You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZAD8c2UIK
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWcpJX8zAm
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5FAtNCLZX
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIARgy83T2E
"I just want to go home," I say.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWs2qYmBRIT
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqFi40luuU
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdWnbavyDr
Father sighs.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCh0q6pOA17
I say "I don't want to stay here!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMc7crP0Gk
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSD8nWrBY0Q
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3sRoyoL42
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhru4epdUe
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4c9wfm3ZRI
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMkNPTqlSJ
"Pet, come down from the tree."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtWEKyfNST
I stay silent.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKWp6uUf9k
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTivDC8ClP6
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVvNIylplv
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPK0l7fZY9Q
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNxXuFjGbD
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KBTSiblqO
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk97fBzWPWH
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uem1RK9It
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJkVU3R2WK
I say, "Please don't hurt me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpm1bhBL3c
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2qK2KFEyr
I say, "Please don't!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcNT9d2wn2
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJV0bECCLD
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaF19FQVKNE
"You'll find out soon enough, child."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQm5WXPcdqn
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJHFtuXqE1
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFk2fojc7fn
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bsxAQr8WR
"Are you ready, child?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgjMi39oKC
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Ux67LmVBM
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNk3bbU5kf
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I say, "Okay.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mnn2qNfYI
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50xVCeNaiR
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYKfRaUoq5
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtY2u61FER
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQWxxnG2PK
Father says "Good. Stay there."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpp1rWIxGfE
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXhqOsgT7s
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZ5EV4dS3n
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrNEikksQi
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNth0bAtxqo
"Please!" I whisper.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWFkVXFjtQ
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGHOjteV62
I scream loudly.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKMaBgdylc
My scream echoes throughout the room.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpSBw39kMv
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Do1tVhInR
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtxvo32iNX
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbViqxPf3q
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlDQasS3vO
I say "P-please s-stop.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjLQAczG0m
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpxGusMIZJ
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwMflKZ7pO
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuhNbUtZfL
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgX22E0nvRW
"Look at her," another says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ziVoDFSvI
I say "Please leave me alone."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfAKD8E0B3
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU16zDm1hK1
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNdVh4tNT5
"We'll see. Let's see."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KxB5jN18o
I say "No no no.." They laugh.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lvusazvbM
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUGhEcRyTl
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmDyw8G7zb
They untie me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVrMBoqTgS
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbl5PgRvAG
"Ah... you're up," Father says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFq6bNEexZ
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzqNdmmrre
"Where were you?" he asks,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡby9VYvVc1n
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeDb0WgBW7
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcHs16cXxV
Father smiles.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDetLukWX4
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu59FtWqZjU
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4YZRmEanU
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSq1iIyc7CM
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1khUcaNdD
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ifRHrEqpf
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTOoYRETW5
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzeUTxNpkIC
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXtAxGqKXQ
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGb4idkA56
I say, "Please let me go!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISUUMliJhk
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52a1gHzq9q
"You will," Father says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYgzqXgUWO
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4Q9FJosGz
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePoCJ3AfYY
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSVQWZ5JSw
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSBhhBQVTJ
"Stop crying," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhpkOHYRBG
"I can't!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKUDQDjEYR
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvathpcKpHQ
"Stop it!" I cry.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFlUKpU1oF
"I said stop it!" he yells,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNrCxvutX0
"I can't," I say.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKZpUgqPsD
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr72lhZ5u8D
"NO!" Father screams.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtk3I6cgX1y
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCSuLpj23O
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7PHZANMPq
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0le2efXPoo
"I would. I really would."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhVDQjdsRc
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOejZdXCYFW
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gNsiY1b2j
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UmCvSpnqy
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFT0yTBksD3
I say, "No I'm not!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbXH6zHZQw
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuZFRJg6Dd
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybLk3Xe1lv
I say "No I won't!!!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBApmiFMsY1
"You will!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgOPfqWqrJ
