AMARA pov :
After dropping Mona off at her school, I headed toward my college.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfnMsEDd0C
It stood tall and wide—an old building with modern patches, alive with chatter and movement.
I entered through the main gate, the cold air brushing past my cheeks as I walked slowly across the ground.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTzdciLm9I
Students were scattered all around—laughing, walking in groups, some rushing in panic, some half-asleep.
I watched them quietly.
My steps felt heavy .16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntGhT0JV45
I passed the garden, then the notice board, and finally reached my building.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRhUFJmGu2
Inside, the hallway buzzed with voices and footsteps echoing off the walls.
I made my way to my classroom, and just as I reached the door, the bell rang.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qcugf3Aa8
Sharp. Loud. Piercing the sleepy air.
I walked in with the others, our footsteps soft against the tiled floor.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWfq3O6qKB
I headed straight to the last bench—near the window, my usual spot.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe504ZyPRLR
Dropped my bag beside me and sat down, pulling out my notebook and pen.
A moment later, our physics teacher walked in, holding her register close to her chest like always.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyS0WEDg39P
She was strict, but not unfair.
"Roll call first," she said, flipping the pages.
She started calling out names one by one.
"Amara?" she said, her voice echoing slightly in the quiet room.
"Present," I replied, my voice low but clear.
She nodded and continued.
The moment the attendance ended, she turned to the board and began the lecture—some topic on waves and motion.
I opened my notebook and started taking notes.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNzaRoebOc
My handwriting moved across the page almost automatically.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbDh8bnJcv
It was mechanical—like my hands knew what to do even if my mind didn't.
Outside the window, the sun had fully risen, casting soft shadows on the ground.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajgUSMYtCk
The trees swayed gently, and I found myself staring at the sky instead of the board.
My thoughts drifted, slowly and silently.
What am I doing? Where am I heading?16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpIGkKMQFj
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just passing time, or if time is passing me.
I snapped back for a moment when the teacher raised her voice, emphasizing a formula.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkqIHgBCyw
I scribbled it down, then faded again into my own world.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaMxezpsF9
Thinking... feeling... remembering... and sometimes, just empty.
The lectures came and went like pages turning in a book I wasn't reading.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDztjJxYGw
Math. Chemistry. English. . Computer.
Each teacher entered, spoke, and left.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG16AL9iosI
Students laughed, whispered, yawned, scribbled, stared at the clock.
I stayed there.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cEi7gSLD9
On the last bench, near the window.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaSTKCxDQb
Listening, learning... and sometimes, just breathing.
"Oh Amara, did you do your homework?"16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJl7aty8ba5
Jessica's voice reached me—my classmate, the girl who always sat one bench ahead.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3soBfTD2K
I looked up and nodded, quietly handing her my notebook.
"Thanks," she smiled.
I just gave a small smile back.
I think... I barely speak in class.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEMeUnxsOl
I barely exist in the noise.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWux8dwjTE
Sometimes I wonder—do I even have friends?16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fx5mHnkbk
Maybe I do. Maybe I don't.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xiyLWsYfd
Maybe having people around doesn't mean you're not alone.
And if we sit in a room full of laughter and still feel empty—16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNEduWsQtl
Then what's the point of trying so hard to belong?
The lecture ended. The bell rang again. Another hour faded away.
I walked down to the ground, where life felt louder.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaA49HsAacC
The boys were playing football, their shouts echoing, chasing the ball like it meant everything.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeopAIOxdN
The girls stood near the fence, cheering and laughing, waving hands and hair in the cold wind.
I sat on the edge of the grass, arms wrapped around my knees, watching them.
But what was I really watching?
Soon, I wasn't even there anymore.
My thoughts had already taken me somewhere else.
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This world moves fast. Too fast sometimes.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcY4W1abeO
People talk like they've figured it all out.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucyLv3CqOm
How to be happy. How to be successful. How to be strong.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWBFd3LvJ2
But no one tells you what to do when your heart is quiet, and your mind is loud.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeveFiSZiq
No one teaches you how to sit with your own silence and not be scared of it.
Maybe that's why I like this bench. This space. This moment between everything.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbedXcaGtXc
Because here, I'm not pretending. I'm not performing. I'm just... living .. breathing.
