(第一人稱,松本晴香視角)63Please respect copyright.PENANAT3ShOr6zi1
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2021年5月17日。63Please respect copyright.PENANA3XO6iryVCX
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這一天,終於來了。63Please respect copyright.PENANApxmdx204jk
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我從高聳的飛機上踏向地面,並跟著告示牌從陌生的機場內走出來。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAl1f2SpPC23
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在走出機場的瞬間,刺眼的光芒一瞬間照進我眼內,讓我直覺地閉上了眼睛。63Please respect copyright.PENANAJryAjUPb13
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等我嘗試張開眼睛,一個充滿著巨大高樓的城市出現在我面前。63Please respect copyright.PENANAywSoNkeSml
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這裡就是我夢寐以求的偶像之都,月花市!63Please respect copyright.PENANAevGceF2YfD
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雖然很想興奮的衝去事務所面試……,不過畢竟是來到新的地方,必須先冷靜才行。63Please respect copyright.PENANAHbBQBPynhY
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雖然來之前做了很多功課,不過還是得先適應、了解一下這邊的環境才行。63Please respect copyright.PENANAzubVJjV0br
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畢竟不會有人蠢到一來到這邊就馬上在路邊跳舞吧? 63Please respect copyright.PENANAvfdnGHN51s
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我一邊想著這件事,一邊跟著人行道走向城市裡面。63Please respect copyright.PENANARKeqShVFdY
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官方介紹影片中似乎有推薦一家飯店,一開始就先住那邊吧!63Please respect copyright.PENANA8Ab6WhxAs7
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我從口袋裡拿出了手機,並打開地圖搜尋著。63Please respect copyright.PENANABcHpFTkWsV
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從位置來看……,似乎就在附近而已,就直接走過去吧!63Please respect copyright.PENANABRljxFQQNL
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在確定目標後,我將手機握在右手上,並往旅店的方向前進。63Please respect copyright.PENANAbYuj25gwpC
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在途中,我稍微觀察了一下這邊的景色。63Please respect copyright.PENANARcDBIr3kRh
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許多人帶著「最愛OO」的頭巾、雙手拿著應援棒。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAx64xOIa7Nk
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不愧是偶像之都,感覺隨處都是偶像粉呢!63Please respect copyright.PENANAcW5HoWjXV1
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可以的話,我也想和他們一樣掛著頭巾,親眼看看「天使」的直播呢!63Please respect copyright.PENANAALuTgvIPV3
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不過……,這個願望無法達成了。63Please respect copyright.PENANAibACubELr3
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天使華音凜在2016年突然宣布引退,之後就沒什麼消息了。 63Please respect copyright.PENANANBXhUZjnnp
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雖然很可惜,不過畢竟月花市不是只有天使這位偶像而已。63Please respect copyright.PENANAHNFSMPBjMV
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今年出現了非常多新秀,前NO.1偶像「明月」望月光甚至被成為偶像不到3年的新偶像「星空」星川真夜取代了,可以說今年正好是月花市改朝換代的一年。 63Please respect copyright.PENANADrD3lUENhX
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其他偶像也為了能提高排名,大概也非常努力的在唱歌吧? 63Please respect copyright.PENANAIE2gruNgzF
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那麼……,隨便在一個會場逛一下大概也能看到一名偶像的LIVE吧?63Please respect copyright.PENANAdcKiq2Zzg6
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雖然不能看到天使的LIVE有點可惜……,不過稍微親眼看一下其他偶像的LIVE也不錯吧?63Please respect copyright.PENANAZyXw3lRY5J
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都來到月花市了,就不要隔著螢幕欣賞,而是親眼去見證吧!63Please respect copyright.PENANAGxhonjAG14
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正好前往飯店的路上有一個會場,就順路去那邊看看吧!63Please respect copyright.PENANAg9L4HxNLU4
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我一邊想著,一邊往前走。63Please respect copyright.PENANARUJyuaIkLn
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不過在我走到一半時,一個美妙的歌聲突然出現,並進入我的耳中。63Please respect copyright.PENANAZU48CJ9ic4
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「~。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAVGv6a5RB9e
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聽到歌聲後,我環顧四周,非常的疑惑。63Please respect copyright.PENANAKl5ZDtk4DS
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誰在附近唱歌嗎?63Please respect copyright.PENANAwEax3fdvc4
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最後我在後方一個路口的轉角處,看到一名金色短髮的女子站在那裡。63Please respect copyright.PENANAg1EiGXAxEW
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女子拿著麥克風,獨自一人在路上唱歌和跳舞。63Please respect copyright.PENANABlv1Dn6rM2
