Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0LDYiX80P
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3rfsM70Lw
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5Ol2xJl78
It's been four months since that day.764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY36XYbYcuJ
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtO1Owvvpp9
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIU8CWB4so
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06RTkswSzX
Only loneliness.764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yBlvyBLGG
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5EGSxD8C0a
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡld5QRhfJbl
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBAeH6fkWL
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡME7Qy2cxiK
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FnTQzSsWz
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5nHekhcZz
They remind me of home. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nOpjP4hHn
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgD2BmeTtsr
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ031xnprtWO
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdL2Whw4AE
I don't want to be here. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSbv8kn73c
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoC6FzlJDH
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddMjVVfaAw
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxo5z1QB6Gk
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkbBh34Xln
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyvsXPDN0G
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhA73afYIV3
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vkI9Dfdgp
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihcpzgrEZj
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrkbqYI3fO
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGk0pI2PfDJ
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlVElRTxnr
I want it to make sense.764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9vT1cZKft
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdjcaJKInf
The PaperGarden.764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuF8f8C3oR1
To be Continued...764Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7OGPu1wvz