The wind picked up slightly.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4e0lq9vRsf
I looked at the sky—my old habit—and let myself just exist in that second.
Nothing made sense.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQ479LvPEj
But for now, I didn't need it to.
god...16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWfoBW2eYu
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Sometimes I wonder... does the world even notice the quiet ones?16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1wYXItxAz
The ones who sit at the edge, not trying to join in, not trying to stand out either.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMdRtVgf69
We exist too, don't we? In the background, in the pauses between noise.
I see people laughing, shouting, running, living so loudly.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXA10Y0Csm
And I sit here... thinking quietly, feeling loudly.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYHcrKjj5M
Is that still living?
Jessica walked past with her friends. She waved, and I gave a tiny nod.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2QrhXpN6d
She was kind.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGF4cA6bJ83
But kindness doesn't always reach where loneliness lives.
I stayed a little longer. Watching the wind play with the edges of scarves.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAD4gxekoZ
The way the football kept rolling.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzdcUL5q29
The way voices blurred into noise
Why does everything feel like it's moving without me?16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQNPHWxlqu
Like the world is spinning and I'm just... watching from the outside of a glass window.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeDiJDyAoy
I laugh sometimes, I speak when needed. I exist.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZD5eM53r8
But do I live?
Maybe I'm not made for noise. Maybe I was always meant for silence.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwZT8Oawyu
Not sad. Not broken. Just... quiet
The bell rang, sharp and familiar.
Everyone moved quickly—some annoyed, some laughing, some still trying to finish snacks.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJe95LinSQ
I stood up slowly, brushed my skirt gently ...
Back inside the building, it was crowded again.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibt0n7qhv7
Voices echoed. Someone ran past. Someone cursed the timetable.
I walked quietly to my next class.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjZQBAQhIH
Same bench. Same corner. Same silence.
The teacher came in and began reading a poem.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PZUUqJdvP
Her voice was soft, flowing with words that meant more than what they said.
I opened my notebook.
Wrote the title.
And stared at the page for a moment.
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"It's strange how words written by someone else can sometimes feel like they belong to you.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWg6Kt896Oi
Like they've seen your heart before you did"16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXNAx76Roz
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soon i was walking to go back __home ...home.__home.
I opened the front door and stepped inside, closing it softly behind me.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuGVLeSujd
The air was warm. Familiar.
Mona was already home, still in her school uniform, sitting cross-legged on the couch—watching Friends, again.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVlv4877eW
The sound of canned laughter filled the room.
"Change your clothes," I said, placing my bag on the table.
She looked back at me with a small smile. "In a minute."
I raised my brow slightly. "You said that yesterday."
"I'll go. Promise," she mumbled, eyes still glued to the screen.
I walked into the kitchen.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3v1wNDKNI
On the fridge, taped neatly, was a small piece of paper.
I leaned in and read it.
"I made rice. Eat it, girls. See ya soon. Bye. Love you. — Mom."
Her handwriting was rushed, like always.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepcbAAcXMo
I stared at it for a second, then sighed quietly.
"She's at work again?" I asked, turning my head.
Mona nodded from the couch. "Double shift again. I told you yesterday, remember?"
"Right..." I whispered, pulling open the rice pot.
I served myself a small plate and sat at the table, eating slowly.
"You ate already?" I asked, glancing toward Mona.
"Yeah. Right after school. I was starving."
I just nodded. The spoon clinked softly against the plate as I finished my food in silence.
Afterward, I got up, washed my plate and hers too. The water was warm, steam rising gently from the sink.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RLGUMNtYV
The kitchen light flickered once, but stayed on.
I dried my hands and walked up to my room.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wHsSuujbw
Changed out of my uniform.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQJA7uVe95
Pulled on black pants, a plain white top, and layered my long brown coat over it.
Standing in front of the mirror, I tied my hair again__my vision on the mirror is also tired my almond eyes hollow from inside my face pale..skinny like there is no soul.
Before leaving, I peeked into the living room. Mona had finally changed, now curled up in fresh pajamas with a notebook open beside her.
"I'm going now," I said softly.
She looked up. "Okay. Be careful."
"Lock the door after me, and do your homework. No skipping tonight."
"I know, I know," she said, waving her pencil lazily.
I slipped into my shoes, grabbed my bag, and stepped outside.16Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XBvmlwnsg
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