「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnJhElv8pG
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzzaW3G9Kn
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1VK2Iiftb
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幼小我的父母就離異，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzns4cw5NWl
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4jQ6o8MED
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對母親的記憶還是有，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIUUlbQarB
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記得她很常酗酒，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qoGUaq6TA
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後來的日子，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0YLQSyBny
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAyUGfBLhN
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忙於工作的他，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeQvq3Zd2f
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwYfa4huE9
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到了上課時間再直接上課，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3cujIrj4e
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPe4An0EO1U
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pvTCypg9c
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XGkJh22iw
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvk75UaHltd
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLkhDboKif
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父親工作的地方不一定，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CQULNH4BU
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輾轉的換了三所小學，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASL4EGaSJQ
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZkAXErG6o
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他開始會喜怒無常，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzv0p74tH5z
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwB07jZGw8
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WrxTngsJI
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很小我就與異性交往，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXK00Vo7yeH
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHLgIIAA3L
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtngAMnTtqU
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKVdqqcjo6
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我會睡在工地，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtUQaz7Rxp
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxouiSOI5h
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlthvy6yxLZ
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJKvsUnzui
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他開始會講貶低的話語，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcD6Hs0MAW
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那些原本用來工作的用具，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4wlOF56xG
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YTs8pFsDA
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbuhfDFTaKE
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdxMvhD8qM
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseWkaK0BxH
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要我轉告給老師，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIa65NMgEr
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAIb5zZmSw
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPswQUr4zP
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfSyTI7tAy
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtp0fuDF8At
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細細去回想每個片段，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7kHJe7ZE1
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhcNDG5k6Z
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TXzLWJLpY
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwiyW6zwpz
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5C5IjquMNZ
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVWm2fXwej
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnRLOzpoHa
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeZwhoVmYK
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0JWoJQQKz
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkktDuIfg44
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDETJlNHiT
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNTWEVgNkO
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正準備吃下第一口時，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXZmj6O3sO
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspvNlYPpYr
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。781Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgXfD7t6HT
