「果然係對我有好感。」恆樂自豪地點頭。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0SSjAGn4p
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「你講咩話？」子瑜抆住恆樂耳仔講。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0P4KkesoiN
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「無講嘢呀，我等緊你分享。」406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4I5LEeiYr4
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「衰人！」子瑜行過梳化坐低後講：「坐低再慢慢講啦。」406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sc3op2Y9e
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恆樂馬上狗沖去梳化坐低聽故仔。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtRz3XJ0WW
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子瑜本來係大學話劇社嘅成員，一直都對表演都有份渴望同追求。話劇社每年都會有兩到三套話劇，每次都係由個人自薦casting選角。子瑜同今朝班八婆就係話劇社到認識，因為大家都鐘意動漫，加上係同一個year，所以好快就混熟。開頭大家都好好朋友，可以講下八婆嘢又會一齊出街，當時嘅子瑜真係當佢哋係朋友。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovyvE4fSJH
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNg8qHCeK52
只不過，呢啲只係子瑜嘅一廂情願。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFg9ONQZx2
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8LkUtwzzA
當年嘅5月，有個大學聯校話劇show，當時嘅子瑜就cast中咗女主角，要知道有參加casting嘅有嚟知唔同大學嘅人，亦有同子瑜同一間大學嘅前輩，所以呢個角色係子瑜打敗咗好多人先拎到手。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWxyjDnMHj
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如果只係校內嘅校劇，通常都係由老鬼去揀人做演出，老鬼可以揀角、揀劇本，每一個演出都係由老鬼做主導，正路嚟講，子瑜呢啲新人唔會有太多機會演出。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4VWyFLTvy
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyqxbpLrYs
但係聯校show唔同，揀人嘅外校嘅人，無咁黑箱作業，所以子瑜先有機會係老鬼中突圍。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HruxoguzL
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ085T7Irkcd
呢件就係關係破裂嘅開端。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4rWBCwbik
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEym5sxqZlB
當時嘅子瑜喺某一次返到自己大學嘅話劇社嘅會室到拎化妝品，因為大學生們都要準備final exam，照理嚟講唔應該當時嘅會室唔應該有人，但係事與願違。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjYr56AeFZ
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1DLITuqU8
當時會室嘅有嘅就係恆樂見到嘅幾個八婆同埋一位落選casting嘅前輩，嗰位前輩cast嘅位就係正正俾子瑜拎咗。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WWlYBcUor
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全部都係女人。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKl17whBq9n
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女人嘅圈子，可以話係麻煩。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCMYjaiune
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6lACTfaiJ
本來想走入會室嘅子瑜因為聽到有人提及自己個名而停落嚟。
「係囉，我哋都話過子瑜，但係佢又唔聽。」406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Xs6PeGAq0
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapg7vbQU3M
「我哋都話過佢，前輩就嚟畢業，唔好去亂試鏡留返啲機會俾就嚟畢業嘅人。」406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NCXhqF2Fw
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCbbf4hjp9
「係子瑜太固執搞到我哋點阻止佢哋都無用。」406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwU2xYAoS6s
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvk6eQ9wbL1
三位八婆向前輩表明自己係無辜，大概係為咗保全自己係劇團嘅地位，因為老鬼點都係劇社有啲話語權，唔想係話劇社被老鬼玩嘅話就一定要附和老鬼。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRklbKObjn1
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8103EVZrsl
門外嘅子瑜聽到就呆咗，明明呢啲朋友就無同自己講過呢啲嘢，但係就係前輩面前獻眉，亦因此加入指責子瑜嘅一方。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXg8qfb1w4o
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYy15D1QE1
子瑜困惑。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxn72b8Pcg
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3qa39zje1
子瑜唔明點解朋友會咁樣係背後話自己，點解要攻擊自己？點解要為咗奉承他人而出賣自己？406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJ2lFJALRK
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxU7Wnny5AT
「總之你哋同佢講快啲退出呢套劇，等我可以擔正。」前輩講。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvBFRanAVN
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJZhJllyL7
「我哋會同子瑜講㗎啦，叫佢退位，等你呢個後補主角可以擔正。」406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0mfHMb3Vq
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgqTUIyu6X
「我哋會好好幫你㗎啦前輩，之後幫有演出俾我哋就可以。」406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIJsGVJSg1
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkBdWq7xL8
「放心等我哋幫手，我哋會將子瑜從你畢業劇中趕出去。」406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOJituI32c
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01zVXdpf8v
八婆們一致地背叛咗子瑜，完全唔似係朋友嘅作為。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBSDQz9P8J
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原來友情可以咁脆弱。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYjVEEb84f
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCG040n8Gl
比起朋友，八婆們選擇自己係話劇社嘅地位，放棄同子瑜嘅關係。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaB4hn3ipP
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwbvnwW2ra
子瑜無好唔開心，無想大叫，無崩潰。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGKtbT2pDi
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwGBK41fDT
子瑜好平靜，內心安靜都自己都唔相信。無內心戲，內心戲係零。
子瑜無問點解啲朋友要咁對佢，無問點解受苦嘅係自己，佢乜都無問。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVR0EtZfgf
