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Some of my colleagues 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIJNqPICHl
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtjDcQWg3C
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5KxS5EOaz
suggestion or hypnosis.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VUGUPweZi
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTiN8OoyZr
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUhtmhAn3a
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiHn7kZ3De
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgqMbaKbxF
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRohlpaQDN7
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VssowMdT8
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoHTeTRWAG
capabilities.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAN5QmCgNWS
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPpBk4o0f8
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David awakened. Not 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3maglByv2o
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1lJ7Y7lVq
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7ZWYJFkP0
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tjDPsPoba
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8Qh70ajPz
undamaged.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTkzMOheZl
"Only your physical body596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtmpBzcVhP
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32b8nTdNJy
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYcnXNnUrz
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SweWw16LS
A shadowy form appeared.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwBOJM1p0I
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYjuz05bbF
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Q5JaXoP1y
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTa6oTuSQH
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNL4c8T3vp
"Am I in the...ether 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DGiqoqDmG
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfzTtfx9kV
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQawERdlhQr
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVVVsru0lc
David was tired, too 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsKrIDwP6l
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32ZH5Itlu2
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLEl6LyzVK
The shadowy hood cocked 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINRcJGlS4w
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0WAV9syV3
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsdP7VOk6K
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVh891LEft
more grateful."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkWyYeCW5O
"I..."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkG43sKn34b
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0doEKMPFIP
David groaned in 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigdUyQqoGg
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7sGhgQhJe
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Ee4Jf7Ebe
falling point, that'd be fly."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8KWVLFnbg
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMeJq1q34c
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nlNjxLvj4
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QMDyaX02Q
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLag9cXupDI
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeb2SXa8O67
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rsV5rBIhb
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIr5A1apmcF
David shouted and 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFevDDHypQ
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5bqAHr8sy
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNC8s4N4FV
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJZShJWEZA
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMetSZqUS9
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OjPp2p2Xw
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ztCMVm3af
mist.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgosUTwELma
Jester's voice came from596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbw46KS5ezy
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVuSF5WxTv
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshXxsOAbvQ
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1WBVdgTAG
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tO4rXRmnG
creating a circle around Jester and David.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgug4U3BWiP
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsc1xAdOQs
"Shut up!" David 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DIzBLTySv
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaQ3JNpp7b
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTQIttPhyN
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5acUqrT3Mv
Jester gave another 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6I6iAfMj7
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBZBFiuiD2
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOw6bDQWpc
afraid of the truth?" 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASCO2Jngqy
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPE2XfK08Of
"You're what? A 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvmq8MWY44
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMlzMHks3R
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfUDMiJdaG
you've done not matter." 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZCd9N6wiX
The shadows completely 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4gJ54yvtP
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukBVyLhFGx
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisF4HRJlwn
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEYbv6Z1cB
eye and shadows swallowed him.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRriXq8ibqR
Shadows parting, David 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMYy2KIDx6
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaQ8HuQx5a
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH73J0AavCk
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLZE1j9zMS
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XVH1xOkpl
mother596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVsUW8sMQP
"This is my memory." 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkkLYUi9zL
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hs0pj4O3T
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaVltkJBIW
David didn't reply to 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCw3kkUrLi
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ncayp3QSv
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCH0ynhsi0
Unaware of what was 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaZYZKmVPL
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUDXdreAY4
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmN1YUVBv4
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpl8nDwtrSM
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmfL370rle
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKBZFCqFiZ
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67V5vEcMnr
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ56oDyzbuJ
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFJEA5HyGB
Finally the screams of 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJdTR9CceI
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡje7bWWlkWB
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsqvNa4cX7
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGLitszOzI
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0HFYHDHLK
the baby's throat and squeezed.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyAS7XTOTD
David could feel his 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1A20VlR9k
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGk5ZKfv4g9
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBGSQcOAVk
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmy0s1Bvc4p
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡot7cPZAky9
stopped.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUUyhYu7TJ
"Oh, nonononono." The 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iYWftQX5J
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl93DIkgHh5
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXvM1xkcWc
"You who were supposed 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QlJ94Oj7D
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJ8hJegniw
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweK3FZhCCN
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFg43WLTtG
Coughing David stood up 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9U9OFbuNa
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6cDHFzLMW
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMA53ZThXJ3
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRIN2pHqjd
"No, it was a small 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BHJRpNyFr
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oWSohRsi5
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszUopMXcAG
He was staring at the 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9x9YmKNx5
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmM7fYGmW2
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadGnU3hUdB
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYCY3qLFRW
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB29bVjPhVj
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQQFjH3ADj
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeG1DkGaKFk
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0SV5XDquv
"I will!" Came a squeaky596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNwBlXdaCI
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvKjXxyrhX
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRwQApH3fJ
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YWuuw51LC
was an adult.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEp6myc8fW
A knock came from a door596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXBxyuLLtu
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70UYbO2H3d
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2NONl1vFT
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayZFxuJ2TY
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOTTlSTJyH
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7PCJhoheO
being a bad boy.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lQAoVOW9U
That's why he didn't 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEql47RKecf
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaHKSMRadB
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7dTWgoMos
"D..david" the answer 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6DXJODHKe
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoh8GiBTBi0
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XeQLfhz0S
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEgMtDnEQa
The man put his hands on596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8nBHCnXc2
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKsAEyccMr
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXdpNays7E
David meekly shook his 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpygpZ9LBuC
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH94bU4tRLC
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzd2516IgL
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckLErDL6Ud
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWj59dGM39U
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWQFYNLclp
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIeAzieLlO
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl81LTHdY01
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknfgNo62Kf
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfaAQDsjAyt
Davids body.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMf3Khd5ue