"I said NO!!!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMptjJ5LYj
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjLhBulsVB
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7lCTmmYT2
"I know you will," Father says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzGD47rqtL
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1DclVgEaQ
He says "One."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZeJ9wkVBn
I say, "I'll do anything.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIAvN48zOe
"Two."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2bQjvJzr4
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfbdIQWUWs
"Three."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbs8UMYcxbE
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNtSTGPNkV
"No, don't do it," Father says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DNjS8MiDq
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HHAV8zfXx
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuZGlZfEPl
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5x8dBrJckk
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZksxs1Ebb
I say "Yes."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZw43PPIQJv
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJk7xOHenrX
"Yes," I say.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBEnli84lV
"Good girl," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHlmab7HmK
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvaHXbZGk29
"I won't," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CpGu6U8k0
I stay tied up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWKMkKLTDo
"Now," he says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2quXQ9F4A
"Kneel."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LQwSrZ6Rf
"Please," I say.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOR0Quq3qO2
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjcPgDezM3
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpv1VMs3Pxc
I just know it.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnmaHg8CEV
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSAALnNTds
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTadcf4egZl
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlor2euLp7T
I'm all alone in the room.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjw4iAAKwL
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I hear the door open. I look up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI01XvTUYO3
"Hello," a man says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsnOcHxcO5
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxG2qzewmIm
"Hands behind your back," he says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiln2WwnUh
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5F5snFvdYL
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2JfSkVFvR
"Stay there," he says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQpU06bdzm
I stay on my knees.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfdiucya8W
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzD65B5eHo8
I say "No no no."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOApC3Oqvij
"Do it," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9exs65S9Ps
I say no. He pushes harder.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVYkWCdKIS
"Do it!" he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hsmtKxZ3m
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrMOeNd1Bi
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8qyHTYPDq
"Stay there," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXlrLKeSMl
I stay on my knees.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQvwCjZAHg
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkDmXDAgIi
"Stop moving."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlx3kpR28NC
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31ljiYALnX
He pulls it out of my throat.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPos8yqs45n
"What's wrong?" he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksxg0hXkpS
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsxkLLu1U6
"What?" he says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEJEYe05Rc
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP73L12JPx8
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEzWJnomDK
"Is this too big for you?" he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZL6JMjJLOV
I nod.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8SaWrkBKw
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxknQVpUEGb
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsPwlDNn3h
He shoves it back in.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23ACwYDJQO
I decide that vomiting once is enough.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FG2rM3dJE
He shoves it in deeper.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xn98WR1oW
I struggle and fight.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpE8RV2PNOw
"Stop fighting me," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxMhOfV1e3
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9KPS9YIv4
"Get dressed," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXyhNWTKu5
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWiqVLVY7a
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gdcUI34AU
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIfQ5eIIMN
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZoy83AHrx
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlt6kLOFe7f
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnv6gs0K3E
I say, "Where's dad?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlGHePFex6
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmheSeRQNr
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyqbN0wzWC
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡua27G5F2Ss
My father says, "Where have you been?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOa1Y1Sg9qu
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWLwUF00yy
"Did they hurt you?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkYg2Ts5wA
"Yeah," I say.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCIUyneK4V
"I'm sorry."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5O2YzYsL1H
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pETA8Wtfn
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiflrswUFTH
"Is Allie in here?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxRhvttvZL
My dad says, "Yes, why?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNPEx8PUqb
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KPTQrV5Fh
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApfbASwXJh
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Yhf6fKx26
"No." I respond,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpgfylHIHz
"Can we come in?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdLQPnmImp
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpXoLRJ2eU
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4fUNrnmx2
I say, "I don't know."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbP63xoOPK
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsaJ9wpuH3
"No." I say,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkT6BhZr0Z
"Are you sure?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOu31mMMjbf
"Yes."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQfmGJ4svM
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTX3dw6TRJO
"Did he give you any food or water?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1sJsL3xzX
"No." I respond.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxszAdfc35L
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3jEhUTUR1
"No."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVOs9u7J6U
"What did he do to you?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2X0H1QBIH
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uNlWoEsSs
