Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiUlljcYIx
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRWZVrDIdg
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyjvKmsAzY
It's been four months since that day.704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesRDS52GBE
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsnn5ggCgL
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrAx27xYjq
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWot17keK5p
Only loneliness.704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPtSiNO90v
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQgYEPHvkr
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2DA5DitMq
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQd9UfHf9V
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69xG1RGfMm
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnd3zFssRzO
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC63fNyJCrm
They remind me of home. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9MIWHtr27
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KyHSFLtmS
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5h6YuAjiDu
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiy2q2pld2
I don't want to be here. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PVjO4H8Mb
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19EtiQJTsb
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgIFCnaH2b
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcmuCm6v2u
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvwC6gioQG
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHO1eeB6QFK
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2q4W1rPrd6
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohowUUcgwk
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjO85vCPVpo
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfk8g5WBzRT
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJB4vOsJex
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyqHTEoxUB
I want it to make sense.704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ15V32iLLt
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiB7kTNkkKN
The PaperGarden.704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4OadC7jWs
To be Continued...704Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQh8PAa7pL
