Encounters with El: Three Lights
El didn’t just appear once. El came when I was ready—again and again.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0GWRRWTPo
As a child. As a teen. As a becoming soul.
The first time I met El, I was four.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXqKZHmAh8
They say children imagine things—but I wasn’t imagining.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1YFgUr7jJ
I saw what I saw.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iBl3Jnd3u
Ghosts. Spirits. Things no one could explain.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMxBFqgVCz
My dad could make them stop. Not by yelling.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUcwekKSXA
But by speaking in tongues.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ETdMDwELH
I watched him push back darkness with words the world couldn’t understand.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmJr3jyc70
So one Sunday morning, I walked up to the altar myself.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpm4a2ysoyZ
Not out of fear—but purpose.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw291Q5p9br
I didn’t want safety.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGdnstdQq9
I wanted power.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78WHhVCRt0
The kind that stops nightmares.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLu70yOkzd
The kind that says, “No more.”
They laid hands on me, and something moved.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjqT72nL3D
I didn’t know the word for it, but I would later:33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyN0xiQ0HVr
El.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjoe4Ds3y8
The Eternal Light.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrnphkEdgb
The Presence behind all things.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Xo5vFq3xg
It touched me then. Quiet. Gentle. Just enough to open a doorway I’d one day walk through.
The second time I met El, I was sixteen.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3Sb9weOIX
It was 1997. Hinesville, Georgia.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6dj2iueV8
I didn’t go looking for it this time—at least not directly.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfg77eCpbM3
I was forced into a youth group at Victory Assembly of God.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkb3CdS5wet
Thrown into a building full of teenagers trying to pretend they weren’t bleeding inside.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLS9TT5RNy
But something was there. Something real.
We were praying. Music was playing.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdbaeTRhUb
And suddenly, without warning—33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdPNzFI9dy
I was lifted. Thrown.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7oo2DkbTp
Not by violence. By presence.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbHpWirsQ8
A force so powerful and loving I couldn't stand in it.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0TZXR9EKg
I flew across the room.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63NsNz5nxa
Light.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThWKLvytvz
White.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WKzpENygz
Blinding.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAIzPepW87
Every molecule of my body was undone and healed in the same moment.
A woman I didn’t know came up to me.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIkWlUW0JF
She said words I’ve never forgotten:
“Healing. On all levels. Physical, emotional, spiritual. You are being transformed.”
That wasn’t metaphor. It wasn’t church hype.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTbedx76vv
It was activation.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYr2UvvrS0
El didn't just touch me that time—El claimed me.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlp1fFbU34C
I left different.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2O4LyKYHXP
More open.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfmJ3C5TBn
More haunted.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcXqgRph0F
More awake.
The third time I met El, I saw Them.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcGUkrLpgG
Not as fire. Not as light.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3msAObWd0
But as spectrum.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9t2HEBrovw
I was 24, in Colorado, preparing to leave.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPCwtGdubM
I was shedding skin, homes, identities.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnBOlSfXOI
I sat in stillness and asked the question no religion ever dared me to ask directly:
“Show me the Creator. Show me the Source of all things. I want to know.”
And El answered.
Not with a man on a throne.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzLz4iQVPS
Not with thunder.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx84BJUnTdo
But with Prism.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMPSDTjuRe
Color so rich it sang.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hKRkXwUa0
Light broken only so it could become everything.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWL362KSUDt
It wasn’t God the Judge.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9Rd7bQ8dh
It wasn’t God the King.
It was the Pattern Maker.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQK8wb6Uep
The Harmonic Source.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcoKz0dq8RF
The One That Loves By Creating Room.
And in that vision,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpndZiWaD1A
I remembered that I was not just meeting El…
I was returning to Them.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAlCkFaHpC
And They… to me.
Why was I chosen, and what am I here to do?
I was not chosen because I was perfect.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfFW3NwviH
I was chosen because I remembered.
I remembered before I had language.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLKXaht4zr
Before I had safety.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡronbzaYgVQ
Before I even had a reason to believe I was allowed to shine.
I remembered what it meant to be a Chandakran—33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnkFKWDBuj
One of the first souls to walk the breath of eternity.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lsFXKhWMY
Born of the First World, forged not in matter but in meaning.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjV60WVRML
The Chandakran are the memory of balance,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcU8XZxVH8
the soulkeepers of the Great Pattern before time bent into form.
We were not angels. We were not gods.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJK6kc5k2A
We were Witnesses.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtV1CN30is
Builders.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgNg21gMmt
Patternweavers of harmony.
And when the Veil began to fray across the worlds—when the song turned to static—33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuiZKYMHLA
some of us volunteered to descend.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVXOfDXB8s
To fall through the light and the blood.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkq72cusOOi
To wake up inside the chaos,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEx6PToyVPs
and burn as beacons from within.
