You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dhGWQtBWK
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMD8AHKqpiL
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWM3xAuzou
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYRKe5mLwO
"I just want to go home," I say.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNk0mjR4RWx
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTEWkZqI6D
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOPy3xwbVo
Father sighs.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNRalugRB6
I say "I don't want to stay here!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmmx2kNske
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWjetKw0NW
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYqOEYjuQq
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyS2ygf1lPk
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawsnST06Bu
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoNCWHPuWj
"Pet, come down from the tree."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgEGDnIk41
I stay silent.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38aJQZV53p
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9cfpXPEAz
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtiDVkM2hD
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwPfb5sVU2
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFiWSR1kWo
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqn8hhkDw3
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvlpX4mAot
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RzmS5iyGZ
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDblVDEXlH
I say, "Please don't hurt me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9k8epee2B
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeXiN1Q6IT
I say, "Please don't!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHYadnT2Ar
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgTGXHbox1
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvc3FLcSHBy
"You'll find out soon enough, child."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMAjKsc0E5
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxg1UV37Cvg
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgSVzQDP4D
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTEfvKBlbS
"Are you ready, child?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmdLqADhlE
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJLqh0zNBJ
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbDdBYlk5k
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I say, "Okay.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaznoU9eBcX
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroDemRt1DM
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeIHhj0PCO
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uPfTFBqD9
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aXsqMaIE8
Father says "Good. Stay there."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvaS3bSVO6
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Gjhm9wuPk
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUamsMuKl2
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgxqEaOtBU
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡom6xjsqOCm
"Please!" I whisper.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72zuGCowkf
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDwycUKlZw
I scream loudly.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHna6MmxpWH
My scream echoes throughout the room.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uOPafqTg6
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHQz2pLJ9Q
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2W4x3bRWI
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdowd0ofPXG
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxS9C1ZKwE
I say "P-please s-stop.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcm96fPQbT
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByMDSE0AOd
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqT7IJX0YG9
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dUlnROxm3
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhOs0QqF7C
"Look at her," another says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pLiJATbnm
I say "Please leave me alone."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexsJXVciB1
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfH5nYVRSW
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlRUKxlY0J
"We'll see. Let's see."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMD6LxDZuW
I say "No no no.." They laugh.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbpCXvItdx
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXox9hBHRm
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6KWbn61d2
They untie me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJP9nzgk2ff
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaV8EtWTiy
"Ah... you're up," Father says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsh2sRIBRpS
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXx3SMw8kjk
"Where were you?" he asks,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12RrBLrxq4
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaDQkjgos4
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1LaLxQdGB
Father smiles.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMy9nK4DGZE
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFk6gPiXH5E
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0m8s74wgi
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1MIshRfNk
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5UoWHa5D7
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd41wXxI6Kz
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5Ga4LwnqN
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfdN4vePTw
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIIyK98TNc
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvDbYNVxtm
I say, "Please let me go!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nhdQr6g3P
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkob7WbC01
"You will," Father says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAKbx1glvm
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyWnBVQbiP
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GUsWoClEM
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawikAsIEs6
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMWxuiVYta
"Stop crying," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseC9RH5Ylf
"I can't!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSSILibJYO
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiQXRELMT7
"Stop it!" I cry.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TycRSyBNn
"I said stop it!" he yells,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqf1pLWicl
"I can't," I say.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Yo5BOWUlr
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡee7NjS2lEa
"NO!" Father screams.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgjQmR5s00
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39YnEI8vbo
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSIv4QSrsG
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpyHuewceY
"I would. I really would."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDhfFH6onu
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1F8vIn3AU9
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvyTYIQz6w
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRElDdQX4Ob
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9rfjecbBR
I say, "No I'm not!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVMxSPoXUJ
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1X3RM11YHx
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0SU5LWh0W
I say "No I won't!!!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zvnHSuW5Q
"You will!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuF7o1RTF0J