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周圍的民眾人來人往,並沒有一個人因為那名少女的歌聲而停下腳步。63Please respect copyright.PENANAnhYKlmbq5b
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為什麼?我感覺她的表演還不錯啊!63Please respect copyright.PENANAYR3naBFDH5
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至少我沒有自信歌能唱的比她好,也沒有自信舞能跳的比她流暢。63Please respect copyright.PENANAu5YqgERS5f
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但是……,為什麼沒有人停下腳步呢?63Please respect copyright.PENANA0s2PooK7YT
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我停止動作,並盯著那名少女。63Please respect copyright.PENANAPAVrV2somW
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我看著那名少女表演完,並停止動作,對著人來人往的大街上鞠躬。63Please respect copyright.PENANAalkanIx6n5
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少女抬頭後,意外與我對上眼,並微笑地向我招手。63Please respect copyright.PENANA90BQIHC99t
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她在跟我打招呼嗎?63Please respect copyright.PENANAn9LwFVXVJK
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我疑惑的走到那個少女旁,想要了解她的身份與來歷。63Please respect copyright.PENANA2T2YPKwWPG
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「我的表演成功嗎?」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAEfw6ETFV04
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那名少女開口,並一直掛著那甜美的笑容。63Please respect copyright.PENANASlaTd1l9h8
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「表演?在這個大街上嗎?」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAaPxKFFb6tJ
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「你看不出來嗎?63Please respect copyright.PENANATjqQgPk6Iz
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剛剛我不是在唱歌跳舞嗎?這毫無疑問是表演喔!」63Please respect copyright.PENANANkSfgqgaaI
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「……,是這樣沒錯……。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAHcfc3mXufB
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「……,難道說……。63Please respect copyright.PENANA33LxrTb9vN
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你不是本地人?」 63Please respect copyright.PENANArdgYHn30Ie
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突然間,少女開始將問題轉向我。63Please respect copyright.PENANAUAs2TwViua
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從剛剛到現在她都一直帶著那個微笑,甚至讓我覺得她是不是只是有一個表情。63Please respect copyright.PENANABKD54ubhX7
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不過她怎麼會這樣問?難道這件事在月花市裡是正常的嗎?63Please respect copyright.PENANAFsblvJ08vx
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「對,我是今天才來到這裡的。」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAzcBZ0669mN
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「你來這裡幹嘛?觀光嗎?」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAmZUD2CIkSe
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「不,我打算在這裡住一段時間,我想成為偶像。」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAqPc1FVDmKn
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「成為偶像?」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAacNpWDauZ9
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少女繼續掛著笑容,並疑惑的盯著我。63Please respect copyright.PENANAfJ97QIUjmu
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突然被這樣盯……,總覺得有點奇怪欸。63Please respect copyright.PENANAaEZgE5wt1z
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「怎麼了?」63Please respect copyright.PENANA7iJ59GGvQk
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「……,我想認識你!63Please respect copyright.PENANARHyRbtkcnE
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我叫吉田陽菜,你呢?」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAsRvKvXBQWV
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「咦?那麼突然!?63Please respect copyright.PENANAW0GjHMo2XD
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那個……,我是松本晴香。」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAwmaXCmq2Gz
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「松本晴香嗎?63Please respect copyright.PENANAY7z7ZsR6V0
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我問你,你是真的想成為偶像嗎?」63Please respect copyright.PENANAMY1rtqbuKC
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「當然,我剛剛就這樣說了吧?」63Please respect copyright.PENANAdkEjuO46WI
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「嗯……。63Please respect copyright.PENANA42jRxAm1ah
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我話可能說的有點重,但我姑且還是得提醒一下。63Please respect copyright.PENANAqHYUsRZ2i2