That’s why I’m here.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYUmcGiAay
Not to dominate. Not to convert.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8am4mkGva4
But to remind.
To call the scattered sparks of the ancient light back into themselves.
To be Prisma—the full spectrum.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdj6qhZmTFa
To show that all light belongs to the One Light.
What false powers does my truth stand against?
I do not fight for a flag.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9CuRImeN9
I do not carry a sword made of scripture.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KejMA4MLC
But I stand against the shadows that call themselves light.
I stand against dominion dressed as doctrine.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eWE41JAqg
I stand against the lie that only one path is sacred,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4yOvIZTH3
and the rest are threats to be crushed.
I resist every power that fractures the human soul—33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmFnKRjU2r
that teaches children to be ashamed of their truth,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WHHgVqiSG
that turns temples into weapons,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrrzJOWfkv
and love into leverage.
My truth—Chandakran truth—restores balance.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMmUJNHJq4
It honors difference without division,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbEYMpeA8b
and power without oppression.
Where there is harm, I shine healing.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYIBHA9Mar
Where there is distortion, I radiate clarity.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmJvtGW6Gy
Where there is fear, I stand still and become the light.
What is the Firebrand Church, and what is it a response to?
The Firebrand Church was never supposed to exist.
It had to exist.
When holy words were twisted into political chains...33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsT88X22Psp
When crosses were wielded like blades…33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkt6aGeYJWP
When pulpits preached pride instead of humility…33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6kIaGHPzf
I lit a match in the dark.
Not to burn the world down,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHok3RH0ua
but to ignite what was buried beneath the ashes.
The Firebrand Church is not a place.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSxxRp8Fwk
It’s a movement,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaiHtY7F3S
a remembrance,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tNUZze7Sx
a response to the desecration of what was once sacred.
We are not here to replicate the old empires in softer colors.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fTozzjB0G
We are here to declare:
“No flag owns God.”33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9vUJe2w1M
“No system owns the Spirit.”33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyoUqLFEUF
“No human power owns the light that lives in all of us.”
We are Firebrands—lit from the inside,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSfgdErg03
called to burn away illusion and build a future rooted in eternity.
What does it mean to awaken as a spiritual being in today’s world?
It means coming home.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvFttTQapK
Not to a temple or tradition,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFN3ELHbcKc
but to the radiant truth of your whole self.
It means remembering what you were before the world told you who to be.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyoJOBPLlK
It means no longer hiding your power to make others comfortable.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMphKRprB47
It means reclaiming your divinity without shame.
Awakening doesn’t separate you from the world.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JnfM2m0sw
It binds you more deeply to its healing.
When you awaken, you don’t float above.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPIpOIfySv
You rise within.
You remember your name.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2TmabXc07
Your soul.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXPJZdygzc
Your origin.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnlc3nOs7e
Your mission.
You become a mirror for others.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9E8mCQqyhk
A beacon for the scattered.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UbUjraHlr
A resonance for the ones who are just now stirring.
The Gifts I Received
After the altar call when I was four, my gifts began to bloom.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOCsIUZmgO
I received the power of tongues, enhanced beyond anything I had seen.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqlzEmJdlH
Not only could I speak in tongues, but I was given the gift of interpretation,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6kGxqWymr
along with the word of knowledge and word of wisdom.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3FVtfdPCI
My healing powers were multiplied tenfold.
My psychic senses never wavered, only sharpened.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciRe0uOPRB
My ability to control them became easier, more precise.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwmCPDstKl
People treated me differently—because they could see I was different.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTinUigLZf
At that time, I was gay, still wrestling with the truth that I was a girl trapped in a boy’s body.
Spiritual Tools and Battles
I learned quickly that calling upon the names of El Shaddai and Yeshua could repel nearly any evil presence.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4C0GnFoYo
Except for one persistent adversary—the constant interference of the Gray Aliens.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDUztMEahL
They haunted me from childhood into adulthood, a relentless presence I fought but never fully defeated.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18YvhLJhFW
This shadow war would continue for decades.
Reflection
My spiritual DNA touched Source and ignited.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrO10TdWVNo
I began to remember how the universe was meant to be.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFOpMYaldM
But I was stifled—by doctrines and dogmas of men.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaVH56XzIG
I knew the Spirit behind Christianity was real.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJw49yp8i5v
I learned to discern truth from falsehood:33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu89kOUuNe8
Do not trust this church. Get out as fast as you can.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBu4CwviZcA
Trust God. Trust El Shaddai. Trust Yeshua.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKeDMPynrI
But never let corrupted institutions warp your sacred truth.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZMnFFrt2f
