1x3HI3j
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOu2rNJWY6
My father says, "Where have you been?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0Ga1M5opA
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJONip9mmSl
"Did they hurt you?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2q1pFv4jFw
"Yeah," I say.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINQVmaM8XI
"I'm sorry."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WI8ShUD1G
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqh2aPvRvVm
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDlMH8bpsN
"Is Allie in here?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLcu1cReYK
My dad says, "Yes, why?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XcF5ZXYiG
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFpHeZk6Qn
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcOoDunDTt
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN197lNLC0p
"No." I respond,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZGpceam83
"Can we come in?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMu2IjwdI6
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDfGNrgoai
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPpaEt8WiV
I say, "I don't know."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDq8XkKhBq
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5rImNIeTl
"No." I say,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEM3wAR9466
"Are you sure?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVkY2VKCON
"Yes."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5M9wGLWvLG
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuigSvnxw50
"Did he give you any food or water?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9O4F81pV1y
"No." I respond.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcg7t9qwMWb
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLp2ocSaHpG
"No."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeow5pBxlze
"What did he do to you?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BArxe00d1
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡembG39NvYE
"Did you fight him?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMxFub76D3
"I tried."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93bR8zvRns
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdE2U1YA1z
"I think I blacked out."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngueXoNmEq
"I see."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCcMJIkBlN
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuWTIAH4jZ
"And how long were you with him?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AjEVsZqyO
"I think about ten hours."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpdPe07dHE
"And you only just managed to escape?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnin6FK6FXv
"Yeah."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5w5s3UKyks
"Do you know where you were?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LOxEGiAVB
I say "No."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfgop3Hhk7
"What is the last thing you remember?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6H1iiIKAd
"I remember walking down the road."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡba3hDZWln6
"And then?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7x6mQObc8u
"I don't remember."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmwl7vN0TT
"Do you know how you got away?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsG3mp44KTL
I say, "I just ran,"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJmimsR7dt
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFU7W0ThMIK
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡketynr6njp
I say, "So that's how it all happened."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FFm1fakdf
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7dKFsZITN
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡna5y9iCwTY
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4a9M13aiEz
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQjU4ZLR8K
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAFmQ0tkYl
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdQRxxnWPB
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHYb30axU0
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDx4iBoI7Ur
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xDrdvJdu1
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLoZ1ycTGzP
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzvP5cByNe
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1WUI087wH
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOD5JahC2Y9
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7vW9YqnMR
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUbBWXuzwb
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEW82ILh9T
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268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFb83qcszyAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3YjH7XIVZ
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tCF6AUZG4
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8YRNLI8bh
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWpJsBc9rJ
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ulqvSqnSa
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddugeQyiRT
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH50TWqhTNB
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLw5MSSkfWc
"Get up." he says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpqRC2shTm
"Why am I here?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOtF7op5eU
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNjf15IKJd
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3BVVynGzA
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCufw5rWzBM
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6bhkfazEo
I sit down.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM48XNZMtUK
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCIIcFT9D2
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rf2JXJwS6
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22JjEpZdqn
I say, "No."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTwEQxRs8G
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHooeCHr9cs
I respond, "Yes."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSICSbVh3aB
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwLzl0Py2U
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29upF5MicK
"Yes."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEphgsSXVSp
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDy91Ix6U9
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobLXE3sgxA
I say, "Hi."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnG1QpOnsQ
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvJMCjtaXP
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRUz84u9ag
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GUBBs0aOw
"Right away," says the woman.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqVvVQCqm8
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQ92Y8VgPd
I say, "Okay."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtC3k54EjC
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKXLXSXsYU
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsHq8WFB1i
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXK6TrtpkLW
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJN9bG3sac
"He kidnapped me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaM23F5ESz
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8TOuXR2hY
I say, "He tried to stab me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyY3KHdfBO
"Who was he?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAagtiajOQq
"I don't know."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWbslWX540
"Where did you get the knife?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyYUV8LiHX
"He had it in his pocket."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9w1Ion5eCY
"Did he threaten you in any way?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWHg3loPNC
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgmqzZyyBR
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2PXL6MYni
"No."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79ijZXCVcR
"You sure? Think hard."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJ8UHTDjPc
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7s9XdvyfF
I say, "He killed my father."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQTiLrm65Z
"What?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmKDZEYv4A
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZW88AzL1MC
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNrs2u9Snu
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcddZRvnY9
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEDQeEgqGj
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1Inbj2a2z
