《赤足的庭院》（2）98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pgJeBOB11
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fQNm0Equz
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOuXz9Ctpk
00398Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFtPth4x8w
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfwXk4T7va
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3m2mGMfmf1
我對故鄉的印象僅僅是印象。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GZbotpZVn
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozEj2XA0oB
因為那裡的事物並不是被人實務性的記憶下來，而是作為更不完全的東西，留在心底的某些角落。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEVwrvuQF3
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFHQym6OR3
我記得潮水的味道和海浪等聲音，沙子的觸感，樹梢下刮起的微風，夜晚時絕對黑暗的地面，和成為那個時間裡唯一存在事物的星和月。魚腥味、油輪的廢氣、風雨來的時候，所感到的恐懼。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bxdj571VT
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB37liQAR4h
我的故鄉作為一個印象，我記錄在腦中，知道自己總有一天會以某個型式的遠離它。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqesCIRCzqB
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfedOhWSRX0
但那不是指現在。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcrtJ9OtNx
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7YyZbtXOK
就算獨自一人逃到台北，看過了城市鮮豔的夜色，耳裡塞滿城市的吐和吸，我還是知道，自己並沒有真正的遠離故鄉。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8UXYZiuT5
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXHx2us5kU
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvwcd2kaIS
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfluIfuuow
「嗯⋯⋯可以問你的名字嗎？」小舫姐說她昨晚沒能睡著。在平常的那張餐桌上，她癱軟的用雙手撐著臉。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsbXoJSWro
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyxyhwy1Ux
我一邊解釋著自己的事，一邊看著她疲累的試著聽進我所說的。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpb6GCezGxN
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPn2kE9FLXh
看她渴望睡眠的樣子，我感到有些內疚。她睡不好大概就是因為我。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwq0ZgJB6T
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTt7FhMXaa
昨晚，小舫姐讓我暫時待在她家借住一晚。公寓的房間很小，只有一張床鋪。我原本堅持要睡地板，不過被她拒絕了：「落到這副德性的人少跟我客氣。」。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnm253boQf4
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlV7eIbqoW
多了一個人在床上，一定很不習慣。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJpdj1xcC5
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAjqcPRmM6
但是昨晚，還好我實在是筋疲力盡，不然大概會整夜無法入睡。年紀的問題。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByvDIVQYOr
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPNsmMYxY1
「李靜。」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlxxJI6Z5V
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjNT3cNYDL
「噢，好娘。李靖或是李欽不是更適合男孩子嗎？」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOl7t3r4HZ
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNPghTEKcw
「⋯⋯」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUPze4QLud
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vG1RbTXSO
「不過還好。要是是李靖或是李欽的話，昨天晚上我大概就危險嘍。」我說。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfZWqk8Uag
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3eT8MdsLs
「哈⋯⋯」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KwlfQ6rqX
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7fUIwjeIw
當然，昨晚的我本來就沒有對他抱著任何期待。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgT2QZhfEb
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtaoVN8vS3
只是回想起來，那確實是很荒謬的決定。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpEMvmgFEN
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JxghCIhxR
「一個23歲的女人，讓16的陌生少年上了自己的床鋪。」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQZmM08MSD
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxlkulJ7mF
寫成文字或是作為台詞被唸出來，大概都不會影響它的離譜。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCz9P1v5YP1
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDu9bzUwn43
「那麼，李靜。你打算就這麼住下來嗎？」她問，十分嚴肅的。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQsoq2Ylhw
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdK9emNmJEI
我搖搖頭。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PZ4KaTUR4
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQXvfq7NSv
「靠著你偷出來的錢，青年旅館還能住多久呢？要是在那之前，你依然不想回到自己的故鄉，你打算怎麼辦？」還不想，的話。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnXQBcdtYU
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMib0ZrDVO
面前的少年低著頭，一語不發。我大概知道他在思考著什麼。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeGhjsoBJL
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF14W2DdIYQ
「我遲早會遠離我的故鄉⋯⋯」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YquCNL5IA
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFIqudhHGM
「但不是由這個方式。對吧？」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBQKUaLT0q
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bp6hTMsgc
「是的，所以⋯⋯」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVq14lnkx3L
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcl4OpPHum
「怎麼辦呢？」這次不是為了捉弄人，她露出溫柔的微笑。「在錢花完之前，你得思考噢。來到這個混亂的場所，你能得到什麼？或是追求什麼。」她說。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOPisAd3hK
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6oLT5yjec
「小舫姐，妳常常離家嗎？」他突然一臉佩服的看著我。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7qq2sBlP8
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7yuVFDVCl