"I said NO!!!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnFk6XVStr
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqKzRGgYh4
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgEKrFPnb2
"I know you will," Father says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEhwT1mXEH
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSysSjAnhEN
He says "One."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0AR9AcqxZ
I say, "I'll do anything.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsFqEyFEcZ
"Two."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxAv14qjuI
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9U9aTLRjg
"Three."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe68Jinvli4
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAva0j5p6l
"No, don't do it," Father says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbFvQkndBm
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMygggd8FA
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOox7GDi6x8
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofgOyHZLQf
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7MaFd3Lis
I say "Yes."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrAif98l4V
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzEY2fgTYz
"Yes," I say.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2ZSPCSKpw
"Good girl," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1c0LQtRD0h
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZkrZOhIaK
"I won't," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KyKcxl1Jz
I stay tied up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ouctgnYQU
"Now," he says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zHHfrWf0e
"Kneel."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfllfHZvDF5
"Please," I say.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAZFcOlIcK
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9IhTNRkrz
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdViP57W6NK
I just know it.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8yeeWObKX
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UrpPNgSg7
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZNCe6KP9q
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wXmV2YKYa
I'm all alone in the room.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvicbsrrdn
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I hear the door open. I look up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRt0FklJRrO
"Hello," a man says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFcWPpcuws
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvls09FYFtL
"Hands behind your back," he says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SRfGg01Qe
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWbiPOZEpk
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KRMHQhjeg
"Stay there," he says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzYKVEb2yx
I stay on my knees.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNp5eXaUD0
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIqMAAMOQE
I say "No no no."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lkuHk8ntU
"Do it," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VBogSl9De
I say no. He pushes harder.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQZhM5ubbd
"Do it!" he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqZqQvDqnn
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmBoK1Obhd
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZH9hZtitL
"Stay there," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgteq3usy8H
I stay on my knees.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdsH6yJfJy
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HcdnY5DP9
"Stop moving."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhMMnNJksh
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeqGLZzgiq
He pulls it out of my throat.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVj4a1i286
"What's wrong?" he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUkq535WfE
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgZVXY0G14
"What?" he says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDvK6Zo5DO
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1H6Mp9EW0
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zyy497wlM
"Is this too big for you?" he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7InyWvN54
I nod.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmjcN28ajy
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwJTehuwra
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWE6D3ZxR6
He shoves it back in.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0Xl7BpLFx
I decide that vomiting once is enough.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXujKRGoqI
He shoves it in deeper.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4x35NT32b
I struggle and fight.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljKjlTcbl0
"Stop fighting me," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62K5UpdwJS
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsExo6O98JR
"Get dressed," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysWBX8BvVc
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxxNUmDPCh
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJfLRoHc2L
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMe2Xakf9l
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8824m5jyR
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVUFurjUnP
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBFhuFGRex
I say, "Where's dad?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8solhsNwu2
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAesloYjU6
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhExK6Ec6FO
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4n7Jmtg4A
My father says, "Where have you been?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBczpRqAhg
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIEyckPLGn
"Did they hurt you?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNMrovRkvL
"Yeah," I say.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4koYUPhjOH
"I'm sorry."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBpF4m4brUc
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQGSECYSgv
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWLon6eu8C
"Is Allie in here?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHWh11B12y
My dad says, "Yes, why?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtpJjro7QD
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJmZKtUGe8
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVU3Tglag8
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNLAU9bi3m
"No." I respond,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoGH3277Ui
"Can we come in?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqIPopZ8Z6
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3unMU6Ubr
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmmYPFS5gz
I say, "I don't know."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4wXpFuKko
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MXO7F2BrY
"No." I say,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghfI8IKEJd
"Are you sure?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVJClVr7EN
"Yes."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqP4q5jWrm
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVv9TBh3KXk
"Did he give you any food or water?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19liCR7SHd
"No." I respond.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQdCxW1cxE
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkizcyuMlUM
"No."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXD97JXlr16
"What did he do to you?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDUWGS29lB