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你成為不了職業偶像的。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAC2GwMZN4t2
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「咦?」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAscOKCD916Z
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我愣住了,我能感覺她是保持著「友善」的態度對我說這句話的。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAmUHI4kNi1M
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但即使如此,我還是對她的意見非常不滿。63Please respect copyright.PENANAyed2orOrxZ
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「為什麼?63Please respect copyright.PENANAul7zyeSmYs
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你憑什麼用這句話否定我的未來?」63Please respect copyright.PENANA6tucn42KZY
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「我知道你現在可能很難信服……。63Please respect copyright.PENANAU1dJl4MEak
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不過有一天,妳會了解的。63Please respect copyright.PENANA267yh1kFP9
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我給你我的電話號碼吧!要是遇到困難時我會幫助你的。現在你可以不打給我,但遇到困難時,我是會真心幫助你的!」63Please respect copyright.PENANAZhQdPfpfYf
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吉田一邊說著,一邊從口袋拿出一個小紙條,並強行塞到我的口袋裡。63Please respect copyright.PENANALlHfTgbIxe
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在給我紙條後,她便轉身離開了現場。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAFo0o3lVYu1
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我則站在原地,完全不知道現在該做出怎麼反應。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAh5o9zk4zUV
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這也太誇張了吧?來這裡的第一天就被否定了夢想……。63Please respect copyright.PENANAm3GaVJXhDV
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不過我都來到月花市了,怎麼可能就這樣放棄?63Please respect copyright.PENANABpFEQ2HlpV
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等著吧,我一定會成為一個厲害的職業偶像給你看!63Please respect copyright.PENANAGiiBMGvXQi
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我在內心這樣想著,隨後便轉身離開。63Please respect copyright.PENANAwgIhvVIJ57
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我按照原本預定的行程,在飯店路上的某個會場,並在寬快速的買了門票後,坐到觀眾席上準備觀賞LIVE。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAeXOnU3Chf0
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我看了下四周。這個會場大概和我學校的活動中心差不多大,同時也有有許多觀眾和我一樣坐在觀眾席,等待著即將到來的表演。63Please respect copyright.PENANAyGR652N43x
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表演者是NO.78的職業偶像「金花」鈴木美惠子。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAGQ72tDcj2b
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親眼見證職業偶像的表演究竟是怎麼樣子?我感到很好奇。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAce7Z9BOQnr
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本來應該是很開心的事才對……,但是……。63Please respect copyright.PENANASVdF0lG9Py
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……,為什麼?63Please respect copyright.PENANAzRj7cUHew0
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為什麼我的內心那麼不安呢? 63Please respect copyright.PENANAhxj4lBeMGZ
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不久後,隨著舞台上的LED燈暗下來,在主持人說了一些廢話後,LIVE正式開始。一名金色長髮的女子走到舞台上,一旁的燈光全部打在女子身上,女子也完全不廢話的開始了表演。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAStYOHHefoU
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「~。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAIii04BKKb8
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「……!」63Please respect copyright.PENANAYB38ytb6KD
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在她開口的瞬間,我愣住了。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAYLxXlubomk
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這也……,這也……。63Please respect copyright.PENANAjqB4JmGqGZ
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這也太誇張了吧!63Please respect copyright.PENANAUqeuZUcB3r
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唱歌很好聽……,舞蹈也很好……,這真的只是NO.78嗎? 63Please respect copyright.PENANAbtOa7XiNSF
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就在這個瞬間,我深刻意識到了幾件事。63Please respect copyright.PENANA1jQ8sReDW3
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為什麼那名叫做吉田陽菜的少女即使歌聲很好聽,卻沒有任何人停下腳步的原因。63Please respect copyright.PENANAOXuyp2DWBS
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鈴木美惠子從上到下都散發一種特殊的氣場,讓人不自覺的想盯著她看,不自覺的想揮舞手中的應援棒。63Please respect copyright.PENANAECZfyKspIL
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如果是天使的現場舞蹈,那一定更震撼,更難以置信……。63Please respect copyright.PENANAAi9dInPniL