"Did you fight him?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnksTndAcu4
"I tried."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVA48ThDYIm
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KqGiwwDTO
"I think I blacked out."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMGS5dlpNw
"I see."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepqrdk8HmP
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdwpfUvYG2
"And how long were you with him?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCu0oBwbtse
"I think about ten hours."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWmesSPcmR
"And you only just managed to escape?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyr3nrqPsq6
"Yeah."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDdvGtCpsX
"Do you know where you were?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwn3jn42qY
I say "No."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBocTYt0v4c
"What is the last thing you remember?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKICbAt6Tu
"I remember walking down the road."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Bi70GmztX
"And then?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPoUNdCJuE
"I don't remember."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWBXSagjMR
"Do you know how you got away?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb78FB72A8h
I say, "I just ran,"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwOrKe0trl
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GGUoqpNOW
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZ6z77Bvde
I say, "So that's how it all happened."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwilHSOsHjo
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6aXRReR3AB
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvf0yNJdMUL
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLu057wZSEP
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsEWUXEOnm
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaomz3AK7Zo
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTKrTwTDKc
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfBsQ7iXuz
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCVaK4ce2r
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbTVmLWyOC
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLG4SbYhuA
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrc31ONcfj
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdiBOvRvKj
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHWKFEbLKQ
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtabUdloV2e
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNf4iufEzE
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzv18rNLjn
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdviCB26Ig
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpl9zMlbga8
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapbEupgiWA
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavw9Nn0shV
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFf5ni2mGNm
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkbexfsZGt
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQSrcuw3vF
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDx0aVYXtIW
"Get up." he says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhFrc5lxdm
"Why am I here?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZlRRuKd7P
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡog21v0IeA6
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlGNBANJkU
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2kjbcHngI
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3yq9MkGni
I sit down.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dahoivBsK
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9nTm6h10H
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJ9KW0njLm
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrGEQAvnDt
I say, "No."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJ3PqiTOJK
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdakhx1xWc
I respond, "Yes."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBj0ffIz5b
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaHaI7uICk
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7wD1nFihO
"Yes."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhJPmlHFhx
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjXiWFoZFP
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ709KXO6C2X
I say, "Hi."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3nQiisLsT
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1yEHTIzGS
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRuwUZG6cI
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkPRZHoeQy
"Right away," says the woman.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oxkcDkw6d
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM48FGB4WrZ
I say, "Okay."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmJiRxfi9D
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTLgXwef4S
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNfcj8EopS
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrnmPyctuj
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaQHkqYwQ0
"He kidnapped me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdAdc0Sdn5
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiA513SXDhl
I say, "He tried to stab me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSNWHKUDIO
"Who was he?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAX6WBeEOoM
"I don't know."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9ezswXc45
"Where did you get the knife?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYzgZyU6Od
"He had it in his pocket."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJB8pwTi6r
"Did he threaten you in any way?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkjwAR4Xlv
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzBzciMVJs
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fGcPeSMXl
"No."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ec94jDn0h
"You sure? Think hard."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9qkVBLUs5
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglLnQ6vXfi
I say, "He killed my father."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJ5uvUUbQ1
"What?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNfmrTfvqu
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRSDacFqdI
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DDPMdYlTA
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYoKV9IUn7
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcqDu8LQd1
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPg76dqFMS
I say, "Okay.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAuykcZgzA
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUnvim9MKb
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmhHnpBBPs
I follow him.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsA9dl8keTo
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0rBITlzaV
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGBmX2uf00
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0pXHImHXA
"Alright. Take a seat."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG45NN4Bg4H
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCKCoYqK41
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4vhoUi4xB
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmoE12zkiC
"Yes.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiiQWeygtI
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqffJHYE1Q
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOb33I68slE
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZ9w8pKJ22
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5cTTR6nJp
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Q1Zm0QQRE
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBKu3suUMI
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKLExffphj