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk88kaaf9M8
"Did you fight him?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yKvl4ZFOd
"I tried."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZJNcq8aMa
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fza5py7Fh
"I think I blacked out."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgjMnqglY4
"I see."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbsH7Sbq4u
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGim6wbi0ta
"And how long were you with him?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkIqHLdSPL
"I think about ten hours."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyOxXoQGZt
"And you only just managed to escape?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzEigev1uh
"Yeah."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3KqXrB6Uxc
"Do you know where you were?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBuiAOydSl
I say "No."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSEiNcy0sL
"What is the last thing you remember?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIneBRZ3n33
"I remember walking down the road."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Kmyni30Eq
"And then?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegdjbXGLco
"I don't remember."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2FSQbfIzu
"Do you know how you got away?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWP0mcXVEgm
I say, "I just ran,"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJ4gPHLoTM
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBiOK3tm4C
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBuD6Xl3bO
I say, "So that's how it all happened."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPsgPKU5Tj
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtorvqB0jGY
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7D5ozuTpPg
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKYlV79C2c
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoetOk6mTq
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KriI85Zzp
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Cyy5UdXoF
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAw6EiHUZn
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYht7w1W1cW
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlM1Qfs1nSP
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdz9ox8vQfg
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1ojKd5ukD
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEG2L3sQxHv
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLmuHBzFhv
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxqoIvSAVI
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5arSYn6zS
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvg2GftuhdH
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sgAZC6dgn
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHu70o4GOx
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySjwdgKcJs
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9TaKizhsx
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXpWla49tE
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDpd6fs5jj
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLHhLmgRsj
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnExpdh5Xo
"Get up." he says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUa6pxe76Hu
"Why am I here?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVhH1vzwmG
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwAvG6VGzO
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcv3IVXdVp0
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YZZFTOveh
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEHkRz4huv
I sit down.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeWEoWTceS
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8g8LGj9ux7
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5nfBRNj1j
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡueb8omuOWP
I say, "No."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfQ0khNhdT
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxfZjbH2Vi
I respond, "Yes."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLyvaEXChK
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhv9iN5muv4
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kYExXctDG
"Yes."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21RgJpWOAH
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABhYmwCFvQ
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvoAD5Y0eO
I say, "Hi."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAjDbyaaex
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmibyQJ5EYz
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFV0ZK7rS9
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1V0nlcM7Zt
"Right away," says the woman.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzgQymevQD
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImIuSndmrN
I say, "Okay."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGL7EgxBn3g
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrbDYynywW
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6eeLAXoxU
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9DVfz6WvG
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7m08JSN76
"He kidnapped me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTddGrXaD2
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrA2OZWHaP
I say, "He tried to stab me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNfGmcmr7s
"Who was he?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehrnIDhjg8
"I don't know."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nHmNeWCus
"Where did you get the knife?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHZcDWp8gH
"He had it in his pocket."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKl1HDuM8H
"Did he threaten you in any way?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo96ovS4nmT
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlf4cr6BIwV
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjLhtMpg5D
"No."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Xl93JzM8J
"You sure? Think hard."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSaNDDHbK4
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8s1CGvHDPK
I say, "He killed my father."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZqRnIp9n2
"What?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjT2WlFvnjM
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLl3U1O8sJ
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxha92TDvnn
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1iPOhpNVl
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JjEuV9RKj
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqOcOfnO5Z
I say, "Okay.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHQ4cUrhZO
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHOUfAzBat
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaiAPTekC3
I follow him.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmVttWSTNe
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0slJJnqrb
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXHLNCgGtu
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xlR4MqR1v
"Alright. Take a seat."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxfRpF7VOZ
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqEliumLQR
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8vRN7Ykzc
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5pGHFY2lT
"Yes.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROMgVrEm1T
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73qu7lxXLL
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEMAk97VKv
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgC7lY3i4gm
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqSYvt91gC
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ilIR5ESEX
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKeG3sjKDM