Please don't. Came adult David's voice596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkkVv0iN1G
Young David was scared; 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXeCP7VEAj
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHBVJ45Qnb
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6WwcfcK6u
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWOzIfJHxS
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVppc6rVQM
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIx9j2AmETM
"Mummy, mummy!" David 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIpF3xPBi3
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsXDzXwxdF
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpyzFqviGj
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWfPNZ1m1V
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnCQpNrzgv
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8Ub6n8IPq
David didn't even know 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvo0iBqCz6
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXO5Kj5kAE
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7U4TH27LC
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ325n0UZxoP
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeuOVFo88E
David could barely hear 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYH1BghZzA0
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnx0LOktix
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRllGDi0Nh
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fUvZOmeCg
anger. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPaHTMxU3W
"There are more 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFclTHfMsSG
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPypJaItgRS
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0TsE0BDgJ
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStLyCIeH0A
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoG9YtzaPD
"What else is there to 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbt5qbS7MHg
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8ywoXX051
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvTgr2prtq
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijoXdQ9KPq
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5D6P4SkniX
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsENxRfPPdl
floor. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJ92PJx6aQ
Even the pain didn't 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rEiHd6Kww
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiJ4hWdZge
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3cFCu2twc
everything would be gone.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmoYP4mGD3
~Just like that, give up596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZMRJJvUwo
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsnaxbGZ47
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfGh7L2eIe
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2vpfu23bw
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiy65MHhV5P
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdP9Ud0Bq3
than this."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiazfJ6QxEV
~STOP! ~ David dropped 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAt1oIsB9IY
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnK6hiTGuo
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfW3OGADXYz
survive. Survive and live.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtSHythfAs
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Xui4rKMWY
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOG7sKlou7n
"Indeed." Jester 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ629sqpeY0P
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjHq0IqJri
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXAj5rPX9N
like his own did.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcT73Ica9X
"Why did you try 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMh254uvcmV
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6V8BUUEj7t
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfD12Lkugxc
process the influx of memories.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBhwigT0l1
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxHPcOTHte
"You expect me to believe that?"596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvToQETiGSp
"Believe what you want."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMC0d8zkLSc
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQmPsW3xTR
Jester chuckled. "All of596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbpkk4ecXK
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJ7Jn1OEw1
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulHi5DCgci
"That just 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsP77PDFiR
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ06oLXa5zH
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡab3J4Pxr1G
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYtYV93LfC
David nodded. "Do it."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzXuO8gvEn
Everything shifted. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTIk9mXJHJ
David was cleaning his 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ESQK4MPF1
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8XWOR9jL8
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTXuP5pGZj
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG56hhnHKXN
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFPnKlqwgK
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPn7iAVYcD
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8D35FFiJsU
His last one was just 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLNXkZykhs
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarW5z5yJJv
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmfB67Y15z
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVUtnknMAd
Undamaged goods she loved to say.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6YmitqviH
Right on cue, David 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxQJTzt2v2
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPi8JuMArW2
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gRrJxSYDv
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoolLQkZdX
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSpisVr33y
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ttFUZvTRw
Why was this his life? 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJVvTXQiqR
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46SOIqApzV
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7jeLWGduh
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacZLHEeZPy
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJIau2pGpI
vein trying to get his eyes. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQ8N1KCn85
~Enough David.~ A voice 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaAbOyjkMQ
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4jiS7YfCb
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ860eTtdt3l
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGvgbuIHwN
and met resistance.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnP60Uq4PdS
The scratching and 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YkGXg2Af4
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIalCw1QWN
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruL8HI8b7v
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgUh6xSk8w
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkt5uwl3igH
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1k7rwHqKRz
Oh god what did he do? 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvOHEraL6R
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBzqwuJ1bS
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfwmGrwlad
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdAiRDpzkd
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSeOekfjhI
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi51SB19WR6
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcPIaAnhO2
blood.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJS6NbGmMU
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjQVwM3Pfc
There was a pause and everything quieted down.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHndxa4kHBZ
A boy named David just 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxFjdnvTb3
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06ZQInUk3H
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTMAcywtkh
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFIj8bvPmU
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ewYd5Ozfw
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFT6YnTpFad
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KbRwLCz6u
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3xdMXeAUr
silly of him.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFD9tYVEREL
Remembering his 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsqGYqHoF5
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPKWvIEpT3
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XNHOPr62N
table preparing a meal. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrk0sET310
"There you are David!" 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCU1z9TKCQS
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8ILp3UzE0
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXAsNXQBE1
This isn't the truth.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4RXkOps0Z
David obligingly sat 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nUL1cRu2r
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Waw7PkUc6
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfThr3O1z3
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppbn2V3a6u
A dream, nothing else.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8eUbsrimd
They all thanked the 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQ1teTwwZW
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkg8CbjaxhM
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuWaviSDsM
this lie.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcJuYFuzjU
A lie that has to end.596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlh0pNCOQp2
David was standing at 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtREVJjw4TR
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtk20XhXjHs
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzy4CuAoIB
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LLDvbDoZt
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOVk48oQNn
Either way David hated 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENKhOyL63a
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCU5ipTxKj
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqCztm4x7t
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZHHKMOZxl
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIb7MvcgII
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAxZzf6Y6a
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSW35SC3wr
life this happy blissful life?596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwV5oke2RZ
The answer was so simple596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVj3TRJg9A
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvg7YOiEvO
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdPOxmbsyR
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUXG9x9SEv
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Egp90fE5e
David decided to start 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgSeJQORRm
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2gAhBRT0M
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SniVBU2u0
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMt2moHBxx
mother. "No more mercy."596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡex2fqrUdTk
With the last stab 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2G4sYQQBOF
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvReD2ZIeMw
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast596Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPPxJvAaOE
emptiness.
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