連方鎮的居民，皆篤信法蓮教並崇敬法華大仙。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWRiRi4vwU
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在法蓮教的觀念裡，人的魂靈會在人間輪迴七生七世，每個人在歷經每一世時，魂靈都會被法華大仙植入一顆蓮子。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ecW6kmYHT
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蓮子便是所謂的「憐心」，在法蓮教的教義中，便提倡人要常存憐憫之心，多行善事廣結善緣，才能灌養心中的蓮子。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljLAr9ATx9
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等到心中蓮子長成盛開的蓮花，人的這一世也就得到了圓滿，然後繼續下一世的輪迴。直至魂靈輪迴七世，開滿七朵心蓮，人在塵世的修業才得到真正的大圓滿，自身魂靈就能超脫輪迴並化為仙佛，助法華大仙繼續渡化人間的芸芸眾生，最後成就無苦無難的極樂淨土。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZwOYKf73Q
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每年在連方鎮裡舉行的渡蓮仙會，便是出自法蓮教信仰，旨要渡化辭世之人的魂靈，當鎮民身邊有親人去世時，便會在渡蓮仙會於水道中流放蓮燈，為已逝之人祈求冥福。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NUd7jjujf
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蓮燈裡通常會放入水漣石，水漣石是以此地的碧江江水凝煉而成，連方鎮的人習慣將水漣石作為護身符，並對水漣石許下想要在今生或來世實現的願望。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGK0vpcaKwz
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當此人逝世之後，水漣石就會被視為他魂靈的象徵物，安置於一朵盛開的蓮花裡，作為渡化此人魂靈的蓮燈。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5hVAcILfl
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通常蓮燈都是由已逝之人的親人所渡放，親人在蓮燈裡注入法力後，就能夠感知到此人生前灌注於水漣石裡的意念及願望。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhY72mD3EV
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然後在渡蓮仙會的夜晚，親人會將發光的蓮燈渡放於水道裡，盼望蓮燈乘載的魂靈，能藉由碧江江水流到法華大仙的身邊，圓滿完成這一世的旅程，帶著願望前往下一世的輪迴。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxMlI7Z8qi
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但若是此人生前心存惡念，惡行累累，導致內心的蓮花未開，亡者的蓮燈便無法被點燃，魂靈也無法得到蓮燈的渡化，只能墜入地獄受苦受難。等到受難期滿，魂靈才能輪迴到人間，重新七生七世的修業。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpestnFUEb6
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今年的渡蓮仙會依照往例在七月十五舉辦，白日是祭拜天地及法華大仙的仙會儀式，鎮民們會在水道旁的大祭壇上擺放鮮花蔬果等祭物，一同跪拜禱念祭詞，表達對天地及法華大仙的崇高敬仰，並祈求今年的平安和順。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0qRYQyAGn
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在莊嚴肅靜的仙會儀式結束後，就要進行夜晚的渡蓮儀式，今年家裡有人去世的人，都會一起在水道邊渡放蓮燈，送親人最後一程。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybq3EfY9tl
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依照連方鎮裡的習俗，親人要為亡者守喪，直到在渡蓮仙會渡化了亡者魂靈，守喪期才算結束。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDaIkcydR7
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「娘，一路好走啊。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pxpbLU67t
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我和清漣一同在水岸旁，此時的清漣小心翼翼地雙手輕捧清波姨的蓮燈，往裡面注入法力。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUMMhNTwP8
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淡粉蓮瓣護攏的水漣石，開始散發出柔和的粼粼波光，映照在清漣略微蒼白的面龐，像是清波姨在撫慰兒子的憔悴神傷。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6v29RmBnlx
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我就站在清漣身後，看著他極為緩慢地將蓮燈安放於水面上，是清漣依依不捨地向清波姨做最後的道別。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0V9VFW80vN
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終於，清漣放開了蓮燈，清波姨的蓮燈跟著水面上其他的盞盞蓮燈，隨著潺潺水流越漂越遠，越漂越遠……417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshErQroD9X
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幾個月前，清波姨在客棧裡暈倒那日，她便一直臥病在床，身體每況愈下。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡComCHjcgbe
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清漣的性子從那時就漸漸變了，少了從前愛笑愛鬧的歡快活潑，多了些承擔家業的內斂穩重。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDSszjUxHJ
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他為了不讓清波姨憂心，從此不再練習說書，也很少與涓兒私會，將全副精神花在經營客棧和照顧清波姨，我則跟著清漣一同料理青門客棧的事務，並祈求清波姨能熬過這場大病。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdC0eG6KLF
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但上蒼無情，清波姨仍在一個夜裡與世長辭。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3AvvV9OWiQ