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZmkCFYeSr
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyJvDIJpUF
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7DkY6SmIs
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhtJ9jEwTV
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0odVHlANnp
"What is it?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4VQ5Dq9Na
Doctor Kessel says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOYuaujiSN
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPq0JafRLD
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuJFE5hR9x
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzExo1UbVHM
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFwaesBeNH
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalJtSmE7Ny
The nurse shakes her head, and says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEs53Eag3p3
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqIJpcsMFi
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOAYfjeunU
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcicKu9Tyef
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMY2iqf2lN
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiw8H3IYrgM
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNbaO7gvXC
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe42hHahPSc
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WCsyt1OLY
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmIwChcgVF
I say "Where am I?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIYp5kKAh6
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRO9kPxq990
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPxmoaaJAn
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAVQ3UzU8G
I say, "I want to see my mom..."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKVMgGfVHz
The nurse interrupts me and says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCY4Rktx0C
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBO5pBk9SZ4
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHtvcLRI7Z
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDwECW3HxM
"M-mom.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMctIIJYMR
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5m6qOlmBrf
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4NvjEYADi
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiUmXGzl5R
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPI3osE0tT
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5GRFViu8R
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgO59Ldrjn
"Yes.." I say quietly.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhfwA8FeSF
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiUa2pyaJB
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3uCoC42aB
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Oi2E8xTwJ
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQF7yGEPWM
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUVNh36olB
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyj0ECxISxj
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGo2f5lwjT1
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTMkFnU67C
I say, "Okay.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEdc6b2CPC
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7faEqxhfr
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwMrxbyeHF
I wipe the tears off my face.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yhK3sB4sr
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJ6N5TxC04
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjs0xkmfbx2
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJz0wYEWkJZ
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyBMvaKvAa
I say, "Tell me!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgz5x0209oN
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfjRdlc8vj
My heart drops.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm95BnaVU0D
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0yffNY8HB
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In the morning, I get my visitors.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEX4ozxC7A
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1y6ReK4C5H
I say, "Wait!" She stops.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzfNk2ikOg
"What is it?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsQmZMBOUX
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWwL7sQiSF
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf701Ydepsr
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrUyuuOAha
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SCRzzZihb
I cry myself to sleep.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYCy2PUnVg
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42TJcfhHS7
"How are you doing, honey?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQL3gZTA14
I say, "Horrible.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VQREwGabq
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj15f3EezZL
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyekNYY3U1
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXz9UresNt
"It's not your fault, honey."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pMP8TIjh4
I start crying again.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcHrt2lTxr
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtu50an0gWu
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBiweYjgTm0
Maybe I'm dead after all.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvpXgTWiBi
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobcXWg4PRZ
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYj2IaOYc7W
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsj8jMLGO1I
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8edHbx26hI
I say, "I still want to win this."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3M6AfAQkb
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwMKno608w
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHMVZ17s3D
"Really?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGb8ykExUu
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKheyqYF4a
I start crying, and I can't stop.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3OBt4a5wb
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0mzpbhZa4
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1SZDDagVE
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtV8MZ2L0Ia
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5uYuZVypS
"I wanted to see the flowers."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwq6wq5L9rS
"Why are you out of your room?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQCtBAEpsKl
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qQUDKrdzy
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoA9FqQF8Sf
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCK7gHH5bA
"Thank you for being you."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBiceIHMlUh
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4YNE6nn8j
I make a decision.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkerOt7xcu
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQQ7bbL9JY
"What's your name?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzI0SIRx4X5
"Allisa," I say, smiling.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCfoWQLvBd
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHlyZdcVBH
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFrBh8G7u0
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4WhW1pWlZ
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFNuTnbrk0
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMD8AHKqpiL
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWM3xAuzou
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYRKe5mLwO
"I just want to go home," I say.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNk0mjR4RWx
