AMARA pov :
After dropping Mona off at her school, I headed toward my college.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqublPv04ko
It stood tall and wide—an old building with modern patches, alive with chatter and movement.
I entered through the main gate, the cold air brushing past my cheeks as I walked slowly across the ground.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwx9neuN15
Students were scattered all around—laughing, walking in groups, some rushing in panic, some half-asleep.
I watched them quietly.
My steps felt heavy .15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAWrySNi4h
I passed the garden, then the notice board, and finally reached my building.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡer4isIh76J
Inside, the hallway buzzed with voices and footsteps echoing off the walls.
I made my way to my classroom, and just as I reached the door, the bell rang.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFzboDIElR
Sharp. Loud. Piercing the sleepy air.
I walked in with the others, our footsteps soft against the tiled floor.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOn8j5wIUdD
I headed straight to the last bench—near the window, my usual spot.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTk1ez40TfI
Dropped my bag beside me and sat down, pulling out my notebook and pen.
A moment later, our physics teacher walked in, holding her register close to her chest like always.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudWs5pJON4
She was strict, but not unfair.
"Roll call first," she said, flipping the pages.
She started calling out names one by one.
"Amara?" she said, her voice echoing slightly in the quiet room.
"Present," I replied, my voice low but clear.
She nodded and continued.
The moment the attendance ended, she turned to the board and began the lecture—some topic on waves and motion.
I opened my notebook and started taking notes.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLumQtNMYBQ
My handwriting moved across the page almost automatically.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMMbhJCcWf
It was mechanical—like my hands knew what to do even if my mind didn't.
Outside the window, the sun had fully risen, casting soft shadows on the ground.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20oJ6wMqd2
The trees swayed gently, and I found myself staring at the sky instead of the board.
My thoughts drifted, slowly and silently.
What am I doing? Where am I heading?15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRKQImVeyQ
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just passing time, or if time is passing me.
I snapped back for a moment when the teacher raised her voice, emphasizing a formula.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gZRsYnYKD
I scribbled it down, then faded again into my own world.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKJpI63kP3
Thinking... feeling... remembering... and sometimes, just empty.
The lectures came and went like pages turning in a book I wasn't reading.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9UPiJZ72a
Math. Chemistry. English. . Computer.
Each teacher entered, spoke, and left.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXkK5a6atJ
Students laughed, whispered, yawned, scribbled, stared at the clock.
I stayed there.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzcSulGx9r
On the last bench, near the window.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoRDo2qcG7
Listening, learning... and sometimes, just breathing.
"Oh Amara, did you do your homework?"15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OnSFOIXbz
Jessica's voice reached me—my classmate, the girl who always sat one bench ahead.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpTMuoed6e
I looked up and nodded, quietly handing her my notebook.
"Thanks," she smiled.
I just gave a small smile back.
I think... I barely speak in class.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfytkumCof
I barely exist in the noise.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp81QZAiOkb
Sometimes I wonder—do I even have friends?15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7Fdcdm3tk
Maybe I do. Maybe I don't.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIN17hFNaB2
Maybe having people around doesn't mean you're not alone.
And if we sit in a room full of laughter and still feel empty—15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9TTjoEBml
Then what's the point of trying so hard to belong?
The lecture ended. The bell rang again. Another hour faded away.
I walked down to the ground, where life felt louder.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYIwTCKfO6
The boys were playing football, their shouts echoing, chasing the ball like it meant everything.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9IO1A6jgk
The girls stood near the fence, cheering and laughing, waving hands and hair in the cold wind.
I sat on the edge of the grass, arms wrapped around my knees, watching them.
But what was I really watching?
Soon, I wasn't even there anymore.
My thoughts had already taken me somewhere else.
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This world moves fast. Too fast sometimes.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16FoyVwIp9
People talk like they've figured it all out.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXVzn5q06E
How to be happy. How to be successful. How to be strong.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhQKo1Y7ig
But no one tells you what to do when your heart is quiet, and your mind is loud.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMJDnS4wDb
No one teaches you how to sit with your own silence and not be scared of it.
Maybe that's why I like this bench. This space. This moment between everything.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eIoU66mwX
Because here, I'm not pretending. I'm not performing. I'm just... living .. breathing.
The wind picked up slightly.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEHiScZdgQ
I looked at the sky—my old habit—and let myself just exist in that second.