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親人的逝去對我和清漣而言，都是無法忘懷的哀慟及缺憾，即使流逝的歲月能沖淡悲痛，但依然會以深遠的形式扎根於我們的一生。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiVZSbgVoX
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渡放了清波姨的蓮燈後，我和清漣雙手合十，低頭禱念祭詞，虔心祈求法華大仙能渡化清波姨的魂靈，讓她平安前往下一世的輪迴。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3N5d9gPvnJ
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等到蓮燈化為渺小的點點靈光，隱沒於夜空與流水交會的邊際，清漣才緩緩抬起頭，開口說道：「漪洀，我感應到娘親最後的心願了……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5mgklxwjt
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我沒說話，只是靜靜地佇立在清漣身後，注視他被寂冷夜色籠罩的背影。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XHo3eHlje
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雖然看不見他的表情，但清漣話語中的哽咽，就讓我明白他的深深懷思。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCwm73MwGF
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「娘親她希望我能好好成家，娶妻生子，平和安穩的過完一生。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeobnE98J4M
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無聲的嘆息融於流水潺湲中，一盞盞新的蓮燈又從我們的眼前緩緩流過。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTOHTdtOL7
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「唯一能在來世或今生實現的願望，竟不用在自己身上，娘親為了我勞苦一生，最後我還是個讓她操心的不孝子啊。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVVAYHb4qx
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這些日子以來，我一直待在清漣身邊，自然了解這番感嘆之語的沉重。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnnSaSa8Ho
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清漣在清波姨倒下之後，努力了許多，也失去了許多，最後卻仍是回天乏術。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeI6AuY8wO
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清漣轉身與我相互凝視，他清澈見底的瞳眸中，充盈著處於生死交界處的蓮燈光輝，卻不復往昔那純粹無瑕的明亮光采。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvwV4uegKH
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「漪洀，我一直有件事想跟你說。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2K8ScnSKT
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不知為何，在那瞬間，心中的棘刺蔓生出痛楚，緊緊攫住了我的心房。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxseiib1TF
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「等渡蓮仙會結束後，我想向涓兒提親，好讓去世的娘親能放心。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KTeYBLDuc
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廳堂四周高掛朱紅喜幔以及大紅燈籠，渲染著一片喜氣洋洋的喧鬧氛圍，今日是連方鎮裡少有的熱鬧日子，是清漣和涓兒的成親之日。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pK0ZLlLf4
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在這偏鄉小鎮的婚禮，不像大城人家有許多繁瑣的規矩，清漣和涓兒舉行過拜堂儀式，就成了正式的夫妻，現在他們倆一同坐在喜筵的新人席上，滿面春風地接受眾人的誠摯祝福。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBew9m1EepZ
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「恭喜你們這對才子佳人總算真正在一起啦。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPEzE35F3i
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「清漣，這樣你娘也終於可以放心啦。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1l5tPXNlbo
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「是啊是啊，祝你們早生貴子，美美滿滿的啊。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EHVAiQBSF
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此起彼落的朗朗笑語，讓喜筵氣氛更加熱鬧歡快，我則坐在離這對新人不遠處的席位，看著在清漣身旁的涓兒以紅袖輕掩面龐，面如桃花嬌滴滴地笑著，而清漣在觥籌交錯之際已是酒酣耳熱，他身上的大紅鑲金的喜服，襯著面頰上醺醉的暈紅，在紅燈籠的明燦光亮下，在我眼裡融糊成一片艷紅燦亮的朦朧景色，華美得讓我感到些許刺目。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDI5sudobBA
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在這大家敞開胸懷感到歡喜的大好日子，唯獨我懷抱無法釋放的苦悶，茫然的沉浮於這片歡騰喧鬧中。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0ee6UO366
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深埋於心肉裡的這根棘刺，所生出的這份苦悶如此清晰，佔據了我的心緒。現在，我不想再花費心思去想它的來由。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmHjCMDXZ4
