東風吹斜雨絲,淡粉色的櫻花花瓣隨風盤旋飄落,鋪於石磚小徑上。男人穿著藕粉色的尖領襯衫,幾乎要被整片同色調的花海吞沒。他低低打著傘,視線貼著傘緣投來。252Please respect copyright.PENANAZYBSeDhAjr
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「嘉鈞哥哥,下雨了。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAEIjp3eNfcL
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男人聲音低沉,身材也相比過往厚實,卻又用往昔的暱稱叫他。252Please respect copyright.PENANAF3hxbySXdm
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雨霧瀰漫的春。又是這樣的春日。252Please respect copyright.PENANAnpivuTHc3e
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「吳詠青,你過來。」252Please respect copyright.PENANA8WK7rLg9h0
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唐嘉鈞毫無緣由地害怕。252Please respect copyright.PENANA8GLbw4HEfv
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一片沾著雨水的櫻花花瓣飄落,沾黏在唐嘉鈞的手背上。接著是第二片、第三片⋯⋯花瓣不斷落下,每當他伸手摘取,又有更多濕搭搭地貼著他不放。252Please respect copyright.PENANAgWkLU1SmOt
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很快,唐嘉鈞便近乎看不見自己的膚色了。252Please respect copyright.PENANAea89s3FThR
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他心中頓感慌張,於是連忙朝吳詠青走近。252Please respect copyright.PENANAz4cJskMSzV
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霎時,一陣狂風吹來,將吳詠青手上的傘吹落。他用傘遮著的上半張臉暴露在唐嘉鈞眼前,光潔飽滿的前額被一道醒目的傷口劃破,鮮紅的血液自裂縫湧出,啪嗒啪嗒地順著臉龐流下。252Please respect copyright.PENANABUPeg2gxmq
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他抬起雙手,手上濕潤的觸感不是什麼花瓣,而是滿手的血。252Please respect copyright.PENANAj9rAlyD5lT
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「靠⋯⋯」252Please respect copyright.PENANA0Jq2vd65wV
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床頭櫃上沒擰緊的保溫瓶傾倒,流出的水滴滴答答地弄濕枕頭,以及唐嘉鈞的頰側與掌心,他被驚醒,遂起身收拾水瓶和散落的安眠藥片。252Please respect copyright.PENANAUAczXh2PLg
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恐懼自夢裡蔓生,身旁似乎還纏繞著驅之不散的雨霧。唐嘉鈞坐在床緣,發覺自己的衣服也被浸濕了,是後背的冷汗所致。252Please respect copyright.PENANAm7cOF2uRsI
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他拉開窗簾,天色尚未飽和。他放輕腳步走進客廳裡,將電視打開,熟練地一口氣將音量調到最低,避免吵醒他的同居人。252Please respect copyright.PENANAwkRkOhwQhS
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唐嘉鈞,二十八歲,單身,立法委員參選人。他的同居人仍然是兒時的玩伴、他的好朋友吳詠青。252Please respect copyright.PENANAKq0Ula5XVP
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「新換的安眠藥如何?」252Please respect copyright.PENANA7iZXoYMOD5
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「很好,白天不再想睡了。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAgh7Juxre3e
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「那這次就開一樣的喔。」252Please respect copyright.PENANADZ7vhIzdrs
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唐嘉鈞坐在診間的椅子上,眼神不經意投向手錶數次,長期看診的心理醫生注意到他異常的舉止,開口問道:252Please respect copyright.PENANA0ldRgiThUU
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「唐先生今天趕時間嗎?後面還有行程?」252Please respect copyright.PENANA5Z4LFMNDVQ
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「有,但是不趕,時間很充裕。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAmocqe1YB2S
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唐嘉鈞默默將雙手擺到桌下,克制著不再去看手錶。252Please respect copyright.PENANAzu4ZjdGYN4
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「白天不再想睡了,但是經常做夢。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAFFa5q8nIzI
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「做惡夢嗎?」252Please respect copyright.PENANAs0vZznWjW6
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「也不總是惡夢。」但是都關於同一個人——唐嘉鈞沒有說出口。252Please respect copyright.PENANALkM9t0nvtq
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「這樣啊,有可能是藥物影響⋯⋯」醫生正思索著要不要再換藥,唐嘉鈞倒是先自己決定了:252Please respect copyright.PENANAuxXdhzFK7B
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「不是什麼大問題,請您照著上次的開就好了。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAb3xuUt5VcF
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這房子裡住著兩個睡眠障礙患者,吳詠青是從小就有這老問題,唐嘉鈞則是從參選開始壓力遽增,而開始出現失眠的症狀。252Please respect copyright.PENANAwulth3u1Fn
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根據醫囑,要改善睡眠障礙,必須養成規律的生活作息,規律地每天在同一個時段就寢。252Please respect copyright.PENANAx41LWGtoP5
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一點了,唐嘉鈞拆封剛拿到的藥袋,卻遲遲不服下安眠藥,只是坐在沙發上心不在焉地看著電視上重播的政論節目。252Please respect copyright.PENANAaxO3dYTlYx