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTEWkZqI6D
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOPy3xwbVo
Father sighs.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNRalugRB6
I say "I don't want to stay here!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmmx2kNske
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWjetKw0NW
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYqOEYjuQq
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyS2ygf1lPk
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawsnST06Bu
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoNCWHPuWj
"Pet, come down from the tree."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgEGDnIk41
I stay silent.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38aJQZV53p
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9cfpXPEAz
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtiDVkM2hD
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwPfb5sVU2
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFiWSR1kWo
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqn8hhkDw3
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvlpX4mAot
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RzmS5iyGZ
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDblVDEXlH
I say, "Please don't hurt me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9k8epee2B
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeXiN1Q6IT
I say, "Please don't!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHYadnT2Ar
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgTGXHbox1
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvc3FLcSHBy
"You'll find out soon enough, child."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMAjKsc0E5
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxg1UV37Cvg
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgSVzQDP4D
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270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21Bz6eFw4gI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTEfvKBlbS
"Are you ready, child?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmdLqADhlE
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJLqh0zNBJ
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbDdBYlk5k
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I say, "Okay.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaznoU9eBcX
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroDemRt1DM
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeIHhj0PCO
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uPfTFBqD9
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aXsqMaIE8
Father says "Good. Stay there."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvaS3bSVO6
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Gjhm9wuPk
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUamsMuKl2
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgxqEaOtBU
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡom6xjsqOCm
"Please!" I whisper.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72zuGCowkf
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDwycUKlZw
I scream loudly.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHna6MmxpWH
My scream echoes throughout the room.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uOPafqTg6
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHQz2pLJ9Q
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2W4x3bRWI
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdowd0ofPXG
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxS9C1ZKwE
I say "P-please s-stop.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcm96fPQbT
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByMDSE0AOd
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqT7IJX0YG9
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dUlnROxm3
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhOs0QqF7C
"Look at her," another says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pLiJATbnm
I say "Please leave me alone."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexsJXVciB1
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfH5nYVRSW
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlRUKxlY0J
"We'll see. Let's see."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMD6LxDZuW
I say "No no no.." They laugh.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbpCXvItdx
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXox9hBHRm
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6KWbn61d2
They untie me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJP9nzgk2ff
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaV8EtWTiy
"Ah... you're up," Father says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsh2sRIBRpS
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270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mjAqsaMCt"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXx3SMw8kjk
"Where were you?" he asks,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12RrBLrxq4
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaDQkjgos4
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1LaLxQdGB
Father smiles.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMy9nK4DGZE
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFk6gPiXH5E
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0m8s74wgi
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1MIshRfNk
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5UoWHa5D7
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd41wXxI6Kz
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5Ga4LwnqN
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfdN4vePTw
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIIyK98TNc
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvDbYNVxtm
I say, "Please let me go!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nhdQr6g3P
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkob7WbC01
"You will," Father says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAKbx1glvm
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyWnBVQbiP
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GUsWoClEM
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawikAsIEs6
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMWxuiVYta
"Stop crying," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseC9RH5Ylf
"I can't!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSSILibJYO
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiQXRELMT7
"Stop it!" I cry.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TycRSyBNn
"I said stop it!" he yells,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqf1pLWicl
"I can't," I say.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Yo5BOWUlr
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡee7NjS2lEa
"NO!" Father screams.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgjQmR5s00
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39YnEI8vbo
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSIv4QSrsG
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpyHuewceY
"I would. I really would."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDhfFH6onu
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1F8vIn3AU9
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvyTYIQz6w
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRElDdQX4Ob
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9rfjecbBR
I say, "No I'm not!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVMxSPoXUJ
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1X3RM11YHx
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0SU5LWh0W
I say "No I won't!!!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zvnHSuW5Q
"You will!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuF7o1RTF0J
"I said NO!!!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnFk6XVStr
