跟我想得差不多,沒有睡著,但是今天玩得蠻開心的,做了個玉石項鍊,然後回到民宿就開始吃吃喝喝,打麻將唱歌,某種程度來說心情還可以,但是還是會有莫名低落的時候。
因為室內不能抽菸,所以我晚上為了抽菸到室外很多次,看著落地窗內大家開心的樣子,我就是情不自禁難過了起來,真的很神奇,我也不知道為什麼,但好像很常這樣,就旁邊的人很開心,但我就是會默默的難過,莫名其妙。
明天下午有排立槳,但我其實蠻悲觀的,覺得那個時間應該是大暴雨,然後就會取消……,雖然知道應該多一點希望的但是現在的心情真的是低落到一個很殘酷的位置,我沒有辦法用理智的想法思考事情,也沒辦法說服自己出來玩放鬆一點,唉……。
Intrusive Thoughts
BY Natalie Jane
What if I never find anybody to love24Please respect copyright.PENANAwUykkPo2jw
如果我永遠找不到可以愛的人呢
Or I finally get the chance and I fuck it all up?24Please respect copyright.PENANAxxwFDBI6Sp
或是終於得到機會卻把一切搞砸了?
'Cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to leave, woah24Please respect copyright.PENANAO4IXIf1f42
因為只要我先離開,就不會受傷,喔
What if I get to heaven and it's not even real24Please respect copyright.PENANA3nM0V795AQ
如果我抵達天堂,卻發現那根本不是真的呢
And I die before tellin' you how I really feel?24Please respect copyright.PENANAXd9784HFA9
還沒來得及告訴你我真正的感受就死去了?
'Cause it feels like hell and I just can't help but think24Please respect copyright.PENANAZEv6Vo0GdI
因為這感覺像地獄,我不禁一直想
That maybe love's not for me24Please respect copyright.PENANAnGshmbEkea
或許愛情,從來就不屬於我
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