「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,781Please respect copyright.PENANA08g1U6Ky1D
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,781Please respect copyright.PENANAnNzr2xvefp
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,781Please respect copyright.PENANANYxgRDwgPp
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幼小我的父母就離異,781Please respect copyright.PENANAahqnoQVagS
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,781Please respect copyright.PENANAtEV3Jb6P56
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對母親的記憶還是有,781Please respect copyright.PENANAtxqg5m87Wy
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記得她很常酗酒,781Please respect copyright.PENANAPvXQGFQ6TU
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後來的日子,781Please respect copyright.PENANAaYcLJOtUpM
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,781Please respect copyright.PENANAYel7FCYRyf
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忙於工作的他,781Please respect copyright.PENANArTvm6pSdaS
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,781Please respect copyright.PENANAa7JQsgHwDP
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到了上課時間再直接上課,781Please respect copyright.PENANAhnAPjsSLRU
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,781Please respect copyright.PENANAUKI2aXWeKr
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,781Please respect copyright.PENANAiuJnrLMBYo
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,781Please respect copyright.PENANAXWfkQxxaZ2
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,781Please respect copyright.PENANACRolCJZN6k
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,781Please respect copyright.PENANAlgzO1NGhm7
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父親工作的地方不一定,781Please respect copyright.PENANAgb5YITJ9or
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輾轉的換了三所小學,781Please respect copyright.PENANACUA8yBBsOO
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,781Please respect copyright.PENANArOvSdnfC1U
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他開始會喜怒無常,781Please respect copyright.PENANAFlj1RjDlJE
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,781Please respect copyright.PENANAvNOL9qVbqB
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,781Please respect copyright.PENANA2rsFaLaWqq
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很小我就與異性交往,781Please respect copyright.PENANAar3m3WwCZ5
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,781Please respect copyright.PENANAc9ddSPqy5M
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,781Please respect copyright.PENANAVBDOA2jaqV
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,781Please respect copyright.PENANAoY8WVecohD
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我會睡在工地,781Please respect copyright.PENANA8Pg6ty84oR
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,781Please respect copyright.PENANAl9WyiNdQcZ
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,781Please respect copyright.PENANAJj3O2r2LYY
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,781Please respect copyright.PENANAnGQ1Qw4g5g
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他開始會講貶低的話語,781Please respect copyright.PENANA7CuumdXNLM
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那些原本用來工作的用具,781Please respect copyright.PENANAqU0mNyyIEf
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,781Please respect copyright.PENANAIAzGCbLgUN
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」781Please respect copyright.PENANA9l8566WJ4J
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,781Please respect copyright.PENANAhY8bblaTJo
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,781Please respect copyright.PENANAILX2oZ7pAe
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要我轉告給老師,781Please respect copyright.PENANARV2cbwUa1z
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」781Please respect copyright.PENANAKdkKJKaiWQ
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,781Please respect copyright.PENANAfg4Ennm46C
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,781Please respect copyright.PENANAtbOAwON8zL
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,781Please respect copyright.PENANAE5FxQpcOjb
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細細去回想每個片段,781Please respect copyright.PENANAnDxgOQhXN2
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,781Please respect copyright.PENANAoKObybzYMf
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,781Please respect copyright.PENANAtQD90Lkk7n
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,781Please respect copyright.PENANARS07iln3Yz
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」781Please respect copyright.PENANAHjsFmhndH9
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,781Please respect copyright.PENANAOm1uBoztJT
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,781Please respect copyright.PENANAAgytvaeQMC
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,781Please respect copyright.PENANAYBkPa4fvbo
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,781Please respect copyright.PENANArak0ER5VAo
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,781Please respect copyright.PENANADoBJRX8rWz
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,781Please respect copyright.PENANAZegpZPWn6g
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」781Please respect copyright.PENANA79DeSdyfye
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正準備吃下第一口時,781Please respect copyright.PENANAQe2tCOj3uB
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,781Please respect copyright.PENANALfwkMTXwtg
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。781Please respect copyright.PENANAPGrmKleDPd