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我只想圖個一醉，醉到忘卻自己，忘卻世間，忘卻一切。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKL90JaYphA
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或許是我已經醉了吧，我的腦袋變得有些昏沉，但不論灌了多少瓶酒，還是澆不去充塞於胸口的痛楚，反而徒生苦澀之感。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqJkIaPowK
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「清漣，在這大好日子，我賀你一杯。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKr8Zjwhsk
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我決定不再多想，趁著酒興大起，我走到清漣的席位面前高舉酒杯。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4FsE3f4RA
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我仰頭一口飲盡，醇酒入喉，遲緩麻木的感官卻早已不解酒味。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eBrjBo3X6
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「好好好，漪洀你是我最好的兄弟，我也得還你一杯才行啊。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenMyYoikXW
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清漣明顯已經醉到神情迷茫，卻依然眉開眼笑地舉杯暢飲，我也笑著陪他一杯接著一杯，好像回到從前我們小時候一起無憂無慮談笑的感覺。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHIqxFIE0j
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但幾杯黃湯下肚後，清漣就像全身失了力氣般，搖搖晃晃得倒了下去，那瞬間我驚得清醒了幾分。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmuGwtjCgfR
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幸好清漣粗重的呼吸聲，讓我明白他只是醉得不省人事。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzm1vzk2Ld
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「唉啊，這樣新郎倌怎麼抱新娘入洞房啊。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAut8GOCub0
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「呵呵，還是個讓人操心的小伙子啊。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7G170eN7zM
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDJnWcUMCV
周遭打趣笑鬧的話語讓我唇邊泛起一抹苦笑，我一邊支撐起清漣癱軟的身軀，一邊向在場眾人朗聲說道：「各位鄉親父老，現在新郎倌醉倒了，我們只好先帶他回房休息了，喜筵恐怕也要結束了，還請各位切勿見怪。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTb3OYjPvM
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「新郎倌都醉倒了，連鬧洞房也不成了。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxc4po6zdR
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「留在這也沒意思，先散了吧。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAz0ssQaQZQ
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眾人帶著些許遺憾的表情各自散去，原本喧鬧的喜筵很快就被掏空，留下空盪盪的廳堂和杯盤狼藉的餘痕。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vC4Rb9IgA
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「今晚要委屈妳了。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeMf05Abx3
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我轉頭輕聲向涓兒說道，原本有些不知所措的她鎮定地點點頭，柔聲回應：「不會的，謝謝你幫忙。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkuMIlqMF7
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不再多說什麼，我帶著清漣踏出廳堂，涓兒則亦步亦趨地跟在我們身後。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVgJswf8q3
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脫離歡鬧的喜筵，前往房間的路上，瀰漫在我們三人之間的只有靜默，我卻覺得心裡踏實舒坦多了，大概是因為整個身軀都依靠著我的清漣，壓下了我心中的煩悶吧。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eyYR3vHAc
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到了喜房，涓兒先走到裡頭自行點起水漣燈，當燈光充盈了整個房間，門扉上大大的鮮紅「囍」字就刺進我的雙眼，房內鋪上燦紅繡巾的大桌上擺放一盤紅棗和桂圓，一壺酒以及兩只杯子，而偌大的雙人床籠罩著一層層紅紗帳暖，床頭邊還擺了一對大紅花燭。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8m1ZSED7L
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從前清漣說書時說過的，所謂才子佳人繾綣纏綿的溫柔鄉，就這樣突然躍到我眼前，令我有些頭暈目眩。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNAIt0x5Oh
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涓兒看著我小心翼翼地將清漣安放於床上，然後湊到我身邊悄聲說道：「漪洀，清漣交給我照顧，你先回去休息吧。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFejquX6Gd
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「沒關係，我留在這再照看他一會。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfYVmH3UzP
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHISNtRlhW
聽見我話語裡的堅決，涓兒塗抹淡粉胭脂的秀麗面龐，浮現意外的微詫。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kNgvqQL86
