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Some of my colleagues 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSh3DdKvoS5
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WNlm4WPz0
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cDg3sZWqQ
suggestion or hypnosis.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QMwb86JvU
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPx7j6E2Qo
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKem3d44vJ
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkAZNvFhgH
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXILobdwOjP
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtjLIoGHea
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36LxM1tFXn
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XJvYdABjV
capabilities.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMovxzlWT6l
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnZ39W3bgH
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David awakened. Not 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEddj7zbjW
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxejyJvJcWu
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJg9f4BdwOe
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroQwfudHgS
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvahLD2Wnz
undamaged.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcDDA6OU0c
"Only your physical body536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx84EqJuSVH
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RfcjLCZZD
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWvO6mfQAe
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczA0t3Eu8J
A shadowy form appeared.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1EXXcJxLC
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrHn5XFVWn
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWf9q4LmD5
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjFlrCwBDV
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5j3FgPTlYp
"Am I in the...ether 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AZ8PeaGpF
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMT5jg6AnB
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ029Rux4N5n
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYsldKdLOq
David was tired, too 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdouCMwR0cz
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBTZQhJsKi
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyopLIORHc7
The shadowy hood cocked 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BvvXODDGO
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkFz6uJYYU
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDJZ342bAU
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfxJVawWdI
more grateful."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcG8xSptLnk
"I..."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAFfDEZftm
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2qniHtIuz
David groaned in 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5PKrhLivA
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4hISmQE50
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYD1189xK7o
falling point, that'd be fly."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDohKXHYa1
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWaek6or1T
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JsiZrZQvF
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBwRXY6afi
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pw4eSUehI
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAIlHfrP8C
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3U9WSMt9M
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYisXknPWy
David shouted and 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwD9aLpnDs
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmrIOtPkCV
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4kDSMA8N9
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVZwB40qPz
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzHFBQcf6R
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIjGgTXlGL
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRT0kEUV8m
mist.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCLNcdRL5J
Jester's voice came from536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0uypQJZuR
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrZL4PXqM8
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMjRcRvxVN
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6JeHn9ZYo
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygOaUD3kLr
creating a circle around Jester and David.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ick3YHSyG
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOLxUdC6z0
"Shut up!" David 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMhkfBRl6j
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayJxBIw1RC
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ376LQN0Jfx
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lNV7whgU1
Jester gave another 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSPVaTbWYM
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV55hkVeb34
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sWdIY8UUT
afraid of the truth?" 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtm9dV7gqwd
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdI8llR36Yb
"You're what? A 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzJtexlpmh
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvJUo7yaIF
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0wLUviBJ5
you've done not matter." 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQiSmQqUqU
The shadows completely 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjtArBSjhh
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4HA5dK6uN
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAydcbP9HT
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlpbb6EAXn
eye and shadows swallowed him.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEYu1SF20m
Shadows parting, David 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9vRrrFfZJ
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNalrVpjSak
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP23kdHw1hD
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8ecdzWIJh
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKT55Zyx3z9
mother536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEK1oqvhWU
"This is my memory." 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7s9fXQ5Qn
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUUw6shzQ2
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡot9Q0ek0JJ
David didn't reply to 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35X6hlmIuu
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTITcMPUWN
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHR9gewLrZ
Unaware of what was 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpOgL9dfvh
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsg21N6rbnG
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3z2dkKsAs
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQCayl3tgFd
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhPb1DuALW
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlAzKkkx0N
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoMwY4gl46
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqz534cHWNu
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsaMCinU7XP
Finally the screams of 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx975BQOAGD
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLc2i9VYT3
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOkC7rpEZu
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0DerroUdt
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyPkLTzb5t
the baby's throat and squeezed.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TlAuRhpex
David could feel his 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzqMoym14G
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0notRBBFj
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QJe47h5Ch
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycY9xlaFlT
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAweR3prDXL
stopped.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKvYSuSjEp
"Oh, nonononono." The 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaO7SmrRdlT
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrzWdMS3aU
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GPwsB3BIC
"You who were supposed 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGDB9Gkawl
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcO2IyHTcyu
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg49lr2CjNC
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SvGnNRFsS
Coughing David stood up 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpaAMybWvA
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFZFR0eiFC
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCNqieyMTW
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTwhOE4LDR
"No, it was a small 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbLqQigzLx
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEvgVEbZFC
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVLSYK9JC6
He was staring at the 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9m4UixZrmL
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4u7MP8RgD
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLc2FqFAQuH
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvKL5ngWjw
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KlC2bTpbQ
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5CDfmBGb2
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2o6I3MWqtt
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBYya0E5VT
"I will!" Came a squeaky536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ETquF0NhK
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhl2uHPvnRT
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6L55jyp7an
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNocI9faCl
was an adult.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRzHgl9Ic1
A knock came from a door536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKTs552grs
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOinKVLfhH
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Db8fVOtBy
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhBALIqyUU
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvcABW146x
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUyTUJQU4l
being a bad boy.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBoLdHf615
That's why he didn't 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfOTnudc3q
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqETdJGhxh
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXqOzoGLGQ
"D..david" the answer 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHDoaekkto
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNelM8ECGJi
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FRiplRNik
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NbBOsz8LO
The man put his hands on536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8R82Exqo6
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IGBJ7FcgR
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyE152Ruxl
David meekly shook his 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhiU4VJQUM
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxz7KkaJjNL
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfvhPPiKrZ
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC03nBVb674
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCR8Yg679P5
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagKdMTfJi4
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98fJLkSKYf
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAdNrgofOg
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5snrcI3Db
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWojB4ARRQ
Davids body.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYhHK3xvvC
