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和喜歡Kelvin的女生進行了一場不愉快的對話後，我便到了學校門口會合Kelvin：「行得。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagX3ElMqVq
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「咁耐嘅？」他問。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnH1Lwirwr0
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「嗯。」想要放鬆心情的我說：「不如今日去掃街，肚餓想食啲嘢。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡna2010zltu
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「好阿。」Kelvin和我並肩而行。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvfJrtpg0Z
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這不是我第一次和Kelvin單獨放學，可是我的心情竟然緊張起來。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59kDuDELpb
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自從被同學懷疑我和Kelvin、古榮的關係後，我的心便不再單純。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYVYxsPZ5t
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我開始思考，難道我對他們抱有愛情的感覺而沒有察覺？到底怎樣才算是愛情的喜歡？203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMMdM1aUIe
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我仔細打量Kelvin的側臉。他有一顆性感喉核、單眼皮、微卷頭髮、手臂有因為勤力做運動而得來的小肌肉、永遠不願穿得整齊的校服。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKxef2nCqT
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我第一次有這種想法——每天見面的Kelvin外型其實不錯，能夠和他去掃街真幸運。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbYDSIWq8P
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人的想法很微妙，明明沒有事情發生過，我跟Kelvin本來就會相約一起放學和掃街，只因為幾句說話便能扭轉一個人的想法。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOfob33mtc
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想法塑造習慣，習慣就是生活。一個人的想法非常重要，光用腦袋便能改變自己對世界的觀感。難怪校長時常訓話，學生必需留意自己說話的用詞。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmibfCnJks
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爸爸吸毒後會有這種感覺嗎？生活過於苦悶無新意，對身邊本來平平無奇的東西，從無到有，誕生了快感。就像吃完精神鴉片，內心一陣飄飄然。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIARw3cjCQ
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「喂。」Kelvin打斷我的發情，還伸手摸摸我的額頭：「你係咪唔舒服？塊面咁紅嘅？」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67gY1E8oJV
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「咳咳⋯」我因為吞了一半的口水，嚇得狂咳。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfI5NVW0S9
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Kelvin拍拍我的背：「洗唔洗早啲返屋企休息？」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO75AeBXzpy
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「唔洗。我吞口水唔小心瀆親姐。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtTKly5qvy
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「咁蠢嘅人都有，你陣間食燒賣小心啲。」說話一啖砂糖一啖屎是Kelvin的特色。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGJrwuSNgJ
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我站在Kelvin旁，一邊吃撈麵，一邊等待著我的芋圓鮮奶茶。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwH1KYsCkw
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腦中是各式各樣的幻想。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23fcTqUJjv
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如果我跟Kelvin談戀愛，會一直感受到這種飄飄然嗎？203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAFG1Kkd8d
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如果會，戀愛似乎不錯。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsff9kIUBQc
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「琴日睇新聞好爆阿，韓流巨星宣佈退出樂壇。」Kelvin說。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIZ137nQcF
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「係咩？我無留意。」我通常聽本地音樂，對外國音樂不熟悉。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNu952tS4O
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「原來佢做龜公，開間酒吧做毒竇，仲有堆明星朋友喺Group share落藥迷姦嘅片段，好痴線。」Kelvin說。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUz4wCQbkJ
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「咁癲？佢好似都幾紅。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJa0b7OgYfY
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「真係無樣睇。好彩你唔迷呢啲韓星。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUui1wUdHfx
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「點解咁講？」我問。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyErSKLmvPX
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「鐘意埋啲衣冠禽獸就傷心囉。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgaWN7EJa7
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「我問你一條問題阿。如果你識人吸毒，仲會唔會同佢做朋友？」Kelvin的話題讓想起我的爸爸。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtwWYtP9YO
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「唔會，我唔會接受。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8R6wffcuE
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「如果係你朋友嘅屋企人吸毒呢？」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAApg0GQPCh
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「咁就難講。」Kelvin說：「佢出入屋企品流複雜。我會盡最大努力幫佢，等佢唔好誤入歧途。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfruB9dCo9
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我從來沒有嘗試幫助爸爸，鼓勵他離開黑社會：「屋企人吸毒，唔係朋友本人吸毒，唔代表會誤入歧途嘅。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0UHKT1Da2
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想來爸爸也是身不由己賺錢還債，以他的能力除了保安、洗碗也沒有工作適合他，沒有站在他的立場勸喻也是種偽善。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTry5A7bBA
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「係好容易呀！如果你老竇喺房食冰隊草，你喺廳都會聞到啦，毒品喺你眼前，又會心郁郁想試。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKxsTYXK7l
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「你唔係好鐘意幫人㗎咩？」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4V50hJN1gm
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「阿婆行動不便，點可以相提並論！吸毒對我嚟講無咩討論空間！你話我歧視都係咁講，同賭錢一樣，無人拎住支槍迫佢，累己累人。幫過對方拒絕就算，連朋友都唔會做。留返俾專業嘅機構幫手。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFb6tO3APV
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Kelvin的說話打破了我和他戀愛的幻想。跟正義的Kelvin坦白父親有吸毒習慣絕對是一件自掘墳墓的事。他會討厭我的家庭，管東管西，而需要倚賴父親生存的我在成年前也無法解決家庭背景的問題。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qGoBhxVdo
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他無意的批評讓我內心不舒服。我是受害者，也很討厭自己的家庭阿！可是家庭的影響一直都在，它就像一道封印在身上除不掉的詛咒。無論是自己、抑或他人，同樣避之則吉。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr45KS2dEOa
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我寧願沒有開口詢問，沉醉在五分鐘前的粉紅色泡泡裡。我忘記了我和Kelvin是對難以找到共識卻常常一起的朋友。現在的我失去了幻想，變得更自卑了。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiU7RMdjSMJ
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我和Kelvin的關係並不穩固，他會隨時離棄我。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzorIr7hrN
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婚姻的承諾都能推翻，更何況是乳臭未乾的戀愛。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeZCFi1T1n
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「點解人係群體動物？點解人要互相來往？」我喃喃自語：「係自私，係計算？兩個人，一定係有利益先會走埋一齊。世界上根本冇無私嘅愛。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnMX0sH53E
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「咁功利，一齊開心唔得咩？」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlImGOb4zBt
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「開心都係一種利益。可能對方人緣好，帶自己去認識朋友；可能係對方博學多才，學業上幫到自己；可能係自己孤單，想有人陪伴自己。總之就係因為利益開始，互相需要，到咗某一日，唔再幫到大家，就自然分開。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7WhM7laBy
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我為未發生的事情擔憂。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHN1MHOiGzH
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面對關係看得見的分岔，倒數著珍愛的關係終會消逝，無力感擴散。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqVELCahTw
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「你今日做咩事咁多愁善感？」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0inUJwqGe
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「無呀。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUyi3ojs89
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「我知啦，思春期！中二病！」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIwzh37WK2
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「唔知呀！你話係就係啦。」203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuJEVyN3fD
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人生就是各種徒勞無功的零碎。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJswVWN5scx
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難過。203Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToT7dTHGIZ
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