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被相信嘅人背叛，無翻天覆地嘅傷心，無傷心欲絕嘅情緒，平靜到好唔自然。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHUsABu2yQ
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSyJqTstMV
平靜過後嘅係罪疚感，佢覺得因為自己唔識考慮前輩嘅感受先會咁樣。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sWCtEdJ3g
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9T0BFHeJU
因為無考慮到人哋就嚟畢業、呢個係人哋嘅最後演出機會，自己膽粗粗咁去試鏡仲搶咗人哋個位先搞到「朋友」都怪責自己。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsuzP0sRJl
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOSVWSi58f
好神奇，子瑜仲當佢哋係朋友。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3KHOG54OB6
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaH5oQzINJ
因為做錯事嘅係自己，所以「朋友」怪責自己都無可厚非。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tW6iivKI3
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxeKYPiTfr
係門口嘅子瑜無走入去會室，佢轉身離開。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgedJLNh3I
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnCaMP0lgp
翌日排練時，係台上嘅子瑜聽到「朋友」同佢打氣，叫佢加油。平時唔理他人目光嘅子瑜突然感覺到好多視線，而呢啲視線彷彿伴隨無盡嘅惡意，即使對方無呢個意思，子瑜感覺到嘅就只有惡意。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBuWnVzvZD
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GSh88A2Gf
企係台上嘅子瑜怔著，郁都唔郁咁望住台下，天旋地轉，眼前嘅畫面化成模糊嘅油彩畫慢慢分散，雙腳莫名其妙地感到酸軟。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLoDWo0SmW
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJBNPCudE5
子瑜覺得所有人對佢對有一種無講出口嘅負面諗法，覺得在場嘅人都討厭佢。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmfzClRPsQ
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點解你會係到？406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbUxjv5zDn
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你憑乜係到？406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTf1xIbzhJ
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無人鐘意你呀？406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyNjyXdLq8
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面皮咁厚都有。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gyfzFjVBa
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幻聽。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeTzf43Xp6
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVehSQCkRiS
無盡嘅負面想法有如颱風般湧入子瑜腦海，惡意刺痛子瑜全身，入血入肉。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKPZqu3LGt
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4lCfAsIv7
反胃，係台上嘅子瑜因為一股反胃感而奔去廁所嘔吐，呢刻嘅獨自攬住馬桶子瑜知道要離開。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVge8RCdZd6
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9H6HjqcXag
子瑜無視前嚟關心佢嘅「朋友」，子瑜轉身離開劇團，離開話劇，離開「朋友」。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpmrI16Q68
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCswOkNLHs
之後八婆們有whatsapp問子瑜點解突然之間潛水，但係子瑜完全無心機去回覆。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RPdWQWbE8
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自此之後，子瑜就懼怕人群，驚咗人群嘅視線，假定所有人都對佢有惡意。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayaIDHLXAs
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjBzDq4TeF
當然，子瑜話恆樂係例外，因為佢係一個不折不扣嘅on9仔。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc887csxhmX
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4H8Lo8XZLV
離開話劇社後，子瑜嘅表演慾還在，輾轉之下佢選擇成為vtuber，本身鐘意動畫嘅佢出盡全力自學coding同時學畫3d模組，只係一個暑假就搞掂所有嘢再成功出道。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5LgNPsJFk
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKNzql7tWb
螢幕背後就唔會直接感受到惡意，所以呢個就係子瑜選擇嘅方法。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dXGPXEaas
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHxmucA3wT
一切都係自己一個。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SDSbzcYze
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNiiZQnyt2
「我嘅故事就係咁無聊。」子瑜苦笑道。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqyeYaDVjv
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv06nIOyqpQ
子瑜嘅表情痛苦非常，但又勉強擺出苦笑，就好似叫恆樂唔好關心佢。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfE3wRA1AzN
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUdIWbWHNq
但係就因為咁，恆樂先更加扎心。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRb6fD4BJKa
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0IwZZtZPB
或者子瑜都唔知道自己想點，唔知道自己想要啲係自己身邊嘅人。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfqzmd2NOs
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQyNhKqfBK
一切都係或者，恆樂無嘢可以好確切咁講。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDxkrL2NJg
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlA3Q2fLPZ
但係因為佢迫子瑜講，子瑜先將自己喺內心唔想講嘅人係自己面前宣之於口。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ47Csu3A0S
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所以恆樂點都想好好安慰子瑜，因為自己就係令佢講出呢段難陷過去嘅原因。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpLIcKlIAJ
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所以恆樂決定踏出一步。406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowQ1YBrnvH
406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1m2dQ8Y6qS
「你⋯⋯」恆樂輕輕攬住子瑜再講：「佢哋根本唔係你朋友，你無做錯過事，根本唔需要咁自責要受苦嘅應該係佢你而唔係你。」406Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtPjaZqwaa
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「唔好抽我水喎。」子瑜雖然嘴上咁講，但係毫無甩開攬住佢嘅恆樂嘅意思。
