晚上回家後，陳冬月一進門就把自己關進房間。
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她沒有打開電視，也沒有回訊息，只是打開台燈，繼續翻著那本已經快被翻爛的數學複習講義。
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房門外傳來媽媽跟鄰居講電話的聲音，笑得很大聲。但她什麼都聽不進去，只覺得自己的腦子像泡在水裡，沉得喘不過氣。
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每天都是一樣的節奏：
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白天在學校背書、抄筆記、狂刷題目。
中午不吃飯也要去問老師問題，晚上回家繼續熬到凌晨才肯睡。
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她像是一台上緊發條的機器，一刻也不敢鬆懈。
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只要一鬆懈，就會想哭。
只要一停下，就會聽到媽媽那句：「你到底在學什麼，考這麼爛？」
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時間就這樣一頁頁地翻過去，像她課本上那些密密麻麻的筆記。
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不知不覺，日曆上的日期已經逼近那個所有人都在倒數的日子——
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段考，到了。
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校園裡的氣氛明顯改變，連平常愛講話的同學都開始靜下來。
走廊貼滿各科重點、圖表、考試須知，教室裡只剩下翻頁聲和嘆氣聲。
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賴夏陽坐在她旁邊，偶爾還是會丟給她一顆糖、偷偷畫張搞笑的便條塞進她筆記本。
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但他說話的次數也越來越少了。
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因為他看得出來——
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她的臉色越來越蒼白，眼神越來越沒有焦距，手寫字的速度慢了，但壓痕卻越來越重。
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就像一根繃到極限的弦。
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隨時都會斷掉。
考場的冷氣開得太強，陳冬月握著筆的手指有些僵。數學考卷攤在桌上，一眼望去，滿滿的文字和公式讓她腦袋發脹。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLj6uKfmuF1
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她深吸一口氣，開始寫。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqZivdTNW0
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前兩題還算順，第三題就開始卡住。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkHrH69Mf7
她咬著筆，腦袋裡的公式像雜訊一樣混亂地打結。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1Q0JC3yeQ
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她不是沒念過，她背了整整三天，可腦袋就是空白。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3Zd3wgIls
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時間一分一秒地過，試卷上的空格越來越多，她的心也越來越慌。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPzgF4AHAq
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考完後，她沒有說話，也沒有問答案，默默收好東西，低著頭走出教室。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRxYfniOY2
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賴夏陽看著她的背影，眉頭緊鎖。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWoBQGDPM5
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兩天後，成績出來了。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllXU62uSEk
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陳冬月拿著那張有些皺的成績單，站在陽光下愣了好久。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbl9aEILqh
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她真的有進步——33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fJRNFZtBI
從原本班排38，進到了第21名。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1WVanEV7h
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對她來說，是拼盡全力的證明。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG13l2vBPq9
她幾乎沒睡覺、沒休息，把每一分每一秒都用來背書。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpCvRzJpOJ
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但她知道——對某些人來說，還是不夠。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVj8SUvBP0
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放學後，曹敏第一個衝過來，笑著抱住她。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTh4eCE4Ii
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「你超棒的啊冬月！這樣的進步超誇張欸！」33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XzbCYY07K
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黃炫承也點頭：「我哥之前補習班有學生進步沒妳多，還被誇爆了。」33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlSLOrS8Xs
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賴夏陽只是輕輕伸出手，摸了摸她的頭。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTQddNPgR3
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「我就說妳可以的，對吧，小月亮？」33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JgAUIb3qN
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她低著頭笑了笑，眼眶卻有點熱。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdqFoLcqib
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她不敢多停留，怕情緒太滿會被看出來。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXN2SrnkgCT
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走回家路上，她一直看著成績單。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEAGct4gWl
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她想像媽媽看到會不會笑一下，會不會少說一句「你怎麼永遠都不夠」。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhYKaTVazl
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一進門，媽媽正坐在餐桌前削水果。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyMvLod5UP
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「回來啦，段考成績呢？」33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXtvkeLKR3
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她小心翼翼地遞上那張紙。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqorCFHo85o
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媽媽只掃了一眼，眉頭便皺了起來。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9B1nWdRHL
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「21名？你之前不是說自己有機會進前十？」33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7S9Hqhvc5n
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她的聲音並不大，但每一個字都像針一樣扎進心裡。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlXiSIJjg0
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「我……我真的有進步很多……」33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iDRVsKfQc
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「有進步？這種成績叫很多？你看看別人家的誰誰誰，段考都第七、第八了。」33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpNuQ0oupN
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「可是我已經很努力了……」33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifbvAOau70
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「努力有用的話，全世界都考第一名了！」33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCLdv2jlrL
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那一刻，所有壓抑的情緒在胸口炸開。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWrj7bMd6V
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「我每天讀到凌晨，我都沒跟朋友出去，我連你叫我吃飯我都沒去吃！你到底有沒有看到我在幹嘛？！」33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiSOL3p8Tk
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媽媽愣了一下，但馬上反駁。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgx2no5yA2
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「你對我大小聲什麼？我是為你好！」33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCz8jAQlgj
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「你從來沒有問過我好不好！」33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7tSQYIdAJ
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那句話一出口，房間突然安靜下來。
媽媽轉過頭不再看她，冷冷地說了一句：33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydXnt4N64n
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「我真的對你很失望。」33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctwagtcC3a
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陳冬月站在原地，手還捏著那張成績單，指節發白。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgaHjX6TOj
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她想哭，卻發現自己早就沒有力氣了。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlT3FKkxDU
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她轉身跑上樓，關上房門，一頭埋進枕頭裡。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiq3UGwwzxp
整個人像崩掉的牆，終於撐不住地垮下來。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5K05ER6lnN
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她想打給曹敏，卻怕說不出話。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4FLfJ5u9G
她想傳訊息給夏陽，卻又一個字都打不出來。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzkngBz2nw
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她只是一直哭，一直哭。33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8c5K56BaeW
心裡只剩下一句話在反覆吶喊——33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhvtQHD6hJ
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「我真的，已經很努力了啊……」