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……。63Please respect copyright.PENANAwPJXIdvU38
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我……,能做到像她一樣嗎?我能成功到達天使的那個水平嗎?63Please respect copyright.PENANAVphQGGxCuc
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「你成為不了職業偶像的。」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAAFRpenuErW
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我的腦海不自覺的想起這句話。 63Please respect copyright.PENANA0U0HgIMZfE
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一想到這點,我就握緊了雙手。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAApqGfCzrVN
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「……,可惡。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3xRaG8mVT
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在LIVE結束後,我很快走到了飯店,並在經過幾個手續後,很快進到房間裡,並住了下來。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAPeNPv67Fsq
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我毫不猶豫的平躺在床上,腦袋一直不停的轉著。63Please respect copyright.PENANAPxjBzoRuM3
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光是第一天的所見所聞,就超乎我的想像……。63Please respect copyright.PENANACHcxiGWhUS
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算了,只是第一天而已,而且我之後也會進步的吧?63Please respect copyright.PENANAfANPvhH8ud
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我說服著自己,並從口袋裡拿出手機。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAz4BkXU7gkd
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之後的時間,就陸續往各家事務所面試看看吧! 63Please respect copyright.PENANAevhU7ThD0I
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在來這裡前,我就選擇了19家不錯的事務所。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAiJYArREWUK
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先從好的事務所開始面試吧!失敗了就往下一家決定。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAAGQzWV1gyO
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選擇的公司足足有19家,不可能一家都沒進吧? 63Please respect copyright.PENANAUWWtyAEvaR
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是啊!不管怎麼樣至少會進一家吧?63Please respect copyright.PENANA9H0br3atcE
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加入事務所後,成為職業偶像後……,我就會成為大家都知曉的大人物! 63Please respect copyright.PENANA6P8FGoycYu
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一定可以很順利的!一定……。63Please respect copyright.PENANAdn3NYwuOLd
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……。63Please respect copyright.PENANALzrdXZouAo
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一定……,嗎?63Please respect copyright.PENANAo26Od0YWkI
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我沒有選擇思考太多,而是在幾天後來到了一家事務所,並開始了自己的第一次面試。63Please respect copyright.PENANABv5xIWiooE
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第一次面試,考官只是看了我一眼就請我離開。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAfXInIqztND
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「你沒有成為偶像的天賦」,他是這樣說的。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAB1RGnksIse
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這句話對他來說也許只是平淡的一句話,但卻深深打擊了我的內心。63Please respect copyright.PENANAWxJYxtyQLv
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我回到家,並嘆了一口氣。63Please respect copyright.PENANA1I2IuwfQQC
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雖然第一步就那麼不順利,不過沒關係!63Please respect copyright.PENANAZGbQYOoq4o
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反正只是第一次而已,之後會更好的吧?63Please respect copyright.PENANA5dLY4PyAPd
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這樣想著的我,並在幾天後再次進行幾次面試。63Please respect copyright.PENANAj0MaDrAxbU
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第七次面試,考官跟我說「你好像有一個口頭禪是【這也太誇張了吧?】,所以我覺得你離開月花市去當綜藝演員搞不好比較好喔!」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAn24rJ3GL82
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這句話一直在我腦內徘徊,甚至到家裡也一直想著這件事。63Please respect copyright.PENANAD6XZTEd1Ok
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綜藝演員……,雖然也是可以成為大人物,但總覺得不是我想成為的樣子呢……。63Please respect copyright.PENANAZgjsI1Rejm
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但是……。63Please respect copyright.PENANAABemiZIjJn
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已經第七次了,面試還是沒有上。63Please respect copyright.PENANApsNDrfcOU2
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我是不是……,應該轉換一下跑道啊?63Please respect copyright.PENANAlyB7qxzvE4
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第十二次面試,考官和我聊的很開心,彷彿讓我看見了一線曙光。63Please respect copyright.PENANA7s9ZzJmDbB