「這是什麼蠢問題？」啊，說錯話了。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoEMEM9GUV
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBf1m8Zs5v
「嗯⋯⋯不是，總感覺妳很熟練的樣子。」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxT97rSYDEB
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD39s9VOdwP
「怎麼可能。」她說。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYuTQMtZuZ
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgj7gRShlwv
然而這是事實。16歲之前，我離家過無數次，每次都是無功而返，只帶回挫折跟疲勞的身體。然後，到了他的這個年紀，我幾乎像是投降了一樣。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcj3QpFLhDG
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsrgCX75r4
好好的準備了考試，盡了全力去考大學。畢業之後也找到了穩定的工作。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtl5UI93kB
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBxINrOh1C
這7年來的生活十分穩定。而且那是不容置疑的正確。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPSLMX0A1I
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEd6VWMMfHp
直到他出現的那天。我再次質疑起自己作的決定。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMR3PMxVri
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEo8P5W9SdK
長時間離開過我的這份自我懷疑又找上門來，然而我絲毫不比之前的自己成熟或是冷靜。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyyjmHN5jZ
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDRL98ehvi
但是看著他，我總有一種感覺。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZM3faAxD6
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hwyOiQYWX
「大概沒問題的。我想⋯⋯。」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObPJll5146
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71jyPHXlPA
沒有理由的，我這麼相信著。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0a7H9YjPAe
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWecJNTYnfE
因為，注視著她時，海嘯和風的呼嘯聲就會從腦袋中消失。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVD0mu87WMa
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyIhdZeDOR
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkRCSjRjlP
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvPKpwIZqo
00498Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWW03fGgS2
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGX74SVLvRi
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBdinTdFKN
「阿靜，你是獨生子嗎？」最近每到中午，她都會走到我身邊，把我從樓下的那個陰暗的角落，帶到樓上的用餐區。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxRsLGYjrq
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXFtF7IWc5
「是啊。」我吃著員工餐，回應的問題。到台北之後，這是我第一次吃到泡麵以外的熱食。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsisBsAKtm
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgsPBYktlU
「好吃嗎？」她用頭指了指我的盤子。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EO4vg72Pg
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJENosE6AY
「嗯，非常美味。」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPdvOnhsKV
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYb97f5dqc
「那就好。」她又塞了一口飯到口中。「你看這個。」她拿出手機。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFDCdHAVMl
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZv4x7bFXr
滑開桌面，她打開某個定期回報全球衛星雲圖的程式。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwsK9WttvI
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyW3KIDG82p
不知道為什麽，程式剛打開所指定的地方是新幾內亞，但是她好像不太在意。說實在話，我也不太在意，我滿腦子在想桌面照片是哪個作家的書。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQvmtiLiVV
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡts38VFaCtC
然後她讓我看了台灣附近。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiO0mHOYIfH
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLS0WQL81uf
「一次來兩個颱風噢，很要命對吧？」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdFVp6gWCJ
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDT1A6JInN
「嗯⋯⋯。」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcwNwsXKDl
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rAZiL2i0T
「可是啊，你看這個。預測路線說，它們會剛剛好⋯⋯像這樣，一個往上、一個往下，躲開台灣噢。」她用手指畫出線條，語氣雀躍的說。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1kxA1s5VR
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjai3cSug1
「真的是這樣就太好了。」他皺著眉頭說。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPWLSTEX9O
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQBn26L49g
肯定沒事的。看到她笑著這麼說，我的心不知為什麼就這麼安心下來了。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WGK0Q93oS
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtX2rvk5c42
我從二樓的圍欄往一樓看，看到不少人離開座位，或是把書本丟在一旁，往樓上來。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkxFyTDhKh
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoHsKxGMGk
離席的人一個個往同一個方向去，每個人離開前的習慣和走路的姿勢、服裝的外型，從腳的移動到眼神，每個人都有所不同，卻做著一樣的事。我很喜歡這幅光景。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe10DKR8rKU
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgtgw6wa5f
「阿靜，獨生子是什麼樣的感覺啊？」我的注意回到她身上。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCInYuA3Mh
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡks7kllkOtD
「什麼？」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVh8XrSUgRo
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCJEsSSb7N
她又問了一次。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7ChuEWBHI
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1DmegcI5w
「啊⋯⋯獨生子啊，不知道，小舫姐不是獨生女嗎？感覺很像啊。」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43nVAkN0sQ
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhrLD3yr36
「什麼意思？」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6ql2Q1A4u