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnXU44m6BO
「涓兒，妳先替清漣沖一壺醒酒茶，妳應該知道小廚房在哪吧？」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZ5UNEZC5E
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6p843jVfqY
我忽視自己留在新人喜房裡的格格不入，逕自指使涓兒離開這裡。雖然涓兒臉上雖有不解，她卻沒有多做提問，稍嫌遲疑地退出了房間。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡny3YWgkh64
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKn80Q5dPaa
「那我先去了，這裡就勞煩你了。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfbhS0pHh1
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjoyhxdmvm
涓兒出去時順帶關上了房門，現在這間喜房裡，唯有我和酣醉臥床的清漣兩人，這如夢如幻的真實，讓半醉半醒的我一時之間不知自己身於何處。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmr5RvrkcIS
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「是誰？是誰在這？是涓兒嗎？」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSd4k3TGstU
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRl5gDUpe3Y
清漣微微蠕動雙唇，吐出低濁不清的醉話，我不加思索地湊到他身旁，緊握住他微微發熱的手，急切地低語：「清漣，是我，我是漪洀啊。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkyJI635TY
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiOrsG6odZ
不自覺微微顫抖的聲音，才讓我發現自己近乎焦躁的渴望。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65iZIeWWgp
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSkK7r6mQF
彷彿是對我的話有所感應，清漣緩緩撐起眼皮，他半瞇的雙眼因醉意而迷茫，映出我淺淺的倒影。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBL1sOxKA6r
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkvYIMgWkT
「喔，是漪洀啊……你在這裡做什麼？」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzPzGzJBcHj
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87LfXQK9e0
清漣軟綿無力的話語狠狠重擊我的心房，即使知道他只是隨口無心的詢問，在我耳裡卻是無比尖銳的質問。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOWTIzuXJ4
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvzcuqWQWT
是啊，我為什麼會在這裡呢？現在陪在清漣身旁的應該是涓兒，而不是我……417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡML28ZoBUdI
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToXl8aSgDP
「算了，漪舟啊，趁現在只有你跟我，我有些話要跟你說啊。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUIAVWcigB
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8Mm9huq28
清漣癱軟無力的身軀像是突然注入生氣一般，在床上直挺挺地坐了起來，大喇喇地一手勾住我的脖頸，並將頭靠在我的肩膀。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5oi2v0Xbf
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKahZIZYP1l
就像以前我們稱兄道弟時，那樣勾肩搭背的親近，卻讓現在的我恐慌不安。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzG3aCAb3z
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuEPMd5dBQ
「漪洀啊，我說……我……對不住你啊……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwLpLMkRrH
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3pKAvY32m
清漣突如其來的道歉讓我無法理解，不知這是醉後的胡言亂語，還是他的真心話。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnY6MHjfC5
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQTyqbLEZP
同時他也更加靠近了我，唇間逸出的淡淡酒味，伴隨著他低啞酥麻的嗓音，勾得我無法自持地心神蕩漾，卻也讓我內心的不安越來越深。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByxDFkUbpu
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjq7DJPgi0a
「我們小時候曾經約好，總有一天要一起離開連方鎮，一同覽盡天下風光……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnGOHomjiL
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCQYjQJLkk
「但是，自從娘親生重病的那天起，我就明白，我已經無法離開這裡了……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lEmScesFh
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4v0up9XbY
「我無法離開的，無法離開娘親，無法離開涓兒，縱使我再憧憬外頭的天地……卻無法割捨這一切，我的一生，大概就是在這裡終老了吧……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2pxu0dQMh
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即使他的聲音聽似輕飄飄的散漫，卻充滿了沉重的情思。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5Bl9Pmvf0
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVweLhNMgrj
那是我能從清漣身上感覺到，他卻一直深藏於心的哀愁，直至今日，他才終於向我傾訴出口，我對此感到些許喜悅的同時，隨之而來的卻是更深沉的哀傷。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCI5KkM1v5y