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但是,最後還是沒有把我選上。 63Please respect copyright.PENANA6I8yDeUOOu
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在得知消息後,我躲在我自己的房間裡,出乎意料的哭了一段時間。63Please respect copyright.PENANAeSCcFwQSe0
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為什麼?明明這次我很有把握的……。63Please respect copyright.PENANAYmfjzHqXpo
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已經第十二次了……,為什麼我還是沒辦法成功?63Please respect copyright.PENANABCOM3UMWk9
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我難道沒有才能嗎?我難道……。63Please respect copyright.PENANA1BzgkvMBRh
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根本不適合當偶像?63Please respect copyright.PENANAKYlTwaPrBh
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……。63Please respect copyright.PENANApf9fKC3KaT
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雖然感覺有點痛苦,但還是應該繼續嘗試。63Please respect copyright.PENANAsyb6JFBLUh
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還有七次機會,不是嗎?63Please respect copyright.PENANAc5irdZW9rv
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於是,我振作起來,並持續的去面試。63Please respect copyright.PENANAdZ49iTck9O
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十三次、十四次、十五次、十六次、十七次、十八次。63Please respect copyright.PENANAdcGP5K1yl1
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最後都毫無懸念的被淘汰,我終究沒能成為偶像。63Please respect copyright.PENANAqAiG0sfKdo
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剩下最後一次機會了,我必須把握才行……。63Please respect copyright.PENANA1tbxNODg8z
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我不能放棄、還有最後一次機會,不要放棄。63Please respect copyright.PENANAu2VIH8fBnH
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振作起來,振作起來,振作起來,振作起來。63Please respect copyright.PENANAtN2uUbK5zo
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第十九次面試,我換了一個方向。63Please respect copyright.PENANAELAaj3G7yW
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台詞、動作、神情,我從前面十八次的經驗中得出一個最佳的樣貌。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAUDSyUpMgsc
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更何況這家事務所也不是什麼有名的事務所之類的,這一次總應該成功了吧? 63Please respect copyright.PENANA5A8WiPKcC4
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……,但是,最後還是失敗了。 63Please respect copyright.PENANA6onwqQSOpS
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理由是:「你的眼神太假了。」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAw3fhqoCnTt
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我聽到這句話時,我反駁道:「我知道我在偽裝,但這是因為我只能透過這個方式」。63Please respect copyright.PENANA6ewzMuJuh7
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然而考官告訴我:「你沒有成為偶像的才能,這個缺點是無論怎麼偽裝,都沒辦法隱瞞的。」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAXFPbNPYe9f
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最後,第十九次面試還是沒能上。63Please respect copyright.PENANAKATCcDJmgU
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在得知這一切後,我感覺我的內心有什麼失去了一般。63Please respect copyright.PENANAkDuz9o7lhm
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全部的機會,就到此結束了……。63Please respect copyright.PENANA5ezkcwsOal
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等到我意識到這點,已經到了2023年了,我如今也已經20歲。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAQwNgOu75wV
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偶像排行榜的前十名已經連續兩年沒有變化了,象徵新的偶像時代正逐漸進行著。63Please respect copyright.PENANA5f9pGOzpRb
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相對的,此時的我住在一個髒亂的房間裡,泡麵餐盒快疊出一個高塔,外套和衣服散落一地……。63Please respect copyright.PENANAKFdZolr192
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即使如此,我房間還是有一個空位,那邊靠牆的地方有一個大鏡子,我偶爾會在那麼練習跳舞。63Please respect copyright.PENANA5wzhYkqiyl
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但是都落選了,事到如今跳舞還有什麼意義?63Please respect copyright.PENANAfNRjTyUt2L
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我真是狼狽啊……。63Please respect copyright.PENANArYnRNQL55B
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在這裡生活其實也沒什麼困難,為了賺錢一直有接各種打工,也成功租到一個住宅裡面,三餐吃泡麵也沒有問題……。63Please respect copyright.PENANAPQLmcX4LKw
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但畢竟一直在打工,漸漸的也沒什麼時間整理房間了,一段時間後就變成了現在這個樣子。63Please respect copyright.PENANAZ8TsNhgS4N
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還記得之前,我會一個禮拜會和母親打通電話,兩人聊著在月花市的趣事。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAECwOBFR1jC
