「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBakMr3AHo7
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IuRszqfp6
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82LmlxKvoI
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幼小我的父母就離異，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOeVH7fdjSj
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IG9GAYyiI
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對母親的記憶還是有，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKACozsLim
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記得她很常酗酒，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfjKTyUKvO
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後來的日子，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYftomJXMC
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvl9maZYF9w
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忙於工作的他，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZPbABGwQx
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31Bn7kpT4k
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到了上課時間再直接上課，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRflbhYWsPn
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaXI6gdHKz
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNunUIO5IMC
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LI61fX33p
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxp6tlYp9kr
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc62tBkh7Jr
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父親工作的地方不一定，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPITW1nqvc
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輾轉的換了三所小學，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJy3j71Ms6
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdY92EfmMw
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他開始會喜怒無常，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5v4XwjEqv
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyUefu7fB0
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXL2NbjzIO
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很小我就與異性交往，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdrjIqIFWQ
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8B2sAz3x6y
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihSfrY8KM2
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EnxIqEyZA
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我會睡在工地，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0umm4yrFB
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgu12Q75Kh
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4HvMDSAQh
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoT0khQIsn
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他開始會講貶低的話語，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hiY1Jo7p2
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那些原本用來工作的用具，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7p4jS3A2u
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7Uoh8y3Ph
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAcd7cks83
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpvTlCXZ2T
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtZVrUtUm6
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要我轉告給老師，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5n5M4BJkDJ
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqu78hBQ2R
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ223To5MXZm
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjy247fURO4
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSW3Y46Nnt
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細細去回想每個片段，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeWxKhRSaC
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0YUSddhyP
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡauTjzfTxsF
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2YnQ6aECz
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOoSboIvf2
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9BeDwftqx
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtWLq17SWB
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9ENmlYk7T
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwKiuRtedn
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxt6t0eEBe
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIbFdTP7vO
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiTUfzIGKZ
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正準備吃下第一口時，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEfBSZnfjd
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdZw80XUPI
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZa6iux3hM