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡed8i0X7Sxa
「所以，我對不起你啊，明明是我說想要一起遨遊天地，我卻食言了……你會怪我嗎？」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0P6l4ajtI
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaKBI5aDbO
我聽出清漣話裡的愧疚，我拍拍他的肩膀，輕聲安慰道：「我怎麼會怪你？這約定又沒什麼，只是小時候的玩笑話罷了，何必那麼認真呢，再說你是我最好的兄弟啊。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkjOPah3F7
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFi1u9qv4X0
「漪洀，你從以前到現在啊……就是個爛好人……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssgOd0vIOQ
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHbczzSJQl
「處處都順著我的任性，卻從沒向我要求什麼……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDXM7PvlM8
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFW7rFhf0y8
清漣的唇角勾起一抹苦笑，話中依然是揮之不去的愧歉。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJWmUZZUml
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1ejEVsYar
忽然間，他暈染上醺醉緋紅的面龐正對著我的臉，眼瞼半開的雙眸茫然而迷濛，搖曳著清亮水光。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Rbiz4WStU
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnV6RoRzpD
「漪洀啊，不然告訴我，你想要的東西或是想要做的事，如果是我能幫上你的，我都願意做……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28VNCKIcn7
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREGUIfPGhN
等我回過神來，清漣已經躺倒在暖紅喜床上，而我整個人則壓在他身上，從我身上落下的大片陰影，覆蓋了清漣的身軀及臉龐。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8YZlKyUA3
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLkfuXvA5v
清漣沒有被我突兀的舉動嚇住，神情依舊是酣醉的茫然恍惚，喃喃笑道：「哈哈……看你坐也坐不穩啦……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz41ZvTOVLc
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0SjenJnnpc
我沒有答話，之前飲下的酒彷彿才在此時發揮作用，令人暈眩的強烈後勁一口氣直衝腦門，我的喉嚨湧起近似焦灼的乾渴，粗濁急促的呼吸伴隨要衝破胸膛的劇烈心跳，在宛如幽靜池水的夜晚持續擴大。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPaEV42qMu
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVFmtjsVXO
即使沉甸甸的腦袋無法思考，我的感官卻無比清晰地感覺著，清漣的存在。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVwZkBu6WP
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKuutQ6Ctc
即使他渾身散發濃濁酒氣，我仍能感覺到他獨有的舒淡氣息，如同他本人的清雅天然，比陳年美酒更令我沉醉。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0Y82CSuzr
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTsCSCsRx2
他身上彷彿能灼燒我眼的大紅喜服寬鬆披散開來，大方袒露出窄瘦而結實的身軀，那蘊含強健力道的浮凸鎖骨和緊實肌理，總是讓我的目光為此停駐。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5lMuz95AN
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAlGXnGJ7Y
他秀氣清俊的臉龐，我閉上眼也能細細描摹出優美的眉眼及唇形，他的歡快，他的哀傷，他的猶豫，他的愧歉，我都能從他面龐上的細微變化一一解讀，並連帶牽引我的心緒跟隨他的喜怒哀樂。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqJbUSFk41
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14G3hNV3cW
他的面頰浮染幾抹醺紅，透出幾分魅然的迷醉，卻還是對我笑得那樣單純率性，引得我心神浮亂，兩頰也暈染上熱燙的緋紅。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMjD1bcG2I
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EbwRm0sx5
他那雙迷茫卻依然清透明亮的眼眸，每每望著，就像跌進清澈透涼的水裡，陷溺其中無法自拔。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhp3A08ISI
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJDVZE2imD
他凝視我的目光，總帶來綿綿不斷的細雨，落在我深寂的心湖，掀起交疊相融的陣陣漣漪，無法平息。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXc0kSSDnM
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiiC5OcY7z
但是，現在的我卻害怕碰觸這樣的他，我深怕伸出手的那瞬間，我能與他共存的處所便會徹底瓦解。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPL9jbhZ4W
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKwRltVhDh
「你怎麼什麼也不說啊？你還沒告訴我想要什麼呢……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFpGMyy1dc
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgszdb0KjgO
清漣的聲音像是江水般悠悠地從我耳邊流過，他抬起的手軟綿綿地搭在我的肩膀，肩上的那份觸感，讓我憶起了屬於那掌心的暖意。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkP8RGNkYg
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LTBEjJ7b4
是啊……在我和清漣相遇的冰冷細雨中，他就是用這隻手這樣撫摸我的臉龐，喚醒了我……417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJU519IQVi
