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Some of my colleagues 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QU4qT0vYj
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKTZiKPsU1
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CYGaDYqsB
suggestion or hypnosis.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9X1svbAUFc
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTMU1tRQqF
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡst4YRSBD0B
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBFbJ0oT7r
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBz0YZZnu0
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7z17feB9Dw
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfa2KRgD9z
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLktg9US6Pn
capabilities.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqHvLUBRUe
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqUbyt07Tr
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David awakened. Not 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91qG95uoF3
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAditWfpCD
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzFDM9R5h5
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SPPsmkT3w
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreqzNsQdX3
undamaged.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtEoQvK4hC
"Only your physical body660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhr02KqAGE
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdS98zcKL90
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrAkhfI7mB
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWt8SJKC7KZ
A shadowy form appeared.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqbbWhs1GM
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIfpVfgSTG
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAvJsMOQ0o
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4vrkFnozI
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2FZgZ6XZX
"Am I in the...ether 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5ha0VWJA9
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWv49zERgR
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRJNtRWDtN
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVuR37YjkP
David was tired, too 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8atjtYHWG3
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7HpW5flId
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuOWoLMwHP
The shadowy hood cocked 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnVyC4AACR
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkornBBIE2
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmMk4sgNGx
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4As2V1cUFU
more grateful."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyyEYMEv7U
"I..."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1opNjVpyu
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZmRFleGlr
David groaned in 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUhLKQyWg5
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmurk5pCFD
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuctRuiH0k
falling point, that'd be fly."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGljKFoxTu
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwktrBFrSmo
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiZsHamLPB
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEibL4AiOIx
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzgRnq2TP8
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8FdOVEzXY
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQA5XUKZPeZ
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDhYZWHKqa
David shouted and 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZpqiDjtP4
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvoE3BjMde
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQ4sV96ON8
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSa344id92
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5nVQxtAXKN
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf44vw7LCBH
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErfFOMmLYc
mist.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIoDPXPE6t
Jester's voice came from660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XZETGflVt
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKoit7LIqb
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpUYjSR5Mm
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2TQWHvr9j
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTt5ogXkgCB
creating a circle around Jester and David.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpWQfMHQho
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRn0jddTrN
"Shut up!" David 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgSaRlFMe6
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXLKWJ0tUo
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NyBwHcI71
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymj7LmHyKK
Jester gave another 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHyI3Q6Dka
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrmViR3Rye
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gHhs42e3c
afraid of the truth?" 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7GUkwPvsr
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzA9IFONEI2
"You're what? A 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1LhbRd5Il
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGHubq9tMX
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUT6vtXbE1k
you've done not matter." 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpVnYzu3Va
The shadows completely 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyN1wrSfsqZ
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTlxacy8EQ
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4Z4vgdxOT
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPuT5xUR3t
eye and shadows swallowed him.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIOznMoQDa
Shadows parting, David 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVEDInJv7I
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpNsk10Aqj
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmC2XEBP9e
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQv6vrnPiyG
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkJZ29JyfN
mother660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjLVKsDeeI
"This is my memory." 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3rjyRqHM7
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQ7h6LWQnH
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcaGstbczS
David didn't reply to 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuk48lD8QN
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOu3hMZq5Ph
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYjQRZvRrE
Unaware of what was 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyquKw78e60
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdaR3l1Rgh
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsERu8TK9pU
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRbxOu1EZ4
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdsskJgZQV
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0bjOL0gJC
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaXiPzD9WT
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdhcFqWVP7
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUUm0d5Q3U
Finally the screams of 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIHX0n5oXT
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNu7cLiQxVY
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzqlrMWpZ8
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUE0KKbJies
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBDkI3ZA6x
the baby's throat and squeezed.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6p5auKnVhH
David could feel his 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlB8egDpwv
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Bo0teDld0
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqh6CzeLUg6
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDMrivJVYx
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjca1WyhHrL
stopped.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0WDo94rEa
"Oh, nonononono." The 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEr0MzltcjP
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2POhKpQJ0M
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8L0iG4RQc
"You who were supposed 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKxYzLo74n
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeomUIiQok2
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlEn60iNdo
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1Yta3ZybH
Coughing David stood up 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRTYeskwr5
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuytUVU95Ga
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJEUIBjLGL
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUezATpLJK
"No, it was a small 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUjSLpgDcY
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBD3vORgf3
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxGF8PYbvF
He was staring at the 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrY9TtNE1q
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VWiCi61Cf
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftsstrHdiP
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDHVhR3QDS
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkzN0FRKeg
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnCLa0EOsO
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UNhJpUsqt
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEjaV4rCSK
"I will!" Came a squeaky660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLgYHjpdn5
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjh8UuG61g
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngeu59T9ZC
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZqXEIis2Y
was an adult.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDe6CRgmUv
A knock came from a door660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxuzmIrMJx8
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitVghiWZcv
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPzkv73rta
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FQHpt5v8L
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8k9QzS7ftQ
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptUCpqeyBQ
being a bad boy.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxy6du6Aj1u
That's why he didn't 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcK3hRteBfX
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLEDVzD7i6
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJn7QoptGOT
"D..david" the answer 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlxlRLeXrb
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThqnGqL8cb
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTiBVoJlbya
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQ9meB33ko
The man put his hands on660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cCfvfEiJw
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7C3Sl0zZvg
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVDBy2eMg9
David meekly shook his 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapsNd85CgU
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fEu7FkupL
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WiQe8etI3
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzj8pCLh9t
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjxdAgLnZu
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGkLuZ1q7y
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjpLKcxO1h
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzadjkksfo
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqjhZ3NEql
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70yDGTmkn9
Davids body.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvjDiFHXUm