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因為吳詠青還沒回家,也不接電話。252Please respect copyright.PENANAGeu2bYFnrr
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直到一點半,門鈴響了。252Please respect copyright.PENANA4ERFGJzGlS
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門鈴?吳詠青是忘了帶鑰匙才按門鈴嗎?唐嘉鈞奇怪地想。252Please respect copyright.PENANAXIYxuDCp1W
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「打擾了,唐先生您好。我是吳董的助理洪銘安,我送吳董回來,可以請您幫忙開個門嗎?」對講機裡陌生男人的聲音著急地說道。252Please respect copyright.PENANAkOHjZJFJnQ
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對講機裡傳來另一個氣急敗壞的聲音。252Please respect copyright.PENANA7whOYniImw
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「唐嘉鈞這時間都睡了,我就跟你說我有鑰匙!」252Please respect copyright.PENANAe87CirRIRK
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「吳董,這是車鑰匙啊⋯⋯插不進去的⋯⋯」252Please respect copyright.PENANArRZwOpsy0U
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唐嘉鈞急忙開了門,長相老實的陌生男人正聽話地用車鑰匙嘗試打開唐嘉鈞的家門,吳詠青滿臉通紅,站也站不直,只能勾著男人的肩膀,將整個人的重量倚靠於對方,臉則埋在對方肩上。252Please respect copyright.PENANAeA2u7aGY1d
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門一開,唐嘉鈞黑了臉,但是洪銘安卻好像看到救星一般,雙眼發光。252Please respect copyright.PENANA8JOZVoTzMk
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「唐先生⋯⋯」252Please respect copyright.PENANAQhjUcBOftk
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「交給我吧。」252Please respect copyright.PENANA7Lm0uxEQJc
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「銘安,我真的想吐⋯⋯」吳詠青還賴在洪銘安身上,睡眼惺忪地揉著眼睛,看到唐嘉鈞,居然變得橫眉豎目:252Please respect copyright.PENANAWKg6yimkIj
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「唐嘉鈞,都一點多了為什麼你還沒睡覺?你要學著規律作息啊!」252Please respect copyright.PENANAjXffjUy92r
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唐嘉鈞的太陽穴猛然一抽,他忍住揍吳詠青一頓的衝動,轉向洪銘安問話。252Please respect copyright.PENANA7QKfpt8rq3
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「他吐了?」252Please respect copyright.PENANAOXorCNBh7E
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「沒吐,就是一直喊想吐。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAHy83Sh6Pvf
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洪銘安趕緊抽身,讓唐嘉鈞接手無法獨立站穩的吳詠青。唐嘉鈞雖然有禮貌地向他道謝數次,但眼神完全沒有笑意。252Please respect copyright.PENANAM2cs6XTWB0
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助理小洪好擔心吳董被家暴。252Please respect copyright.PENANAzXSXVMDJ0w
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事實上,唐嘉鈞並沒有家暴他的竹馬,反而小心地攙扶他坐到沙發上,再脫去他的鞋襪和西裝外套。252Please respect copyright.PENANAd7JNQwTlCm
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「我去給你泡蜂蜜水。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAreBc7p2fUo
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「等等,我想吐⋯⋯」252Please respect copyright.PENANA4kJgvjSq3s
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「要不要我幫你催吐?吐出來會舒服一點。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAonkWvHDbRR
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「好。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAyOp5BmVW4u
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他倆剛移動到浴室,不必唐嘉鈞幫忙,吳詠青便自己爬到馬桶前,唏哩嘩啦地吐了。252Please respect copyright.PENANAtdBe0vZnUb
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「應酬需要喝那麼醉?」252Please respect copyright.PENANAm17yuNgRai
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吳詠青手腳癱軟,倚靠在浴室冰冷的磁磚上,顯然很不舒服,眼框都紅了一圈,唐嘉鈞於心不忍地將他攬進懷裡。252Please respect copyright.PENANAo9PkQ9hPDu
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「需要啊,不然我又不喜歡酒精。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAWmAj1PRU0N
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唐嘉鈞背起癱坐的吳詠青回房,途中腳步踉蹌了一下。252Please respect copyright.PENANAmHsP80eBuX
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「很重?」252Please respect copyright.PENANAFOTbbpp5Zh
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「你雖然很輕,但你肩頭上的擔子太重了。我們吳董真是太了不起了。」252Please respect copyright.PENANA178DrhvaHz
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「哪比得上唐候選人呢?」252Please respect copyright.PENANAC5c7SfxX6P