Nothing made sense.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZ6xqqF48A
But for now, I didn't need it to.
god...15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xNOatJESG
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Sometimes I wonder... does the world even notice the quiet ones?15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR60qSnVdVe
The ones who sit at the edge, not trying to join in, not trying to stand out either.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxuTlYkd6DZ
We exist too, don't we? In the background, in the pauses between noise.
I see people laughing, shouting, running, living so loudly.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuugVrfwiY
And I sit here... thinking quietly, feeling loudly.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVvUDCXtj7
Is that still living?
Jessica walked past with her friends. She waved, and I gave a tiny nod.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9K053jPxNd
She was kind.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuPafmkjGN
But kindness doesn't always reach where loneliness lives.
I stayed a little longer. Watching the wind play with the edges of scarves.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfksysjUiK
The way the football kept rolling.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMUpwbsaeg
The way voices blurred into noise
Why does everything feel like it's moving without me?15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrgo0SN2Zc
Like the world is spinning and I'm just... watching from the outside of a glass window.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡue0iK78wPI
I laugh sometimes, I speak when needed. I exist.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8m4ZUKlUsh
But do I live?
Maybe I'm not made for noise. Maybe I was always meant for silence.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0Ve1qCsci
Not sad. Not broken. Just... quiet
The bell rang, sharp and familiar.
Everyone moved quickly—some annoyed, some laughing, some still trying to finish snacks.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAi6P6XCkFI
I stood up slowly, brushed my skirt gently ...
Back inside the building, it was crowded again.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1KpHIiSDi
Voices echoed. Someone ran past. Someone cursed the timetable.
I walked quietly to my next class.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATRdLl4pn1
Same bench. Same corner. Same silence.
The teacher came in and began reading a poem.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaP0YYQs6Kf
Her voice was soft, flowing with words that meant more than what they said.
I opened my notebook.
Wrote the title.
And stared at the page for a moment.
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"It's strange how words written by someone else can sometimes feel like they belong to you.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrCF9OGfAQ
Like they've seen your heart before you did"15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxLRRG0yhx
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soon i was walking to go back __home ...home.__home.
I opened the front door and stepped inside, closing it softly behind me.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nguIFMxKZ
The air was warm. Familiar.
Mona was already home, still in her school uniform, sitting cross-legged on the couch—watching Friends, again.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMX6dNrefqT
The sound of canned laughter filled the room.
"Change your clothes," I said, placing my bag on the table.
She looked back at me with a small smile. "In a minute."
I raised my brow slightly. "You said that yesterday."
"I'll go. Promise," she mumbled, eyes still glued to the screen.
I walked into the kitchen.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13uaDzlU3x
On the fridge, taped neatly, was a small piece of paper.
I leaned in and read it.
"I made rice. Eat it, girls. See ya soon. Bye. Love you. — Mom."
Her handwriting was rushed, like always.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76BGKKC7Vo
I stared at it for a second, then sighed quietly.
"She's at work again?" I asked, turning my head.
Mona nodded from the couch. "Double shift again. I told you yesterday, remember?"
"Right..." I whispered, pulling open the rice pot.
I served myself a small plate and sat at the table, eating slowly.
"You ate already?" I asked, glancing toward Mona.
"Yeah. Right after school. I was starving."
I just nodded. The spoon clinked softly against the plate as I finished my food in silence.
Afterward, I got up, washed my plate and hers too. The water was warm, steam rising gently from the sink.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlFmG61rYn
The kitchen light flickered once, but stayed on.
I dried my hands and walked up to my room.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8kfZc5rRS
Changed out of my uniform.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJtn0gw1eep
Pulled on black pants, a plain white top, and layered my long brown coat over it.
Standing in front of the mirror, I tied my hair again__my vision on the mirror is also tired my almond eyes hollow from inside my face pale..skinny like there is no soul.
Before leaving, I peeked into the living room. Mona had finally changed, now curled up in fresh pajamas with a notebook open beside her.
"I'm going now," I said softly.
She looked up. "Okay. Be careful."
"Lock the door after me, and do your homework. No skipping tonight."
"I know, I know," she said, waving her pencil lazily.
I slipped into my shoes, grabbed my bag, and stepped outside.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7lrZKDw0V
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