they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,274Please respect copyright.PENANAMwThHD28jB
all in the same breath with no hesitation.274Please respect copyright.PENANAmCJ73xKXbf
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later274Please respect copyright.PENANAaS0lny0fVT
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.274Please respect copyright.PENANA4Dav8Jrx3V
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,274Please respect copyright.PENANAdSUswd44I3
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s274Please respect copyright.PENANAbdspgHKP1i
but in the end they still withhold dinner,274Please respect copyright.PENANAdqkviZSWUK
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.274Please respect copyright.PENANABkeCLDzufU
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals274Please respect copyright.PENANAVHeyPps1sJ
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.274Please respect copyright.PENANAovwR2H1F9t
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch274Please respect copyright.PENANAxXntunk7Mj
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.274Please respect copyright.PENANAmSvflUCbGY
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,274Please respect copyright.PENANA14bzZwgiL7
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.274Please respect copyright.PENANAvWQzV36KcM
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief274Please respect copyright.PENANAH7xIsj9Mun
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.274Please respect copyright.PENANArVyCyVccrl
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",274Please respect copyright.PENANAhMDYZuuYTf
said it was all mental and to just stop274Please respect copyright.PENANAuMvchzgtJa
but it was habits formed out of pent up274Please respect copyright.PENANAvqyPlJ6JFz
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.274Please respect copyright.PENANAjPfgUKjvw8
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they said it was all in my mind,274Please respect copyright.PENANAcFcylnaisf
the anxiety, the stress.274Please respect copyright.PENANA9azjNyMN2n
that i had a happy, loving family274Please respect copyright.PENANAta8UEzUYeb
and i was perfectly fine.274Please respect copyright.PENANA6sJSV5XtBa
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i'm not.274Please respect copyright.PENANAdJu7lMP5Br
i'm drowning in my own blood274Please respect copyright.PENANAFVsrXKqpAK
and choking on my tongue274Please respect copyright.PENANAaCFIxL8sfO
when i try to say so.274Please respect copyright.PENANAEXUp1V4unu
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...274Please respect copyright.PENANAMM4xap71u0
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(it's all in my mind.274Please respect copyright.PENANAPTiFklBXX8
every last drop of anxiety,274Please respect copyright.PENANA4SNI7AhCAX
i have a happy, loving family.274Please respect copyright.PENANANHaNlrbbOT
i'm perfectly fine.)274Please respect copyright.PENANAytx1wnH57i