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpzhKZMOqy
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3H8atRwB5z
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVfjDeX2Sj
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWkhsOsKzq
"What is it?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerOD3TPz0H
Doctor Kessel says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZRyeIgAoB
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZoiX7uL00m
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqH4ffUZ2W
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoIy38P3wj
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4pwcgKFZU
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOU6B7v7QW
The nurse shakes her head, and says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58aZuZ3ltq
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9y4ERxbdcM
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7aY5bGfQx
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF65SCP3qFp
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8Ykz6F0uQ
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElYN1WxzQl
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvSytx74NT
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVO2nBws5A
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOeXjHjmiN
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwIQbJgZWY
I say "Where am I?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgruVDjU4Oo
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3SyIbtfeS
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAq2EO3vVlV
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdx4JY99GA
I say, "I want to see my mom..."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboWiLmycpL
The nurse interrupts me and says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoT50fatzxc
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOJrzIbrA5
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtl8hMghHdR
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4qK6fX61Y
"M-mom.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKihxJNSgU0
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwluRdqHzmg
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijKZgSePRr
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCxyxtcalA
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuGY9pfwtu
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtCUvkQUHo
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa824OAJzvu
"Yes.." I say quietly.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxcDFaHoSp
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xi0F9Ruru
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sL1exqFX3
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pzaoEDLzQ
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAUEipi8Yr
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHD7aWPsLfZ
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNl1K72Wpp
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvZEa7q2Gf
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMenejZlF4
I say, "Okay.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgJbvHlNVf
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTunhSXEa7N
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27uv5NUvmV
I wipe the tears off my face.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXPnU0650u
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfmpJGtCTU
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlT5SQqRuHW
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ECbdMRHWU
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHQZPmQqaE
I say, "Tell me!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJ9ppqlQmO
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrsHDaIOpw
My heart drops.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlKWhGoccX
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03ltvttc6x
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In the morning, I get my visitors.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyymCpWt4md
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdLEosL2wg
I say, "Wait!" She stops.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mKNIRkjGE
"What is it?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHLTn8MrUJ
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNR2xNhDKb
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpre0MvXsQY
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbbXfM2YYR
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBYQOVhQ2M
I cry myself to sleep.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY87FbxJxRJ
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbuXMZd1dX
"How are you doing, honey?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflyebRbQ53
I say, "Horrible.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzxdLhepe7
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaN6xdwjrKN
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQqu8I5bnw
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWn1dQBOWEx
"It's not your fault, honey."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEogmx3IA1s
I start crying again.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCycpfJy5Xo
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLJfRAW5jV
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAjEnyyEXj
Maybe I'm dead after all.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjZ3vI9q1t
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtCQpDa71K
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAedP7b7FW
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSsVydeG2L
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ39qsMLTwP
I say, "I still want to win this."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN74jCyxin3
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlnFtQHPpF
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIKfxwMAbR
"Really?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh84554fKDg
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrnvmFNEgZ
I start crying, and I can't stop.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrYfisXHtR
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0dZaBknxg
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kYfBH2Jjj
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmkjDWECf6
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Nq9TeUXb6
"I wanted to see the flowers."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJO6neKbMaC
"Why are you out of your room?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsZWfFnH1T
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8zjhplbIP
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOwQfJUoJa
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHY2UkhenV
"Thank you for being you."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLt8DVPGok
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKt3E6WTprd
I make a decision.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FnSBPSJsJ
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdJK7bVCyA
"What's your name?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLakxFDtpNn
"Allisa," I say, smiling.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJFfB5tP8i
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0IQQuC1f5
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRbfhMmi8A
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dfXCK0Nt9
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSxrFc7D06
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWcpJX8zAm
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5FAtNCLZX
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIARgy83T2E
"I just want to go home," I say.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWs2qYmBRIT
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqFi40luuU
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdWnbavyDr