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VxjP7qufy
我微微發燙的手掌輕撫他臉龐的暖熱及紅暈，望進那一汪清澈見底的眼眸，不自覺地向下沉溺…….417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbv1DiUrtW4
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJo2w0mLpNE
「漪舟？清漣怎麼了嗎？」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7GljjtB88
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOd9eXqhuFv
涓兒的呼喊像一盆冷水猛然淋在我頭上，我趕緊起身從清漣身上離開，故作鎮定地說道：「沒什麼，只是清漣醉倒了，稍微看看他的情況而已。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡim4lo5541z
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PobXiYbH4
「那樣啊……」涓兒此時立於敞開的門邊，她遲疑的語氣和疑惑的目光像是對我的拷問，冷白的月光從她身後溜進暖紅的喜房，一股涼意突然竄上我的背脊，悄悄滲出冷汗。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9P1Iwz0J3
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKLG82dogf
走進來的涓兒手提一壺醒酒茶，斟了一杯捧在我面前，柔聲說道：「漪洀，你剛剛也喝多了，不如也喝杯茶解解醉吧。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjx1pIpHvEl
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYruozDTXBf
「不用了，給清漣喝就好，我這就先離開了。」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFxJwFsNG7
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEbp1npdug
心虛的我大步逃出那間喜房，夜晚寒涼的空氣立刻侵襲了我，讓我徹徹底底從方才那旖旎溫暖的溫柔鄉清醒過來，墜回現實的孤寂中。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNF1lbqMk5A
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqIsO0buNC
不知不覺，我已經如一抹幽魂獨自踏上水岸棧橋。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1umefQbf95
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADff26IZzA
這裡是我最初與清漣相遇之地，也是以前我跟清漣常常來玩的地方，我們總是一起在這裡赤著雙腳踩著水，漫無邊際地說著故事，再數著水邊的蓮花開了幾朵……417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGA2KU7eeXS
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3MQmuQJ8A
啊啊……即使到了這裡，我的心思仍被清漣的一切所佔據。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHSdrIgmKw
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkN7Ueye4g
今夜，是我一生中最迷醉的時候，也是我最清醒的時候。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkwzOAXAcb
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaKNtJypga
藉由酒醉的迷亂，拋開理智及教條的約制，我才得以探觸魂靈深處最原初的慾念與情感。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnF9oT478c4
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVP5v3b060N
從以前到現在，清漣的一顰一笑令我的目光緊緊追隨，清漣的一舉一動讓我的心緒為之起伏，還有清漣和涓兒在一起之後，那深扎於心的棘刺所帶來的苦悶痛楚。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkNde6KKlK
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebvcrlOvf9
如今，我才明白這背後所蘊藏的深深情愛。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzNWl0f75C
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然而，這份清醒的明白令我幾乎無法承受……417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVF3eW50SFs
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwNAZq5fNQ
我無力地雙膝跪地，發洩宛如嘶吼的哭喊，我的心及身體全被掏空，只剩一副孑然無依的空殼，陷溺於這漫長無盡的淒苦寒夜。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWB6bdHtkd
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eKBWIXdBF
「唉呦！真是孽障啊孽障……」417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1h90A7aZHm
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4PfAHnNsN
清漣以細軟聲調說演的這段台詞猶在耳畔，當時聽來只覺得是荒唐可笑的無稽之談，如今卻是對我的絕大諷刺。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCQ7Rp7kSn
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlckFkDc68
孽障啊，真是孽障啊，到底是從什麼時候開始的？我已經無從釐清，只明白它已經內化成我魂靈的絕大部份。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCT0NDWHvU
417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLRAQKt80i
這份悖逆天理倫常的深沉情愛，就連慈悲為懷的法華大仙也無法接納的吧。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAcCveaqEz
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但即使是驚世駭俗的魔障冤孽，是近乎絕望痛苦的得不到，我也無法將它割捨。417Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0nehksCrZ
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我聆聽淙淙流水拉長了夜的寂寥，失魂的目光飄向夜裡依然開得淨雅的蓮花，祈望著法華大仙的肉身化育的法蓮，能渡化我這一生的孽障，即便要帶走我的魂靈，我也心甘情願……
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