I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTUD6I0SbH
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowKm69enXh
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyME3xRVjs
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HVSznbThb
to pick them up and set them back down.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Wc4MIoenQ
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTq9me84xC
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQHRG9WBxl
like a normal person, thank you.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMGI6pFhHk
I try.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmrcXx16a7
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQTTUNmZPN
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEYfEYeWvF
just barely making it from one place to another724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20UzVkCBn3
without damage.
I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSp3OT4klpb
Just this Wednesday I was driving home724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0RJsQL4Bp
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPfKJuDODO
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIN2oDbQSK
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCH8hP8IEPt
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5NFCBjwrp
for those I’m not sure how to help724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTas1Y9mGPA
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sIBauzU69
And while I was driving down the highway724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XKtAP9w9X
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5WZU7h3sF
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhZ7SsQEeg
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9vo2Yc3ET
collide with the wall, break through and destroy724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1nqkaVHGE
the other side.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCh0wr8zZB
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8BoPpBLlg
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgAXqG5t2M
harm anyone else in the process. But I724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyq1zZMbUQ
didn’t do either, even though I724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGAy6fmvmH
got so scared for a minute724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIlkzevFOA
that I would.
I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IkEyJWanL
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTQujFIqx7
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjawmqg64Xp
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlpOoKUULo
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOlob4KEBR
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLqt6tqtyf
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtTCmYluke
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVfta2Awc0
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AZA6F5qQR
draw blood, but it was the first time724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qtBYl50WN
I had allowed myself to724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgw4a2OLr9p
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6jp4PKqAP
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDXoUS6YmH
actually reach out and go through with it724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQCPBOIkZXt
I think because I’m afraid of not existing724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCMWAyEuQp
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4s1c8fMasj
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUE0O1PtIzC
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmKpgA5lvG
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPoxxGErLW
and give up. I have thought about dying every day724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvR7cnZE8kD
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqxAbgz8Xw
go through with it.
I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFZTL0AqJ8
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJjtTUB1SJ
for people to care about me when they should724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xhlBBcVpN
care about me on their own. I often think that724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5ej2kwL6s
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSxKRjwll4
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOCeZmEALA
She often hurts me more than she improves my life724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAbHDqUqha
but I’m too afraid to say anything because724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJq2Yo6y3e
I need her. I need her to exist724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2ZyrHyYw6
in my existence, and I need her to724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9dyvqpTfQ
be by my side.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKWRXMoCg1
But I’m tired.
I’m tired724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsy6RRJXzr
of being tired724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zxgPBbOHT
in this tiring life.
