「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeItZkrzgGK
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QYAfitNLt
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0ZLP9GbbR
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幼小我的父母就離異，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAE6lqwO8PY
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nbQ8ga44I
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對母親的記憶還是有，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD72AhvDpoP
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記得她很常酗酒，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aF9zs81UY
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後來的日子，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIzXCuvsGn
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EfgrIBgQm
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忙於工作的他，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZN5Exw4lBb
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgeTo8OuS8I
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到了上課時間再直接上課，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYA9Cd2E6Rv
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BsUw6dYXc
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy44HFITZyr
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYLBujXam7
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPqU59CkyF
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQO3BtLXF6m
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父親工作的地方不一定，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3Pqku2wDE
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輾轉的換了三所小學，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYxv794gRo
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaPETnrSbW
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他開始會喜怒無常，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKUn1GoLBq
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBPHnwlCld
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWv1oxKjOT
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很小我就與異性交往，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXK22aBRxH
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvkN1o5dKs
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiMmokysyZ
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AzwbHaSxT
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我會睡在工地，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIIgG0pZEF
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2k5gs2BtVc
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylCM6LA9JU
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEAmBU51acQ
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他開始會講貶低的話語，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdkwDc7sVk
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那些原本用來工作的用具，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6hazSaaAR
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVD5txmVE8
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyKoOB9Izo
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAe4dqNrBj
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6dbk7bY3i
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要我轉告給老師，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXPTcjkJvx
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcshuAfGEll
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3S6LymVrrh
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5CEFAvXW1
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2sKeDMHQF
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細細去回想每個片段，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHT6SsaWUM
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPib8Kd7s6
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJRmiH4cKh
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5wyxdkpMI
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuWZBPNY3h
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjgDcXC9MY
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJ3CZMlpQ7
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwu2s7G1Ah
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHStgThZH7T
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0VNSRG30c
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYf10fj1C2
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4s3KrRgk9K
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正準備吃下第一口時，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1hKdUkTnN
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjA20r08Fu
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyh7HA0V72