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqKzRGgYh4
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgEKrFPnb2
"I know you will," Father says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEhwT1mXEH
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSysSjAnhEN
He says "One."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0AR9AcqxZ
I say, "I'll do anything.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsFqEyFEcZ
"Two."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxAv14qjuI
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9U9aTLRjg
"Three."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe68Jinvli4
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAva0j5p6l
"No, don't do it," Father says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbFvQkndBm
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMygggd8FA
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOox7GDi6x8
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofgOyHZLQf
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7MaFd3Lis
I say "Yes."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrAif98l4V
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzEY2fgTYz
"Yes," I say.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2ZSPCSKpw
"Good girl," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1c0LQtRD0h
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZkrZOhIaK
"I won't," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KyKcxl1Jz
I stay tied up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ouctgnYQU
"Now," he says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zHHfrWf0e
"Kneel."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfllfHZvDF5
"Please," I say.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAZFcOlIcK
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9IhTNRkrz
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdViP57W6NK
I just know it.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8yeeWObKX
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UrpPNgSg7
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZNCe6KP9q
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wXmV2YKYa
I'm all alone in the room.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvicbsrrdn
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270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOug0RtMH0mI hear the door open. I look up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRt0FklJRrO
"Hello," a man says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFcWPpcuws
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvls09FYFtL
"Hands behind your back," he says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SRfGg01Qe
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWbiPOZEpk
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KRMHQhjeg
"Stay there," he says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzYKVEb2yx
I stay on my knees.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNp5eXaUD0
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIqMAAMOQE
I say "No no no."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lkuHk8ntU
"Do it," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VBogSl9De
I say no. He pushes harder.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQZhM5ubbd
"Do it!" he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqZqQvDqnn
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmBoK1Obhd
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZH9hZtitL
"Stay there," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgteq3usy8H
I stay on my knees.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdsH6yJfJy
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HcdnY5DP9
"Stop moving."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhMMnNJksh
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeqGLZzgiq
He pulls it out of my throat.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVj4a1i286
"What's wrong?" he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUkq535WfE
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgZVXY0G14
"What?" he says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDvK6Zo5DO
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1H6Mp9EW0
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zyy497wlM
"Is this too big for you?" he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7InyWvN54
I nod.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmjcN28ajy
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwJTehuwra
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWE6D3ZxR6
He shoves it back in.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0Xl7BpLFx
I decide that vomiting once is enough.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXujKRGoqI
He shoves it in deeper.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4x35NT32b
I struggle and fight.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljKjlTcbl0
"Stop fighting me," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62K5UpdwJS
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsExo6O98JR
"Get dressed," he says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysWBX8BvVc
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxxNUmDPCh
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJfLRoHc2L
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMe2Xakf9l
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8824m5jyR
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVUFurjUnP
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBFhuFGRex
I say, "Where's dad?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8solhsNwu2
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAesloYjU6
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhExK6Ec6FO
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4n7Jmtg4A
My father says, "Where have you been?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBczpRqAhg
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIEyckPLGn
"Did they hurt you?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNMrovRkvL
"Yeah," I say.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4koYUPhjOH
"I'm sorry."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBpF4m4brUc
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQGSECYSgv
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWLon6eu8C
"Is Allie in here?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHWh11B12y
My dad says, "Yes, why?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtpJjro7QD
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJmZKtUGe8
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVU3Tglag8
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNLAU9bi3m
"No." I respond,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoGH3277Ui
"Can we come in?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqIPopZ8Z6
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3unMU6Ubr
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmmYPFS5gz
I say, "I don't know."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4wXpFuKko
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MXO7F2BrY
"No." I say,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghfI8IKEJd
"Are you sure?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVJClVr7EN
"Yes."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqP4q5jWrm
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVv9TBh3KXk
"Did he give you any food or water?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19liCR7SHd
"No." I respond.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQdCxW1cxE
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkizcyuMlUM
"No."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXD97JXlr16
"What did he do to you?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDUWGS29lB
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk88kaaf9M8