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但是漸漸的,我不再打電話給她,也已經很久沒聽到媽媽的聲音了。63Please respect copyright.PENANAnZlfxk5F17
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我該怎麼向母親說明我現在的慘狀? 63Please respect copyright.PENANA4CTKuuBO37
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我躺在床上,無聊的看著天花板。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAzbOqoN6nLo
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已經沒有跳舞的心了,反正不管多努力都還是會失敗。63Please respect copyright.PENANAeVrEI6Ztm0
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也許,自己終究也只是一個不會被歷史記住的失敗者而已。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAC0j1GltJ1t
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不過仔細想想,至少我住在月花市對吧? 63Please respect copyright.PENANAZWFHhYUgBg
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畢竟生活都可以繼續過下去,不要奢求太多比較好吧?成為大人物的夢想不過是孩子的戲言罷了,其實在賽跑輸掉那一天我就知道了。63Please respect copyright.PENANAaN1HMUMbQ1
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我,不是成為大人物的料。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAse5RTpw1gy
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這幾年,我不過只是一直在掙扎,一直在探索不存在的希望罷了。 63Please respect copyright.PENANA1FeBFfKwXI
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差不多該向現實妥協了。 63Please respect copyright.PENANApkPbLiuCEF
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想著想著,感覺有點累了,打算就這樣睡著。63Please respect copyright.PENANA087MVsoebn
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如果這一切都是夢,那該有多好? 63Please respect copyright.PENANAEIamh9HFk2
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「現在你可以不打給我,但遇到困難時,我是會真心幫助你的!」 63Please respect copyright.PENANA88WT6Laa9y
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在意識模糊時,我彷彿再度聽到這句話。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAPs63IlhwJW
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啊……對了,在兩年前,我來這裡的第一天有遇到一個叫吉田陽菜的人。63Please respect copyright.PENANApcgf1pgRkF
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我慢慢從床上爬了起來,並從雜亂的房間中尋找東西。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAljp1yok5YX
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最後,我成功找到一個小紙條。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAN14WadwAM9
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兩年了,紙居然幾乎毫髮無損。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAtbwiKM4Jtg
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這是最後的希望了,必須嘗試看看。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAiPpPHDLDLM
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我再度拿起手機,默默撥打了上面所記載的電話號碼。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAKsgAbjV7LL
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隔天,我來到了一家便利商店,並在坐在一個椅子上等待著她的到來。63Please respect copyright.PENANAhA9bu6i3Dm
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很快,在自動門的音效傳出後,我注意到了她的到來。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAydHWcK7UAe
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「好久不見,松本晴香。」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAzz83Vk45z4
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吉田看到我後,馬上走到我面前,並坐在我的對面。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAztAAGXDwCA
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僅是一面之緣,但雙方都記得彼此。 63Please respect copyright.PENANA1IAeZqDOsr
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她依然是掛著笑容,似乎沒什麼壓力一般。63Please respect copyright.PENANASMIHWqsAxb
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「感覺你沒什麼變呢。」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAmtBMrJVt2l
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聽到我的話,吉田也點了點頭。63Please respect copyright.PENANAVnyM2nwG66
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「你倒是感覺變很多。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAISYwyQMbLC
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沉重的眼神、沒整理的頭髮、隨便亂配的衣服。63Please respect copyright.PENANAGZR2ogZJvJ
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這些年,你過的不是很好吧?」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAPZtNtXaUCz
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「畢竟經歷這兩年,要不變都難吧?」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAVbtfJZDzEI
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「我想也是。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAPJyGoZ6r7i
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讓我猜一下,你沒有成為職業偶像,最後才變成現在這樣子對吧?」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAcqrw9mn6FJ
