Lucy?" I raise my head in alarm. "Lucy!" I turn to the familiar voice. "There you are!" I feel warm arms engulf me, pulling me, soothing me.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ82IXl48Uh
"Ray…" I choke out. Ray releases me and looks at my tear-stained face. He takes my hand and slips the blade from between my fingers, his eyes never leaving mine.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAkXB5FUlI
"Lucy," his voice is broken. "Please tell me you didn't."857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvLOPYClhg
"I-I didn't." I take a deep, shaky breath. "But I almost did." He turns his head and shuts his eyes.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLje1aQ0VC
"Promise me something, Lucy." He looks back at me. "Promise me that you'll never cut again, OK?" I nod. "If you ever fall back to this place again, call me over. I'll help you, Lucy." He grabs my hands. "Promise me."857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGaNWisq7i
"I promise, Ray." I whisper, tears leaking out of my eyes. He pulls me into a tight hug, breathing out a sigh of relief. He kisses the top of my head and then moves back…857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CJXewgU2N
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I open my eyes and stare at my wall, but it's not there.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVBW7bOQYi
My blanket is hanging off my bed, my clothes are strewn across the floor, my hair is sticking to my wet cheeks and the window is shut, enclosing me in darkness.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSg5wPrw2xv
I feel nothing but pain and agony. A dark cloud is filling my head, making me seem heavy.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXaoFKjqQb2
Fake.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAPre9xuZb
Not myself.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsEA4z58P1
The silver blade is shining, piercing the darkness with an evil light. It taunts me, challenges me, dares me to touch it, to pick it up and to use it.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQ8lr8wfr6
Oh, Ray. Where are you?!857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmJfdRIs3z
"I'm going somewhere with my parents and we won't be back until Friday. Call me if you need anything, OK?"857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2dvMR5Of3
Help me, Ray! Help me!857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXoLYNuP3Q
I punch in his number and put the phone to my ear.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxLqAz8aMc
Voice mail.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRDs1xyQO1
I try again.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlNtJqcPgn
No answer.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUWkt8tb6b
I frantically pull at my hair, curling into a ball. I shut my eyes but a few lone tears escape. I shake my head, trying to pull myself out of my despair and trying, somehow, to pull myself together. I'm falling apart, breaking down.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6qnu2Gnzx
I can't. I must stay strong.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprX9jSwHqh
My tears come faster.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7pJiS2Q4r
Keep it together, Lucy. Keep it together.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFkm0F9Vt1
"Ahh!" I scream, pushing myself back. I lose my balance and fall off my bed, crashing to the floor. I cover my face with my hands, shaking, sobbing.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6ldqFZN53
"Ray!" I cry out. Please…857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJhTXzks7l
My hands fall to my sides, my hair a knotted mess. I stare silently at the ceiling.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELWQSH3fap
Is it really that high?857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQmJjo41mv
I curl up on my side, staring into the black nothingness under my bed.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyBxuobjXt
I must move… I need to move.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrzxRuUe1o
I eye the door.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJk9jf94b1
I will myself to sit up.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPR7qcbWo6D
My room turns upside down and goes blurry, my vision faltering. I still and wait for the dizziness to pass.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmR3cd25U8w
I blink once – twice- and then sit on my knees.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8PBvj73c5
I focus on the door.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8coMaEeTY
I crawl forward.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKPkIT7Qft
I need to get there.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLZKsfPH4v
I slowly try to stand up. I advance, pushing one leg forward and then the other, and repeat.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAPBlGrGob
My legs are wobbly, broken.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTp3jNrZfW
Just a few more feet…857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjw2CfEi2k
I reach out my hand and take another step-857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbE1ic24kKU
and collapse to the ground.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9z9Rv3dfMa
"No…" I try to stand again, but I can't get up.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLB4sTBdaXT
I grab at my bed sheet, trying to pull myself up. I feel around, grabbing at anything I possibly can. I grasp closer to my blanket and freeze as I touch something cold. Sharp.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4XTvv6x2k
I suck in a breath.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTrBlv6Xsn
A chill of excitement and fear shoots up my arm, down my spine and spreads through my body.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kTg1a1WCP
I bring the blade closer to me, another thrill flowing inside me.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeezzfHpSW
Just once.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6acJBofHE
"Promise me."857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXkHeNS7PC
"I promise, Ray."857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYp8EEEc5S5
No, I can't. I promised him.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoKST9TVOQ
But it'll feel so good…857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7RhwMoSqB
I study the blade, turning it around in my hands.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDSj0uoifR
It'll be quick. Just one cut.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDk2yA2cpD
It'll heal quickly, faster than normally.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhklFvBgcGg
Now's your chance, Ray… I look at the door, waiting for him to walk through and stop me.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJh8Sw1TtyS
Anytime, now…857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNX1J9qsJQ
My vision blurs. I feel drops on my skin.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iuaAKuQFY
Is it raining?857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53KSvTOiep
No, that’s impossible.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqbGs0LzE1
I can't see.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDWOwnrh4j
I try to take breath but I choke up, a heavy weight sitting on my chest. A rock is stuck in my throat.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YipFGHP69
I can't breathe.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5D9pvZOf2k
I thrash around, clawing at my throat. I make a gurgling sound, trying to swallow.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSWZSHcKKz
What's poking my leg…?857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXKkMsySQV
I look down, choking on air, and spot the blade.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8a7iDDMDb
How did it get there?857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsd8aAj4MAJ
I take it and hold it closely to myself.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsENaS8bjQ1
How can something so evil look so beautiful?857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvytLZLR5A
I bring it down to my wrist and shiver.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nZjNiNQ8v
So cold.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrP7fnsJbg
I press down and drive it across my skin.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPrNljAFTU
I let out a shaky breath that I didn't know I was holding. My blood drips warm and red down my arm.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkuiPYrxl1
I take another breath.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OdwWaOG0f
Another.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplmSLQ67nW
My breathing comes harder, faster.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuYHKLBu1v
I slide the blade and cut again, slicing more of my skin. I gasp, my arm stinging. A groan escapes my lips as the pain takes its place, the sick pleasure mixing in.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFVNfZxnLD
I lean back, resting my head against my bed.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQG3RKE4Bw
I shut my eyes tightly.857Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSL7568aq32
I should not have done that.
Penana
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