我其實是打算開口的。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxNMXTYto8
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昨天那句話講完，我就後悔了。雖然嘴上還撐著一副理直氣壯的樣子，心裡其實已經在想要怎麼和好。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjA5T6UYbha
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只是她什麼都沒說，就進房、關門，連頭都沒回。那聲「喀」一響，我腦袋空了一下。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYasKConKCq
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我站在原地，有想過要不要敲門。她那時候是真的生氣，不是鬧情緒，也不是裝可憐——就是完全不想再聽我講半句話。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡty3fp9XiU7
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我擔心現在開口，只會讓她更火。以前也發生過幾次這種狀況，兩邊情緒上來的時候，誰講話都只會讓事情變得更難看。讓彼此冷靜一下，通常是最好的。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Lxi38HZDY
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pxgBrZrTc
所以我想，明天早上再找機會說吧。不是那種正式道歉的說法，而是……一句像「妳今天要直播嗎？」這樣的話。她聽得懂。如果她不再那麼生氣，應該會回我一句。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRNm9wROgo
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBiYEPOSk7
而且昨晚家裡什麼都沒剩，連她最愛的那種奶油草莓泡芙也吃完了。光道歉好像不太夠，得帶點誠意才行。所以我吃完飯沒多久，就出門去便利商店買了一盒，想說隔天早上給她個小驚喜。這樣講話會比較好開口。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLMmlt3dhI
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKaHGe2Fg4
她的氣……應該會消一點吧。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXA7brrYWVT
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqe9ANH8OS
至少我那時候是這麼想的。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLJHI9erDH
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDPmXWBFf2
但隔天早上，我醒來時，家裡靜得有點不太對勁。她沒叫我，也沒準備早餐。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyy1tVv5aea
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTJdhj6DDP
我看了一眼餐桌是空的，鞋櫃少了一雙鞋。她應該早就出門去上學了吧。她在氣的時候也是這樣，不會叫人起床，也不會多說一句話。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGxxPjlHTb
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBiVT1HrnQO
我只是覺得，給她一點空間，會比現在煩她來得好。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbApdueGKCh
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEDX9ckxF2
所以我沒想太多，等她回來，我就會把話講清楚。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4AxKIxPOh
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAkhrqZh7y
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRg6WjZzTIy
我比平常晚一點回到家，大概五點三十左右。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtPEvhp62C
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz992yjys3Y
鞋櫃的樣子和早上一樣。她應該還沒回來。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxOn8BE9jh
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFqC2rBtGT
我換完衣服，走進廚房，開始煮晚餐。就算吵架，她通常也會照常吃，頂多吃得安靜一點，吃完就直接進自己的房間了。我邊煮邊想，該在哪個時間點開那個口。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOicgN5enIB
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Jnz2gOEGF
我打算把那個奶油草莓泡芙放在最顯眼的位置——讓她看到，卻不用立刻回應。如果她還願意理我，我就能順著那個空檔，好好道歉。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXhs0YzNF2
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmCcfQk0xC
飯煮好了，我擺好兩副碗筷，把那個裝著泡芙的小盤子放在她的位置上。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoPp6mBJiv
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72imzouZnm
我坐下來，沒動筷。只是一直聽著玄關那邊，有沒有動靜。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAWN77Vlx9
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5t3E7mVuvw
她要是看到那顆泡芙，應該就會明白。我會等她開口的那一刻。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKI2ttG5Ji8
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VK1RkoTae
……她應該快回來了吧。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡch2yluUJUs
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxX2URB8Eu
她平常這時間早就回來了，晚餐、洗澡、剪片，節奏一向很穩。但今天，什麼聲音都沒有。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0UZ5fBrwx
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2miVQpLEw8
我低頭看了一眼手機——快七點了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDtfSFiYa4
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjH6YHynMb
我開始覺得，有些不對勁。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMwIsUA9Mk
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg376wwylvb
我拿起手機，傳了訊息過去：8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMCZuVpl5s
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQ3IGEEhFe
「妳什麼時候回來？」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJXrZwsswW
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDACcvieGxw
訊息送達了，但她沒讀。我又打了一通電話。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6h8soZG4up
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVb8bXHHRJd
響了幾聲，沒人接。我再撥了一次，還是沒人接。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cHU2pgFQo
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CdUeChjIs
以前就算吵得再兇，晚餐時間她也會出現，至少會說句話。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTJYEvg7Nt
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiCMarwlO8
……還是有可能，她根本沒出門？8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmmT55c4MP
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHN6t6e3mD8
雖然鞋子不見，手機也不接，但也許……她只是躲在房間，不想見我？8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnL30ajDS2v
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWhMlB03bd
我站起來，走到她房門前，敲了兩下。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6QnQaMYMK
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ySBuuB9cU
「安淇？」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fAcdGAZLh
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaukOx0QEmu
沒聲音。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbhoF6Ayo0
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1PDvyG1R3
我又敲了一次，這次力道比剛剛重一點。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkubAYTpHd8
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaS1FQoaxf
「我買了妳喜歡吃的奶油草莓泡芙，晚餐也煮好了。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtTDYSHdA5
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還是沒回應。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUi5j0pWoDd
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhKoOGmUZY
我轉了門把。沒鎖。推開後，房間一片昏暗。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbiv01xjEJ
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0GGFRf77V
我伸手開了燈。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWm9MTFwaXR
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窗簾拉上，床鋪整理得一絲不亂。筆電放在桌上，螢幕是黑的，插頭沒插。她直播用的耳機還插在側邊，線連動都沒動。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2ICTHJQ6v
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFObMfu8NVU
我走過去看了眼收納櫃，門開著一半。那格她平常放直播器材的小袋子，空了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3m4XyPkyU
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjK0iWzV9j
往裡頭一掃——三腳架、外接麥克風、行動電源……全都不見了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tFNDxzzXW
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vVMWzQWo9
我頓了一下，心裡升起一股說不上來的不對勁。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡab4PPVCVOe
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gXHftkyjk
她不是那種會隨便把這些東西全帶出門的人。平常在家直播根本用不到這些，只有外出直播時才會一次全帶。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nFhUhJiSU
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxoEWoAkL9
也就是說——她出門前，早就打算好要帶這些了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIEHPltt1p
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxqX0Dzv9p
她是早上上學時帶走的？不可能……那麼明顯的器材，學校那邊，一定會被看到。還是說……她昨晚就偷偷溜出門了？8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcuXT68yT1
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtpkL66XJH
等等，她——昨晚有回家嗎？8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2Cvi7YWIq
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7SvEWDFDg
我腦中一瞬間像是空了一塊。胃突然像縮起來那樣，冷得發空。幾秒後才發現自己手在抖。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlb739M3th7
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcLdtD26tq
我退了半步，掏出手機，又撥了一次。還是沒接。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HNaNprOz4
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKe6HWh1Xc
一時整個人像是斷了線，愣在原地。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUIiHQhmon
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHVrmmOPYB
她不是那種會臨時計畫外出的人，也從不會什麼都不講就出門。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiXlBqIAKS
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCQovMWvL6
如果真的要外出直播，她一定會說。就算是氣我，平常也會留一張紙條。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5P668IiOuF
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36DXN4CumZ
她不是這樣的人。她從來不是，會讓人找不到的那種。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnvYiznS14
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那她現在去哪了？8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqnvnWCLff
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我腦中突然閃過一個畫面。那段短片裡，那棟廢棄的工廠。
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