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—嗯，我過得超～好
「我沒事。」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4riCVsnrz
「⋯⋯我超好的。」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKJSwRFkHB
約莫三坪的黑暗中，兩根細長的手指伴隨一段低沉而無力的女聲，在僅有的光源上緩慢移動著。
—說出來你可能不信
幾筆墨黑躍然而出。
—我最近做什麼都超順的欸！9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQah1iR8yg
—每天起床都很莫名很有精神9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFutkrj8qAl
—買東西都剛好會遇到不太需要排隊的時段9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchiTtRM270
—喔對也不會有沒貨的問題
咑咑咑
—所以不要跟我說什麼是因為賣完了才沒人9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfjtbJ7r9h
—還有很多9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLF3qxkPUzb
—像是要趕時間的時候大部分不會遇到紅燈9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPc7pyV6hW
—通勤的時候不太塞車9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM09yDuHllV
—打字的時候不太需要選字審字9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVS3nsoPpo
—還有很多其他9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz668917BYw
—反正就是
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—不只事情都確實按著計畫走9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FyDnrPMVa
—還有很多意外的小確幸9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlMzh8bz8x
—房東太太也很好相處9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWL3c9xHIDG
—你知道9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTC0vCEaTd
—這種便利的小幸運真的是9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqozkmCICPX
—可遇不可求9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsJGhTtUhW
—所以我最近心情真的9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbUncxl0KT
—超好！
咑
「哈哈⋯噗哈哈哈哈⋯⋯⋯咳咳咳⋯」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxokIRdTqLn
幾滴嫣紅的狂笑自嘴角流出，敲擊聲再次響起。
咑咑咑
—然後公司裡啊9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkqSpRu8NM
—大家人都9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0PKZv6mxd
—該怎麼說9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4WWynxPE2
—看起來有點難親近的同事實際上是那種外冷內熱的類型9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpgHRZReh9
—開始變熟了之後9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkALDrPoLy
—發現不只很好說話
咑咑咑
—樂於助人9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsIWJlPqi3
—對大家都很貼心
「⋯很貼心，熱心助人⋯⋯」一坨沾染著幾許赭紅的衛生紙被丟出床外。
—而且主管人也很好9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBuGOtgJlp
—架子不高，很有責任感9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEZedKTgib
—不會一直讓人覺得很壓迫9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSw7pk31TFs
—也不會亂塞一堆無理的工作然後當甩手掌櫃9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFH2SsE6iCT
—而且⋯⋯
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⋯⋯陸陸續續又打了兩分鐘後，敲擊聲再次唐突地停了下來。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvNbrn1tLb
她看著螢幕，陷入沉默。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡakUINgpPKK
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褪下包裹著的厚重棉被，揮開旁邊成堆的衛生紙，她托起身子，走近梳妝台。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIUCNs1RQV
稍顯陳舊的白花藤椅在她的拉扯下發出一聲尖銳叫喊，但她不予理會，徑直坐下。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwxN55SPRl
「哼哼哼～」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhaSFhiWgTS
一段不知名的旋律輕巧地推開發紫的薄唇，墜落在無光的空虛之中。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvowYz3EfZ
她拍上化妝水，開始上妝。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2y3pDCBmJk
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「哼哼哼～咳咳⋯⋯」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnYtxlKks6
一邊扯開喉嚨，盡可能模仿著她那淒美的樂聲，我看著她一步一步完成商業用妝容，開始梳理自己深褐色的長髮。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZGlpoN0hS
琥珀色的扁梳不發一語，輕柔而無聲地帶走了一絲又一絲，渲上幾點鏽斑的棕髮。剩餘的髮絲被撥到右肩上，襯出頸部那圈靛色的瘀青。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhboy4v4ic
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這不是我第一次看她上妝了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDqRg2MEro
但不管幾次，總覺得有哪裡不太滿意。
是配色不太好嗎？9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFnbYcKuZ5
眼影太深了嗎？9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhta3X8mlq
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底妝太飽和了嗎？9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13jXLD1YSf
還是真的只是感覺問題？不過我們最近都還是跟以前一樣心情都不錯欸？9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuDJcsgFcn
⋯⋯總之，我不太清楚。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4cg7UIRde
或者說，我一直都沒搞清楚。
我們對視了許久，她看起來似乎也覺得哪裡不太滿意。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2j7W5lo50
⋯⋯看來是「我們」都沒搞清楚。
「咳咳⋯換身衣服好了⋯⋯」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLmVJu062j
幾聲嘶啞傳出，她轉過身去，扶著略微搖晃的白花藤椅，撐起身子緩步邁進。賣力地推開沿途的障礙物，小心避開路上的垃圾、藥丸、藥片，玻璃，塑膠碎片⋯⋯然後抵達衣櫃前，再使勁拉開櫃門。
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⋯⋯吱咿——
仔細淘選出幾件發皺的連身裙裝，她轉回來，比對著問我。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8aqPSGAv3
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「這件怎麼樣？」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhrPtBVqwQ
我搖搖頭。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFDIBrXe4k
那是她前幾年穿去聯誼的藍白相間的高腰洋裝，現在已經不適合她了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nh7KdWCYZ
我看見她也搖了搖頭，轉過去提起另一件。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31KqxTplEY