Please don't. Came adult David's voice536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPcZAlchgs
Young David was scared; 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrQBSioNLk
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapZMIC8cqi
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRE7SBzCFne
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YJ6SSSIzY
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6bxW18IoK
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RgPiIGzio
"Mummy, mummy!" David 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLU4WdDXoYs
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXSoxWGpQm
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYEUMpdzZC
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujR2jQsPSJ
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR08IHqioPX
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCCCP8ZbJI
David didn't even know 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1fLUWLAzI
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Tw9NACSe5
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkzgYwbxVr
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7KbgT7oNW
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKTjhiV0Yq
David could barely hear 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8PysKtLU3
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5yRokWM7Y
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36XaZmXzk9
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8YfC23Sh0
anger. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkoS2hhT2B
"There are more 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvf9DkZ7Waz
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGknmKEwwH
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoOXMafj1X
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPklBCmzZ1l
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVTN1y99PV
"What else is there to 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTec0scxIa
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMEgqo4Dpr
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rtmReazUm
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hpU4T8FrO
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwbGnwe6q6
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSohc8faAK
floor. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjF8xVVeTCG
Even the pain didn't 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpAPccrNhv
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDuwMUeSvd
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSLhId8j2c
everything would be gone.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcddahIIbQr
~Just like that, give up536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTD39O01yV
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXlvCOou4e
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkeGWUSq2d
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnIBFC63Vs
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqFOpXP0Dt
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDCofcwDkr
than this."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiomPfukuI5
~STOP! ~ David dropped 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrBYD3RUcn
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlR5HVDYqRJ
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RtAMvOCoA
survive. Survive and live.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVQtgcogdm
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUyjAz6nJy
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnuXeAmmHw5
"Indeed." Jester 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1f5uF6opmV
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLk269QcCRi
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFjERwfLe6
like his own did.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1y4cbotUt
"Why did you try 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhCsR4UGQl
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTrX634Eg8
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJ5UCWktH5
process the influx of memories.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40VBd9WAr6
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcwXdmzAUO
"You expect me to believe that?"536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3RbXbx24z
"Believe what you want."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PsgJJUnx3
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqehVs5DfV
Jester chuckled. "All of536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuheb3aGkG
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgScR3uWFU
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTh4mS9MYB
"That just 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEvDHiEbs9
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnLRhOivkO
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixqJRGL7Nm
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMAu96AF9m
David nodded. "Do it."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8QbdmpfrP
Everything shifted. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dBTb88BXa
David was cleaning his 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfIkmJmyeP
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpQYXk0pPV
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYizjFT8M0
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtTq7gLPiZ
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkDSX54ChK
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3l3Rd1w7Xj
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rBgrZvx8l
His last one was just 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrHGKgYxWD
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1OMhj1J87
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEU9s33YSbR
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UtCcyzB0T
Undamaged goods she loved to say.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADbn1WrBSQ
Right on cue, David 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtt6A1gsn49
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILdJDEcX4o
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfQd4jh1PL
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKb3vEB9CO
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiFsMjXohP
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aPAcfueSm
Why was this his life? 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2p52qoCHgT
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHor1mhw3o4
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJQbIXo357
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafxmLZHqBb
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeVXjux0eL
vein trying to get his eyes. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0WSzj0bXn
~Enough David.~ A voice 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvfeH8NGFB
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXLSmILAJt
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5NhTIKibK
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQUS7xwRDj
and met resistance.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSCfHr6LU5
The scratching and 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJYZ9dD7yx
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLdfmdU9rm
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWN92Jg3jv
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPgXps0acE
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9sbeqsHPB2
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGIXDfUybj1
Oh god what did he do? 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHGgYOy4CI
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSpfLNC85C
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuJUcVEaE5
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0QgzI7CXV
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ijc9KSSC4
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRii8SQOtiA
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2ma6xQoXH
blood.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxyQ3hZOZZ
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYM6gyBmhP
There was a pause and everything quieted down.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClqNvvB2R2
A boy named David just 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKqjiavUZI
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQI6rQa4XO
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRbjfwxCSj
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBryF1ZFm4
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQLGTsEnlV
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCmLJssc3e
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDCqIziGze
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGmfA6Fy4J
silly of him.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5Uuy3orMl
Remembering his 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxPTi50CIV
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjL5eDUtea
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCCry02hXA
table preparing a meal. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFVqHbZSPv
"There you are David!" 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQELyRc7NYp
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QP6rYwya3
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskSCJ9i6wP
This isn't the truth.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ140pHtKhWT
David obligingly sat 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3O2iEhP5uU
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOAVtKQgAy
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAWRYzN5jS
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqW0EDargFO
A dream, nothing else.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVw9bzdA1F
They all thanked the 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvP8MogwNh
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMN8wBF4i92
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJ2lJfHKn1
this lie.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCY5KgXTWbd
A lie that has to end.536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKR5XzhgiLs
David was standing at 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14U7dVk07L
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVypqFHJXLl
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwItQOqoPPT
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnlF5zrYfi
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIq6QAzHRuY
Either way David hated 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWUw4ryPx7
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKD65P0U8sh
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCq1iHHc10
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1HWY496L3
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIwel1ix9A
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYgxPnAiNk
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1BsWMoUvH
life this happy blissful life?536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNYXdRyylh
The answer was so simple536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYsryePhgW
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRP5MiPVDC
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFY2AiNeddk
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrR09ONYvOP
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVs6bYZLeW3
David decided to start 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7H8nhe18P
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtP4keQrClD
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8O2xpazscW
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1mX7PtBt2
mother. "No more mercy."536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2BRWFrTvr
With the last stab 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJ4htSdylx
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrcG28QlZy
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast536Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYvEVVENMa
emptiness.
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