Father sighs.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCh0q6pOA17
I say "I don't want to stay here!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMc7crP0Gk
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSD8nWrBY0Q
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3sRoyoL42
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhru4epdUe
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4c9wfm3ZRI
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMkNPTqlSJ
"Pet, come down from the tree."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtWEKyfNST
I stay silent.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKWp6uUf9k
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTivDC8ClP6
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVvNIylplv
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPK0l7fZY9Q
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNxXuFjGbD
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KBTSiblqO
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk97fBzWPWH
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uem1RK9It
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJkVU3R2WK
I say, "Please don't hurt me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpm1bhBL3c
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2qK2KFEyr
I say, "Please don't!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcNT9d2wn2
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJV0bECCLD
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaF19FQVKNE
"You'll find out soon enough, child."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQm5WXPcdqn
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJHFtuXqE1
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFk2fojc7fn
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175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86kJdjA8ZaI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bsxAQr8WR
"Are you ready, child?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgjMi39oKC
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Ux67LmVBM
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNk3bbU5kf
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I say, "Okay.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mnn2qNfYI
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50xVCeNaiR
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYKfRaUoq5
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtY2u61FER
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQWxxnG2PK
Father says "Good. Stay there."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpp1rWIxGfE
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXhqOsgT7s
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZ5EV4dS3n
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrNEikksQi
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNth0bAtxqo
"Please!" I whisper.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWFkVXFjtQ
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGHOjteV62
I scream loudly.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKMaBgdylc
My scream echoes throughout the room.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpSBw39kMv
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Do1tVhInR
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtxvo32iNX
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbViqxPf3q
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlDQasS3vO
I say "P-please s-stop.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjLQAczG0m
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpxGusMIZJ
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwMflKZ7pO
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuhNbUtZfL
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgX22E0nvRW
"Look at her," another says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ziVoDFSvI
I say "Please leave me alone."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfAKD8E0B3
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU16zDm1hK1
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNdVh4tNT5
"We'll see. Let's see."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KxB5jN18o
I say "No no no.." They laugh.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lvusazvbM
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUGhEcRyTl
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmDyw8G7zb
They untie me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVrMBoqTgS
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbl5PgRvAG
"Ah... you're up," Father says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFq6bNEexZ
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175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYRM9lHqVN"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzqNdmmrre
"Where were you?" he asks,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡby9VYvVc1n
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeDb0WgBW7
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcHs16cXxV
Father smiles.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDetLukWX4
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu59FtWqZjU
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4YZRmEanU
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSq1iIyc7CM
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1khUcaNdD
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ifRHrEqpf
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTOoYRETW5
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzeUTxNpkIC
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXtAxGqKXQ
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGb4idkA56
I say, "Please let me go!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISUUMliJhk
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52a1gHzq9q
"You will," Father says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYgzqXgUWO
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4Q9FJosGz
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePoCJ3AfYY
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSVQWZ5JSw
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSBhhBQVTJ
"Stop crying," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhpkOHYRBG
"I can't!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKUDQDjEYR
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvathpcKpHQ
"Stop it!" I cry.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFlUKpU1oF
"I said stop it!" he yells,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNrCxvutX0
"I can't," I say.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKZpUgqPsD
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr72lhZ5u8D
"NO!" Father screams.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtk3I6cgX1y
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCSuLpj23O
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7PHZANMPq
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0le2efXPoo
"I would. I really would."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhVDQjdsRc
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOejZdXCYFW
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gNsiY1b2j
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UmCvSpnqy
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFT0yTBksD3
I say, "No I'm not!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbXH6zHZQw
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuZFRJg6Dd
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybLk3Xe1lv
I say "No I won't!!!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBApmiFMsY1
"You will!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgOPfqWqrJ
"I said NO!!!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMptjJ5LYj
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjLhBulsVB
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7lCTmmYT2
