I’m tired.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLR418iQNH
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFCA9c5V0S
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWL0gHZtxo
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2XWXLLKCN
to pick them up and set them back down.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFQ5uUMJZV
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgd9Rxn3lm6
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCUMkhhtlG
like a normal person, thank you.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCubxhN8Upv
I try.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWldJ3KnTE
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKV7PKLatN
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKupYLH6sE
just barely making it from one place to another662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iGfVdwojn
without damage.
I’m tired.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGivMeINTu
Just this Wednesday I was driving home662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhtGjkWRPL
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKXdp7syfr
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtHbOIdTUy
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2xxnO2lhZ
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgP6NtmCssj
for those I’m not sure how to help662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAYA1indev
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxDsfg04gM
And while I was driving down the highway662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZOxgig5vm
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2t6JITZQo
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJk8wszlNsh
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjps4aRlzaW
collide with the wall, break through and destroy662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdVb3iH6H1
the other side.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNznfM6fd5
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpOiGwPHKt
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCatEP9NCGX
harm anyone else in the process. But I662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGd0Diz6HY
didn’t do either, even though I662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZa7PIQC3T
got so scared for a minute662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSgGYBIrJy
that I would.
I’m tired.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1JLD71OGs
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IMfTr6uG0
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08O8ZSYXR9
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQGAHWE8mf
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7Q6A5t00z
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfePSQepWLE
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFGmZo8fIf
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpBasNJGZs
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIht2PMLc3r
draw blood, but it was the first time662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVBH8TAeuQ
I had allowed myself to662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aYjZ21G7M
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeqsod1qu6
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPLYnDeQWH
actually reach out and go through with it662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OpIcHtOUG
I think because I’m afraid of not existing662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KS97gGndK
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVImxW0x97F
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXp1GTNcQd
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqx1mJU4Ag
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡac5DnZ5yPF
and give up. I have thought about dying every day662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsv8siKs1M
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvw6CU1vVvx
go through with it.
I’m tired.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGBSLbSWWo
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60h765QQq7
for people to care about me when they should662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMdkHfrWuq
care about me on their own. I often think that662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwATXhAptc
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5hCuAZp1y
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmQKENpccj
She often hurts me more than she improves my life662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO32pydg7u9
but I’m too afraid to say anything because662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMhVBxVXVq
I need her. I need her to exist662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdJFXzKElX
in my existence, and I need her to662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgDgGOSlYy
be by my side.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45PrMc8HzH
But I’m tired.
I’m tired662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9J4eBQU7OK
of being tired662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzYjcEtvzk
in this tiring life.