"Did you fight him?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yKvl4ZFOd
"I tried."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZJNcq8aMa
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fza5py7Fh
"I think I blacked out."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgjMnqglY4
"I see."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbsH7Sbq4u
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGim6wbi0ta
"And how long were you with him?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkIqHLdSPL
"I think about ten hours."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyOxXoQGZt
"And you only just managed to escape?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzEigev1uh
"Yeah."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3KqXrB6Uxc
"Do you know where you were?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBuiAOydSl
I say "No."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSEiNcy0sL
"What is the last thing you remember?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIneBRZ3n33
"I remember walking down the road."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Kmyni30Eq
"And then?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegdjbXGLco
"I don't remember."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2FSQbfIzu
"Do you know how you got away?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWP0mcXVEgm
I say, "I just ran,"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJ4gPHLoTM
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBiOK3tm4C
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBuD6Xl3bO
I say, "So that's how it all happened."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPsgPKU5Tj
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtorvqB0jGY
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7D5ozuTpPg
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKYlV79C2c
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoetOk6mTq
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KriI85Zzp
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Cyy5UdXoF
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAw6EiHUZn
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYht7w1W1cW
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlM1Qfs1nSP
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdz9ox8vQfg
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1ojKd5ukD
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEG2L3sQxHv
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLmuHBzFhv
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxqoIvSAVI
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5arSYn6zS
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvg2GftuhdH
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270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaZheDFqOvAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sgAZC6dgn
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHu70o4GOx
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySjwdgKcJs
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9TaKizhsx
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXpWla49tE
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDpd6fs5jj
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLHhLmgRsj
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnExpdh5Xo
"Get up." he says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUa6pxe76Hu
"Why am I here?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVhH1vzwmG
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwAvG6VGzO
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcv3IVXdVp0
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YZZFTOveh
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEHkRz4huv
I sit down.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeWEoWTceS
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8g8LGj9ux7
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5nfBRNj1j
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡueb8omuOWP
I say, "No."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfQ0khNhdT
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxfZjbH2Vi
I respond, "Yes."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLyvaEXChK
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhv9iN5muv4
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kYExXctDG
"Yes."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21RgJpWOAH
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABhYmwCFvQ
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvoAD5Y0eO
I say, "Hi."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAjDbyaaex
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmibyQJ5EYz
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFV0ZK7rS9
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1V0nlcM7Zt
"Right away," says the woman.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzgQymevQD
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImIuSndmrN
I say, "Okay."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGL7EgxBn3g
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrbDYynywW
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6eeLAXoxU
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9DVfz6WvG
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7m08JSN76
"He kidnapped me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTddGrXaD2
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrA2OZWHaP
I say, "He tried to stab me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNfGmcmr7s
"Who was he?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehrnIDhjg8
"I don't know."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nHmNeWCus
"Where did you get the knife?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHZcDWp8gH
"He had it in his pocket."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKl1HDuM8H
"Did he threaten you in any way?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo96ovS4nmT
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlf4cr6BIwV
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjLhtMpg5D
"No."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Xl93JzM8J
"You sure? Think hard."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSaNDDHbK4
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8s1CGvHDPK
I say, "He killed my father."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZqRnIp9n2
"What?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjT2WlFvnjM
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLl3U1O8sJ
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxha92TDvnn
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1iPOhpNVl
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JjEuV9RKj
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqOcOfnO5Z
I say, "Okay.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHQ4cUrhZO
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHOUfAzBat
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaiAPTekC3
I follow him.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmVttWSTNe
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0slJJnqrb
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXHLNCgGtu
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xlR4MqR1v
"Alright. Take a seat."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxfRpF7VOZ
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqEliumLQR
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8vRN7Ykzc
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5pGHFY2lT
"Yes.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROMgVrEm1T
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73qu7lxXLL
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEMAk97VKv
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgC7lY3i4gm
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqSYvt91gC
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ilIR5ESEX