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRs5mTc3yN
「對那種需要一個人鑽研的事物比較感興趣。」孤僻的怪人。我從來沒看見她和其他圖書館員熱絡的交談過，說不定，她在這唯一的朋友就是我了。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpAcKRpgSp
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBaLzrnG7d
「噢，這樣啊⋯⋯還有呢？」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1inle04W3
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpLgnXXtZN
「感覺很有自己的想法。」不顧別人的感受。從來不看場合的捉弄人，不管話題或是氣氛，只要她覺得好玩就好。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdNCjPRUpw
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiF0gOS2UH1
「這樣啊，可是我不是噢。」她笑著說。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdca4pC0Jq8
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSU2IUBKxER
「是嗎？」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWCxBy8QPd
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bLAKjNWvG
「嗯，我有一個弟弟⋯⋯長得跟你很像噢。」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYMkrOFzWy
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JqYM5lnA7
她這麽的同時，皺起眉頭，仔細的觀察的我的五官。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanUHiMrdkx
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9D7qGprhQa
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡno4UiwdH5A
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuAVvQiK2E
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwZsWHjPqO
果然很像。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gr9KyrueE
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphSjLJlTig
午餐時間結束，他作為暫時的圖書館員，整理書架時的那副神情，和弟弟替我收拾行李時的表情一模一樣。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0L40PWBF9
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9t5aq5pEo
那是我第四次的離家出走。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrFyhtk7H9
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluY2EI7kS8
準備離開家門前，剛升國中的弟弟，突然擅自打開我的行李箱。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVIC1FdjQq
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNciZ0pwhry
我害怕會錯過父母不在家的時間，對他斥責了幾句。但是他很冷靜，說要替我檢查。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFk8gpjsBE
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckq6jVInVF
「少了牙膏和食物⋯⋯啊，火車上要看的書呢？姊，妳沒有書活得下去啊？」這時的我，為了大學的志願在鬧家庭革命。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzKFB50Ogg
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOo2MRUP4g
我喜歡文學。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2GvXlQTEY
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1r7oFpwJN5
那個時候，驅動我一切不成熟和自私的動力，都來自這麼一個模糊而膚淺的理由。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpPE7Oi7bG
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAwIqYQWCu
因為這個尚未成形的夢想⋯⋯那個時候，更適合的詞可能是妄想。因為它，我把自己的容身之處給否定了。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuLIe8CKEE
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4Wxv7oC9n
「 我無法待在那個否定我一切的地方。」我那個時候是這麼告訴弟弟的。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YrCDBi33I
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStPhHgqOGt
我看著他替我收拾書本和盥洗用具後，他堅持要送我到車站。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaZFhusKf9
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRTBcnxE20
於是我在車站冷冰冰的塑膠椅上，用極為平淡的語氣對還是國中生的他說。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCgDeiPQZV
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyd2aTxQks1
「嗯⋯⋯從妳的角度來看，待在家裡確實是很痛苦吧。」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQb1CJRCCJm
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58fJ9BCq0T
我沒有說話，於是他繼續說。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLmEoTsMXI
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoVGEuuwjD
「我希望妳能快樂。當然，我也希望爸爸媽媽快樂⋯⋯嗯⋯⋯怎麼辦呢？」他笑著對我說。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgemVNceH6
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY23X8XxqjC
那時的我沒有意識到，他的笑之後有著多麼巨大的重量。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjcYAISz5G
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFazT0Wu2zT
也許因為我，他時時刻刻對自己的存在感到矛盾。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8mTvjf5sc
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpD578tz4iE
但我被自己的夢想遮住了耳，沒能聽出他的求救。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SgmzoCriV
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiRwSgjsQ2
「謝嘍。」搔搔他的頭，我抱住他瘦小的身軀。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5cIRdKzkN
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3S8bYvNXb
「姊⋯⋯早點回來噢。不要餓到肚子。」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32DtroCxmd
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7tBIJpKQX
「嗯，你也是。」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTd4Tx5vR9
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79d3Q8TYNH
我記得，那個冬天，台北第一次下了雪。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUW4i9gvHp
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiuVtOz2G5
雖然是很少、很細的冰線，但那確實，是貨真價實的雪。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAPKfgtUei
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpbrwqA3yu
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOC1BGAuG6x
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLKvAROGou
「小舫姐⋯⋯這個算是小說學術類還是偉人自傳啊？」98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAg0jzUIKg
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8fwPSR6sD
「嗯？我看看噢。」
Penana
search
Loginarrow_drop_down
Registerarrow_drop_down
