I’m tired.666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBtT3q47pj
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4bjY4aODU
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoWT1pkbHX
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEr9MMnU7L
to pick them up and set them back down.666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYHcLdUwd7
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOS6uIVpe3
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTMtDQ0Bap
like a normal person, thank you.666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKA7czMzFAv
I try.666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUZWdE5emJ
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUptlOCpYn
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiJUlGX703
just barely making it from one place to another666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwTFpvcOPf
without damage.
I’m tired.666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92RcpDKYaX
Just this Wednesday I was driving home666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR976nHlGLm
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMxokdzXO4
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMQSXhlokE
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Eab4q9iMa
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEXb8DCdub
for those I’m not sure how to help666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8FhuTJ0Us
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKmxQ9YQkR
And while I was driving down the highway666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3zrS2d3JW
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBwXrl4ci1
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMeIlML8XH
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UGnKvFS23
collide with the wall, break through and destroy666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5EiRvYdin
the other side.666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnlHCDPAp4
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyag9UWMpAt
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZC0vAXWHco
harm anyone else in the process. But I666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmO0JqOicC
didn’t do either, even though I666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoYczzQrpl
got so scared for a minute666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uJpnURCs4
that I would.
I’m tired.666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJglS2BAe3
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMD7b0TWWbX
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHoTjDhEUq
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLz1wkP9Zc
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvGespKtrJ
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqZlcMriGY
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwQjbKvwGQ
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5iBsjUhVGI
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyK2TIEFGa
draw blood, but it was the first time666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlAs2zlOyT
I had allowed myself to666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFWeqHuRZG
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCEPCvAjvU
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMC9QCR5JJ
actually reach out and go through with it666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4KPdrIQ1S
I think because I’m afraid of not existing666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zzxIuqySs
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNRqFECPps
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTlYUhfqRY
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrf4aYX45jg
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkB115NpBd
and give up. I have thought about dying every day666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2UKqC4w5k
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNMVPmwIx9
go through with it.
I’m tired.666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviwhuPj2E0
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6eJXoRkbF
for people to care about me when they should666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7kCWOVGXH
care about me on their own. I often think that666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAx7J5bjMvm
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZVvIsvXgN
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bUnJ1wGs3
She often hurts me more than she improves my life666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEpzHZ7u9f
but I’m too afraid to say anything because666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0SdlxFXJl3
I need her. I need her to exist666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZRPJ9IW70
in my existence, and I need her to666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SUf7tIw4X
be by my side.666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡba98xJBcjI
But I’m tired.
I’m tired666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbDl453XbH
of being tired666Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYV2kyxZ8TM
in this tiring life.