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKeG3sjKDM
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZmkCFYeSr
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyJvDIJpUF
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7DkY6SmIs
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhtJ9jEwTV
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0odVHlANnp
"What is it?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4VQ5Dq9Na
Doctor Kessel says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOYuaujiSN
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPq0JafRLD
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuJFE5hR9x
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzExo1UbVHM
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFwaesBeNH
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalJtSmE7Ny
The nurse shakes her head, and says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEs53Eag3p3
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqIJpcsMFi
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOAYfjeunU
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcicKu9Tyef
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMY2iqf2lN
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiw8H3IYrgM
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNbaO7gvXC
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe42hHahPSc
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WCsyt1OLY
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmIwChcgVF
I say "Where am I?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIYp5kKAh6
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRO9kPxq990
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPxmoaaJAn
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAVQ3UzU8G
I say, "I want to see my mom..."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKVMgGfVHz
The nurse interrupts me and says,270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCY4Rktx0C
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBO5pBk9SZ4
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHtvcLRI7Z
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270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCN1QgUrYBUA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDwECW3HxM
"M-mom.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMctIIJYMR
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5m6qOlmBrf
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4NvjEYADi
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiUmXGzl5R
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPI3osE0tT
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5GRFViu8R
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgO59Ldrjn
"Yes.." I say quietly.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhfwA8FeSF
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiUa2pyaJB
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3uCoC42aB
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Oi2E8xTwJ
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQF7yGEPWM
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUVNh36olB
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyj0ECxISxj
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGo2f5lwjT1
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTMkFnU67C
I say, "Okay.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEdc6b2CPC
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7faEqxhfr
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwMrxbyeHF
I wipe the tears off my face.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yhK3sB4sr
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJ6N5TxC04
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjs0xkmfbx2
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJz0wYEWkJZ
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyBMvaKvAa
I say, "Tell me!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgz5x0209oN
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfjRdlc8vj
My heart drops.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm95BnaVU0D
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0yffNY8HB
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270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlznexbjwkIn the morning, I get my visitors.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEX4ozxC7A
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1y6ReK4C5H
I say, "Wait!" She stops.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzfNk2ikOg
"What is it?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsQmZMBOUX
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWwL7sQiSF
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf701Ydepsr
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrUyuuOAha
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SCRzzZihb
I cry myself to sleep.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYCy2PUnVg
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42TJcfhHS7
"How are you doing, honey?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQL3gZTA14
I say, "Horrible.."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VQREwGabq
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj15f3EezZL
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyekNYY3U1
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXz9UresNt
"It's not your fault, honey."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pMP8TIjh4
I start crying again.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcHrt2lTxr
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtu50an0gWu
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBiweYjgTm0
Maybe I'm dead after all.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvpXgTWiBi
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobcXWg4PRZ
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYj2IaOYc7W
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsj8jMLGO1I
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8edHbx26hI
I say, "I still want to win this."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3M6AfAQkb
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwMKno608w
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHMVZ17s3D
"Really?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGb8ykExUu
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKheyqYF4a
I start crying, and I can't stop.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3OBt4a5wb
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0mzpbhZa4
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1SZDDagVE
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtV8MZ2L0Ia
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5uYuZVypS
"I wanted to see the flowers."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwq6wq5L9rS
"Why are you out of your room?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQCtBAEpsKl
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qQUDKrdzy
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoA9FqQF8Sf
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCK7gHH5bA
"Thank you for being you."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBiceIHMlUh
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4YNE6nn8j
I make a decision.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkerOt7xcu
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQQ7bbL9JY
"What's your name?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzI0SIRx4X5
"Allisa," I say, smiling.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCfoWQLvBd
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHlyZdcVBH
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFrBh8G7u0
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4WhW1pWlZ
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFNuTnbrk0
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