「咳咳⋯這件⋯咳⋯呢？」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYFvk3GHNR
我搖搖頭。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZe9Ufvjpa
拜託，現在是夏天欸，沒什麼特殊需求的話穿著深色長裙難免不妥吧？妳不熱，我光看著也很熱。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0ER7dOiHp
嘛，不過我們不怎麼出門就是了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7y3MadDyt
她似乎愣了一下，但隨即也搖了搖頭，又轉過去提起另一件來。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsRkqiqJCq
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就這樣一來一往，我們最終相中了一件白底黑點，V領的綁帶洋裝。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkd1ViV508
雖說依舊是有點差強人意，但能從那堆東西裡翻出這麼一件來已經是不可多求的奇蹟了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8UqhDwbBy
正所謂「可遇不可求」嘛。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OJYs0Xonx
「噗呵⋯」我們相視而笑。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnzzezPGFX
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換完衣服，她再次拉開藤椅，坐了下來，邊整理梳妝台，邊哼起那段不知名的旋律。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SSKV2r9PD
我也有樣學樣，幫著整理那些瓶瓶罐罐，同時慢慢唱了起來。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUiiB4yht4
經過剛剛的琢磨，這次已經沒那麼痛了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5RzaEceV7
雖然偶爾還是會咳個幾下，但沒差，擦擦就好。
「哼哼哼～」
Alprazolam、Estazolam、Triazolam、Chlordiazepoxide、Lorazepam⋯⋯9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzC8WMtKhe
在無數不認識的單字中，我看見她特別挑了幾瓶出來，打開後如品茶般輕嗅了幾下，又蓋了回去。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdpm7slreG
也不知道是為什麼，她從去年開始⋯也許是前年？便開始四處購買這樣的藥品。
我知道那些是什麼，而她也知道。
⋯⋯看著她一罐接著一罐，讓蓋回去的藥瓶自然落下。我突然一股怒氣湧上，憤然將梳妝台上所有瓶瓶罐罐一把推開，瞬息之間，整個空間迴響起清澈的共鳴。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydgu5FUHi4
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喔對，這是我近幾年聽過最悅耳的聲音。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDw2RL3elB
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哐啷！9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdz0V7BTPyi
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我在鐵紅色的梳妝台上揀選著，9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKhpJDbS8y
不，不是你。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3J59DGr7Z
不是你⋯9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gb0mPWaeY
不是你⋯⋯9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjgmpxzwy8
我說了不是你！！！！！！！！！！！9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbl39WOZHFB
⋯⋯
砰！！！
我奮力將藤椅往窗邊一甩。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrRoeT79sR
可惜不知是手勁太小還是方向不對，它只是撞上了衣櫃，落在垃圾堆間。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03MvTof71O
我回過頭。
喔⋯對⋯⋯9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp097wsP98o
你很不錯。
拿起地上的一把美工刀，我輕輕推出刀片，架在她的腕部。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWQLxvuI7w
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呼吸9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLqRXnpn44
越來越急促9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpezb3afTZD
就是9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5W5iCf5Jy8
現在！9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFDP6Qj43V
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「叮鈴—叮鈴—叮鈴—」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhkTj4dyhT
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⋯鬧鐘響了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0CRGAZNfn
她走向床頭，按下了鬧鐘。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6bWpJ763K
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我們四目相交。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OwoqoNak8
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「該吃藥了。」我說。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqYJTG6GLF
「該吃藥了。」她回答道。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUegK875mF
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我撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一顆橢圓的藥丸。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgBLSSRmvR
她撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一片雪白的藥片。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeGfTymhb9
我們交互著彼此的工作，服下藥物。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgoI4XbiQT
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按時用藥是很重要的，我想。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HzxSqO7aq
她應該也這麼覺得。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzuOLCU8RZ
⋯⋯不，她必須這麼覺得。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZ2TDJEwNV
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我走到窗邊搬回藤椅，在梳妝台前輕輕放下，坐在那裡，輕哼著不知名的旋律。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtF5DMzmI9
她兩手提起嘴角，看向我。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16l8vheBBw
再次，我們對視，然後輕笑了一聲。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4ugvzG5Kf
「不用難過。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfXVxZ0cOC
不用生氣。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTubjo0WHz
不用委屈。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5VBcJSYVy
不用憤慨。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLd8uVvQUj
今天又是美好的一天。」9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySnc8loAw7
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