Please don't. Came adult David's voice660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRtucVg3Th
Young David was scared; 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSekR9qJo1R
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnuQQCw5qI
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2DKPOC3k3
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUs1Zj2Sqt
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQiW2iLgpn
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLFKEjHC8b
"Mummy, mummy!" David 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6ISWLBBmc
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNHqIsnwzH
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWH5V3Ss39
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJl4pPMlS5
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8mrIixhcH
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4XNLidZnG
David didn't even know 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGEJ1m0oO5
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡceHmPfoaCu
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOuri8dQyi
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqEQaeX5f4
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoaUzEtPNk
David could barely hear 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx34YLCPSAe
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03wbsyhZNI
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmz7KiJPGN
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalo8FFO2uZ
anger. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuXZ0igwcv
"There are more 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsphDoXeP2w
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygYrn4Poo9
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiv6gCNeQN6
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡguKEdhL1Jz
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEYpXPngVl
"What else is there to 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGxYSCqCC8
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGh9WvrbKJ
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcfBEHxA30
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf09GmqAitd
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5tX3aAbQ3
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzCl9sIhpc
floor. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWbD8SkOAk
Even the pain didn't 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoQOe92sei
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBazLXNPqAy
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgevT4fYXLX
everything would be gone.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsaR2pVRig
~Just like that, give up660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtPdaikEPj
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jmCSbuAZP
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGrCNCWSOR
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEdgXr37DB
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDvxsoUpM3
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59I3K99NDZ
than this."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGTsKiX0xw
~STOP! ~ David dropped 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SsAONMAYq
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXahMy6Uwr
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hrygCp5A3
survive. Survive and live.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgGZg9J7oo
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoNS2ylbn3
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJSeN4MvR7
"Indeed." Jester 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oUfSxM4MM
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcTP1L8zfZ
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQdcgdrklB
like his own did.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2rpr3fk28
"Why did you try 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnmVXfcbaw
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIARSRcHu1
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkwn44w01R
process the influx of memories.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7pl12pOTo
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42JIIrVJLx
"You expect me to believe that?"660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuLlC2vsmr
"Believe what you want."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkCtp1Ji97
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YxrWRr5XJ
Jester chuckled. "All of660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WiXsDVl2K
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUj3vxFT5f
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXPySiIg2x
"That just 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqnjIsCIp9
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKIhsd1xYy
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdd0T38P5vE
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcS4C1kW94
David nodded. "Do it."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyIQBC6hFV
Everything shifted. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6z6EjQmu0V
David was cleaning his 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSr3wvKLx0
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzIK5TqP41
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1w9e4X0mIZ
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAPKhMbxaZ
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvxCIq79Sk
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwZzngZvy2
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OMqDePz3S
His last one was just 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcxtt06YI1
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeI7rn3v9Y7
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHp8SsyT5u
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡompPGS5QBt
Undamaged goods she loved to say.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmARfRU6pLN
Right on cue, David 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49fmLcNm4j
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vP4KKuCwG
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAUu0HwUTT
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTt9EhBLZxg
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NQ2hppSkj
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpYA8wLUqw
Why was this his life? 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKBDzvhtTo
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWkLtF5EQu
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykhz6Iqm33
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT09hzT4Vga
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMSj1OugTy
vein trying to get his eyes. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8EVyOj7BW
~Enough David.~ A voice 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nULAkSiVW
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uSahBtYfp
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwd47BZKNbL
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqj9b5yvG1U
and met resistance.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HHVRyn0Db
The scratching and 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9CbhgSL1n
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLMJwRSQKV
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQH5kMAIJQp
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XcVXTNL6v
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmx2Z7hPO6
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8jNiNRfuz
Oh god what did he do? 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezXJu9AkzW
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOQifwEiSq
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjchHD0D7Y
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOv5ifQz0E
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRs3Wf8qg1
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkUm86RnJR
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsrbIvLLBB
blood.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0GrGcXqEn
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgV61p1uqV
There was a pause and everything quieted down.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLp32CyXGB
A boy named David just 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBrUgbhIfQ
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKQ8nuEbzj
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4A1hqPDUDP
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjYjZMieMo
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFG2cBqKaGF
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tBgze4BxQ
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyt2FJ3rNPL
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwue0BawXE
silly of him.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsAkf8Ez1z
Remembering his 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSAqdR7YYv
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9BG2v05z5
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBubP0qWrw
table preparing a meal. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS781d3TMRo
"There you are David!" 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq62jAZgn0g
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDwFq8UHSg
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEw4DDHTsgp
This isn't the truth.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oOTRgxqBq
David obligingly sat 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxv7ZvA5UR
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOTuxOG7Ge
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeuteHJxcl
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUWvk0PZbi
A dream, nothing else.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSafbhE2aY
They all thanked the 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulDY0a1MzG
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteqCZtlbar
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiinDCAn2rE
this lie.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRqjtByrVO
A lie that has to end.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXghGte9nyJ
David was standing at 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQTFIMI633
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJqEwDcDQi
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeB24K5kAnv
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbX5KjyOxy
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNI3QaY6hX
Either way David hated 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14dyI5JYly
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPbROr89dO
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDUFffedYj
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrL6QeIf4pS
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEND6KLkU4G
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJkpMpcNfL
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqovgPgou6
life this happy blissful life?660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LTGQlYtIY
The answer was so simple660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGANQSsO21
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Yd333GzxN
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡun2V9oj5lD
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnDO8HE5RW
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjklHm9iUrN
David decided to start 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkY9tAPA2j
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgWtqoV0fX
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtowFZS7MSa
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHlrUtgEzO
mother. "No more mercy."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnN9sS3Wcbu
With the last stab 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZeMd9upO2
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXnDlltWqq
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKaMqY2S24
emptiness.
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