I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40hZQNmWIf
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhbEsIk6Se
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMKIcJ7ynk
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34ddVHuZ3N
to pick them up and set them back down.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZ24gFyDYL
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzS2tVgGcFd
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxSsuVfG0m
like a normal person, thank you.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWE37UL2ZO
I try.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNokBZY2ph8
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3o0xl96Qk
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGneFQgC7Kl
just barely making it from one place to another724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43X2Ev5GcS
without damage.
I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1h03zkFf8T
Just this Wednesday I was driving home724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKSCxeXJCy
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLzuHcQLHJ
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQZYOjIgWm
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6nYlRXQvp
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HjHWoLsJX
for those I’m not sure how to help724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuPsVVGfEU
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvG7Ji6VdMI
And while I was driving down the highway724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7q7F6oA9Km
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5N1WuFrlw
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3dAnyOvvB
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTdGd5expg
collide with the wall, break through and destroy724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMQ2WWmohQ
the other side.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUlvofgDOK
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrociLpB51c
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHrh17W9AD
harm anyone else in the process. But I724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBi3cFzBcxi
didn’t do either, even though I724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM71Xg8bjRE
got so scared for a minute724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EfSEI5SeK
that I would.
I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPpj1Df3gj
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrU74hZahai
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoipvVxscf5
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTiu5zq034
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhq8UBDq7NN
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkHHKQjHcX
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANwQQwLAee
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfFdgIvzl0
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBNoiijfdy
draw blood, but it was the first time724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWIOr7WHAz
I had allowed myself to724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VaaXUoPO5
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWwMckMfPU
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMfd26ERaB
actually reach out and go through with it724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeqqvWHm0j
I think because I’m afraid of not existing724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLH8wQfpY4U
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpWjA8bupz
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡii2DgOVO1v
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5q1ba0AZ8o
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHBhavHopc
and give up. I have thought about dying every day724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECEF3KOlsp
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXahti2jsoy
go through with it.
I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QB3Q1wbng
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUtsjFgtCm
for people to care about me when they should724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqWX0Gs5Pf
care about me on their own. I often think that724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9YntmPZeM
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0FSOhQtym
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdueY2LCkG
She often hurts me more than she improves my life724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGQgRZgYqQ
but I’m too afraid to say anything because724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3paCrBxYY
I need her. I need her to exist724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfovulyBSle
in my existence, and I need her to724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21Hq5rEmOa
be by my side.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuk0G0LzFh
But I’m tired.
I’m tired724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNB3MfwtcI
of being tired724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66Rdgul6sl
in this tiring life.