I say, "Okay.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuO2IX56HuS
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnH8pGFYEqY
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfOc1rMEOI
I follow him.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qmpecSaXP
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlgEqa3rZh
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHVLfxqUHJ
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArvaiSR6ds
"Alright. Take a seat."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEzGDWymcP
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNocJIAjm2l
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKW092UMPp
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIxPzZ3z3C
"Yes.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4EavHxvp9
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxlXrbLBd2
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJaO27OHee
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTbK9o6bSQ
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyV1gRFctZO
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64HnMAjiI5
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9RMDpdVZn
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIB63eNrsj5
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvhAfFBsAe
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixAsKBO7Ml
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrxzr2PApH
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSKAC84DwE
"What is it?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxAT3zA63V
Doctor Kessel says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nJvZKZxla
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2V8pAIqbk
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEROAJyS39R
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXz2C5xjn4h
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXHEXQfBe1
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ltqV6UCj2
The nurse shakes her head, and says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgQtUbAoeK
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahawMPVvRY
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvyHsVwjTF
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcj0SBlRwzi
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVp3ZBgNfa3
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcS2JdtDm5
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNSLGshtGK
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkOCwKxuZr
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rDyDdy7Eg
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcno1AGLaZ
I say "Where am I?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZs7ZFfEuHS
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcd0lAqnOiL
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡue4rVkQRGU
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAwItTYIcX
I say, "I want to see my mom..."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1a6qLUInG
The nurse interrupts me and says,268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYGF3fKncY
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡct5X3vZB4k
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOy4Xr0kBE
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268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlBiAFRJD4A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApdPB5rCgM
"M-mom.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOy5CcrQMU
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7m5nMFfuQ7
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGCjQ96F2v
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPw9uQOcNgS
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKK0aIAzQh
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlzly03TIs
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4Pi5UirmF
"Yes.." I say quietly.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9i0Wui3IO
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiiKYrl694
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLAJAiflNk
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfceyuvO5Dq
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHbJuajlNN
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOB3dWf92l2
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAePLaZKpt
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuJu6TeI1Z
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6wmLfv5Zy
I say, "Okay.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Vrx4146Jq
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcghrUg4gM
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEr959WUWk
I wipe the tears off my face.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLPLkNMboq
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡguUir5UEEi
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr719aH80GQ
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2y782uYXzO
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtMM94ixAs
I say, "Tell me!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHp3WSUw6h
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ymvq781zu
My heart drops.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMWn81yqkq
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJVUmERvJA
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268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNehAP5KYFIn the morning, I get my visitors.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6tmP17Fpp
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ319XXRuDbf
I say, "Wait!" She stops.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYySOy13oL7
"What is it?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4BXFouIE3
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaoS1KossV
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyH00vcf5on
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAy5iqCgu3
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhnowrHmru
I cry myself to sleep.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiOCQfp1Yt
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnnlRgwqDn
"How are you doing, honey?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbw5Wb7Stew
I say, "Horrible.."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnU0vrqabia
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzpZ9mdmdj
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sMmZkMPz5
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNFAOZyNyj
"It's not your fault, honey."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWR6IbiJ3Ya
I start crying again.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LhFrmdTxz
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZfdAGxl4m
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMzDqRoqi0
Maybe I'm dead after all.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4nPVOpxw9
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6h7hMFwIX
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlhkMKS5j3
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCdRoxZ24B
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCvc05BfAf
I say, "I still want to win this."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8b8XtZ7Rt0
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcWut4VeTN
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWcaHIxdQY
"Really?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjph96b7kB9
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHoeW6Dbix
I start crying, and I can't stop.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVr8dmp1D1J
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6YOeC2okQ
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyImVSe0A70
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHGmAKaur4
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Z2LfrlRT0
"I wanted to see the flowers."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4BNCCMlFF
"Why are you out of your room?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyoeCS2n9G
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwFbO6DV1z
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNItN4cLio
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9wAnkibQQ
"Thank you for being you."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtxgwlM9q6
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uYebLIis7
I make a decision.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YFwU8PyPe
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uU6XITc0S
"What's your name?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGiesgIw2q
"Allisa," I say, smiling.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡki1zQgozs0
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5591xxTxK
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IMhysBwdJ
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISXB30dTCG
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhs0G41miZ
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