"I know you will," Father says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzGD47rqtL
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1DclVgEaQ
He says "One."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZeJ9wkVBn
I say, "I'll do anything.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIAvN48zOe
"Two."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2bQjvJzr4
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfbdIQWUWs
"Three."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbs8UMYcxbE
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNtSTGPNkV
"No, don't do it," Father says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DNjS8MiDq
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HHAV8zfXx
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuZGlZfEPl
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5x8dBrJckk
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZksxs1Ebb
I say "Yes."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZw43PPIQJv
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJk7xOHenrX
"Yes," I say.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBEnli84lV
"Good girl," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHlmab7HmK
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvaHXbZGk29
"I won't," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CpGu6U8k0
I stay tied up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWKMkKLTDo
"Now," he says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2quXQ9F4A
"Kneel."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LQwSrZ6Rf
"Please," I say.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOR0Quq3qO2
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjcPgDezM3
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpv1VMs3Pxc
I just know it.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnmaHg8CEV
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSAALnNTds
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTadcf4egZl
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlor2euLp7T
I'm all alone in the room.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjw4iAAKwL
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175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMADbzFPy45I hear the door open. I look up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI01XvTUYO3
"Hello," a man says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsnOcHxcO5
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxG2qzewmIm
"Hands behind your back," he says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiln2WwnUh
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5F5snFvdYL
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2JfSkVFvR
"Stay there," he says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQpU06bdzm
I stay on my knees.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfdiucya8W
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzD65B5eHo8
I say "No no no."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOApC3Oqvij
"Do it," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9exs65S9Ps
I say no. He pushes harder.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVYkWCdKIS
"Do it!" he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hsmtKxZ3m
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrMOeNd1Bi
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8qyHTYPDq
"Stay there," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXlrLKeSMl
I stay on my knees.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQvwCjZAHg
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkDmXDAgIi
"Stop moving."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlx3kpR28NC
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31ljiYALnX
He pulls it out of my throat.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPos8yqs45n
"What's wrong?" he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksxg0hXkpS
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsxkLLu1U6
"What?" he says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEJEYe05Rc
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP73L12JPx8
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEzWJnomDK
"Is this too big for you?" he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZL6JMjJLOV
I nod.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8SaWrkBKw
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxknQVpUEGb
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsPwlDNn3h
He shoves it back in.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23ACwYDJQO
I decide that vomiting once is enough.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FG2rM3dJE
He shoves it in deeper.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xn98WR1oW
I struggle and fight.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpE8RV2PNOw
"Stop fighting me," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxMhOfV1e3
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9KPS9YIv4
"Get dressed," he says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXyhNWTKu5
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWiqVLVY7a
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gdcUI34AU
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175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZG1A7Aj36175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXCU2pOcVN
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIfQ5eIIMN
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZoy83AHrx
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlt6kLOFe7f
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnv6gs0K3E
I say, "Where's dad?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlGHePFex6
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmheSeRQNr
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyqbN0wzWC
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡua27G5F2Ss
My father says, "Where have you been?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOa1Y1Sg9qu
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWLwUF00yy
"Did they hurt you?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkYg2Ts5wA
"Yeah," I say.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCIUyneK4V
"I'm sorry."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5O2YzYsL1H
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pETA8Wtfn
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiflrswUFTH
"Is Allie in here?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxRhvttvZL
My dad says, "Yes, why?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNPEx8PUqb
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KPTQrV5Fh
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApfbASwXJh
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Yhf6fKx26
"No." I respond,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpgfylHIHz
"Can we come in?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdLQPnmImp
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpXoLRJ2eU
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4fUNrnmx2
I say, "I don't know."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbP63xoOPK
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsaJ9wpuH3
"No." I say,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkT6BhZr0Z
"Are you sure?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOu31mMMjbf
"Yes."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQfmGJ4svM
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTX3dw6TRJO
"Did he give you any food or water?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1sJsL3xzX
"No." I respond.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxszAdfc35L
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3jEhUTUR1
"No."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVOs9u7J6U
"What did he do to you?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2X0H1QBIH