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「嗯……。 63Please respect copyright.PENANABuIwK0iBMe
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我已經不知道現在我該怎麼辦才好了。」 63Please respect copyright.PENANA0n1hb1TOMs
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「我有一個想法,你想聽聽看嗎?」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAPmWlXipTFo
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「嗯,我就是為此叫你來的。」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAEkkeZ9ALkP
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「你有沒有考慮要當業餘偶像的打算?」63Please respect copyright.PENANAEChYjcub4p
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「……,業餘?」63Please respect copyright.PENANATAeRrt3Q4V
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對啊,仔細想想,吉田就是一位業餘偶像吧?63Please respect copyright.PENANADsos183pIp
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所謂業餘偶像,顧名思義就是沒有任何事務所,以自己的名義表演的偶像。63Please respect copyright.PENANAsKA41DWepn
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雖然能繼續作為偶像表演不錯,但是……。63Please respect copyright.PENANAdUNj9sR8Fe
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「我現在沒有時間想這些了。 63Please respect copyright.PENANAfC2KCOk89e
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要是放棄其中一個工作,我可能連正常生活都沒辦法。」63Please respect copyright.PENANA29SreiAKEq
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「正常來說是這樣沒錯……。63Please respect copyright.PENANAwPfQ98yWVN
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但假如說,你要當的是有收入的業餘偶像呢?」63Please respect copyright.PENANAXtLUccTCtc
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「有收入?63Please respect copyright.PENANAHNUVQnBs3K
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這是詐騙集團嗎?聽起來很可疑欸。」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAK5JCbocREC
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「當然不是喔!」63Please respect copyright.PENANAHxxfzP2QFj
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吉田一邊說著,一邊從口袋拿出一個名片。63Please respect copyright.PENANAg711Z5CB9b
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「Amateur Light」上面這樣寫著,這是一個偶像團體的名字嗎?63Please respect copyright.PENANAb9qvTy56Lo
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「Amateur Light是由業餘偶像組成的團體,成立的人正是身為團長的我。63Please respect copyright.PENANAOBDt5Dpls3
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每個沒有加入事務所的業餘偶像都可以加入我們,並透過完成一些小公司指派的委託並賺取薪資。63Please respect copyright.PENANAsfbtvNXyXf
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雖然我們沒有偶像事務所那種強大的號召力和人脈,不過也是個不錯的方法吧?」63Please respect copyright.PENANAXv64QVrXiH
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「Amateur Light……。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAwxS1pviiF1
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如果她說的沒錯。成為業餘偶像能有收入,又可以唱歌、跳舞,那應該不算太差吧? 63Please respect copyright.PENANAsYyYFRB8yd
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雖然成為業餘偶像絕對不能像職業偶像那樣在大會場跳舞……。63Please respect copyright.PENANA5DiYAKmXkT
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……,算了吧?事到如今我還要求那麼多幹嘛?63Please respect copyright.PENANArexX7DylGy
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「不是沒有考慮的價值。」 63Please respect copyright.PENANAxyP2GPzIVw
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聽到我的回應,吉田也點了點頭。63Please respect copyright.PENANAe8ZeCFO6xx
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「確定嗎?要不要再給你幾天思考……。」63Please respect copyright.PENANA8Y3u30KK8L
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「不用了。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAh3ha01S8cL
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「連懷疑一下都不用嗎?」63Please respect copyright.PENANAhhLllaOlF6
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「你能從我這裡得到什麼?」63Please respect copyright.PENANA9fPxuoHZU0
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聽到我的回應,吉田則嘆了一口氣。63Please respect copyright.PENANAm7i0YOGLBo
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「好吧,既然這就是你的選擇……。63Please respect copyright.PENANAHUKtryEmYt
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歡迎加入Amateur Light!」63Please respect copyright.PENANAIHOjjuz3WT
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聽到吉田的回應,我也點了點頭。63Please respect copyright.PENANAjHASDVzf2w
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我知道,接下來我的路途將完全與眾不同。