「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3oznLqUC2
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9HZ2xW38N
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwi4DfHYGsW
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幼小我的父母就離異，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyJO2gIgwf
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlblKymwxB
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對母親的記憶還是有，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kN6eDcpXl
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記得她很常酗酒，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7IWHNCirC
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後來的日子，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PLuwwo4x0
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyKAfgV4dd
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忙於工作的他，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMWuVgnn3s
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3G3AIjEW99
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到了上課時間再直接上課，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxEEqZFIVj
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYGWW5kZqq
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1Th5nfJCz
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbHPy9ayiw
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnJmXw1WIv
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObKLOiN8bR
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父親工作的地方不一定，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQispqUAufv
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輾轉的換了三所小學，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiM6QgE3St
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSDqITW2OK
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他開始會喜怒無常，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSeESyrpmR
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBnYXxwNt6
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8CsFRD7dV
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很小我就與異性交往，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VUHZ6krcl
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrLs0SVUmg
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MOqNjRRub
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgd8JGuPHa
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我會睡在工地，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMgdNrOQPD
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoN4bueoRor
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AFT70nhxa
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4Sp5MTYJa
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他開始會講貶低的話語，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSh3UDDY8Ax
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那些原本用來工作的用具，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nj6qogwML
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbpxlaI1r8
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKICG52Bk6
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Qz0ANgAQx
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14Zte6lz1k
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要我轉告給老師，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6AO9Vgw0H
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WatPkGyoV
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqY7OVaqjDD
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaTXK0RuZR
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHTN1hmzzI
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細細去回想每個片段，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBV1y4MnezW
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlLbqwfvQF
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6A0JcMv3JD
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFFgOgSJpB
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVWb7TRtR8
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8qFPK8n1A
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTRpqJ1sNK
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmFtDyGEm9
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZMqqZd7a6
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAz8S5wkks
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7B4zHreeZ
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45pcjaRsDd
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正準備吃下第一口時，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEbO2R0yWW
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteeV0sqdDj
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEmmIEscnF