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uNlWoEsSs
"Did you fight him?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnksTndAcu4
"I tried."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVA48ThDYIm
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KqGiwwDTO
"I think I blacked out."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMGS5dlpNw
"I see."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepqrdk8HmP
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdwpfUvYG2
"And how long were you with him?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCu0oBwbtse
"I think about ten hours."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWmesSPcmR
"And you only just managed to escape?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyr3nrqPsq6
"Yeah."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDdvGtCpsX
"Do you know where you were?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwn3jn42qY
I say "No."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBocTYt0v4c
"What is the last thing you remember?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKICbAt6Tu
"I remember walking down the road."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Bi70GmztX
"And then?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPoUNdCJuE
"I don't remember."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWBXSagjMR
"Do you know how you got away?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb78FB72A8h
I say, "I just ran,"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwOrKe0trl
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GGUoqpNOW
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZ6z77Bvde
I say, "So that's how it all happened."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwilHSOsHjo
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6aXRReR3AB
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvf0yNJdMUL
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLu057wZSEP
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsEWUXEOnm
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaomz3AK7Zo
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTKrTwTDKc
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfBsQ7iXuz
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCVaK4ce2r
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbTVmLWyOC
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLG4SbYhuA
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrc31ONcfj
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdiBOvRvKj
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHWKFEbLKQ
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtabUdloV2e
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNf4iufEzE
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzv18rNLjn
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175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNDv2LU4ftAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdviCB26Ig
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpl9zMlbga8
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapbEupgiWA
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavw9Nn0shV
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFf5ni2mGNm
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkbexfsZGt
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQSrcuw3vF
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDx0aVYXtIW
"Get up." he says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhFrc5lxdm
"Why am I here?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZlRRuKd7P
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡog21v0IeA6
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlGNBANJkU
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2kjbcHngI
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3yq9MkGni
I sit down.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dahoivBsK
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9nTm6h10H
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJ9KW0njLm
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrGEQAvnDt
I say, "No."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJ3PqiTOJK
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdakhx1xWc
I respond, "Yes."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBj0ffIz5b
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaHaI7uICk
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7wD1nFihO
"Yes."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhJPmlHFhx
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjXiWFoZFP
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ709KXO6C2X
I say, "Hi."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3nQiisLsT
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1yEHTIzGS
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRuwUZG6cI
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkPRZHoeQy
"Right away," says the woman.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oxkcDkw6d
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM48FGB4WrZ
I say, "Okay."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmJiRxfi9D
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTLgXwef4S
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNfcj8EopS
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrnmPyctuj
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaQHkqYwQ0
"He kidnapped me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdAdc0Sdn5
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiA513SXDhl
I say, "He tried to stab me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSNWHKUDIO
"Who was he?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAX6WBeEOoM
"I don't know."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9ezswXc45
"Where did you get the knife?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYzgZyU6Od
"He had it in his pocket."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJB8pwTi6r
"Did he threaten you in any way?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkjwAR4Xlv
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzBzciMVJs
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fGcPeSMXl
"No."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ec94jDn0h
"You sure? Think hard."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9qkVBLUs5
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglLnQ6vXfi
I say, "He killed my father."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJ5uvUUbQ1
"What?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNfmrTfvqu
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRSDacFqdI
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DDPMdYlTA
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYoKV9IUn7
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcqDu8LQd1
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPg76dqFMS
I say, "Okay.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAuykcZgzA
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUnvim9MKb
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmhHnpBBPs
I follow him.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsA9dl8keTo
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0rBITlzaV
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGBmX2uf00
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0pXHImHXA
"Alright. Take a seat."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG45NN4Bg4H
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCKCoYqK41
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4vhoUi4xB
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmoE12zkiC
"Yes.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiiQWeygtI
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqffJHYE1Q
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOb33I68slE
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZ9w8pKJ22
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5cTTR6nJp