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兩人一如既往地打著嘴砲。252Please respect copyright.PENANA91qpf6w981
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唐嘉鈞為吳詠青掖好被角,轉暗了檯燈,「好好休息。」252Please respect copyright.PENANA8rQ81LaQvu
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「唐嘉鈞,小洪要結婚了。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAiCrH3JZreD
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在唐嘉鈞轉身離開前,吳詠青突然開口了。252Please respect copyright.PENANA2hYoJmjZNB
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「你記得雷品承嗎?他最近也要結婚了。」252Please respect copyright.PENANA6EVgfr0nF7
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「喔,記得啊。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAFvDRB861e0
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唐嘉鈞當然記得雷品承,記得十年前的春日去陽明山賞櫻,記得一個吻落在吳詠青眨動的眼皮——記得他親手拍下,然後吳詠青被迫出櫃,被砸得頭破血流。記得青春期,記得一切始末記得一切震顫,記得日子如何過。252Please respect copyright.PENANAGRknC1GEec
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因為記得,所以夜夜在夢裡搬演。252Please respect copyright.PENANAq4Mz5PyIde
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「那你呢?你打算幾歲要結婚?」252Please respect copyright.PENANAKwCmx3xmWx
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夜夜在唐嘉鈞夢裡出現的男人向他問。252Please respect copyright.PENANAukN5Av44WQ
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「⋯⋯我不知道。」252Please respect copyright.PENANA04sbyeT71G
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他真的不知道。252Please respect copyright.PENANA7uzDljT8ZO
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「什麼時候能輪到我結婚呢?」252Please respect copyright.PENANAqSwn8HfbcC
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「同性戀又不能結婚。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAasHFnc9GNb
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「我知道啊。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAFfQPQI0vBv
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喝醉的吳詠青彷彿特別脆弱,聲音已經染上了哭腔。252Please respect copyright.PENANAO1fzUUEE14
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「我以為小洪也是gay,但他今天跟我請了婚假。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAyBx09p6rki
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說著,吳詠青的臉埋得越來越低,直到嗚咽聲也被埋進被子裡。唐嘉鈞則想起他打開家門,看到吳詠青把臉埋在洪銘安肩膀,像親人的貓咪一樣的蹭著洪銘安。252Please respect copyright.PENANAiZrCTHgvka
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「我不想找一個女人假結婚,我想要真的跟男人結婚。我也想要被愛啊。」252Please respect copyright.PENANA70tjyEc1zg
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吳詠青喜歡洪助理,然後他要結婚了,所以吳詠青才喝得那麼醉?252Please respect copyright.PENANATwFfLT6TIY
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唐嘉鈞知道自己應該拍拍他的背、溫聲安慰眼前的男人,但手腳卻因發冷而微顫,無法受到支配。252Please respect copyright.PENANAbzznfZ5dgp
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他想回答,你的家人愛你,但又清楚吳詠青的家庭狀況太過複雜。252Please respect copyright.PENANAhAjxNbvLlm
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於是他說了:「我愛你啊。」252Please respect copyright.PENANALq3XLWWK8e
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「那不一樣啊,唐嘉鈞,那不一樣。」吳詠青的肩頭一抽一抽,「我們是最好的朋友。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAO83AKlyT9E
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唐嘉鈞只能乾巴巴地說,「有一天你會被愛,你可以辦婚禮,如果你們想要,你可以收養小孩。如果你收養小孩,我就當乾爸。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAlXJ0xHtVCw
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吳詠青還是把自己埋在被子裡,悶悶地又問了一次。252Please respect copyright.PENANAtj27OByrfW
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「那你呢?你想要幾歲結婚?」252Please respect copyright.PENANAOxEdOkwmcL
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「我沒有結婚的對象。等我需要結婚的時候,就結婚吧。」252Please respect copyright.PENANAct8G9eUggc
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唐嘉鈞苦笑,爾後沈默。252Please respect copyright.PENANApiHbtDujLk
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半晌,吳詠青的呼吸漸趨平穩,他終於不敵酒意昏沉地失去意識。而直到唐嘉鈞的前襟也被浸濕了,他都沒有發出哭泣的聲音,只是任淚滴無聲地落下。252Please respect copyright.PENANAOiV7pVyWLl
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【作者的話】252Please respect copyright.PENANAcsspk2sgqQ
順帶一提詠青現在是懷榮金控的子公司「懷榮創投」的董事XD(也有持股)現在兩個人已經28囉
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