「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,781Please respect copyright.PENANAB7aR9mGsGQ
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,781Please respect copyright.PENANABBcybEFLPn
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,781Please respect copyright.PENANAnln2r230ge
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幼小我的父母就離異,781Please respect copyright.PENANA8sgGAvpeG8
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,781Please respect copyright.PENANAh0i30UZFdv
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對母親的記憶還是有,781Please respect copyright.PENANAiGnQEbV5gl
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記得她很常酗酒,781Please respect copyright.PENANArj7FTZWyJG
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後來的日子,781Please respect copyright.PENANAyXzg7wHshi
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,781Please respect copyright.PENANAaNzAJ7gIFH
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忙於工作的他,781Please respect copyright.PENANAdl0B7ZQqB9
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,781Please respect copyright.PENANAgRDNEwzYTT
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到了上課時間再直接上課,781Please respect copyright.PENANAW9yqmsHuQL
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,781Please respect copyright.PENANAWUR245uVFY
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,781Please respect copyright.PENANAHFGjJjrXDD
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,781Please respect copyright.PENANARvZX3D7XCM
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,781Please respect copyright.PENANAtvfIU1FAt2
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,781Please respect copyright.PENANABnr9p2BDhE
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父親工作的地方不一定,781Please respect copyright.PENANA4hCXmnDVW5
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輾轉的換了三所小學,781Please respect copyright.PENANAqWFaaHZFRX
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,781Please respect copyright.PENANAUtnXMnmNYS
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他開始會喜怒無常,781Please respect copyright.PENANAVP1fE3KTgz
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,781Please respect copyright.PENANAMe0k7yWbx5
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,781Please respect copyright.PENANAyAkHRQwzcz
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很小我就與異性交往,781Please respect copyright.PENANAzce6VReclu
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,781Please respect copyright.PENANABLALqsmBel
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,781Please respect copyright.PENANA2RgkEjSsCP
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,781Please respect copyright.PENANAg5xMoeiYeE
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我會睡在工地,781Please respect copyright.PENANAKWgYYJ6tAS
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,781Please respect copyright.PENANAbcQvxQK3Ye
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,781Please respect copyright.PENANAHy6JCw9zvk
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,781Please respect copyright.PENANA3UntBOrBN9
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他開始會講貶低的話語,781Please respect copyright.PENANAaxBZRoYM6i
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那些原本用來工作的用具,781Please respect copyright.PENANAjJbvXAGOIG
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,781Please respect copyright.PENANATdyguFgnDF
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」781Please respect copyright.PENANA7cuVdtrykO
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,781Please respect copyright.PENANA4OtYgFNo0e
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,781Please respect copyright.PENANA6efwfPHILi
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要我轉告給老師,781Please respect copyright.PENANAAWbftb80SM
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」781Please respect copyright.PENANARofwajxg8B
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,781Please respect copyright.PENANAbQwwYzHRFB
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,781Please respect copyright.PENANAylFO2Tq6Jq
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,781Please respect copyright.PENANA7gfydMfhlo
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細細去回想每個片段,781Please respect copyright.PENANA6AmOJD6ylg
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,781Please respect copyright.PENANAtXHP1oCXdy
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,781Please respect copyright.PENANAQi0EHy9LPN
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,781Please respect copyright.PENANAYVZyI1eVbK
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」781Please respect copyright.PENANAguhNRKVFdB
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,781Please respect copyright.PENANAlr1BdTBTmq
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,781Please respect copyright.PENANAdkQKj9BC1f
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,781Please respect copyright.PENANAxqlnalw2qj
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,781Please respect copyright.PENANARjfCP2CRcz
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,781Please respect copyright.PENANARhGq4JvZka
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,781Please respect copyright.PENANAyr4exhfwj1
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」781Please respect copyright.PENANAXBUQ3SstOq
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正準備吃下第一口時,781Please respect copyright.PENANAH0oaUtMDqv
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,781Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9XB3sSKjO
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。781Please respect copyright.PENANAA9p9DPrUQb