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Q1Zm0QQRE
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBKu3suUMI
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKLExffphj
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpzhKZMOqy
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3H8atRwB5z
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVfjDeX2Sj
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWkhsOsKzq
"What is it?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerOD3TPz0H
Doctor Kessel says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZRyeIgAoB
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZoiX7uL00m
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqH4ffUZ2W
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoIy38P3wj
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4pwcgKFZU
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOU6B7v7QW
The nurse shakes her head, and says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58aZuZ3ltq
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9y4ERxbdcM
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7aY5bGfQx
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF65SCP3qFp
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8Ykz6F0uQ
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElYN1WxzQl
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvSytx74NT
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVO2nBws5A
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOeXjHjmiN
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwIQbJgZWY
I say "Where am I?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgruVDjU4Oo
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3SyIbtfeS
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAq2EO3vVlV
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdx4JY99GA
I say, "I want to see my mom..."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboWiLmycpL
The nurse interrupts me and says,175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoT50fatzxc
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOJrzIbrA5
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtl8hMghHdR
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175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQiEw4vYHMA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4qK6fX61Y
"M-mom.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKihxJNSgU0
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwluRdqHzmg
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijKZgSePRr
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCxyxtcalA
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuGY9pfwtu
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtCUvkQUHo
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa824OAJzvu
"Yes.." I say quietly.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxcDFaHoSp
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xi0F9Ruru
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sL1exqFX3
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pzaoEDLzQ
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAUEipi8Yr
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHD7aWPsLfZ
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNl1K72Wpp
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvZEa7q2Gf
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMenejZlF4
I say, "Okay.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgJbvHlNVf
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTunhSXEa7N
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27uv5NUvmV
I wipe the tears off my face.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXPnU0650u
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfmpJGtCTU
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlT5SQqRuHW
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ECbdMRHWU
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHQZPmQqaE
I say, "Tell me!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJ9ppqlQmO
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrsHDaIOpw
My heart drops.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlKWhGoccX
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03ltvttc6x
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175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkWgp5CvVEIn the morning, I get my visitors.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyymCpWt4md
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdLEosL2wg
I say, "Wait!" She stops.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mKNIRkjGE
"What is it?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHLTn8MrUJ
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNR2xNhDKb
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpre0MvXsQY
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbbXfM2YYR
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBYQOVhQ2M
I cry myself to sleep.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY87FbxJxRJ
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbuXMZd1dX
"How are you doing, honey?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflyebRbQ53
I say, "Horrible.."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzxdLhepe7
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaN6xdwjrKN
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQqu8I5bnw
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWn1dQBOWEx
"It's not your fault, honey."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEogmx3IA1s
I start crying again.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCycpfJy5Xo
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLJfRAW5jV
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAjEnyyEXj
Maybe I'm dead after all.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjZ3vI9q1t
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtCQpDa71K
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAedP7b7FW
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSsVydeG2L
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ39qsMLTwP
I say, "I still want to win this."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN74jCyxin3
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlnFtQHPpF
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIKfxwMAbR
"Really?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh84554fKDg
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrnvmFNEgZ
I start crying, and I can't stop.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrYfisXHtR
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0dZaBknxg
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kYfBH2Jjj
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmkjDWECf6
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Nq9TeUXb6
"I wanted to see the flowers."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJO6neKbMaC
"Why are you out of your room?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsZWfFnH1T
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8zjhplbIP
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOwQfJUoJa
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHY2UkhenV
"Thank you for being you."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLt8DVPGok
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKt3E6WTprd
I make a decision.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FnSBPSJsJ
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdJK7bVCyA
"What's your name?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLakxFDtpNn
"Allisa," I say, smiling.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJFfB5tP8i
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0IQQuC1f5
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRbfhMmi8A
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dfXCK0Nt9
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSxrFc7D06
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